(a)

The day after Dao Ji and Dr. Li left, it began to snow heavily in the camp on the northern line.

You lie quietly in the big tent of the Chinese army, watching the snowflakes fluttering outside the tent. You feel that each of them is unusually crystal clear, extraordinarily beautiful, shining with the brilliance of heaven. You know very well that this is the last winter of your life. There's no way you'll see another winter.

There's one thing you didn't expect.

After your master Daoji left the Han army camp on the northern front, he did not return directly to Qingchuan. He made a detour to Yunjing. He came to see me.

(b)

When Daoji entered Yunjing, Liu Shen's messenger was flying out of the city.

Daoji and the messenger passed by at the city gate.

The messenger is there to deliver a message to you.

Liu Shen told you something in the letter that you will definitely be very concerned about: I am pregnant, and I have passed the most dangerous stage, I have been pregnant for more than four months. Liu Shen specially waited for my pregnancy to enter a safe and stable period before telling you the news.

This is my first pregnancy after marrying Liu Shen, and it is also the first pregnancy happy event in Liu Shen's harem.

Liu Shen and the concubine were very happy.

In the first trimester, the fetus grows very healthily and the pregnancy reaction is not too severe. However, I was in a trance. The idea of being pregnant made me feel a kind of hopelessness. This means that, henceforth, there will be no hope of going back to this identity forever.

Because I was so tired from pretending to be a mother all day, I closed my door and stayed in my palace all day in the name of being tired and liking quiet.

I was very surprised when I heard that Raji had come to visit suddenly. I didn't expect his old man to suddenly come from thousands of miles to see me!

I cheered up my listlessness and made an exception to meet him in the inner court.

(c)

The first time I saw Daoji, I was slightly taken aback.

Although it has only been a few years since the first meeting in the Cui family, he looks obviously old, and even when he walked up the long steps, he even felt a little panting, and the kind of ethereal bearing that looked like a person in the gods seemed to have detracted a lot. If I hadn't known in advance that he was Daoji, I wouldn't have recognized him.

Looking at his gray hair and tired expression, I felt a pang of sadness in my heart. Then, I thought about his relationship with you again, and my heart stabbed again.

After the ladies served tea to the guests, I invited Daoji to sit down.

After a few words of greeting, Dao Ji looked at me and said, "Mrs. Jun doesn't look very good." ”

Hearing this, I suddenly couldn't hold back my tears, just like an aggrieved daughter hearing her father's greetings.

(iv)

"I'm from the General. I was there in the barracks on the Northern Front for a month. When I saw him, I also thought of Mrs. Jun, who was also an idler with nothing to do, so I wanted to see if Mrs. Jun was okay. Daoji said.

I said, "This is the life that the general has carefully arranged for me. How can you have a bad time? I'm here with a lot of food and clothes, a lot of pampering, and everything is very good. ”

Dao Ji said, "You haven't exchanged messages for a long time, have you? ”

I said, "There has always been an exchange of news between the king of Han and the great general." ”

Dao Ji looked at me. I think there's something very soft in his eyes.

I said, "Did the general entrust you to this?" ”

Dao Ji shook his head. He said, "I came on my own." ”

(5)

Dao Ji said: "Jinglong, this child, grew up in Qingchuan since he was a child, just like my own son. Now that your father is gone, you are like my own children. I've been thinking a lot lately about how your life would feel if your parents were alive. ”

Dao Ji said, "Does Mrs. Jun remember the first meeting with Poor Dao? At that time, in the courtyard of the Cui family's house, I opened the door and saw you standing in front of me with swollen eyes like walnuts, and I knew how deep your feelings were for him. And what he said when he woke up shows that his feelings for you are just as deep. I thought about it over and over again. I think there are some things that you should know clearly. Don't get him wrong again. ”

Dao Ji said: "At this moment, there should be no more misunderstandings and mustards between you. ”

(f)

So, Dao Ji told me a long story. It starts with your mother's head disease.

He told me how your mother endured the pain and gave birth to you, and then how she became seriously ill, how you were born weak when you were a child, how often you were sick, how your mother worried about you, how she trusted your father.

He told me for the first time that your mother didn't die of illness. She hanged herself.

During your mother's serious illness, the military situation in the area of Cui Jiaji was very unstable, and at that time, Ulindenmu Khan had not yet become the Khan king of the Beji people, and he was the main fierce general who charged into battle, and he led his army to invade Han land several times.

Cui Jiaji often had enemy attacks at that time, and whenever the enemy attacked, his father had to organize resistance, and he had to cover the transfer of old age and illness from women and children in the village.

Your mother is too sick to move, and every transfer is painful, making her feel like life is worse than death.

Once, because we wanted to protect her from Zhuangji to a safe place, my father and she were both caught in the enemy's siege because of slow movement, and it was my father, who was the chief soldier at Yantang Pass at that time, who rushed to the rescue in time to save the husband and wife. This is the first time my father has saved your parents. My father and yours have been friends ever since.

In this perilous encounter, your father was wounded. Your mother is very sorry for that. She felt that she was dragging her husband down. Knowing that she was seriously ill and had no chance of life, she resolved not to drag her husband down any longer.

After the Begi were repelled by my father, my father and she returned home. After she entrusted you to her father again, she hanged herself at the head of the bed in the middle of the night, taking advantage of the exhaustion of the crowd to sleep. By the time your father finds out what happened, her body is completely cold and hard.

Your father wept over the corpse, and was full of grief and blamed himself, feeling that it was his dereliction of duty and his failure to take good care of his wife that such a tragic and unfortunate thing happened.

Looking at her dying in his arms, looking at you crying, my father's heart was shattered.

After burying your mother, my father invited the eminent monks of the Quartet to do the Dharma for her for 7749 days, and swore bitterly at her grave that he would never marry another family in the future, so that she would always be the mistress of the Cui family. The father vowed that he must raise the only son she left behind well, inherit the family business of the Cui family, pass on the lineage, serve the monarchy, and glorify the lintel.