I don't know when your youth began and ended. However, I know my own.

My youth began when you took my hand on the cliff and rescued me back into this world, and then, it ended on the day Jingyun changed me from a girl to a woman.

It was one of the darkest nights of my life. I hadn't seen any real bad guys in the world before this nightfall. I don't know what it would be like for a person's heart to be darkened. And what pain and hurt this dark heart will bring to others.

That night, I felt soft all over my body and couldn't make a sound. I slid down the pillars to the ground, but instead of falling to the ground, I fell into the arms of a man.

I saw my eldest brother's nervous face shaking in front of my eyes.

I heard him carefully lower his voice and ask, "Qin'er, what's wrong with you?" Are you sick? ”

He shook me and said, "Qin'er, you can speak?" ”

But I couldn't say anything.

Dizzy, I felt him pick me up. Through his clothes, I could hear his heart beating wildly.

I knew something terrible was about to happen. More horrible than all the things he's done to me over the years.

I was terrified. I want to scream. I wanted to rebel against him. I wanted to escape.

However, I couldn't do anything. I was bound by invisible chains.

I couldn't make a sound, I couldn't struggle to be held in his arms and let him lead me to a woman's most unbearable fate.

As he walked briskly down the corridor toward the small back yard of miscellaneous items, I felt myself swirling in a white mist. Everything is like a dream, illusory and distorted.

I was put on the ground by him. I was a little dizzy, but my consciousness was still clear.

I saw a thick blanket spread on the floor. He had already prepared this place. He planned this act with all his heart in mind. He had already had a heart for harming me, but he hated that I didn't notice anything.

I never thought I would be treated like this by my own mother and brother. For more than a decade, I have regarded them as my closest relatives.

What have I done to them, to turn them into demons little by little? Is it because I have a special crush on you?

I now understand my aunt's twists and turns. My aunt knew exactly what would happen when I went out. But she hoped that I could understand that I could believe that her mother's love was not malicious in such a situation.

I felt that the whole world had turned black, and my heart was still desperate except for despair.

Father, and dear you, where are you? Where are you all now? Do you perceive the evil that is happening in your home? Come back soon, come back and save me!

However, it was already too late.

Big brother's kiss rained down on me in the dark. While kissing me constantly, he said to me eagerly, "Qin'er, I like you!" You know? I like you! I've always liked you since I was a kid! ”

He said, "I can't stand you marrying someone else. I can't stand you being with him either. You're mine! You can only be mine! ”

He began to peel off my clothes. He began to untie my crony. Scales stood up all over my body.

I opened his eyes to the sparkling green, and tears poured out like a waterfall. I wish there were a myriad of spikes popping out of my skin all of a sudden, and I don't care what it becomes, as long as I can get him out of the way, as long as I can get him out of the way!

Jingyun reached out to wipe the tears from my eyes, and he continued to peel off my bra and pants while wiping my tears.

He said, "Qin'er, don't cry." I don't want to hurt you. Don't be afraid, I just love you and I won't hurt you. I'll treat you well in the future. Better than the best husband in the world! ”

His hand stroked my body as he murmured, "Sister, you are so beautiful." As beautiful as the goddess in the sky and the moon in the Mid-Autumn Festival. ”

He grabbed my hand and started kissing my fingers. His lips followed my fingers all the way to my cheek. He said, "You smell so good." Every part of your body is filled with fragrance. ”

He said, "I will kiss you everywhere you are." Put my mark on every part of your body. ”

He said, "You are my woman now." No one will ever be able to compete with me for you anymore. ”

He kissed my tears that kept pouring out. He said, "I'm sorry, Jean, I know you don't want to. I knew you liked him. But I'm not harming you, I'm saving you. There's no way you're going to marry him. You'll find out later. You will appreciate my actions today in the future. You will understand that I did this because I loved you. You don't have to wait long to know why you can't marry him. ”

He started touching my thighs. He licked my skin with his tongue along my thighs. I couldn't help but tremble inside. My heart trembled like a sail in a storm.

As he did this, he said, "Qin'er, this kind of thing is actually not as painful as you think. I'll teach you how to enjoy being a woman. ”

When I started to bleed, he fell on top of me and said in a trembling voice, "Sister, you won't be in pain for long." It will soon pass. ”

He clung to my room and said hoarsely, "You're going to be pregnant with my baby tonight." I want you to conceive my baby! ”

I want to kill him! If I could move, if I had anything at hand that could hurt him, I wouldn't hesitate to kill him! This well-dressed beast! He's not my brother at all, he's a well-dressed beast!

I can't stand this shame.

Can't stand such pain.

When he fell heavily on top of me, he suddenly fell on top of me and cried. He wept silently.

He said, "It's over, Jean. Don't hate me. I can't help it. I also want to propose to you in a dignified manner like the son of the Xia Wenhou family. But I didn't have that opportunity at all. ”

"I never lived like a son at home," he said. I've always lived like a dog, a dog who can only be fed by faithfulness! ”

He cried as he forcibly broke my lips.

He said, "Qin'er, my favorite Qin'er. Please kiss me once, for the sake of our fifteen years together. From the day you were born, you saw that I had been working hard for this family. But I got nothing for all my efforts. And he! He's been out there since he was a kid! He hasn't done anything, he doesn't have to do anything, everything here is his! ”

He said with tears in his eyes: "Even you, he won't let go, he wants to take it too." He didn't want to leave me anything. ”

He said, "Is this fair? Is this fair? Is it fair? I always have nothing in my own home! Even you, he will take it away from me! ”

He kept kissing my tears and my lips, and his tears rained down on my face.

He said, "Kiss me, give me a little warmth, give me a little dignity." Don't let me live like an orphan in my own home! ”

While he was doing all this, I was bleeding constantly.

I saw the moonlight and the starry sky outside the window. However, that is no longer the sky we have seen together.