(a)

You use the hand that is not in the infusion, holding the water cup with difficulty. Pen % fun % Pavilion www.biquge.info

Seeing that your hands have no strength at all, I hurried to help you hold the cup tightly.

You slowly tilt the glass over.

A small stream of water poured onto the long leaf in the center of the pot.

You've been watering that leaf.

I said, "That's enough." Let's pour it on the side. The leaves next to him are also thirsty. They're dying, too. ”

You look tired and in pain.

You can't make the cup tilt any further.

I took the cup with a twisted heart.

I poured the rest of the water evenly over the remaining leaves.

Moistened by the water, the plant now looks a little bit more alive.

You lean back on the pillow and you watch me do it.

You gather your strength to speak to me in longer sentences.

You build up your strength for a while, and then you say, "All life, their desires, are the same." ”

You say, "Like, all the leaves, they crave moisture, so all the people on this floor, too, crave to leave pain and weakness." We cannot, just moisturize one of these leaves, and nothing else. ”

You say, "So, don't, just care about my pain and nothing else." ”

You say, "This floor, they're all in pain, too." You don't, ignore it. ”

(b)

Treat any suffering of others as your own, and develop a heart of compassion and protection. When will I be able to reach this state?

You're hit by sickness, and it's all happening to you. Why do I feel intense psychological pain, or even severe physical pain (e.g. fainting due to heartache)? Why do I take your suffering for granted as my own, and try to protect it from the first thing that arises with a strong desire?

The patient across the wall from you, he's also in a lot of pain, and he doesn't look like he's in a better condition than you. Because his mind is not as well-trained as you, he is not only enduring physical pain at the moment, but also experiencing psychological panic, impatience, loneliness and other negative emotions. Why don't I feel his pain at all? Why can I turn a blind eye and not have a strong desire to protect and relieve that pain in the first place?

That's the question you posed to me in your sickness.

By watering that leaf, you remind me to think deeply about why?

Why am I willing to sacrifice and suffer to relieve yours, and why am I not interested in making such a sacrifice to relieve the pain of your neighbor's bed?

Aren't these two kinds of suffering different? Like the thirst of two leaves, is there any difference? Why should I be different?

The reason is still in the sense of oneness. Because I think I'm one with you. It's like I think the hands and feet are one. When the foot is on the coal, the hand will not hesitate to help it relieve the pain, to touch the wound, there is nothing unnatural at all, there is no hope that the foot will return the hand, and there is no merit for the hand to the foot.

But I don't think I'm one with other patients. So, I'll be separate.

It's the same as seeing in the dark. It is a question of identification with a sense of oneness.

If you have a strong sense of oneness, you will acquire the specific abilities of synaesthesia (e.g., his psychic communication. Sky Eye. In fact, it is our ability to perceive ourselves. The scope of self-definition expands, and so does the coverage of perception. If you have a strong sense of oneness, you will be able to truly perceive the pain of your body and see it as your own pain relief.

Because you are a person who has that vast sense of oneness, you can indeed perceive a whole floor, even the pain of his body and his mind in the ten worlds, and in the face of this perception, you understand that your pain is very small, or even not painful, so you have a peaceful and strong tolerance, and you are not distressed by it.

And I don't have that expansive sense of oneness. I only have a narrow sense of oneness with you.

So, you inspired me to start from this small sense of oneness and to perceive the wider picture. Just as you inspired me to see in the dark by expanding the sense of oneness.

Therefore, a person's identification with the sense of oneness, the scope of that "oneness", determines his life realm and life vision, determines his ability, his character, his life goals and values.

That's a very important insight.

Ordinary people only think that they or their loved ones are one with themselves, so the world is very narrow, while the Buddha thinks that all the ten dharma realms are one with himself, so his realm is vast and unfathomable.

Later, I came across a story about a monk who saw someone on the street stoning a dog, and immediately developed great compassion and vowed to take the dog's pain on his behalf. As soon as this thought moved, he immediately felt a sharp pain in his back, screamed, fell off the throne, helped him up left and right to examine, and sure enough, he found that there was a wound on his back that had been hit by a stone.

This story fascinated me for a long, long time.

Is there really such a way to take his own pain? What a joy that is!

That means that I can take the terrible death on the rock in the middle of the Blackwater River, I can carry all the physical pain on my shoulders, and it also means that I can bear the pain you have endured, and I can exchange my happiness for you.

I rejoice in that. I aspire to go deep into this supreme method.

(c)

Night. My own study.

Returning from your visit, I was deeply thinking about what you had said to me during the day in a deep heartache.

In the abyss of your own suffering, you have tried all your strength to pass on the teachings you want to pass on to me.

I can't live up to your affection and expectations.

On that day, I wrote this in my diary:

"Since, the pain of a serious illness that carries my body is also a burden. Then, it's better to be brave and let it all out, and the load is more! Give me an entire floor of back pain, headache, chest pain, joint pain, pain in various organs, and pain in bones! Add the physical pain of the entire universe, and even the ten universes, and all sentient beings to the load! ”

"If the physical pain of all sentient beings can be stopped and they can be happy, I wish that from now on, to the endless future, the pain will never be healed, and it will never cease."

"There is no end to all beings, there is no end to the void, there is no end to the pain of life, and I wish to be endless."

"Not all beings will be liberated from their suffering, and I vow not to be liberated from their toils and fatigue alone."

That's my answer to the leaf you watered. Is the answer so?

Dear guide, do I get it? Am I right?