(a)

That day, sitting in the bar that was open all night, S said to me, "Actually, I didn't smoke before, and my smoking has something to do with him." Pen × fun × Pavilion www. ｂｉｑｕｇｅ。 infoDo you remember one time when you fainted from heat stroke while training in the team? That day, after you came home, I left late, and I saw him sitting alone in the guidance office smoking. As he smoked, he breathed smoke rings into the air one after another. I never knew he smoked. At the time, I thought he was very handsome when he spit out smoke rings, and then I learned to breathe such complex smoke rings for a long time. For this, my dad beat me a lot. ”

After S finished speaking, he spat out a large smoke ring into the air, and then he spit out a small one, and the small smoke ring floated leisurely through the large smoke ring, and when the two smoke rings intertwined, the small smoke ring slowly bloomed like a firework. Before the small smoke ring dispersed, S spat out a third smoke ring, and the smallest smoke ring floated through the intersection of the two smoke rings and then dispersed. S kept exhaling large and small smoke rings, which were intertwined and slowly bloomed with each other, like fireworks in the night sky on the National Day.

BOY at the back of the bar looked straight at it, and he didn't even notice that the wine in the wine glass was spilling and flowing on the countertop.

S said: "This is the smoke ring he spat at that time. ”

We watched in silence as these pale blue smoke rings drifted and dissipated in the dim light of the bar. I said, "These smoke rings must be his mood at the time." ”

S said, "You must have had a fate in your past life. ”

We clinked glasses for the third time.

I said, "For the past life." ”

He said, "For fate." ”

(b)

I don't remember how many drinks we had that night.

We talked, laughed, cried, and drank lots and lots of drinks. Then, in S's drunkenness, we went out for a walk. We walked side by side on empty streets.

S said, "Do you know why I saw you were in a relationship at the time?" That's because I'm in a relationship myself. I fell in love with the class flower in the class next door. But I don't know if she noticed me. I don't know if the mood of always wanting to see her and being good to her is love. So, one time, I asked him around the corner, and he was the only older person I could ask. I can trust him. ”

S said: "I asked him, guidance, what is it like to be in love? How do you know if a feeling is in love? ”

The instructor looked at me, and then he picked up a piece of target paper from the table, and he tore it in half. Then he placed the torn two pieces of paper on the table and put them together. He pointed to the two torn sheets of target paper and said, "That's how it feels." It's the feeling of this half of the paper finding that half of the paper. ”

"The guide said: There are many, many pieces of paper in the world. But only this one can match the other exactly. They fit seamlessly and fit perfectly when they are put together. Anyone can tell that they are originally a piece of paper. ”

"He said: I understand love, that's what it feels like."

S said, "So, I said that you must be the fate of your previous life. Because he must have felt that way about you. Therefore you must have been together once upon a time. You're all in this together. ”

I said, "Yes." We're always looking for each other. It's a pity that the reunion is still so short. ”

S said, "That's how creation makes people." Life is unsatisfactory, nine times out of ten. ”

S asked: "Xinxin, since then, you haven't been to sweep his tomb, have you?" ”

I said, "No." This time, I just wanted to see the guide. But I don't know where his grave is. Do you know the address of the cemetery? After the director died, I didn't have the courage to ask these things again. I was still in the hospital when the memorial service was held for him. When I came back, no one took the initiative to tell me about it, and I didn't have the courage to ask anyone about it. ”

S said, "I know the address of his grave. Every year I go to the festival. If you want to go and see it this time, I can accompany you. He was buried in a certain row of such and such a cemetery. Soon after his death, his father could not withstand the heavy blow, and his condition deteriorated rapidly again, and within a month or two, he passed away with it. Now they are buried there side by side. The director's photo looks very similar to his dad's photo. ”

S said, "After I went last time, I came back and felt sad for a day. Xinxin, after so many years, maybe the guide has been looking forward to you getting out of that sadness and going to see him. ”

I said, "I let him down, I made him wait for so many years." ”

I said, "I'll be going to see him soon after I leave." Not to that cemetery, though. ”

S said, "Every year when I go to the festival, I offer you a bouquet of flowers. You don't contact us or come to the meeting, but I know you'll come to see him someday. You're not knocked out. You just need time to recover from the trauma. ”

I said, "Thank you." He has always lived in my heart. I worship Him in my heart every day. ”

We walked all the way from the bar to the door of the hotel where I was staying. It was almost 5 a.m. The cleaners who sweep the streets are already working.

We stood in front of the hotel and watched as the street lights went out one after another.

I said to S, "The day after tomorrow is a weekend, can you take me to his grave?" ”

S said, "Of course." I'll drive you up in the morning. It's still 40 kilometres from the city. The environment of the cemetery is very nice. ”

S said: "Mentoring is my first idol, and I feel like he is my own brother in my heart. He influenced me a lot more than my dad. Remember how he took the gun? ”

S made a gesture of raising his gun. He looked at the cold air of the early morning, pulled the trigger in an imaginary way, and fired a shot. S now learn you to learn well.

I said to S, "There's something you need to do me a favor." ”

S patted his chest and said, "Old classmate, it's a teammate again, what's the matter, just say it." ”

I said, "Please help me always remember him." Please remember him all the time. ”

I said, "I don't want the world to forget about him like that." I hope that while people forget him, one or two more people will be able to remember him in this world. ”

S said, "That's no problem, I will never forget him until I die." ”

I said, "That's great." Just be my companion. ”

When the last street light goes out on the other side of the street.

I said to S, "Well, we'll see you the day after tomorrow." ”

S said: "Xinxin, for his wishes, you must be happy." ”

I said, "Okay." I will be happy. ”