Chapter Ninety-Four: Self-Blame

You look down at Dr. Sun as he deals with your injuries. You see a small ball of cotton being gently stuffed into the bloody hole left by the arrow when it was pulled out. You watch it turn red and get taken out again.

You grapple with the edge of the bed, enduring the pain. You cough and let out a little bit of blood.

Uncle Ding Youren walks around in front of you. He anxiously asked Dr. Sun, "How is it?" Is the injury serious? ”

Dr. Sun said: "I shot into my lungs, and there was some damage, but fortunately, it was not too deep, and it should be fine." The young boy has a strong physique, and he can recover after a period of recuperation. ”

You cough again. Doctor Sun said: "Young boy, bear with it a little longer, and it will be dealt with soon." ”

Uncle sat down next to you. He said, "As soon as you walked with your front foot, I followed with your back foot." I didn't expect things to be like this. ”

He said, "Why did you save that brute?!" He doesn't deserve your protection at such a price. There is no need to allow yourself to suffer this sin for the sake of such a brute. ”

Uncle looks at your wound again. He sighed and said, "Why can't you hide from it?" Why didn't you dodge? Don't you know the bell jar? ”

You say, "I deliberately didn't hide." ”

Uncle and Dr. Sun were shocked when they heard this. They looked at each other. The uncle said, "Huh? You deliberately didn't hide? ”

You say, "Yes." I could have reached out and grabbed the arrow and didn't let it hit anyone. But I didn't. ”

The uncle said, "Are you crazy?" It could shoot through your lungs! ”

You say, "Even if it's worth it." Not to mention not. Judging from the force, angle and distance of its launch, it doesn't shoot very deep, and I also used some internal force to block it. ”

You say, "If this arrow doesn't knock me down, Qin'er's murderous intent won't be extinguished immediately." Even if she doesn't succeed this time, she will definitely do it again in the future. ”

You say, "There are some things that are hard to fix once they happen. She was too young to understand that the disappearance of every life was connected to many other things. If she kills her eldest brother, it will haunt her for the rest of her life. It will be her deepest pain. Someday, she'll regret it. I can't let her make such a mistake, and I can't let hatred and murderous thoughts keep tormenting her in her heart. ”

Uncle looks at you. He sighed again. He said, "Alas, you child. He shook his head.

You say, "How is Qin'er doing now?" Who's with her? ”

You say, "Before the accident, I went to her small building and saw that her room was covered with blood. ”

Uncle hesitated. You say, "Tell me what the hell is going on." You cough violently again.

The uncle said, "Well, I'll tell you, but don't be in a hurry. ”

You nodded.

"She took poison before she went downstairs, rat poison from the kitchen in the middle of the night, but luckily she didn't find much, and she didn't know how much she needed to take until the end of the operation," said the uncle. ”

You moved. Uncle hurriedly held you down and said, "You promised me that I wouldn't be in a hurry." Your father has already hired another doctor to save her. Although she has not woken up yet, she should not be in danger of her life. Your father is watching over there. But"

You say, "But what?" ”

The uncle said, "However, I didn't expect that beast to be so vicious. Although Qin'er didn't have the ability to resist at the time, his movements were still so rough that he hurt her very badly, tearing all the way from there, all the way to the peritoneum. After she was already bleeding profusely, he deliberately continued for a long time. One can imagine how humiliated and physically and mentally pained Qin'er, who couldn't move at that time. No wonder Qin'er is so determined to kill him immediately! Your father is going mad! ”

"She needed to have a suture surgery deep into her body to recover from such trauma," the uncle said. The doctor has been here for a while. She's probably doing it right now. ”

Your lips are white. You reach out and push the doctor away, and you use your hands to support your body and try to get up. You say, "I'm going to see her." "You cough up blood violently again.

Uncle pressed you again. He said, "You are not a doctor, and if you go, in that case, we are all men, and it is inconvenient for any of us to go in again." Originally, it was difficult for a woman like this to have a male doctor do this kind of surgery. She's had been humiliated enough. She couldn't take it any more, even a little. ”

He said: "I have asked Wu Shun to wait over there, and if the operation does not go well, he will come and report the news." Since he hasn't come over, it's been going well over there so far, so don't worry. ”

The uncle said, "Qin'er is in a coma now. You went, and she couldn't feel you. Even if she is sober, seeing you, she will inevitably have mood swings, which is not conducive to her recovery. ”

You fall on the pillow. You blame yourself and say, "It's all my fault." If I hadn't been in a hurry to get to the water, there would have been no chance of any of this. If I had waited at home for my father to come back before leaving, he would not have the opportunity and guts to do it. ”

You say, "Actually, I know that my eldest brother has been disrespectful to her for a long time. I found out as soon as I got home. However, I felt that I was able to handle this without bothering my father, and I also thought that he would always be the eldest brother. I regret now that I didn't tell my father at the time. I only thought about the brotherly love and my father's feelings for the eldest brother, but I didn't expect that this would increase the danger of Qin'er. ”

Uncle comforted you by saying, "The world is unpredictable, and people's hearts are unpredictable. It's not your fault. There's nothing wrong with your handling. Don't blame yourself too much. ”

As you breathe rapidly, your lungs make a purring sound.

The uncle said distressedly: "The matter has come to this point, and it is useless to say anything." You can help her if you get better yourself. If you are so sad and your wounds get worse, what will happen to your father? Today, when he saw you being shot down, his hair was almost gray. When I met him, he couldn't even speak. ”

The uncle said, "Think of what your father went through this day. All three of you are his children. If something happens to any of you, it's hard for him to accept. Now that it's like this, no matter what the result is, he is the saddest one. He's also getting older. You are the child he cares about the most, and you must be more considerate of him. ”

You listened to your uncle's words and slowly calmed down. You're lying still.

You raise your arms and cover your eyes.

Uncle looks at you. He felt sad in his heart.

He said, "You don't have to think about anything now, just rest well." As long as she wakes up, I promise you that I will let you meet as soon as possible. ”