(a)

Liu Shen looked at me with tears streaming down his face.

He said, "Qin'er, don't cry. Crying in confinement, your eyes will be bad when you are old. ”

Liu Shen said: "Look, our son, he wants you to hug it." ”

I was helped up and leaned limply on the pillow.

I held the baby carefully in my arms, as if I were carrying the most precious treasure in the world.

He immediately stopped crying, pursed his lips, and yawned slightly.

Every person who died, they were once held in their mother's arms so carefully.

"It's really a mother-son connection." Liu Shen said: "As soon as you hug him, he won't cry." ”

(b)

I felt the world spin around, and then my eyes went black and my arms became weak.

"Quick, let's take the baby away and nurse it first." Liu Shen hurriedly said to the nurse and the palace people.

He said to me, "Qin'er, let's see him later, you just went through that torture, you need to rest more." Our family still has a long time to enjoy the joy of family. ”

Liu Shen said to the palace people: "You all step back first, let the queen rest quietly for a while." ”

All the people withdrew. Only Liu Shen and I were the only ones left in the room.

We looked at each other as husband and wife.

I looked at Liu Shen. My voice fluttered and said weakly, "King Han." ”

Liu Shen said: "Qin'er, I'm here." ”

I said weakly, "Come closer to me." ”

Liu Shen said: "Okay. ”

He leaned over my cheek.

I said, "Come closer." ”

Liu Shen said: "Okay. ”

He leaned down a little more. I felt the heat coming from his cheeks.

I said, "Pick me up." ”

Liu Shen said: "Okay. ”

He hugged me.

I stretched out my soft, sore arm, and I gently hooked his neck.

Our eyes were so close to each other that we could feel each other's eyelashes flickering.

Liu Shen felt something. His voice trembled.

He said, "Jean." "His arm was strengthened, and he held me closer to his chest.

With the strength of his grip, I lifted my head up a little harder.

My lips touched his.

I found his lips and I printed a moist kiss on them.

Liu Shen's whole body trembled. A violent shudder rolled through his body in an instant.

He said, "You." You're in, you've just been there, kissing me on your own initiative? ”

I don't speak. I answered him with a second, more affectionate kiss.

Liu Shen trembled and said, "You kissed me yourself." I didn't ask you. I didn't, I didn't take the initiative. ”

I said, "Yes." King Han. ”

Liu Shen said: "You kissed me voluntarily? Kissed me on your own initiative? ”

I looked at him and I said, "Yes." King Han. ”

Liu Shen said: "Are you free? ”

I said, "Free." ”

Liu Shen's tears welled up all of a sudden.

He was at a loss. He reached out and covered his eyes. He buried his head in the palm of his hand.

"Finally. Jean. You finally kissed me willingly. He said.

That's in this life. For the first time, I took the initiative and volunteered to kiss Liu Shen.

It was from that kiss that I really became Liu Shen's wife.

Although you are still engraved in my heart, from that moment on, Liu Shen and I have become a loving couple who really depend on each other and love each other.

I finally accepted the arrangement of fate.

(c)

That day, after the affectionate kiss of our couple,

I said to Liu Shen, "King Han." That armor. I said, "I took it off." ”

Death will eventually take off all armor.

Selfless love can also take off it.

We must let go of our own pain in order to love others and make others feel our love and warmth.

(iv)

From that day on, I didn't know if I was in love with Liu Shen.

I don't know if he got my love.

However, he must have received the affection and tenderness that I felt as a wife.

My affectionate kiss of the day. It was deeply engraved in Liu Shen's life and left an indelible impression on him.

Afterward. When we were all getting older, Liu Shen talked about his inner feelings more than once.

Once, when he sat and drank tea in my Zhaoyang Palace, and reminisced with me about the past, he once said to me; "When a man reaches old age, he has gone through many years of indoctrination and torture. will understand that, in fact, many things that have made them miserable are also precious. ”

He said, "Jean, just like you." I will never have an unforgettable love in my life, but you have always accompanied me, followed me, walked through all the joys and pains, glory and humiliation, peace and hardships, lived and died with me, and shared my destiny. It takes a soft and warm heart to have the strength to do this. ”

Liu Shen said: "Every time I hear you affectionately call me King Han, I remind myself that by my side, in my life, in fact, there is always a true companionship. This kind of true affection comes from a kind heart, deep compassion for the pain of life. Compared with love, it is not possessive, but not exclusive, but without thorns and flames. It is serene and deep, clean and clear. ”

When I was old, Liu Shen said to me: "When I was young, I only liked those dazzling things, but I didn't know how to cherish them, which was plain and unpretentious." ”

He said: "I often think of the day the prince was born, you asked me to pick you up, and you were in my arms, so weak, so pale, so angry looking at me. You say let me come closer, closer, and then, you imprint your lips on my lips, and you kiss me. ”

He said: "I never told you how shocked I was at that moment. All the barriers in my heart were torn down by you at that moment. From my father's proclamation of a new queen, the proclamation of my brother as his successor, the proclamation of my brother as a traitor, and the pursuit of my army after me. From the moment when countless arrows flew past me, all the barriers, all the ravines, all the castles and fortresses that I had built in my heart were gently toppled down by this kiss of yours. ”

He said, "If there is any nectar in this world." It can nourish all dry hearts, and your kiss is such nectar. ”

He said: "Its moisturizing instantly penetrated into the deepest part of my heart. In an instant, the desert became Jiangnan, and the sword became a flower. ”

He said: "Qin'er, you don't know, you gave me too much at that moment. Too much. So much so that I can never forget that moment of life was complete, full, abundant and clear. ”

He said: "Later, I have always been grateful for this kiss from you. You have taught me in this kiss that because of the sacrifice that love cannot do, because of compassion and gratitude, you can give without hesitation. ”

Liu Shen said: "So, I'm now. As I get closer and closer to death, I want to hear you call me by the name of the past. Remind me to look back on the path I've traveled in this life, and remind me to remember what I've learned in this life. ”

He said: "The deep compassion for all life is the deepest love that a man can give, the deepest love that a king can leave to the world behind him." The best gift. ”

Liu Shen said: "Among all the women in my life, only you can understand what I am talking about now." You're the only one who spoke to me from the first time. I can understand, I want to say it but can't say it, I can't say it, I don't know how to say it. ”

(5)

Speaking of which, my dear children. Have you all kissed your loved ones?

When you kiss someone you love, are you 100% physically and mentally present in the kiss?

Have you ever kissed someone you love with all your soul, all your heart, all your emotions, all your sincerity?

If you have kissed her or him like this, if you have kissed her or said to her or to him with such a kiss: "My dear, at this moment, I am all there, all of my heart for you." ”

If you have confessed with your actions in this way, then this kiss of yours is enough to penetrate into the foundation of each other's lives, and you will have enough power to change the trajectory of each other's lives forever.

I know that many of you, never.

You've kissed children countless times, you've kissed countless women, but you've never kissed anyone else in the world like that.

You never have.

(f)

Soon after the full moon, I returned to the warm pavilion.

In the dead of night, when the prince is asleep, I will go into the pavilion by myself as before, and sit there cross-legged according to the meditation method you have taught me, and no one will disturb me.

The chief chamberlain of Zhaoyang Palace quietly reported this new situation to Liu Shen.

When Liu Shen heard this, he ordered someone to come and call him immediately after I entered the warm pavilion.

The door to the warm pavilion was pushed open from the outside again.

I opened my eyes. Once again, I saw Liu Shen appear at the door. I sat and bowed to him.

"They told me that you're often locked up here alone again now," he said. “

I said, "Yes." "What are you doing here alone?" Liu Shen asked.

I said, "Nothing was done." Just sit quietly for a while. “

Liu Shen said, "Do you mind if I sit with you for a while?" “

I said, "King Han, please take a seat." “

Liu Shen sat down at the table in front of me. Not so long ago, it was you sitting in that seat.

I closed my eyes again, and I couldn't look at Liu Shen anymore.

Liu Shen said: "Is it important for you to sit like this? “

I said, "It's important." When I close my eyes and don't look at the world, I see myself more clearly. “

Liu Shen said, "Oh? What do you see in yourself? ”

I said, "Why don't you try it for yourself?" ”

Liu Shen closed his eyes and sat there for a while. He opened his eyes. "I didn't see anything, it was pitch black," he said. ”

I said, "Didn't the king of Han see it?" ”

Liu Shen was puzzled: "What do you see?" ”

I said, "I saw it pitch black." ”

I said, "That's the darkness in our hearts." ”

Liu Shen looked at me. His lips moved, but he didn't speak.

I said, "But we're not sitting here to look at the darkness of our hearts. ”

Liu Shen asked, "So, what do you want to see?" ”

I said, "Look at the light." Look at the light that can see the darkness in your heart. ”

I said, "The darkness of the heart, it is the light of the heart." ”

I said, "When I sit here and see the light in my heart through the darkness in front of me, I will understand that the darkness in life, in fact, is the light in life. ”

I said, "So, sitting like this, for me, is very important. ”

In the face of you, when I sit quietly, I can always see through the deepest darkness of life and see the inherent light of life.

That's why I spend a lot of time in this warm house.

I'm going to train here until one day, as far as I can see, there's nothing that isn't light.

That day, Liu Shen accompanied me in the warm pavilion and sat silently for a while, and then he got up and left.

Since then, he has never asked me about sitting alone in the Warm Pavilion.

He knew that I had begun to find the solution to that inner pain, and I was working hard to get out of that grief. (To be continued.) )