(a)

S quickly hid a book or something in a drawer. Pen @ fun @ pavilion wWw. ｂｉｑUｇE。 ｉｎｆｏ

You go up to him and say, "Take it out." ”

S looks at you hesitantly.

You smile and say, "What appeals to you, can you share it with us?" ”

S was relieved. He eagerly took the magazine out of the drawer.

You take the magazine and look at the cover for a while.

You say, "What's on the picture?" ”

S said, "New nebula." It is a photograph of the birth of a new nebula. ”

You look at that picture and you say, "It's spectacular. ”

You ask, "Do you like astronomy?" ”

"I'm just very curious about the universe," S said. ”

He said, "Guidance, how did such a vast universe come about?" When did it come about? Don't you feel curious? ”

You smile and shake your head, you give the magazine back to S.

You say, "Not curious." ”

You say, "I know when it came about." ”

S said, "Huh? Did you know? ”

You say, "That's what it just happened." You lowered your head and opened the magazine, immersed yourself in it, unaware of the time I came along. ”

You look at S and say, "That's what it was born just now." ”

S said, "But, the geography teacher said, it has no beginning and no end!" ”

You say, "Because you don't know that your immersion in the picture is the beginning of it, it's called beginningless." ”

You say, "It ends when you leave the picture and go back to the form you were supposed to fill out." Because you don't know that it's ending like this, it's called endless. ”

You say, "Because you are not aware of it when you wander into another world, and you are not autonomous when you return to this world from that world, the beginning and the end of that world are imperceptible and uncontrollable." It has no beginning and no end because of this. ”

(b)

At that time, in the shooting team, among the boys, the closest to you was S. He's also a good friend of mine.

s told me a lot about you, and I'm thankful that he said so much to me and allowed me to go deeper into your life.

The scope of the conversation between you and S is wide.

For example, there was a time when S was very fond of a beautiful girl in the next class, and he secretly had feelings for him, and he especially wanted to talk to someone about love.

Once, during individual tutoring after class, he asked you, "Guidance, what does it feel like to be in love?" ”

You look at him and say, "What? Are you going to be in love? ”

S blushed and said, "It's just curious to ask." ”

You say, "I don't have a girlfriend yet." My opinion is not suitable for you to refer to. You can ask Wang for guidance. ”

S eyes widened and said, "Who dares!" I dare to ask Director Wang this question, and Director Wang didn't knock a few violent tremors on my head on the spot! Moreover, for at least half a year, the roots of the ears will not be purified. ”

You smile and say, "He's from here, so he has experience here." ”

S said: "Guide, tell me your opinion, for reference?" How do you know if you have started a relationship, and how do you know if you have met the right person? Guidance, please. ”

You look at S, you reach out and pick up a finished target paper from the table, and you tear it in half. You put the torn paper in half on the table and put it back together.

You say, "It's like this half of the paper, the feeling of meeting that half of the paper." ”

S looked at the two pieces of paper, showed a sudden realization, and said, "Incisive! Guidance, you're amazing. ”

S asked, "Guide, have you ever encountered that half of the paper?" ”

S also said: "Guidance, actually, I think, I mean, many of us feel that you and Xinxin are like these two and a half pieces of target paper. When you are together, you all have a special light that radiates all around. Guidance, will you like the heart? ”

You clean up the things on the table and say, "Is it important for you to know this?" ”

S stuck out his tongue and didn't continue.

(c)

I asked, "Guide, do you smoke?" ”

You say, "Why did it suddenly occur to ask this question?" ”

I said, "You will, right?" ”

You say, "Yes, I will." ”

I said, "Smoking is a bad habit. ”

You say, "I don't have that habit anymore." Have you seen me smoke since you met me? Do you see a cigarette in my office or on me? ”

I said, "You've been seen smoking." ”

You say, "Who?" ”

I said, "S." He said that once he saw you smoking alone in this office, and said that you would vomit super complicated smoke rings. ”

You say, "It's been smoked once." I don't know what happened that day, I felt very tired and didn't have the energy to do anything. The cigarette was given by Director Wang, and he said that it was a very expensive and good cigarette, which made me refresh, and it was difficult to resist the enthusiasm, so I smoked his one. ”

I'm looking at you.

You say, "Okay. When I was seventeen or eighteen years old, I used to smoke cigarettes for a while. ”

You say, "I fell in love with cigarettes because they were selling an aesthetic, indulgent, self-selective, slow death." This kind of death implies that one day the burdens of life can be lifted, and thus form a thoughtful comfort for those who are tired or feel empty. ”

"During that time, I admired smoking. Rather than admiring the smell of tobacco, we admire the gesture of smoking: we take death and all the suffering it leads to in our mouths, and then relax and savor it. ”

"At that time, I loved watching Marlboro cigarette commercials. The male protagonist's expression is usually relaxed and casual, and there is no anger to be seen, nor joy, only some kind of quiet acceptance. Moreover, the actor's gaze is usually looking away, even if he is facing the audience, he is also looking at some invisible distance. They do not communicate with the audience for both eyes and emotions. They often don't even have their faces exposed. Even if there is more than one figure on the screen, even if these figures are sitting across from each other, they are looking elsewhere, and there is no confrontation between them, and there is no friendship between them. They are all trapped in a state of loneliness, lonely, but without the panic that comes with loneliness. It was a calming solitude. Among them, there is not, to get rid of the yearning for loneliness. ”

"These print ads show an acceptance of the hardships and hardships of life," you said. Accept it, experience it, live in it, and exude a certain weightless confidence and unwavering chic. ”

"As Gibran wrote, we are etched deep by time and fate, but we respond to it with a smile of detachment that these wrinkles compose."

You say, "At that time, I felt that the cigarette symbolized our courage in the face of death, our slow grace, our quiet and solitary contemplation. ”

I said, "Well, why didn't you smoke it later?" ”

You smile and say, "Because it tastes really bad." Smoke one, and you will have the smell of a dumpster all day long. ”

I said, "Really quit?" ”

You say, "I've never been addicted to it." If you don't smoke it, you don't smoke it. ”

You look at me.

You say, "Trust me. ”

I nodded. (To be continued.) )