After Yao Biao left, the little monk brought dinner. Pen, fun, pavilion www. biquge。 info Daoyan and Shen Ruoliao sat down face to face, ate together, and ordered a pot of green tea.

Dao Yan poured tea for the two of them, raised the teacup, looked at Shen Ruoyu, and said with a smile:

"General Shen still remembers that four years ago, Lao Qu drank fragrant tea with you in this temple, can the general still remember what kind of tea he drank?"

Shen Ruoyu said: "It is the tribute Longjing given by the prince." ”

Dao Yan bowed his head and said: "This tea is still the same tea, but people have such a world of difference." ”

Shen Ruoyu smiled in surprise: "The master kept a serving of tea for four years? ”

Dao Yan smiled: "How is it possible; It's just that the prince keeps rewarding him. ”

Shen Ruoyu smiled sadly: "At that time, the master still called me a young man. Now, they call me a general. But I am the general of the enemy army, the general of the defeated army. ”

Dao Yan said: "At that time, Shen Shaoxia was still haunted by the past; Today, he is worried about the country and the people for the future. Helpless things in the world, no matter how hard you do and work hard, it often backfires. ”

Shen Ruoyu said calmly: "Just as the master told Zhanji, since I have admitted defeat, I will also admit defeat. Everything has a destiny in the end, and Ruo Xiao has always accepted his fate. ”

Dao Yan said: "However, Lao Wei has always thought that General Shen has agreed with Lao Qu and Yuan Tingyu from the very beginning, thinking that King Yan is the destiny of heaven? ”

Dao Yan frowned slightly, and there was a little caution, a little expectation, and a little confusion in his eyes.

Shen Ruoyu lowered his head: "The master is asking me the reason for betraying King Yan?" I can't say. ”

Dao Yan looked at him deeply: "Why didn't the general say that it was for the righteousness of the Ming monarch and the ministers, and the righteousness of heaven and earth?" The court is right, since the general can do it, what is there to fear? ”

Shen Ruoyu covered his forehead: "I want to say this; I thought about it, using it as an excuse to be high-sounding. But I can't tell this lie, even if I say it, I don't have enough confidence, and the master must not believe it. I had no choice but not to say it. ”

Dao Yan was even more confused. "The general serves the Son of Heaven, not to seek wealth and nobility, nor to seek the right path - does the general have an enmity with King Yan?"

Shen Ruoyu shook his head and said with a wry smile: "Master, don't force me." Lord Yao has already forced me, I really can't say. I have no grudge against King Yan, and how I loved him at the beginning has not diminished anything to this day. I put in too much effort, gave up too many things, and once I said it, it was all in vain. ”

"Not for wealth, not for righteousness, not for revenge; Once spoken, all previous efforts are wasted; Ahh "Ruoxiao, no matter what it is, you are walking a dead end. You may think of King Yan too tall and holy again. In the end, he is still a man of flesh and blood. ”

Shen Ruoyu said softly: "I understand; That's why I do it. ”

"What do you do yourself?" Dao Yan asked, "No matter what the reason is, the old man can feel that there is not a trace of self in that reason. It is easy for people to think selflessly, and it is not difficult to pursue selflessness, but it is difficult to give up on themselves completely and forget themselves. To put it bluntly, that's not what people do. We live as individuals, and no one can think of themselves at all; When the old man said this, he was not a moral judgment, but a matter of facts. If you can't do it, keep going like this, there is no way out, and I'm afraid you won't be able to reach the end of your pursuit. The suffering in your heart will get deeper and deeper, and the burden will become heavier and heavier, and maybe your faith will be strong enough now, but gradually it will also collapse, because it is first detached from reality. What will you do then? ”

Shen Ruoyu is as silent as ever; As if Dao Yan said, he had already thought about it. He replied:

"I want to divide everything. For my own sake, I'm not against it. Even King Yan raised an army, in the final analysis, it was for himself; For me, it doesn't matter. But everyone in the world can do it for themselves, but I don't have this qualification. Perhaps from the moment I was born, everything was predestined. Once, for more than a decade, I have been trying to get this qualification, I hope that I can live for myself and work hard for myself, but I have been denied it again and again. Eventually a person appeared in my life and changed all that, he made me ideal, he made me hopeful, he made me valuable, with this qualification, he made me understand the possibility. But when these things really came, I realized how insignificant, how small a concept I was, and how I myself was not even what I really wanted, not a part of my ideals; All the benefits he has given me, the part above myself, is the least rare for me. Life is only a few decades, if you are looking for family, status, wealth, or whatever, you do it for yourself, as long as you get what you want, this life is complete. If that's not what I'm pursuing, if it's not about me, and if it's not about any individual in this world, why should I waste my life pampering myself, knowing that I don't care? Actually, if the master must say this, I am also for myself and for my own pursuit, but there is no me in the pursuit. ”

Dao Yan pondered for a moment.

"The person you're talking about is King Yan?"

Shen Ruoyu looked at him sincerely: "Who else can there be in this world?" ”

Dao Yan sighed deeply.

"Ruoxiao, do you know what the old man is most afraid of?"

Shen Ruoyu shook his head and smiled lightly. "I don't know, there are still things in this world that make the master afraid."

Dao Yan smiled bitterly: "You sword Zhang Shimei, didn't you have a nightmare afterwards?" Being bold doesn't mean not being afraid. ”

Shen Ruoyu smiled melancholy: "Master, what other secrets do you not know?" I think you've seen through even the little reason why I won't say it. ”

Dao Yan shook his head and said, "The old man can see through the essence, but he can't see through the appearance. What is the reason for your betrayal of King Yan, whether you say it or not, Lao Wei knows its essence, so he doesn't care about its appearance. However, the prince did not know the essence of this. I'm afraid that even if he knows the appearance, the appearance may not be good enough to calm his anger and make him understand you. Therefore, what Lao Wei is most afraid of is not what happens to you, but what will happen to the prince. Because you are well prepared for the possible consequences and do not intend to run away from them. However, the prince actually did not have any mental preparation. Whatever he will do to you, whatever it is, will be overwhelming. In the future, he will finally have a clear day, and at that time, everything is irretrievable and irreparable, what should the prince do? ”

Shen Ruoyu looked at Dao Yan in some surprise, and gradually began to understand what Dao Yan meant.

Seeing that he was shocked, Dao Yan said in a low voice:

"Ruo Xiao, the prince has been generous and frank all his life, even if he kills and perversely, he has always been clear and has never regretted it. You alone - you and your pursuit, this reason, are likely to make him bitter and regret it for the rest of his life. ”

Shen Ruoyu asked softly: "Is this what Mr. Yuan didn't say in Mingshengsheng Restaurant?" ”

Dao Yan was slightly stunned: "What Mr. Yuan didn't say in Mingshengsheng Restaurant? ”

Shen Ruoyu said: "Mr. Yuan was in the Mingshengsheng Restaurant for the prince to get a hexagram, explaining its meaning, from the ninth day of the first month to the ninth five, but not to say ninety-six. The master was also present. ”

Dao Yan remembered.

"Ninety-six, Kang Long has regrets." Master Dao Yan muttered this sentence, only to feel a great shock in his heart.

Shen Ruoyu smiled, but this smile was extremely sunny and cheerful, extremely firm and calm. Since he returned to Peking on March 17, it was the first time for Dao Yan to see him smile like this; Since Dao Yan saw Shen Ruoyu for the first time in this Qingshou Temple four years ago, he had never found the same smile in his memory.

"Ruoxiao, you—" Dao Yan looked at him in horror and involuntarily stood up.

Shen Ruoyu looked up at him: "I've been pondering what Mr. Yuan Mingshengsheng Restaurant said. I've been worried that the prince will regret it in the end, what is the regret. Later, I became more and more afraid of it, which invisibly contributed to my choice to betray him and serve the imperial court. I'm afraid it's something else; Fear that anything else can make Kang Long regret. If it's just me, it's okay for the prince to kill me, whatever, if Kang Long regrets it just for this, then it's all worth it, I also know that I didn't do anything wrong, I took the right path. ”

Dao Yan looked at Shen Ruoyu tremblingly. He lived for nearly 70 years, and was defined by Yuan Hui as a "foreign monk" who was "thirsty for killing", "Liu Bingzhong Liuye", assisted King Yan, governed Beiping, and conquered the territory, and never had such a time of trembling. It seems that in the deep mountains of Kunlun, the ice and snow, the wind is cold, I don't know where I came from, I don't know where I am going, and I don't know that millions of years of foreign ice have been frozen.

For the first time, Master Dao Yan opened his mouth, and only these four trembling words came out:

"Amitabha Buddha ......"

After a long time, he calmed down and said slowly:

"General, anyway, it's not yet time. Lord Yao is right, the prince has gone to the Beijing Division, and he will find that the Beijing Division has more things to deal with for him, far more than on the battlefield. If the prince ascends the throne, he will not know when he will be able to return to Beiping. The general is recuperating in Beiping, and the princess and the prince respect Your Excellency, so it is better to forget these things for the time being, and just cherish this rare freedom and leisure; As for the prince, when the prince makes an order, it is not too late to think about it. ”

Shen Ruoliao watched him turn the Buddha beads in his hand, and said with a smile: "The master's persuasion just now made me suddenly brightened, and my suspicions were released, which strengthened Ruoxiao's belief." At this moment, there seems to be an everlasting lamp in my heart, how can I forget it and cover it up? ”

Dao Yan sighed: "People can't always be in worry, and the bowstring can't always be in a tight state. There is tension and relaxation, so that it can last. Even if the general does not think of himself, as a person who practices martial arts, he must understand this truth. What's more, the general is now in Beiping, far away from the Beijing Division, away from the battlefield, away from the prince, you are just nervous day and night, what's the use, it's better to take this opportunity to relax. ”

Shen Ruoyu said: "Life is in sorrow, and death is in peace." But I'm afraid that when I get comfortable, my mind will be ruined, and when it's time to get nervous, I want to go back to my current state, but I can't. The master's kindness is not well understood. I just tried to relax, but I had no choice but to develop a habit since I was a child, and it was difficult to do it for a while. ”

Dao Yan thought about it, sat down again, and said slowly:

"If you are alone, the old man advises you to relax, and not only for yourself. The old man invited you to live in Qingshou Temple and gave you two reasons. There is a third reason. If the first two reasons are for the princess and the prince, the third is completely Lao Gao's own. ”

Shen Ruoyu was a little surprised and looked at Dao Yan suspiciously.

"Please give me advice."

Dao Yan smiled faintly. "Since you returned to Peking this time, Lao Wei suddenly began to feel nostalgic from time to time. The old man misses the scene when he first saw Shen Shaoxia four years ago, and he misses all the things when you were still by the prince's side, every word and deed is still vivid. Beiping is still the same Beiping, and Shen Ruoliao is no longer the Shen Ruoliao of the past. The old man is obsessed day and night, and he can't let go of it. ”

Shen Ruoyu said in a low voice: "Master, Beiping is actually no longer the original Beiping. Besides, the four major sects of Buddhism are empty, and the master's cultivation is very high, so why bother to suffer from this. ”

Dao Yan sighed: "I have been in Buddhism for many years, and I am still obsessed with all kinds of mundane things in this world. Buddhism is quiet, but the old man never wants to use the emptiness of the four major as an excuse to escape from reality. The reason why King Zuoyan is left is because of this. Everything listens to fate, mortals listen to fate, Lao Qu hopes to use his own strength to achieve fate and rule fate, and for decades, regardless of success or failure, he will not change. ”

Shen Ruoliao said: "Master Gaode; Mr. Yuan's words to face each other did not have the slightest gaffe. ”

Dao Yan smiled: "I am not sexually murderous; But this is often the case in military, political and state affairs, for the sake of a goal, some people have to kill, and sometimes they have to kill. The situation does not change because the authorities are thirsty for murder or not; However, only those who dare to make up their minds and act for the overall situation can ultimately succeed. General Shen once stabbed Zhang Yu and Tan Yuan, and killed tens of thousands of Yan army prisoners without blinking his eyes, and he must agree with what Lao Wei said. ”

Shen Ruoyu sighed softly. "Master, you just said, the third reason?"

Dao Yan didn't answer immediately, but smiled weirdly.

"Shen Shaoxia is less safe and not impatient; When the old man is gone, he will see. ”

Shen Ruoyu looked at Dao Yan's weird smile uneasily, and a trace of confusion came up in his heart. Shen Shaoxia? After he's gone?

He had an inexplicable premonition.

After the tea was drunk, Dao Yan continued to sit for a while, and cut his pulse for him before finally saying goodbye and leaving.

"It's not too early; General Shen has been tired for a day, so please rest. If there is any need, the waiting monk sleeps next door and can call him at any time. If all is well, the old man will come back tomorrow morning. ”

Shen Ruoyu bowed deeply: "The master is so caring, Ruoyu is grateful, and he can't repay it." ”

Dao Yan smiled deeply: "If the general lives up to his old man, please cherish yourself, and don't rebel against nature and destroy yourself." If the world is in order, it will be ruled in order, and if it is reversed, it will be chaotic. The old man only wishes to achieve fate and rule his fate. Amitabha. ”

He folded his hands and bowed deeply. Shen Ruoyu looked at him in inexplicable surprise. Dao Yan stopped talking, exited the room, and closed the door.

Shen Ruoyu turned around, turned his back to the door, and sat down again at the table, looking at the quiet light on the table.

His heart was at peace, empty and calm, just like this meditation room, only waiting and confusion remained.

Cherish yourself, don't go against nature and destroy yourself.

Could it be that Master Daoyan has really seen through his heart, all his ends, and all the reasons?

He doesn't care; Kang Long has regrets, and it turned out to be him who regretted. He was relieved, he felt inexplicably encouraged, he had never been so firm since he made up his mind. This path is right, no matter what awaits him, he has seen the end of the prosperity, the four seas are clear.

If the world is in order, it will be ruled in order, and if it is against it, it will be chaotic......

He was a little flustered; Master Dao Yan was right. If you go with it, you will be able to rule it, and if you go against it, you will be chaotic...... He is forced to rebel against the sky, not to mention himself, but what will happen to the world?

The old man only wishes to achieve fate and rule his fate.

Achieve fate, Shunzhi destiny......

The wooden door of the meditation room in the back gently opened and closed; A gust of evening breeze blows, and the faint fragrance is refreshing. He inhaled deeply, unconsciously intoxicated.

"Master Lao, you should rest early." He said softly, and didn't look back, just that the little monk came in to clean up the table again.

"Ruoxiao, it's me." A long-awaited, incomparably familiar and incomparably distant and unfamiliar voice sounded softly behind him.

Shen Ruoyu was taken aback and turned around.

“…… Xiang'er?! ……”

In another moment, Nightshade's warm lips had sealed his mouth with heat.