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(a)

I wander through all sorts of dreams in which you appear.

Most of these dreams have actually happened.

I miss these scenes, these moments.

I vaguely remember that you're no longer in this world, but I don't want to wonder why you're still there. I tried to push that doubt away, enjoying the joy of being with you again.

In my heart, there has always been a voice faintly reminding me that this is a dream. I'm in a dream right now.

However, who can prove that the world outside is not a dream.

Just as my mind was entangled in the struggle of nostalgia for the dream or waking up, I suddenly heard a clear gunshot. The gunfire was so close to me that the nearby window panes vibrated and buzzed.

I sat up with a snort, and then found myself sitting in a folding chair for my lunch break.

I rubbed my eyes, and my screams of surprise when I woke up echoed faintly in my ears.

Wendy, my other assistant, knocked on the door outside, and he said, "Sister Xin, can I come in?" ”

I sobered up for a moment, shook off the fog in my head, and returned to this world with offices from various past scenes.

I said, "Come in." ”

Wendy came in with a cup of oolong tea, handed it to me, and said, "Sister Xin, you just fell asleep and dreamed." ”

I took the strong tea and asked Wendy, "What was the sound just now?" Sounds like gunshots? ”

Wendy looked at me in surprise and said, "No sound." Except for hearing your screams, there is no unusual sound. ”

I looked at him in the same amazement and said, "How is that possible! I clearly heard a gunshot, right next to my ear, through my head, towards the window pane behind my head. ”

I said, "This is the voice that woke me up!" ”

Wendy looked at me with concern and said, "Sister Xin, you're too tired these days. ”

I shook my head again and said suspiciously, "Could that be my dream too?" Is it my hallucination? ”

Wendy said, "Why don't I accompany you downstairs to Costa for a bitter coffee?" Perhaps, you will sober up a little. ”

I looked at Wendy suspiciously and said, "Are you sure I need to?" You really didn't hear anything out of the ordinary? ”

Wendy looked at me innocently and said sincerely, "Let's go have a cup of coffee." I really didn't hear the gunshots. This is the writing room, if there were gunshots, do you think it would be so calm outside? ”

His logic is unquestionable.

I sighed, reached for my coat on the back of my chair, and I said, "Okay, go to Costa." Bitter coffee. ”

(b)

Wendy and I took the elevator downstairs to the mall below.

Costa Cafe is at the entrance on the ground floor, and from this location, you need to take a detour to the small half floor and take a walking elevator to get there.

Just as we were about to reach the walking elevator, the phone in my hand rang. I opened the flip cover of my phone and saw Manny's number.

I took Manny's call as I stepped onto the escalator and made my way down the three-story hall.

Amid the noise of the mall district, I heard Manny sobbing over there.

I said, "Manny? Are you crying? Or did I hear it wrong? I'm in the mall and it's noisy here. Is something wrong? ”

Manny choked up over there and said, "He's done, it's all over." It's full of police. ”

I said, "What? What's over? The police? Where are you? ”

Manny held back tears, and his voice became a little clearer.

"It's Kaohsiung," she said. He's dead. He drove to the end of the country road, where he shot himself. ”

"I'm in the company, and now there's a lot of people here, the FBI, the Department of Justice, the police," she said. They're going to seal this place. The company has been suspended. ”

She said, "The company is finished! It's all over! ”

My body suddenly lost control. I slipped on the walking elevator with my legs limp.

Wendy let out a scream behind me. He thought I had slipped.

He hurried down two steps to pull me.

I said, "No." Don't touch me. ”

Wendy was startled by the cold desperation in my voice. He stopped and stood behind me.

I just sat there and followed the elevator down.

The world is rising all around.

I focused all my attention on my breathing.

I said to myself, "Don't be afraid, don't be afraid, don't be afraid, don't be afraid." ”

Manny called me on the other end of the phone. She said, "Are you okay?" What happened to you? Why don't you speak? ”

Sobbs appeared again in her voice.

She cried and said, "God, I don't know what to do right now." ”

I tightened my grip on the phone and said to Manny, "I'll come right over." You wait for me. ”

I didn't really know what I was doing, I didn't know what I was saying, I just reacted instinctively. My mind was completely blank.

Kaohsiung is dead? What does that mean? Am I still in my midday dream, and I haven't woken up?

That gunshot! He shot himself! That gun! The gun studded with a huge diamond!

The logic is too tight. No, it's not a dream.

In a trance, I felt a man's arm supporting me.

I stood up from the steps of the walking ladder. I followed the staircase down to the storefront on the first floor. I saw the sign of Costa and smelled the rich aroma of coffee and baked cakes.

Wendy stood behind me worriedly, and he asked, "Sister Heart?" What happened? Where are you going? ”

I looked at him blankly. I said, "Where to go?" ”

Wendy said, "You just said to the phone that the other party was waiting for you, saying that you would go right away." Where are you going? ”

Where to go? To Kaohsiung, of course! I'm going to see it with my own eyes. I don't believe he's gone. I had to see it with my own eyes to believe it. I'm going to save his company.

These successive thoughts raced through my mind. I was amazed at how logically I could think and reason in such a situation.

I said to Wendy, "I'm going to the United States." Go and help me with the formalities. And airfares. ”

Wendy said, "America? Now? ”

I said, "Now." Immediately. The sooner the better! ”

Wendy was a little flustered because my tone sounded a little hysterical.

He said, "Okay, okay, I'll do it." What to do with coffee? Are you still going? Shall I call someone down to accompany you? ”

I shook my head, and I said, "You can do it." I want to be alone. ”

(c)

Like a puffy cloud, I drifted into Costa's coffee shop.

At this time, there are not many customers in the store.

I felt like I was stepping on the cotton stack with every step, and I could go limp again at any moment.

I sat down in the chair closest to me and mechanically ordered myself the bitterest cup of coffee.

I watched in amazement as many people walked around the mall outside.

I feel like the world has become very strange.

How did I end up here? How could I be alone on this planet? What's the point of all this?

Then, Ann's chubby arms and angelic smiling face came to mind.

I'm a little more sober.

As the waiter brought the coffee and milk jug, he gave me a cautious look and said, "Do you need more tissues?" ”

That's when I realized I was in tears.

I suddenly felt a strong sense of anger.

This liar! Kaohsiung, you big liar! You promised me I wouldn't hurt any life with that shot! You promised me it was just for fun! You told me it was fine!

You didn't say anything to me, you didn't say a word to me and just left!

How can you do that! What the hell have you encountered!

I took the tissue from the waiter and wiped the tears from my face.

In the hazy eyes of tears, I seemed to see Kaohsiung again, with his unique bright smile on his face.

It was as if I saw him sitting across from me and heard him say to me, "One day, you're going to miss me." I won't be like this forever, sitting across from you. ”

I know it's not a dream anymore.

This is not a dream. Kaohsiung, really dead. He'll never be across from me again.

Never.

He, too, is gone.