There is a medicine jar hanging on the small red stove in the room. The fragrance of medicine is overflowing. The white water vapor floated in the air.

"Qin'er, have you thought about it?" You said.

I'm looking at you. I nodded.

You reach out and lift the hot medicine jar, and you pour the liquid medicine into the small porcelain bowl.

I watched as the black liquid was steaming into the white porcelain bowl.

I stood up and knelt down in front of you, and I said, "Thank you, brother, for helping me." ”

I reached for the bowl. You grabbed my hand. You say, "It's still hot." Wait until it's cooler before drinking. ”

You let go of me. You say, "Sit down and wait a little longer." "I sat down.

You say, "Qin'er, Dr. Sun is waiting outside." After you drink this medicine, about half an hour, you will feel a stomachache, and he will come in and wait until the fetus comes out. However, Dr. Sun said that if you drink this medicine, you have more than 80% chance of dying with this fetus. He is not sure to save you. ”

I said, "I don't care. ”

You say, "But I care." The reason why these things happened was because I didn't protect you, and because I helped you. If something happens to you, I'm to blame. ”

You reach for a dagger. You pull it out of its sheath. You put it on the table.

I'm looking at you. I said, "What are you going to do?" ”

You say, "When I asked Dr. Sun for this medicine, I also asked for some other medicine by the way." Now, the dagger is full of poison. Just cut a little bit of skin, and you'll die. ”

You say, "After a while, when the medicine is cold, and you drink it, I will sit here with you until there is a result." I won't leave you alone. ”

Say, "If you die because of this, I will surely go with you to the Yellow Spring, as I have said, and I will go with you to your father and mother." I won't leave you alone. Whether you live or die, I am determined to be with you. ”

You say, "If I want to do something, no one can stop me." ”

I look at you and can't say a word.

We sat across the bowl of medicine. We are silent. The heat on the medicine bowl gradually thinned.

You pick up the medicine bowl, and you hand it to me. You say, "Now, you can drink it." ”

I took the medicine bowl.

I held it in my hand. I said, "Please, don't do that." I was forced to do so. But you, you have to think of your father. ”

You say, "I'm forced to do the same." Jean. I can't live without you. ”

You say, "Watching you breathe in front of me will break my heart." Even if you want to live, you can't do it. It's better to have a good time. You drank it. Then, there is an eighty percent chance that we will die together in this room. And when my father saw this, he must not be able to live again. ”

You say, "If you drink a bowl of medicine, what you get will be like this." ”

You say, "Is it what you want?" ”

You say, "Qin'er, you have to know that every action has many consequences. It is not possible to have only the desired outcome without other collateral consequences. Even if you don't want to, they will happen one after the other. ”

My hand holding the medicine bowl was shaking. I cried and said, "You said you would help me." Is that how it helps me? ”

You say, "I'm here to help you." Medicine, doctors, strict secrecy, I have done it for you. I'm just telling you right now that this is how it will happen. There's no way to control that. Jean. When your heart stops beating, the same thing must happen to my heart. There's no way to control that. ”

Tears ran down my cheeks. I know you'll do it. If I die, you will not hesitate to use that dagger.

You say, "Don't cry." Jean. I know you're embarrassed and sad. If you choose not to drink, these things won't happen. You can choose not to drink it. Whether you drink it or not, I will face the subsequent results with you. I will be with you in the face of that outcome, whatever it is, and how long it will last. ”

A burst of intense nausea rushed over me, and a corrosive pain in my throat. I barely had time to turn my head before I started vomiting violently.

As soon as my hand was released, the bowl slid to the ground and shattered with a thud.

Then I felt dizzy and unconscious.

When I woke up, I was already leaning on my pillow.

I'm looking at you. You sit on the edge of my bed. You say, "Qin'er, do you feel better?" ”

I said weakly, "I don't want it." I don't want to. ”

You say, "I know." I know your mind. However, your current body does not allow it. Promise me to wait a little longer, give your body time to heal, and give yourself time to become healthy again. You're still so young, time will heal everything. Promise me to wait two months before doing it. Wait until it's safe to do it. Let's get married as scheduled first, and then deal with this matter, is that okay? ”

I shook my head. I said, "But I don't want to marry you with this shame." I don't want you to share such a humiliation with me. I don't want to be his tool to humiliate you! As long as this humiliation is on me, I can't, can't ......" I want to say that I can't stand the kind of proximity of men. But I don't want to hurt you.

You say, "I understand." Even if you don't say what you think, I understand it. ”

You say, "Okay." I can go and tell my father that we won't get married yet. I obey you. I would convince my father. As long as you promise me, wait two or three months, and your health will be better, and then you will do it. Previously, they all had a good rest, recuperated their bodies, and accelerated their recovery. ”

You say, "Jean." Nothing has changed, I'm still here to help you, it's just a few dozen days late. Dozens of days passed quickly. Then, we can put an end to it and start a new life. ”

I burst into tears and said, "Why didn't I die as soon as I was born?" Why didn't you die with your mother? ”

You say, "Because, if we die, we will not have the opportunity to gain the courage to face all kinds of accidents." There is no chance to discover that there are still the most beautiful people waiting for us in the future life. ”

I'm looking at you. I said, "You don't want to die. No matter what happens to me, you have to live well, you don't want to die. ”

You say, "Live well, and I won't die." ”

You say, "Qin'er, did you promise me?" In two or three months, I'll do it with you. ”

There's no way I can say no to you. In the end, I always have no way to say no to you.

You're back in your room. You stand in the doorway for a while. You reach out and push the door open.

Wu Shun is waiting for your news inside with Dr. Sun.

Doctor Sun said, "Young boy, how is it?" ”

You sit down in your chair tiredly. You say, "She promised me." ”

After you say this, you realize that you are already sweating all over, and your clothes are already soaked with sweat.

Dr. Sun breathed a sigh of relief. This level has finally passed temporarily.

After Dr. Sun left, Wu Shun went to collect the dagger you put on the table.

You say, "Don't move." ”

Wu Shun said: "Could it be that it is really poisonous? ”

You say, "Really." ”

Wu Shun said: "If Miss really drinks the medicine and something really happens, do you really want it?" ”

You say, "Yes." ”

You say, "I'm not going to lie to her." When she wanted to die, I said that I would accompany her whether she lived or died, and I promised that I would definitely do it. I won't lie to her. ”