(a)

The winter of that year came very early, and it felt like I had just put on my shirt for a short time, and I was wearing a thick sweater and a tweed coat, and then the cold wind and the continuous bitter rain arrived, and the temperature dropped sharply every week. The pen "Fun" Pavilion www.biquge.info people hurriedly came out of the cabinet and turned out down jackets and padded jackets. Soon, the first snow fell.

I love snow. I feel like our city is made for snow. The city under the snow, it looks particularly solemn and magnanimous, the city wall of the Ming Dynasty is more and more majestic in the wind and snow, the silver of thousands of trees is wrapped, swinging with the wind, pieces of snow fall into the river and the semi-frozen lake rolling east, but also in the solemnity, adding a bit of gentle charm to the city.

With the arrival of winter, I feel more and more that many things are changing rapidly. But I still don't quite understand what this change means.

What surprised me the most was that Director Wang, who had given a stern and subtle warning about our interactions on the opening day of the new semester, seemed to have suddenly changed his mind.

He no longer inserts and blocks the exchange of eyes between us, but often turns a blind eye. Even if our eyes meet for a long time, he will not pay attention. Your individual technical coaching with me has also returned to normal, we have been in the office for a long time, and Coach Wang never comes in halfway. Sometimes, I even think that he deliberately avoided, or even deliberately facilitated our being alone.

Why did he change his mind? I now feel that his feelings for us can be said to be quite tolerant.

The kind of firmness that he once showed to prevent us from continuing to develop, like a short autumn, disappears when he says it disappears, and then suddenly disappears.

(b)

The second surprising change is that Liu Wenli is more and more present by your side, going in and out with you.

For the first time, I met Liu Wenli at your place. When I entered the house, I saw her wearing sleeves and aprons, busy cleaning in your room, changing the charcoal in the charcoal basin for you, boiling water on the charcoal stove, dusting the ceiling and windowsill, wiping the furniture, drying the bedding.

When Liu Wenli saw me, she smiled and took off her sleeves and apron, ready to leave, but you said to her: "It's been hard for a long time, you can sit down and rest for a while before leaving, let's talk together." ”

You bring out a plate of plum candy and candied fruit to entertain us. When we talk together, Sister Wenli and I both look at you. You avoid our gaze, you talk and laugh freely, and your expression doesn't change. But the heaviness of your heart can be seen through both of us.

One day, after I left, Liu Wenli asked you, "You have been so strange lately, why do you want to fight yourself?" You obviously want to be alone with her, why don't you let me avoid it? ”

You say, "Do me a favor and don't ask, okay?" After you finished speaking, you looked at Liu Wenli. You watch the expression on her face change, and then you take a step back. You say, "People don't always have to be spontaneous in this world, do they?" There are some things that are difficult to make the most appropriate choice when you are too concerned, so you need to stay away and think calmly. ”

When you say these words, Liu Wenli sees something called melancholy in your heart. It has a high concentration. It sticks you to it.

Liu Wenli's heart throbbed, and then she gave up and stopped asking.

(c)

Because of Director Wang's blindness, our relationship returned to the way it was before. We can have some time alone together.

Another important change is that you are always exceptionally nice to me when we are alone. Your warmth has quickly surpassed the stage of lovers, and sometimes, I feel that you treat me as if we have been a couple of decades.

You respond to my requests, you take care of me, you take good care of me, you speak softly to me. You seem to cherish every minute and every second we get along.

You're becoming more and more like a lover of meticulous care. You make me feel like I'm on the pinnacle of happiness. I couldn't help but feel scared because I was so happy.

During that time, I began to often imagine marrying you in the future. I imagined myself would be your wife, the mother of your children. I will wear sleeves, wear an apron, hold a spatula or a feather duster, cook for you, clean your room, I will do your laundry, I will wait for you to come back by the lamp, I will serve your parents, I will pick up our children, I will take care of their sleep. I will see your gray hair, and I will support you in your faltering steps.

Whenever I realize that I am thinking like this, my heart is red and my heart beats with my own thoughts. I'll quickly rein in these imaginations. I said to myself, "Look what you're thinking." The guide clearly said that learning and understanding are far more important than falling in love. ”

(iv)

From the beginning of school to the beginning of winter, your attitude towards me changed in such a way that it changed from distance to near, and seemed very hesitant and very unstable.

You've been changing like this, and in the end, I'm a little confused. I'm worried about you. What the hell is wrong with you?

The same worry also exists in Sister Wenli. One day, Liu Wenli said to you: "I said, what's wrong with you lately, you can't always be so unstable about your heart." ”

Liu Wenli said: "You don't understand a woman's heart, and a woman can't be treated like this." You're going to crush her to pieces. In any case, to be closer to her or more distant, in between, you can only make up your mind and choose the other. ”

Indeed, I was crushed by you.

But that's not because you're so far away from me, it's because I see you're about to be crumpled by something.

I silently endure whatever temperature or distance you give me, as long as it makes you feel a little lighter.

I hope to use my consistency to heal the wounds of you being torn apart by unknown causes.

I let you come and go as soon as you call me.

But intuitively, I was deeply uneasy. Your affection for me has always been so stable and unwavering. There must be a reason for your apparent fluctuations during this time. The reason for the inner turmoil of someone like you must be extraordinary. But you don't want us to know why. But you can't be so unstable all the time, you can't be so self-contradictory and hesitant all the time.

I had a gut feeling that something was going to happen. It's imminent. The peace of the past is numbered.

(5)

As the weather gets colder quickly, so does your room. You catch another cold and cough for a week or two.

Because this is a relatively old dormitory, the circuit load is relatively low, and the air conditioning system cannot be installed, with the efforts of Wang's guidance, the logistics department distributed a small charcoal stove to your room, as well as 200 catties of charcoal. Although it is more troublesome to burn charcoal and remove ash every day, after the charcoal stove is lit, the whole room is immediately warmed up a lot.

You love this old-fashioned charcoal stove because it can be used to boil water for cooking in addition to heating, but it also has its convenience. You said you enjoyed listening to the sound of the boiling kettle chirping on the stove and watching the water vapor rise in the room. You think it's very homely.

Back then, you used to sit by the charcoal stove after work to keep warm, while cooking your own white rice in a small hanging pot. The boiling rice soup gurgles and gives off a refreshing scent, and sometimes, the entire corridor is filled with the aroma of rice, and I can't help but move my index finger every time I smell it from afar.

Sometimes, when you are too obsessed with reading or writing, and you are too lazy to cook, you will use tongs to grab a few potatoes or a large white potato and bury them in the ashes of a charcoal basin, slowly simmer them, and then eat them with boiled water, dip them in white sugar, and serve them for dinner or breakfast.

At that time, people's lives were not rich, but the happiness in them was no less than now, and there were still many times when they enjoyed themselves.

You have a good grasp of the heat of the stewed potatoes, and you can always simmer until the skin on the outside is not burnt, and the core on the inside is fully cooked.

I asked you at the time, what is the trick.

You pluck the potatoes in the ashes with tongs, and you say, "Put your heart on it, and you can feel the fire inside." It's as if the one who becomes fragrant in it is himself. ”

But I've never been able to make it to your level. Every time the potato I stewed comes out of the ashes, you always look at me and smile. Because it looks exactly like a fossil that was created millions of years ago.

Every time you peel out your stewed golden and fragrant ripe potatoes and leave them for me to eat, and you eat the one I stewed for yourself, which is charred on the outside and smells mushy on the inside, but at the same time it has a jerky "fossil".

I'm ashamed of my clumsiness every time. But every time you say, "This time it's so much better than last time." Simmer it twice more and it will be very tasty. ”

Later, your appetite becomes worse and worse, and you don't want to eat the stewed potatoes or sweet potatoes yourself. You're always watching me eat and just symbolically taste it yourself.

Later, it becomes more difficult for you to eat solid food, and the smell of charcoal smoke often exacerbates your nausea. With the help of Wang's guide, you changed your room to a honeycomb coal stove with iron ventilation pipes. We haven't done this kind of work since.

Today, the potatoes I stew are still not very tasty, and they still look like glacial stones that have weathered for more than 200 years. If no one knew in advance that they were potatoes, I'm sure no one in the world would dare to bite them. However, it's still ripe inside, and it's not mushy, so it's a little bit of progress. (To be continued.) )