(a)

The light was bright and dark, dark and bright.

I weave my way through the door between life and death. Sometimes I've fallen into death, but all of a sudden, I'm pulled back by some force.

I don't remember who I am, and I don't know what's going on. I just felt an unbearable pain crushing all my nerves repeatedly. I just want to get rid of it and crush me.

Liu Shen shook me vigorously as if I were a dangling puppet in his hand.

He slapped me hard in the face. He called out to me.

He said, "Qin'er, be sober, you have to hold on a little longer no matter what!" Let's try again. Let's try again! Remember, you promised him a long life. I know you promised him a long life! You can't let down the people you promised. You have to work hard to deliver on your promises! ”

(b)

I was shaken by him to the point of darkness.

I'm in so much pain that I don't want to live for a second.

It dawned on me that I was calling your name out loud.

I don't want to mention your name. I want to lock it in my heart forever. I don't want to talk about you to anyone. But I don't know why I'm shouting your name.

Not only did I scream, but I also cried. I cried out loud and screaming your name with all my might.

I screamed your name one after another, in a miserable and sad voice.

My consciousness was resisting such a thing, but I didn't have the strength, the strength to stop it from happening.

But that's okay.

It's okay to keep shouting your name before you die.

For the love between us, I was silent all my life. I can't say anything to anyone.

Now, you're dead. I'm going to die, too. Everything can be over.

After you die, I don't really want to live anymore at all.

(c)

Just as I was thinking about these thoughts in a daze, I heard Liu Shen say to me, "It's okay, Qin'er. Whatever you want, just shout. If there is anyone who can give you strength, no matter who it is, if he can give you strength. Let yourself endure it, hold on, and think about him with all your might. You don't have to worry about anything, don't worry about anything, that's all, think about him with all your might. No matter how painful it is, I think about him with all my might. ”

"When you think about him with all your might, you don't feel so much pain," he said. ”

My tears flowed down like a torrential rain.

(iv)

In the last few hours of labor, I was in great pain.

When the baby's feet begin to be delivered. I was bleeding as she reached out and grabbed the baby and dragged him out of my cracked bones, which had been shattered several times.

I'm calling your name one by one.

I'm struggling and weeping in pain as I call your name.

I call your name as if it were the only plank floating on the surface of the water in the turbid waves.

Regardless of everyone's persuasion, Liu Shen personally went to my delivery bed, and he sat behind me and held me tightly in his arms.

He wrapped his arms around my waist and held my hands tightly.

I was dying and screaming in intense pain. I scratched his arms and cheeks, leaving dozens of nail marks there.

But no matter how hard I struggled, he didn't let me go.

He has been holding me tightly and fighting with me on the edge of life and death.

Every time I was on the verge of confusion and wanted to give up because of severe pain and exhaustion. I could hear him whispering in my ear.

He said, "Qin'er, we have been holding on for so long, and now the child is about to come out!" If you give up your efforts, if you die, then his sacrifice will be in vain! ”

He said, "His Heroic Spirit will hear you." He will bless you in heaven. He won't let death take you away so soon! So. You have to think about him with all your might! With my whole life, I thought about him desperately! ”

In fact, that's what I've done for the long years of my life. When I feel unbearable pain, I think of you with all my might. So the vicissitudes of life have come through in this way. That's it, came over.

At the moment when I felt that I was about to die, I heard Liu Shen say, "Don't give up, Qin'er!" Treat it as if this were his child! You should be giving birth to his child for him! ”

At the sound of Liu Shen's words, I used all my strength to push downward, and in the pain of the sky and the earth cracking, I let out a high-decibel scream that lasted for two minutes and pierced the entire royal city.

When my cry fell, the baby in my womb was successfully dragged out of my birth canal by Wen Po, and was born at this time with a loud cry in a bloody stain.

I gave birth to the future emperor of the country.

Both the baby and I managed to stay alive.

Liu Shen is a father.

We're parents.

(5)

When my eldest son, a healthy white and fat baby boy, was finally cleaned up and handed to Liu Shen in pink and tender, Liu Shen's whole body trembled and tears flowed all over his eyes.

Liu Shen hugged him excitedly, knelt beside me, and cried uncontrollably and hysterically.

It was the only time in his life that I had seen him cry like this.

What are all these tears shed for in life?

It's flowing for something.

(f)

From that day on, there were no more secrets between me and Liu Shen, and we needed to hide them from each other.

Without Liu Shen's magnanimity and benevolence, neither mother nor son would have survived.

Charity is more important than love.

(g)

I opened my eyes. I saw Liu Shen sitting on the edge of my bed with tears on his face, looking down at the swaddling clothes in his arms, and there was a wrinkled little guy in the swaddling clothes, who was constantly squeezing his eyebrows and eyes, revealing all kinds of expressions that wanted to cry.

I said weakly, "King Han." ”

Liu Shen looked up, and he saw my eyes. He looked me in the eye.

He said, "Qin'er, you have given birth to a son for this country. Qin'er, you gave me a beautiful and healthy son. ”

"Jean. You see. Liu Shen said excitedly: "This is your son." Our first son. ”

Liu Shen brought the face of the little baby wrapped in swaddling clothes to me.

Liu Shen said: "You see, he looks much like you. Look at his big eyes, which are almost exactly like yours. ”

Liu Shen said: "Thank you, Qin'er, thank you for enduring such a long period of pain, thank you, with your life, gave birth to such a lovely son for me, and laid the foundation for the peace and eternity of the new dynasty." ”

As the baby approached me, it suddenly burst into tears. He clenched his little fists, grinned, and cried milkily. His little fists moved up and down.

My tears flowed out of my eyes at once. My tears poured down like a torrential rain. (To be continued.) )