"I don't know how my family celebrates their birthdays." You say, "In the Taoist temple of Cheongcheon, everyone can have a wish when they celebrate their birthday." As long as this wish is legitimate and can be done, everyone will work together to help him realize it, so that his dream can come true. ”

You say, "Qin'er, although this is not a Taoist temple, you can also have a wish." Can you tell me? As long as my father and my brother can do it, we will definitely fulfill your wishes. ”

Say, "You can tell me what your heart wants the most, and tell me that you didn't tell your father because of your concerns." ”

Since you appeared at the door of this incense hall, my heart has been deeply moved in addition to being deeply moved. My eyes were already filled with tears.

How can I be so cared for and dedicated. In this life, what can I do to repay the Cui family for so many years of kindness, to repay you for saving your life again, and for the countless care these days.

"Speaking of which, I have always had a wish, but I have never dared to say it to my father." I say.

"What is it?" You said.

"I know so little about my biological parents. People always say I'm young and don't want to say too much about me. But, however, I want to know everything about them. What kind of people they are and what they look like. What happened back then. What is the situation? If I could know more, at least, I could mentally imagine what they would look like. It's not like now, even if I want to remember, my heart is blank, and there is not even a vague shadow, as if I suddenly appeared from the void. I said, "I've heard early on that my father was killed in this town. And he died in this place. I'm curious to know where he ended up falling. Would love to know what really happened that day. How my father died in battle. I wanted to see where he had fallen last, and I wanted to go there. That was the last place he spent when he left this world. If his father's spirit was still there, he would still be in that place. If I could be there, maybe, he would be able to see me, and he would be able to perceive that he had left a daughter in this world. And I, perhaps, can feel him too. I said, "I'm 14 years old, I'm no longer a child." I've been living in this place for 14 years, and although it's so close, I haven't been able to pay my respects to the place where my father died. "Tears ran down my cheeks. My throat was choked and I couldn't say any more.

You look at me and cry. You say, "Okay." Leave this to me, you don't have to tell your father. Father may be more, he doesn't want you to see things and don't want you to suffer these past hurts. I can understand what you're thinking. I will definitely make this wish come true for you. Soon. ”

I look at you with tears in my eyes. I bowed down again. I said, "Thank you, brother." ”

Before you know it, the night is slowly getting deeper.

I'm looking at you. I said, "Let's go and offer a lamp to Madame." All motherly love is connected to each other. ”

You turn your head to look at me. You say, "Okay." ”

Each of us holds an ever-bright lamp in our hands, on the second hall, side by side facing the portrait of your mother.

After the prayer, we placed the lamps on the offering table below the portrait.

We look at the portraits.

I've been looking at this portrait for years. But it didn't feel as intimate as it does today. It was a portrait that her father had asked someone to draw for her. In the portrait, she is young and beautiful, gorgeously dressed, noble, holding a fan, sitting quietly, with a slight restrained smile on the corner of her mouth. I saw your forehead, your eyes, the contours of your mouth, the bridge of your nose on her face. For the first time in my heart, I felt a strong sense of intimacy with the lady in this portrait. For the first time in my heart, I felt that she was also my mother.

"Everyone said I looked more like my mother." You said.

I said, "yes." Looks a lot like her. ”

You say, "When my mother had me, she was very ill. Everyone persuaded her not to have this child, and when her body is better, she will want it again, if she is pregnant with this child, the burden on her body will be too heavy, and it will be very unfavorable for the development of the disease. However, the mother categorically refused to give up. In the end, she gave birth to me safely. She also traded her life for mine. If it weren't for me, her condition might not have deteriorated so quickly and would not have gone so soon. ”

You say, "This incident, since I was a child, has been torturing me. I often feel that my life is taken from my mother's life. ”

You say, "My father also refused to tell me much about my mother's death." I'm an adult now, though. When I asked others, most of them were hesitant and evaded. It seems that my father ordered it. Come to think of it, when my mother died, she must have suffered so much unbearable pain that my father was so sad that he vowed at the funeral that he would never marry another lady again. ”

You look at the portraits on the walls. You don't talk anymore.

I watched the light of the ever-bright lamp in your eyes. Look at the silhouette of your side face, exactly the same silhouette as your lady.

I don't know what to say that can make you feel a little warmer in your heart.

Jing Yun is always jealous that you are the young master, and jealous of all the honors you have, but he will not know that the pain of life is omnipresent. Even if he is in a position of honor, he can have all the things he covets, and life will still have its heaviness. Jingyun has his own pain that he can't get, but he doesn't have to go through the kind we feel at the moment. Since he was a child, he has always had both parents and enjoyed the most complete family happiness in this family. It's just that he's used to it and doesn't think it's precious. He won't cherish it either.

Heaven is originally fair, and if it gives you a tribulation here, it will inevitably give you another possession somewhere else. The reverse is also true. Feeling that life is unfair is just that we have a narrow vision and can't see the other side of things.

You, at this moment, why don't you envy your eldest brother.

That day, seeing your silence in front of the portrait of my mother, I said to the lady in the portrait in my heart: "Madame, do you see your son?" He's grown up and he's back. He is so good and talented, and in the future, you will definitely be proud of him. I said in my heart, "Madam, I can understand your concern and reluctance for him on your deathbed. I will watch over him for you. I will take care of him and let the heaviness in his heart melt away little by little. Whatever you want to do for him, I will do my best. ”

It was on that day that we made a wish to each other in front of the mothers' spirits, to take care of each other, and to help each other.

We have all found the person in this family who can truly relate to each other and resonate deeply.

In the past, when Jingyun took care of me, I often thought that it was good to have an older brother. However, now I know that with my brother, it turns out that it can be so good, so good.