(a)

Kaohsiung and I sat side by side in the stands of the stadium. Pen × fun × Pavilion www. ｂｉｑｕｇｅ。 ｉｎｆｏ

Kaohsiung said, "You would call me to date me? I was surprised. ”

Kaohsiung looked at his surroundings and said, "This is where you usually go on a date." ”

I said, "Well, there's not a lot of people here, so it's not easy to see." ”

Kaohsiung said, "Why don't I invite you to the hotel?" Have you ever been to the revolving restaurant on the top floor of the Golden Castle Building? We were there to look down over the city. ”

I glanced at him. I said, "Look at this city that is about to be without him?" ”

I said, "I don't want to see a city like this at all." ”

Kaohsiung said, "At least please eat something delicious." Have you ever looked in the mirror? Ever since he said he was going back, you've been like a flower that is about to wither. Every time I see you, you've lost a lot of weight. Look at this face, it's all triangular. ”

I glanced at Kaohsiung.

He immediately said, "I am not good at language, and I am not good at using adjectives. ”

I sighed.

I said, "I want to ask you, what does that CT mean?" How does your mom interpret it? Will he be able to go home on his own? In this case? How much time does he have left? ”

Kaohsiung said, "Do you really want to know? Aren't you afraid? ”

I said, "I want to know." I promised him that I wouldn't be afraid. ”

Kaohsiung said: "These days, you have to persuade him not to let himself exercise and fatigue. His body now resembles an eggshell that has been thrown once, cracked everywhere and ready to crumble at any moment. ”

My tears welled up again. I said, "If we meet, I will definitely persuade him." ”

Kaohsiung said: "If the situation is good, it can hold out for a month or two." Bad words......"

I said, "How?" ”

Kaohsiung said: "At any time." ”

I don't say anything.

Kaohsiung said: "If the internal bleeding from the last situation happens again, it will be ......"

He didn't go on. I didn't ask any further. I know what the result would be if that happened.

(b)

Kaohsiung said: "I said that I would send him back and accompany him on the train all the way, but he insisted that he would not. He had asked me to help borrow the book "Elephant Mound" before. He said that he likes to meet death alone like an elephant. He wanted to leave us far away to complete the final journey. He said he didn't like to die in plain sight if he could. ”

I choked up, "I don't want to lose him." ”

Kaohsiung said: "No one wants to lose someone who makes them feel happy. ”

He said, "He loves you and can't bear to see your heart broken." He doesn't want you to watch him die. He doesn't want you to go through that moment. ”

I said, "If it's inevitable, I want him to go safe." There is no intense pain. If he feels that I am not around and will feel more at ease, then I hope he can get that peace of mind. ”

Kaohsiung said: "He has always been such a calm person. He will definitely walk peacefully. There is no intense pain. ”

I covered my face.

Kaohsiung looked at me.

He said softly: "I, we will all be with you." In the days when you wait for the news, in the days when you wait for the news, I, we will all be with you. ”

I said, "No one can be with me." This is also separate. Only individually. ”

Kaohsiung was silent.

I said, "Brother Kaohsiung." Will all meetings end like this? ”

Kaohsiung replied, "I'm afraid so." It's going to end like this. ”

I said, "He's gone, and I'll never see him again." ”

Kaohsiung looked at me melancholy.

After a while, he said, "The person you really can't see is not him. ”

He said, "It's me." ”

He said, "Even if I sit in front of you at this moment, you will not see me." ”

He said, "Your eyes and heart will always be filled with him." You can't see anything other than him. ”

He said, "Even if I had been with you all my life, you would not have seen me." ”

He said, "I will be like air to you." It's hard to be missing, but it's hard to see either. ”

I looked at Kaohsiung. I was also silent.

"But, it doesn't matter," he said. Heart. ”

He said, "I don't need you to see it." I just hope that when you're struggling to breathe, it will satisfy your need for air and make you feel and empowered again. ”

I looked at Kaohsiung with tears in my eyes.

Kaohsiung said: "This is my fate. When I saw you crying in front of me like this, I knew that this was my destiny. ”

He said: "Between us, it's not that simple. ”

(c)

"Have you booked the ticket that Mr. Chai bought for you?" Director Wang asked.

You nodded. You hand him the ticket.

Director Wang looked at the dates and train numbers on it, and his heart was as heavy as if it was filled with mercury.

He said, "Your face is still so bad, your lips are no longer red." In this way, can you really walk alone? I'll take a leave of absence to see you off. ”

You shake your head. You say, "I can go back on my own, you really don't have to bother." ”

Director Wang said: "How are you feeling these days? Does it still hurt? ”

You say, "Sometimes it's a little better, sometimes it's okay." ”

Director Wang lowered his head for a moment. He said, "The new teacher came to report to me today. ”

You say, "You'll work well together, too." It's like we're all in this together. ”

You say, "He's married, and he can't get into trouble as much as I do, and he won't let you worry about it all the time." ”

Director Wang's eyes turned red. He said, "Nothing." You haven't caused me much trouble. ”

Wang said: "You are irreplaceable. Whether as a friend, or as an assistant. I learned a lot from you. ”

You smile. You say, "Save these praises for me when I give a speech at the memorial service." ”

Wang said, "Don't think about it. You go back and recuperate, you are so young and your body is good, you will recover. ”

You smiled and didn't say anything more.

You feel a sharp pain, and all at once you fall on your stomach on the table.

Director Wang stood up.

He said, "Does it hurt again?" ”

(iv)

Director Wang watched your face recover little by little.

He felt very uncomfortable in his heart. He was trapped in some kind of difficult psychological struggle.

You look at his expression dripping with sweat.

You gasp and say, "Is there something on your mind?" ”

Director Wang hesitated, and he looked at you apologetically. He suddenly asked, "Can you still shoot now?" ”

You are in a cold sweat and panting and say, "Why, suddenly ask this?" ”

Director Wang hesitated for a moment again.

He said, "Well, I'm sorry. In your situation, it's really, really hard for me to say. ”

You say, "It's okay. Please feel free to say what you need me to do. I said earlier that I would do my best to help you until the end. Over the years, you have helped me and taken care of me too much. ”

Director Wang gritted his teeth, hardened his heart and said, "I don't know if you can hold on a little longer, take another class or two days, and leave a few days later, is it okay?" ”

He said: "The train ticket school will help you change it, and you can also buy a soft sleeper near the dining car." ”

He said, "I'm sorry. I really don't want to say that to you. It's Principal Cheng who has repeatedly asked me to ask you. I can't refuse. ”

He said: "Of course, Principal Cheng also explained, if you feel that your body can't hold on, just assume that today's events didn't happen." ”

You say, "You want me to go to class?" ”

You say, "Why?" ”