(a)

Snowfield. Wu Shun and several little brothers are practicing knife skills.

Dao Ji accompanied his ancestor to step through the snow.

Shizu said, "This snow is so heavy. Qingchuan has not had such a heavy snow in many years. Presumably, it's so cold that the water turns into ice. ”

Dao Ji said, "Yes. Year after year, the days go by so fast. ”

When Wu Shun and the little brothers saw the two division commanders coming over, they stopped practicing and came over to salute.

Daoji said, "Hey, Junko, why are you here alone?" What about Jinglong? ”

Wu Shun pointed over there and said, "He went to meditate under the pine tree by the stream." He wouldn't let me go with him. ”

The ancestor said, "This is really rare. The two of you always seem to be inseparable. It's rare to see you separated. ”

Dao Ji said: "Jinglong seems to have often gone there to meditate alone recently, and Wu Shun has been alone more than once or twice. ”

Shizu said, "Does he go there every day to sit for a long time? ”

"Yes," said Daoji. Sometimes the morning passes and you don't come back when it's dark. ”

Shi Zu said, "How is his health?" ”

Dao Ji said: "The illness comes like a mountain, and the illness goes like a thread, which is much stronger than when I first came back, but when it comes to recovery, I am afraid that it will not be possible to recuperate without a year and a half of peace of mind." ”

(b)

Shizu and Daoji asked Wu Shun and a few children to continue practicing. The master and apprentice continued to walk forward.

Dao Ji said, "Do you want to go and see him?" When he came back this time, he was silent a lot, he didn't like to be with everyone very much, and he was always willing to stay alone, even Wu Shun didn't want to take it with him. Come to think of it, I'm still not in a good mood. ”

Shizu said, "When he meditates, don't bother. He has been like this since he was a child, he doesn't like to share it with others, and he doesn't like others to ask about it, so he is willing to carry it alone. ”

"After coming back for so long, it's time for him to be homesick," Dao Ji said. I used to be young, and I didn't have any memories of my family, but this is home, and I don't have anything to worry about. Now that he has gone back, so many things have happened, it is difficult to have no worries anymore. ”

Shizu said: "Since ancient times, heroes have been sad to pass the beauty pass. How many people can see through life and death, but they can't pass the level of love. ”

Dao Ji said: "The two of them have a deep relationship, and I'm afraid it can't be really broken by simply making a decision." ”

Shizu said: "Dao Ji, you are his master, master master, half master and half father, when Guogong is not by his side, you are his father." You have to explain him a lot, and don't let him keep this in his heart. ”

Dao Ji said, "The disciple obeys. The disciple will talk to him more. Although he can be regarded as able to give up categorically, after all, he has only just passed the year of the weak crown. ”

(c)

You sit alone on a stone under the ancient pine by the stream.

You sit there cross-legged, your spine straight.

You look inside life.

You look at the warmth inside, the depth inside, the strength inside, the flow inside, the wetness inside.

You look at the flames inside, the soil inside, the breeze inside, the forests inside, the rivers inside, the sharp knives inside.

Snowflakes fall from the ancient trees, on your hair, on your shoulders.

You don't know it, and let them land.

(iv)

Dao Ji sits across from you for tea.

Daoji handed you the teacup and said, "It's windy and cold by the stream, drink some ginger tea to warm up." ”

You say, "Thank you Master for the tea." "You hold up the teacup and drink it slowly.

Daoji said: "You have been sitting for so long, your body should be quiet and resting, but I don't know, has your heart also rested quietly?" ”

You stopped. You put down the teacup. You bow your head and say, "Not really." Disciples, their hearts are often very chaotic. ”

You say, "Actually, the disciples don't think about it too much, it's just that those things often come to mind, and then the mind will be chaotic. ”

Dao Ji said: "Everyone has a moment when they can't subdue this chaotic heart. Disturbance is also a state of mind. Since you can't help but be upset, don't be more upset by it. ”

You say, "Shame on the disciple." ”

Daoji said, "Let's have another drink." Look you're still cold. ”

He fills your teacup again.

He said, "What are your plans for the future?" Once you've recovered, where do you go from here? Do you want to go back to the barracks with Huaizhou Mansion? If you want to go back to the barracks, are you going to go back home? ”

You say, "I must go back to the barracks." But at home, I don't know if I should go back again. ”

Dao Ji said, "Your father, uncle, and Qin'er must miss you very much. Aren't you going to see them again? ”

You say, "Watching others suffer and not being able to do anything about it is a pain that is even more unbearable than suffering from it yourself." Should I go back and bring this pain back to my father and Jean? ”

You say, "I don't want to see them suffer like that because of me." Especially Jean. I don't want her to keep her hopeful for an impossible future. My father and eldest brother can be filial piety by my side, I can do my best to be loyal to the country, and we brothers can do our part. ”

Daoji said, "Child. It is good to have a merciful heart. But kindness alone is not enough. You see, the way to overcome suffering is in the process of suffering. Everyone can only learn how to deal with pain from the struggles of facing pain, experiencing pain, enduring pain, and resisting pain. It's like you practice swords, just like you practice swords, if you never attack you, don't let you lose, you will never learn. ”

Daoji said, "Let's not talk about your father. Let's talk about Qin'er. What's the best help for her? It's not about letting her never face pain, it's about helping her gain the ability to face pain. A heart that can still be peaceful and calm in the face of all kinds of hardships and hardships, all kinds of blows and setbacks, and all kinds of love and separation. That's the armor she's going to use for the rest of her life, and it's the weapon she'll be able to use for the rest of her life. ”

Daoji said: "After you get better, you shouldn't continue to avoid her. You should go back. Go and give her, such armor, such weapons. This is true love, true compassion. You should go back and show her how to deal with the pain to be worthy of her father and worthy of you. ”

You listened to Dao Ji's words and bowed your head. You look at the teacup. You put the teacup down. You say, "I'll think about it." ”

(5)

You sit cross-legged again on a stone under the ancient pine.

Fallen pine needles covered the stone face like a soft blanket.

You look at the trunk of that ancient pine.

On the trunk of the tree there is a word written on the bark with a dagger. That's my name.

You face my name, and slowly, there are some tears in your eyes.

You look down and wipe the tears from your eyes.

You say in your heart, "Qin'er, I can't tell you the truth. If I do, you will not leave me, and you will be determined to be with me to the end, to be my widow, and to keep it for me all my life. But I can't marry you, and I can't give you children. I can't give you anything but helpless parting. I don't want you to spend your life alone. I can only snub you, I can only make you sad, I can only make you feel that I have changed my mind about you, and you are willing to leave me. ”

"I can only make you sad. You can accept to leave me. ”

"But the last thing I want to do is make you sad."

Your tears welled up again.

You say in your heart, "Qin'er, although I can't be with you anymore, I will still fulfill my promise to you." I will give you a good home, and I will let you live a life of honor and stability in the era of peace. ”

You say in your heart, "I hope you will live peacefully and happily in a world without me." ”

You say in your heart; "I don't want to leave you at all. However, this is our fate. You have to be brave. Be courageous. Don't get depressed and give up. ”

"Jean. I bless you. ”