(a)

This miscarriage caused me to suffer a major loss and I was sick for several months.

While I was in bed, one day, my aunt, who had been confined to the yard and had not seen her for a long time, suddenly appeared in my room.

After many days of not seeing each other, we have all changed a lot.

I'm far from what I used to be, and she's not the same person anymore.

For as long as I can remember, my aunt's face has been carefully groomed, shiny and round, and her eyebrows are clear. But now, it seemed that she had not taken care of her image for a long time, and she looked dull in color, with a haggard face, and her forehead and the corners of her eyes were covered with fine wrinkles. The same kind of loving and submissive attitude she had had before had gone with the wind. Her eyes were confused, cold, wary and distant.

I watched her walk into the room, and I sat up as I got used to it.

We looked at each other.

I wondered how she could still look me in the eye without guilt, after all the terrible things that had happened.

My biological mother's sister who was married back then, and the people around my father who doted on her all her life, turned out to be such a woman.

I couldn't help but think that maybe the original kindness and deference were just pretending. That's not really what she thinks inside. She's just trying to suppress her instincts for a long time.

If so, then it's easy to understand Jingyun. A large part of Jingyun's darkness comes from his mother's hidden heart.

My aunt walked into my room. She took off her coat, gave it to the maid, and said to my aunt and uncle and to the left and right in my room, "Go out, all of you." ”

She said: "With so many things happening, I finally got the master's permission to come out and see my daughter. Go away and let our mother and daughter say something to ourselves. ”

The aunt and the maid looked at each other and were a little hesitant.

A contemptuous smile appeared on the aunt's face. She said, "Are you afraid that I will harm her?" I raised her single-handedly. I raised her for fifteen whole years, except that it was not born out of my womb, and what a mother could do for her, I did it for her. If I want to hurt her, why do I have to spend so much hard work in front of me to raise her to such a big age with a handful of and urine? ”

The aunt and maid still hesitated and refused to retreat, but they didn't dare to do anything to the aunt. After all, although she doesn't care anymore, she is still her father's concubine.

I said to my aunt and uncle, and the maids, "Just do as my aunt says, and stand down." Bring a stool for my aunt and ask her to sit. Serve tea to your aunt. ”

The aunt smiled and said, "You see, a mother and daughter are a mother and daughter. No matter what misunderstandings have been, our mother and daughter are still connected after all. ”

(b)

When the servant withdrew and closed the door to the room, the smile on her face froze, and was blown away by a gust of wind.

She said word by word: "Qin'er." One of the things I regret most in my life is that I brought you into this world with my own hands and raised you for fifteen years. If I could choose again, I would cut off your breath before you cried for the first time, and let you go to another world with your birth mother! I won't let you see my son! ”

She said, "I begged my lord many times before I was allowed to come here and see you. The reason why I have to come is that I want to tell you something from my heart clearly. ”

She said: "Regarding this miscarriage, you can deceive the master, but you can't deceive me!" You did it on purpose! You just don't want this child! You are a vicious devil! I have raised you for more than ten years, and in the end, instead of repaying the favor, you will kill my son! Not only are you going to kill my son, you're killing my grandson! You don't even spare your own flesh and blood! ”

She said, "What did my son lose to you?" He just wants you to be the mistress of this house! He's just making you do the same thing that every woman has to do sooner or later! What have you lost? I will kill my children again and again! ”

She said: "Qin'er, although you are as beautiful as a flower, but your heart is like a snake and scorpion, I have never seen such a vicious woman as you!" ”

She said, "Now, you've finally got your wish." You drove away Jingyun, you separated our mother and son and couldn't see each other, you killed Jingyun's child and ruined his only hope! You are so vicious at such a young age, and you will definitely be punished in the future! I want you to be sent to hell and never turn over! ”

She said: "I just want to tell you now that our mother-daughter friendship is over today. I hate you so much right now! It's all your fault! There is no way you can escape. You have to pay for these things! ”

She said, "I want you to die!" The more miserable you die, the better! ”

After she finished speaking, she stood up coldly, opened the door and left, letting in a cool breeze.

I've never told anyone about it.

I never said it to my father, or to you, until my father and you died. You don't know that my aunt came to talk to me about this.

In this way, I broke off with my adoptive mother, and became enemies.

Now, she wants me dead.

Even though I didn't want to take revenge on her, I couldn't forgive her.

Everything has changed, and there is no going back to the way it used to be.

(c)

Later, I became the queen mother of the new dynasty, and when I returned to Yantangguan to live, I sent someone to find the distant relatives where Jingyun lived back then. The parent who took Jingyun in at that time is dead. But his son is still there. Counting, he is Jingyun's distant cousin.

He was very frightened, and when he came to see me, he was lying on the ground, trembling all over, sweating profusely, afraid that I would be angry with his family because of what happened to Jingyun and his aunt.

I told him not to be afraid. I gave him a great sum of money.

I told him that because Jingyun defected to the enemy and destroyed Zhuangji, it was impossible for him to enter the Cui family's family tree again, and his aunt was not qualified to be recorded in the Cui family's family tree as a woman of the Cui family because of her immorality.

I said that no matter what happened later, my aunt and eldest brother took care of and helped my father after all, and also raised me. Now that people have been dead for so long, all kinds of resentment will be left to the wind.

I asked him to use this money to repair a well-dressed mound for my aunt and mother and son, so that the souls of their mother and son can rest together in peace, and in spring and autumn, they will also pay tribute on my behalf. I said, if you can, please enter my aunt and Jingyun into the family tree of my aunt's mother's family.

He thanked him with gratitude, took the reward and left.

Later, I heard from the son I passed on to you that they did repair the clothes of the aunt and the son, and also let them enter the family tree of the aunt's mother's family.

My aunt's family, when I was still alive, lived in fear and caution for decades, and never dared to take the initiative to show my head.

I think they were relieved when I died. Finally, you don't have to worry about disaster falling from the sky.

It can be seen that bad things cannot be done. Because its consequences will be carried out long into the future. Even if the victim will not retaliate.

For me, it's the same. We must be responsible for everything that is wrong. I'm not innocent. There is nothing to complain about the subsequent endings.

If you harbor hatred, you will never be freed. Only forgiveness and tolerance can liberate both parties.