(a)

The world swept swiftly behind it. Pen @ fun @ pavilion wWw. ｂｉｑUｇE。 ｉｎｆｏ

The faces of the flowers and trees became turbulent and blurred, and they vanished in front of their eyes as if dreamlike, disappearing in some gray space that was getting farther and farther away.

The inextricably linked past and present lives have all been left behind.

I sit in front of you, surrounded by your arms, and travel through time at the speed of a streamer, running with you to a future I don't know what will happen.

Just when the world is out of orbit because of the speed and your embrace, I feel that life has never been so real and bright.

I felt that I was unprecedentedly vast and unprecedented, boundless, endless, with all the limitations melted away, all the barriers invisible.

I was excited, I trembled, I rejoiced, I was sad, I was confused, I was awake, and I felt at the same time a hundred emotions and thoughts passing through me and flowing into the void: serenity, nostalgia, all degrees of love, all degrees of longing, sensual excitement, surprise, respect, obedience, reverence, kissing, hugging, clinging, encouragement, joy, nervousness, generosity, clarity, flirtation, reassurance, compassion, temptation, cognition, inspiration, understanding, indulgence, panic, smoothness......

I fell into a turbulent flow of unprecedented complexity, carried and wrapped in it.

All of these passed through me in a disturbing and dense manner, but none of them seemed to penetrate me deeply.

They flow through my surface, washing my superficial surface for engraving, but not touching my core.

Under this gurgling rapids, I have no worries, I am unstained and unstagnant, I feel warm and cool at the same time, day and night, prosperity and silence.

I am all-encompassing, I am everywhere, I am all over the void, I am incarnated.

(b)

Just as I was basking in this wonderful feeling that I had never felt before, I heard you say in my ear, "Are you afraid? ”

Your words brought me back into my frame.

Your voice defines me among the myriad possibilities of drifting.

Immediately, I heard myself reply, "Don't be afraid." ”

You say, "Do you like it?" ”

I said, "Yes." ”

You say, "It's like waiting for an infinite amount of time." ”

I said, "yes." ”

A phrase came to me: "I hope we just keep running like this, never stop." ”

Just when I was about to say it to you, I heard you already say it.

You say, "I hope we just keep running like this, never stopping." ”

(c)

That evening, we ran far, far away in the twilight.

We ran and ran on our horses until I had a strong feeling of flying. I felt a pair of huge wings spread out in the wind behind me.

I felt a bottle break in my body and mind. The inside and outside have become one.

I said, "I must have been a bird before, and I have flown like this with another bird." We flew very high, as if we had crossed the highest surface of the planet. We flew a long distance together, as if through the widest ocean on the planet. ”

I said, "We've been flying together." I don't remember what happened to us, but I remember that we flew together in the air of this planet. ”

You say, "Do you know what's going on in my heart right now?" ”

You say, "As long as I'm with you, I always feel like I'm flying." Whether it's right away or not. ”

You say, "Heart, you are my sky, and you are my wings." When I'm with you, I'll be able to lift up and fly. ”

Your words lift me up like warm air, strong and steady.

So, I said, "For me, guidance, so do you." ”

We are each other's skies. We are also each other's wings.

We can release and lift each other off the ground and ascend to fly.

(iv)

On that day, we galloped together on horseback for a long time into the vast expanse away from the hustle and bustle.

I never asked why you pulled me on the horse or where you were taking me.

It's not that I didn't ask you for some reason, it's that I don't have these questions in my heart at all.

When I enter your arms, I feel like a tired ship has finally arrived in port.

I feel that I have reached that final destination in all directions and in all times.

The heart is as calm as a mirror, perfect and complete, without any desire to arise, and there is no regret left.

I'm not at all curious why you're dating me, and I can't even remember to ask where you want to take me.

I'm infinitely satisfied with the status quo.

I am at the same time far removed from the vanishing past and the future that is constantly being generated.

I am like an insect wrapped in ancient amber, sealed away by you forever in the present moment.

The first thought is dead, and the second thought is not born.

(5)

You say, "Now, close your eyes." When I say it, you open it again. ”

I said, "Okay." ”

So, I obey your voice as if it were inherently irresistible.

I close my eyes and surrender my body, mind, and destiny to you.

In front of you, I always obey you and don't ask why.

I've never had the slightest doubt, I trust you more than I trust myself.

When I close my eyes, I am left with you alone.

You have filled all the heavens and all the earth.

The tides, which had been stretching for hundreds of millions of years, suddenly stopped.

What happened?

Why did an ancient and eternal concern suddenly subside?

I felt an unexplained excitement and tears welled up in my eyes.

There was a tremendous force that turned things upside down and pulled me behind me.

The desire to give up strength, to give up independence, to give up the grip on the reins, to give up everything to snuggle into your arms, and to melt away.

Just as I lost all my strength and leaned into your arms involuntarily, I felt you tremble from the inside out. It was as if there had been a huge dislocation of the rock formations tens of thousands of miles below the earth's crust.

You close your eyes under the impact of some kind of great wave. A large number of unbearable fractures occurred behind me. Countless pieces of armor have fallen off your appearance.

You've never been so soft, and you've never been so messy.

You can barely ride on a horse anymore. You can barely control the reins.

A trance takes control of you. You resist it with the last of your willpower.

I heard your trembling voice say softly, "Heart." ”

I said in a small voice, "Hmm." ”

You say, "Here we are." ”

These four words drain all your willpower.

You have lost the ability to control the horse.

The horse stopped. I opened my eyes.

-- Lavender all over the mountains. A sea of purple flowers. Our sea of flowers!

The panorama of the past life is reproduced in an instant, from the universe to the dust.

The void shatters, logic breaks, time goes back, heaven and earth rotate, and the sun and moon have no light. (To be continued.) )