(a)

After graduating, I have never returned to my alma mater to this day. Pen × fun × Pavilion www. ｂｉｑｕｇｅ。 ｉｎｆｏ

On the map, it was once a place without air and unable to survive.

I rarely even go in the direction of my alma mater.

I was 5 kilometers away from the school gate and I felt like I was on the verge of dying.

I'm always wandering in another city and somewhere else.

I have never had the courage to go back to the place where the past has faded.

Just as all festive weddings are for me, a place without air and without survival.

I have a mental limit. There are places that cannot be breached.

However, due to official business, I was forced to go back to my old training ground. Although it was harder for me. It's just that the duty is there, and you must be present, and you can't shirk it.

The two-story building that used to be the training ground has been demolished. Now, in that location, a huge elevated plaza has been built. On a clear day, a lot of kites will fly high in the sky over there.

The tree with eyes on the side had also been cut down during the construction of the plaza.

The path we walked to the bus station is now a main road for cars.

The city slowly became strange.

There are no traces of the past anymore.

(b)

As you might expect, after graduation, I didn't have the courage to contact Director Wang for a long time.

Even if I met S, I didn't ask him how his life was going afterward. Is he still working at school? Does he still direct the shooting team? Was there still a shooting team in the school later? I didn't even dare to ask any of that.

For fear of touching my sadness, S didn't take the initiative to tell me.

It was a painful time for me.

The world is full of things I don't want to face. They are as ubiquitous as pop songs in every part of everyday life. I endured the pain of Ling Chi every day, but I could only never say a word.

Although I have cut off contact and news with Director Wang since then, I have always been grateful to him in my heart and miss him. I still remember what he said to me before I left school, and I haven't forgotten it.

In fact, during that time, I wrote a lot of postcards to Director Wang, about 100 of them, but none of them were sent to him. On the one hand, because I don't have an address, and on the other hand, I don't know if I can stand the matter of resuming contact.

There are always things in every life that no one can ever say, and even if they do, no one can understand them.

(c)

The following is the content of the postcard I wrote to Director Wang in those days:

- "Today, I checked into the Hilton in Hawaii that had dolphins. Nakamura rented an extended Lincoln and invited us to watch surfing. The beach over there is beautiful. That serene blue color can make people stop their hearts beating all at once. ”

- "Today, we were eating Japanese ramen at a noodle stall on the streets of Tokyo. Colleagues are talking about the future of the company. They are all young and impassioned, as if everyone is sure that there will be a long future. Being young does not mean that the end is nearer. Unfortunately, there are too few people who know this. ”

- "It's my birthday. Family and friends gathered together and had a very pompous meal. But I'm not happy. I can't tell them that I don't want to live at all. I don't want to tell you either, so as not to worry you. The reason why it is written here is because this postcard will not be sent. ”

- "Today, I received a call from my classmates that Mr. Li, the head teacher, had a big birthday on the weekend. I don't know how they got my call. I've never left a phone call for any old friend. They say, just tell you this information, come or not, you decide. I didn't go after that. You know why I didn't go. Haruka wishes the teacher a happy birthday. I remember what you said, she loves me deeply and takes responsibility. I haven't forgotten those teachings. ”

- "Director Wang, what I want to write to you today is: I haven't forgotten him yet. I haven't gotten over the sadness yet. So, I still can't come to see you, I can't contact you. How are you? ”

- "Today, I was visiting Printemps in Paris, and a tour guide surnamed Zhou asked me to try on a dress for his wife. He said that 365 days a year, he always leads groups outside for more than 320 days. Every time he came out to lead the group, he would buy gifts for his wife and thank her for waiting with her youth and life. ”

- "Today, it's raining outside. I didn't go anywhere. I wrote you this card in my room. I'm going to put it away when I'm done. I don't know if there's a chance to send it to you. I just want to keep saying that I can't thank you more and more, that's all. ”

- "Today's Words: Years of Teaching and Help. You watched me grow from a young age. Watch me go through so many things. If everyone has a spiritual father, you are the kindest of them all. ”

- "Today I want to write: Tomorrow I will get married. I knew it was going to be a mistake. However, this is the hope of all. They all wanted me to make this mistake, as if not making it was a big mistake. In order to avoid trouble, let's do what everyone is doing. You should be invited. But if you do, I won't be able to hold on to this mistake. ”

- "Today, I drove with Kaohsiung to the wine region of the south of France. On the way, the buggy broke down, and while we waited for repairs, we sat together in the fields of Provence. The breeze blew, and many small yellow flowers made small waves on the field. Originally, after graduation, I didn't want to see Brother Kaohsiung again. There's a long story to tell as to why we're traveling together now. I can't write this card, so if I have the chance to see you again, I'll tell you more. ”

(iv)

After meeting Mr. Sun Bao at the expo and getting the latest postal address and contact information from him, I hesitated for several days to resume contact with Mr. Wang.

After hesitation, I wrote an email to Kaohsiung about the incident.

His reply came quickly.

He said, "You won't hesitate for long. Because after Mr. Sun Bao goes back, he will definitely tell Director Wang about it. Even if you don't contact Director Wang, he will contact you soon. ”

It seems that it is impossible to continue to escape.

Now, the initial shock and heartache have long passed.

I also want to meet Director Wang.

He has a lot of things about you that I haven't heard of. He's bound to tell me a lot about your past. Everything that has to do with you is, to me, more priceless than the most precious jewel in the world.

So, I no longer hesitated, and I sent all the 100 postcards I had written over the years to Director Wang's new address.

Soon after, I received a reply from Director Wang. He wrote: "Xinxin, you have finally contacted me, and you have finally heard from you again. It's been a long time, and I really miss it. Come and meet us. My hair is gray. ”