(a)

I looked at the remaining martini in his glass.

I said, "You shouldn't drink this now." Wine is harmful to the liver. ”

Mr. Yichen said, "One last cup." In the future, I will take the monastic vows and never touch alcoholic beverages again for eternity. This last glass is dedicated to you. It's a goodbye to you, and a goodbye to your past life. ”

My tears welled up again.

I said, "Even if you are a monk, why go so far?" There are also many temples in the mainland, as well as in Japan. At the very least, we can come and see you. ”

Mr. Yichen said: "I just don't want people to visit me often. I have too many acquaintances in both mainland China and Japan. I don't want to turn the monastery into a reception room. ”

He said: "I also have a special fate with Zongtong Temple, and I should have had a close relationship before this life. Everything there feels very familiar. I was there and felt very reassured. The first time I entered the monastery, I had a strong desire in my heart that I should be ordained here and receive the ordination and robes of the monks. ”

I said, "Don't you want me and your son to visit you?" ”

Yi Chen said, "What's the use of visiting. What I hope is that you can also put aside all the trivial things in this world and focus on solving the fundamental problems in life. If you can do the same, it will be the best companionship and comfort for me. ”

I said, "Are you willing to give up your son?" ”

Mr. Yichen said: "When he was dying, everything was inseparable and could not be taken away. If you are reluctant, you will have to break up sooner or later. ”

He said: "My children are now older, and I have done a good job as a photographer, and I can make a living independently, and I no longer need to support them." ”

His son is indeed very talented in photography, he has studied with Yichen over the years, and has a true biography of Mr. Yichen, whether it is taking landscapes, people, or news photos, he has emerged in the photography industry and has become a big name in the world, it should only be a matter of time.

I said, "Mrs. Liang has just passed away, and you have left like this, he is a sensitive and gentle child. Perhaps, you won't understand this thing. ”

I said, "He needs your fatherly love." I think he hopes that in your last moments, he can fulfill the filial piety of the son of man by your side. ”

Mr. Yichen said: "One day, he will understand his father's choice. It was his mother's departure, as well as the results of this physical examination, that strongly alerted me, and then indulged in the love between father and son, and when it was interrupted, this life was wasted like this again. ”

I said, "What if he goes over there to find you." I think he'll go. ”

Mr. Yichen said, "Before leaving, I will have a good talk with him. Even if he went there, he probably wouldn't find me. Because, I would follow the newly ordained monks of Dzongtong Monastery to the traditional retreat center in the forest. ”

I said worriedly, "Is it the kind of retreat we saw before?" Living alone in a dense forest, far away from the surrounding villages, you have to arrange everything by yourself, and it is difficult to contact the outside? ”

Mr. Yichen said, "Yes. That's it. It may also be outside of Thailand, in Myanmar or Cambodia. ”

"Huh?" I hurriedly said, "How can that be done?" Your current physical condition, alone in the deep mountains and old forests, is still so hard, so tired, how can you? If something happens, there's no way to call for help! ”

Mr. Yichen said, "I feel fine. I'll decide based on my physical condition. The monastery will also arrange a suitable location for me, taking into account my physical condition. You don't have to worry. ”

He said: "Heart, between life and death, any help can only survive for a while, to transcend life and death, the only reliance, the only rescue, is yourself." ”

"The air in the forest is fresh, the food is nutritious and naturally non-toxic and additive-free, proper work is good for the body and mind, meditation stops a lot of cranky thoughts and blind movements, and it also saves a lot of energy," he said. It's definitely much healthier than being physically and mentally killed by chemical poisons and radiation in a hospital. ”

He said, "I will come back from the meditation center in good health." Won't die in the forest. ”

I was silent for a moment and said, "Okay." If this is what you want, then I will always support you. ”

(b)

I said, "I've been a partner for so many years, and I'm really not used to your sudden departure." It's like missing an arm, and maybe half of the heart. ”

Mr. Yichen said, "They will arrange a new partner for you." I've already told them that I hope they will carefully choose a new partner for you based on your writing characteristics. ”

I said, "If you have a soul in your heart, you have to rely on fate, and sometimes, there is only one time in your life." ”

Mr. Yichen said: "After getting along for a long time, the resonance is getting deeper and deeper, and it is slowly tacit. We didn't work so well at the beginning. ”

I said, "It was you who led me into the door of literary creation, and over the years, you have given me countless words and deeds, and all my works have been permanently marked with your traces." I'll never forget these years as a partner. ”

Mr. Yichen said: "Literature and art can help us to downplay the pain and troubles in life through affection and singing, or sublimate it into aesthetic appreciation." However, you have to be clear that Xinxin, these are just delaying tactics, they are just painkillers, paralyzing drugs, although you will feel better, but they cannot fundamentally solve the problems that continue to arise from troubles and pains. In order to solve the problem fundamentally, we must personally find out the truth of the suffering of life and find its causes, so that we can completely crack it. ”

Mr. Yichen said: "Xinxin, don't feel that you are still young now, you can wait until you are old to do these things, and wait until Ann grows up." That's just a wishful thinking on our part. None of us know what will happen in the future. The only thing we can grasp is now. We can decide what to do now. That's up to us to decide. ”

I said, "I understand your hopes. I'll think about it. Even though I work every day and raise my children, I will never relax my studies. I will be like you here, working hard every day to complete the scheduled classes and complete the study plan. Won't let any day pass. ”

Yi Chen nodded and said, "Okay." Looking forward to seeing your progress and achievements. ”

We clinked glasses again.

Yi Chen drank all the remaining martinis in the wine glass.

He tilted the bottom of the cup and showed it to me.

He smiled and said, "This is the end of the worldly life." The cup is dry, and there is no residue. The long-cherished wish is fulfilled, hurry up! ”