(a)

When you put the thermos cup down, you see that I handed you my cup as well. Pen "Fun" Pavilion www.biquge.info

I've helped you unscrew the lid.

I said, "This cup is also new, and the inside is brewed milk tea, which is also warm." ”

You take the cup, you look at me again, and you say again, "Thank you." "And then you drink it all over again.

I stood up and took two empty cups from you, and I walked over to the side table on the living room couch, and you saw a thermos there. I filled two cups of warm water again.

You want to come over, but your body protests strongly.

I quickly stopped you with my eyes.

I returned to the fire with two cups. We each sat in front of the fireplace with our own cups in our hands. We listened to the sound of chopping wood burning.

I said, "I boiled a jug of water for you and filled two bottles." One bottle is here, and the other bottle is at the door of your room, for you to wake up at night and drink. ”

You feel a warm current pass through you. You looked at me and called softly, "Qin'er." ”

I whispered, "Don't call it that." Maybe you haven't slept yet. ”

(b)

I said, "You went up the mountain?" ”

You say, "How do you know?" ”

I said, "Look at your shoes." ”

You say, "Hmm." ”

I said, "Going alone?" ”

You say, "Yes." ”

I said, "That's too dangerous!" ”

You say, "It's okay, I've climbed this mountain a few times before." When I came here to contact the training camp. The route is familiar to me, there is nothing dangerous. ”

I said, "Why are you going to climb the mountain?" Can't even wait for the training to end? ”

You say, "When training is over, it's getting dark." At night, I have to stay at the base above, and I can't get down. I don't want to delay tomorrow's work. ”

You say, "All of a sudden, I just want to go a little higher, a little colder." ”

I bowed my head and said nothing.

You look at me, and your tone is gentle.

You say, "I'm sorry I didn't say a word to you." You're worried about me. ”

You say, "Xinxin, you see, I'm all back, and I'm not in danger." ”

I see the fire dancing in the depths of your eyes.

I said, "You haven't had dinner yet, have you?" ”

You shake your head and say, "I'm tired and don't want to eat." ”

I said, "I'm tired." ”

You nodded. You say, "I've never felt so tired when I climbed to 6,400 meters before." ”

I said, "Eat as much as you want." It's so cold at night, it's uncomfortable to be hungry. ”

I said, "Wait." ”

You watched me get up from the fire and run to my room.

I took a step and felt some noise on the floor.

So I took off my shoes and crept through the living room with my bare socks on.

(c)

You're holding a round, plastic insulated lunch box and eating with a spoon.

I used a stainless steel cup to warm up the old ginger sliced soup by the fireplace.

I said, "Drink some soup?" ”

You say, "Where did you get the soup?" ”

I said, "I brought it back from the cafeteria at dinner." ”

I said, "I saw that you didn't go to dinner, I'm afraid you missed it when you came back, and there are no shops around here." ”

I said, "I wrapped it in a cotton pad and hid it in a quilt and put two hot water bottles to keep it warm." ”

I said, "Is there enough food?" ”

You say, "That's enough." ”

You're eating with your lunch box, and your hands are shaking slightly.

I'll hand you the soup in the stainless steel cup. I said, "It's hot enough now."

You say, "Thank you." ”

You take a sip of the hot soup, and your heart is warm.

You restrain yourself from looking me in the eye.

You know, that bit of boiling in my heart, even if the whole glacier melts inside, it can't be cooled.

(iv)

"Guide," I said, "Happy birthday." ”

You are surprised and say, "What? ”

I said, "Happy birthday." ”

That was the first time I said happy birthday to you, and the last time. Because, that's your last birthday.

Compared with the vastness of separation, the sweeter the gathering, the more ephemeral it is like a meteor streaking across the sky. It's gone in an instant. Can't be retained.

Life is unsatisfactory, nine times out of ten. It's always like this. It's always been that way.

We faced the red light of the fireplace and listened to the wind howling outside the wooden house.

You look at me. You say, "How do you know?" How do I know it's my birthday? The date on my ID is not accurate. I don't remember saying this date to anyone. ”

I said, "From what you see in your heart." ”

You say, "What do you think?" ”

I said, "Just watching you drink water, it comes to me." Because you think it's my birthday, it comes to me. ”

You say, "So what's going on in my mind right now?" ”

I said, "I'm thinking of a name." ”

Your eyebrows move slightly. You look at the carpet. You look at the firewood burning in the fireplace. You look at me. The red light reflected my eyes.

You say, "What's the name?" ”

I said, "Jean." ”

I said, "You're thinking about the name Qin'er." ”

I said, "You were just thinking, today is my birthday." Then you think of the name Jean. You're thinking, she's the reason why I'm here. ”

You look at me. You don't speak.

We looked at the flames dancing in the fireplace again.

On the plateau, ancient winds blow waves in the forests that are millions of years old.

Long.

You say, "That's right." Today is my birthday. ”

Again, you say, "Thank you." ”

(5)

"What else do you see?" You ask.

I said, "You're thinking about the red-clothed monk you saw when you were in Qinghai before. He has a very kind face in your heart, and he always has a warm smile on the corner of his mouth. You're thinking about what he said to you. ”

You say, "What?" ”

I said, "I don't see that." It's like a storm on a lake, and the water becomes messy, and I can't see the content of this sentence. ”

You say, "Then I'll tell you." He told me that at the end of this birthday of the year, I would be with someone. ”

"Jean?" I say.

You say, "Yes." He said to me that I would be with her, at the end of this birthday. ”

"Is that now?" I say.

You say, "Right now." ”

We looked at each other. It was an unspeakable moment.

"How can I know what's on your mind?" I say.

You say, "Because, you are her." ”

Tears welled up in my eyes, and my heart ached like I had been cut by a sharp knife.

"But why can't you see that sentence?" I say.

You say, "Because it has messed up our hearts." In our hearts, there were waves. ”

(f)

"Did you like mountaineering before?" I asked.

You say, "Yes." Ever since I discovered my fear of heights as a child, I've always enjoyed trying out any activity that requires me to climb to heights. Even my parents never knew that I was afraid of heights. Everyone has fear in their hearts. However, we don't have to be so cowardly and controlled by it. I like to stand on the highest point of the mountain. I stood there just to tell fear that it had no power. ”

I'm looking at you. I feel uplifted and ashamed. In the face of the same fear, our attitudes, the gap is so big.

"So, guide, do you know the reason for your fear of heights?" I say.

"Yes." You say, "I fell from a great place and was broken to pieces." ”

"So, have I ever fallen from a great place and been crushed?" I say.

You look at me. You say, "Maybe there was such a fright before." ”

Say, "If I were here, I wouldn't let you fall like that." ”

Tears rolled down my cheeks. I said, "Neither will I." I said, "I won't let you fall into the abyss of darkness again." ”

You look at me. You say, "Is this a birthday present today?" ”

I said, "Yes." It's a promise. A lifetime commitment. ”

You look at me. You say, "Jean." ”

A shiver passed me.

You say, "If you have the power to save me, you will also have the power to save all life from the abyss." ”

Say, "When we have that power, we should go to the abyss and save all those who are devoured." ”

I nodded. I said, "Hmm. ”

Later, I learned that what the monk said to you was not exactly what you told me.

The words he said to you were: At the end of your last birthday in this life, you will be with her. (To be continued.) )