(a)

After seeing Kaohsiung's body in the morgue, it took me a few days to recover.

Although I recovered, I felt a deep sense of shame in my heart. After so many years of your death, I can't say that I have recovered completely, but Kaohsiung also passed away, and it only took so much time for me to recover.

- I felt a deep sense of guilt for him.

Driven by uneasiness, I went to the headquarters building in Kaohsiung again, to the floor where Manny was.

Manny came up again, and Manny said to me, "She's coming." She's inside. ”

Manny was talking about Sue.

The law firm also informed me in the morning that Su had finished the questioning and arraignment of the Ministry of Justice and the police station in accordance with the law, and had been released from the arraignment site.

This is to be expected. Because she really doesn't know anything. She knew much less than the investigation department knew.

I looked at the former office in Kaohsiung.

- The seal at the doorway has also been removed. The curtain on the glass window hung low. From the outside, you can't see anything.

Manny said, "She's in there. She came in the morning and stayed inside alone. ”

I said, "The seal on the door has been broken?" ”

Manny said, "Yes. Yesterday they came to dismantle it. In fact, it makes no difference whether it is dismantled or not, everything that can be taken inside has been taken away, even the ventilation pipes, wall panels, ceilings and floors, they have also been removed and turned over to check. ”

I sighed. I said, "How is she?" Can I go in? ”

Manny said, "Well, what else can you do as a wife when this happens suddenly? She's waiting for you, please come in. ”

(c)

Behind a huge desk in Kaohsiung, I saw Sue sitting there alone.

She was dressed in black all over, and her expression was stiff and nervous.

She heard footsteps behind her and turned the chair facing out the window.

She leaned back in her chair and looked at me.

She looked at me blankly and said, "Is that you, Xinxin?" ”

I said, "It's me." ”

"All the people avoided me as if I were the source of the plague," she said. I thought that after you understood the situation, you also went back, and no one will come again in the future. ”

I said, "I won't." I'm just waiting for you. ”

I said, "Although I only got a tourist visa this time, and the entry time is not very long, I want to wait for you to come." I won't leave you alone, at moments like this. ”

Sue said, "I would also like to meet you, maybe, can you tell me, what is going on?" ”

"I don't know almost anything about his business, he won't say anything to me," she said. He knew I wasn't interested, and in fact I didn't understand. ”

"There's nothing left here," she said. They had removed everything, not even his personal belongings. All the documents, and the computers and everything, the police took them. There is nothing here except furniture. I can't find any clues here either. Perhaps, I'll never know why. I guess he went down this path so that no one in the whole world would ever know what was going on. ”

Sue burst out laughing.

"How ridiculous," she said. This man, he's my husband! I have been married to him for so many years and have had three children, but as a wife, I don't even know why he left us like this! What do I say to the kids! When he went out from here, did he ever think about what I was going to say to the children! ”

I said, "Sue." Don't be so upset. Perhaps, he just wanted not to let the trouble affect the children. Perhaps, they don't know anything, that's the best. ”

Sue said, "Only God knows how difficult it is to be this man's wife!" I'm the laughing stock of everyone! Because my husband is dead, and I'm like an idiot, asking what, and not knowing anything! You know, I feel deeply ashamed when they question me like that! I'd rather be his accomplice! ”

"I sat here and watched the tall buildings and the traffic all morning," she said. I've never felt that life is so ridiculous! ”

I said, "Sue." His love for you is genuine. Although he used a special expression. I think he always knew he was doing something dangerous. He had always judged that he didn't have a good ending. He always wants you to keep a safe distance from him, and he always tries to let everyone know that you are estranged and emotionally cold. ”

I said, "But, he knows you'll understand." Everything he does is for your own good. Including his final decision. ”

Su said: "I can only believe it like this." ”

"A few days ago, when he was sitting here, he must have thought about you when he made that decision in his heart," she said. But I don't know, has there been, ever, also thought of me. ”

"I'll never know if he has it or not," she said. ”

I looked at her and deeply felt the sorrow and desolation in her heart.

Su said, "Didn't he say anything to you?" ”

I thought about whether to tell Su that Kaohsiung had set a scheduled email to send before his death. There was no amount of information in it, and it couldn't give Sue any clues she wanted.

I decided not to talk about the email.

I said, "No." I and Manny don't know anything about the inside story, just like you. ”

Sue couldn't help but laugh again.

She said, "But the last ones left here were the three of us, women who didn't know anything. ”

I've heard a lot of stories like this.

The ones who stay until the end are usually women.

- No way. Women are more emotional. There is no man who is so shrewd in calculation.

(iv)

Sue stood up and opened her arms to me.

She said, "Thank you for coming, Xinxin. But why are you so stupid? Everyone is afraid to avoid it, why do you have to come from thousands of miles away? ”

Sue and I hugged each other.

She sobbed over my shoulder.

With tears in my eyes, I gently patted her on the shoulder.

I said, "I can't help but come." I owe him so much. Without Brother Kaohsiung, I wouldn't have everything I have now. In this world, there has been no me for a long time. ”

"I'm going to take him back to England for burial," Sue said. He shouldn't be left here alone. He should come back to us and be buried where we lived, with our children, until they reach adulthood. ”

Su said: "I don't want to put up with it anymore, there are always strange women who come to see him after he dies." ”

I said, "No other woman will come." ”

I said, "What they love is basically money." You are the only one who loves, and it is only him. ”

(5)

I now know why Kaohsiung transferred that half of the house to me: for the convenience of my grave sweeping.

He knew where Sue would bury him if he died suddenly.

He wanted me to visit him often after he died, to help him see how his family was doing, to help him watch his sons grow up, to help him, and to make sure that the family didn't fall into the abyss because of this.

He also wants to see me and Ann from time to time, if he still has a soul somewhere.

This is a wish that he did not explain to me.

He knew that even if he didn't explain, I would be able to understand his thoughts when he died.

From then on, he had already planned his ending.

He was prepared for a long time, and once it happened, he would follow the plan and finish himself off like this, thus ending all the troubles.