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It's dark; Passers-by pay little attention to him. Pen | fun | pavilion www. ｂｉｑｕｇｅ。 info Occasionally someone saw his face and stood in amazement, before he could come to his senses, he had already walked away.

He walked all the way to Yao's pharmacy. More and more people recognized him.

"Shen Ruoliao!" He heard someone shouting.

He hesitated, stopped, turned his head, and glanced coldly.

The man who shouted had run away.

He walked to the door of Yao's pharmacy; The doors are closed. He walked around to the backyard and knocked on the door.

Passers-by stopped to watch. Nightshade opened the back door, pulled him in, and closed the door.

"How did you get here?" She asked, surprised.

He smiled faintly. "I don't want to hide anymore. Besides, I haven't seen the hutongs in Beiping for a long time. ”

She dragged him into the pharmacy; A strong aroma of herbs wafts through the nose.

"Do you need to grab some medicine and fry some soup to make you up?" She asked with a smile.

He laughed too. "Let's make some tea."

I brewed tea at night and brought it to my room. Her room was small and simply furnished, not quite like a girl's room, and there was no sign of a boudoir other than a simple dresser.

"Do you still recognize this?" She walked over to the dresser and picked up a lilac hairpin.

Shen Ruoxiao was slightly stunned. "It's old; I'll go back and buy you a new one, and throw this one away. ”

Night Primrose said: "The older it is, the more reluctant it is to throw it away." ”

"Do you dress up carefully for Young Master Zhu every time?"

Nightshade nodded. "He likes the way I dress up."

She took a sip of her tea and put the cup down. "What about you? Do you want me to dress up? ”

Shen Ruoyu smiled. "Whatever fantasy I have, you will satisfy me?"

"Look what."

Shen Ruoxiao stared at her, silent for a long time, but sighed deeply.

Nightshade took his hand. "What do you think of again?"

Shen Ruoyu rubbed the hard cocoon on her hand, and her heart was just sad.

"You're too bitter about yourself."

Nightshade smiled. "I see, you mean, I've become ugly."

He shook his head and looked her in the eyes sincerely. "You're beautiful, really beautiful, more beautiful than before. You used to be just a beautiful little girl, but now you are a mature beauty, but you are not the definition of beauty in the secular concept. Since ancient times, your life has been thin, and you have a thin life. However, most of the other celebrities go with the flow and let fate slaughter them, but you are not. You are in charge of your own destiny. ”

Night Shade said: "Everyone is different. Aren't you like any other man? ”

Shen Ruoyu said: "You are not as tall as other women; I'm lower than any other man. ”

Nightshade said: "It's just high in your eyes." In the eyes of others, I was just a shameless slut. ”

Shen Ruoyu smiled: "That's fine; I'm low, you're low, I'm relieved. ”

Ye Laixiang also smiled: "You are a thief, I am a good man, and the two of us are also right." ”

Shen Ruoyu was stunned, and said softly: "Life is not satisfactory in the world, and the Ming Dynasty scattered flat boats. ”

Nightshade asked, "You haven't said yet, how do you want me to dress up?" ”

Shen Ruoyu looked at her and said softly, "Spread your hair out, just pin that hairpin." Nothing else, you don't need it. I'm not used to seeing you grease and powder. ”

Nightshade sat down at the dresser, took off the headband, hairpin, and other things on her head, picked up the wooden comb, and smoothed the long hair, and then parted the lilac hairpin at will.

"Anything else?" She asked.

He looked at her infatuatedly, shook his head, and smiled meekly. "That's enough."

She took his hand and walked to the bedside, and the first kiss fell deep on the center of his brow, the scar of twenty-three years.

****

The night was quiet. The moonlight seeped down through the window paper, a soft glow.

"Ruo Liao?" Nightshade felt a chill in her chest, was taken aback, and hugged him tightly. "What's wrong?"

Shen Ruoyu didn't answer, left her, lay to the side, and turned his face sideways.

Night Prima waited for a while, pressed her chest tightly against him, kissed the tears from his face tenderly, and said softly:

"You've been so nervous that you've never let up. You can't keep doing this. ”

He suddenly gripped her hand so tightly that it was like a steel plie, and she felt like her bones were shattering. She twitched in pain, but gritted her teeth and didn't make a sound. Shen Ruoxiao's hands just trembled violently. It was a long time before he let go. She heard his hoarse whisper:

"I'm sorry ......"

She smiled. "I took advantage of others, but you came to apologize?"

Shen Ruoyu sighed softly: "It's me who lost self-control, how can I blame you?" ”

Nightshade put her hand on his chest, feeling his breathing and heartbeat that had not yet calmed down, and gently stroked the scar on his chest.

She said, "Your perverted self-control is what I hate about you the most. ”

He smiled lightly. "You like to make me skinny?"

Ye Laixiang said: "I may not have been sent by King Yan to seduce you and make you confess." ”

She grabbed his hand and clasped it around her breast.

"Why did you betray King Yan?"

In the grove by the river, he had accidentally stumbled upon the same place; Soft, delicate, stubborn, you can feel the warm elasticity on your fingertips and palms.

"If King Yan sends you to be a spy, I will definitely be reluctant to kill you."

"Don't interrupt; Recruit it honestly. ”

Shen Ruoyu held her face and said seriously:

"Xiang'er, I am now the most dangerous person in the whole of Beiping - I am afraid that I am the most dangerous person in the whole world. Not to mention how the prince will clean me up after he ascends the throne; No one in the city of Beiping now hates me. I know you're independent and strong; But being independent and strong is not enough to support you as an enemy of the people of Jeonbukpyeong. What the prince did to my mother, in the final analysis, was just his way to rectify the person alone. Can you imagine what the whole of Peiping will do when they want to rectify you? I know it's a little too late to tell. ”

Nightshade quietly pondered for a while.

She said: "The most precious thing for a woman is chastity; The most precious thing for a man is the name of faithfulness and righteousness. You have lost your reputation for faithfulness and righteousness, and I have lost my chastity. You don't care, and I don't care. The only thing left now is a cheap life. How much is life compared to what you and I've discarded? As long as it's worth it, there's nothing to be afraid of. So I just need to know if it's worth it. Actually, you don't have to tell me, no matter what the reason is, I know you're definitely worth it. ”

Shen Ruoyu smiled helplessly. "It's not that I can't tell you, I'm just afraid that you will be disappointed, give me two more slaps, and leave with your hands and ignore me again."

"You divorced your wife, Aunt Ren was humiliated by Yan Jun in every way, and she almost lost her life; I'm not afraid of these, but I'm afraid of two slaps from me, ignoring you? ”

Shen Ruoyu looked at her gently: "Xiang'er, I still remember that time, outside the back door of Huiying Building, you gave me a slap in the face, saying that you should never see me again - do you know how disheartened I was at that time?" Later, on the night of the wedding, I opened the door and saw you standing there - I wanted to hold you in my arms and never let you leave. I just don't have the guts to accept that I would have such a thought. You scolded me, and I can still recite it to this day. ”

Nightshade is angry and funny.

"I scolded you, I don't even remember it, why are you so careful. If you're worried, just don't tell me. I can't promise you that whatever you say, I will never beat you up, and I will not ignore you. You do so at your own risk. ”

Shen Ruoyu said: "Lord Yao also said the same thing as you. ”

"Lord Yao also said that you are careful?"

Shen Ruoxiao shook his head. "It's not. Master Yao said, no matter what my reason is, since I have done it, I should have the courage to bear all the burdens. He wouldn't draw a line with me. ”

Ye Laixiang said: "You finally stop working against Lord Yao now?" Are you finally grateful? Or, finally dare to be grateful? ”

Shen Ruoyu smiled bitterly: "I'm afraid it's not daring, but I can't dare anymore." He's done so much, after all, I knew his good intentions from the beginning, and I just- always believed that he was too close to me to do him any good. I am very different from him, he has everything that is the envy of the world, and he can't afford to lose; I didn't want to drag him into the water. ”

"But he didn't buy it, and he kept forcing you to pretend to collapse and soften completely," Ye Laixiang said: "He can't afford to lose, it's he who has the final say, you don't count." Me too, I decide my own business, you don't want to control me. ”

Shen Ruoyu said: "In the final analysis, you have never been dependent; But I've always had dependence. ”

Nightshade smiled smugly: "I need to cover you, I already knew." ”

Shen Ruoyu smiled shyly.

"Xiang'er, do you remember that on the night of the Chinese New Year's in the thirty-first year of Hongwu, you ran to me?"

"On the night of your wedding; Of course I remember. Do you remember, I said at the time, I like to walk behind you, but I don't like to walk in your shadow. ”

Shen Ruoyu smiled melancholy: "You have never." You've been walking in the sun with your head held high, on your own, better than anyone else. ”

"At that time, you said, 'A great and holy monarch must be a loving monarch at the same time. He can usurp the throne, just as Li Shimin can also kill his brother and seize the throne; But he must not rape the people's daughters and trample on the good, if he can't be perfect in these little things, he can't achieve great things at all. 'The prince's treatment of the Huailai defenders' family has been called brutal by the whole world. Now he's doing the same to your mother; Has your perception changed? What do you think now? Or is it that his atrocities against the Huailai defenders caused you to betray him and turn allegiance to the Son of Heaven? Or, you betrayed him and went to help the Son of Heaven, because the Son of Heaven was in a weak position, and your sense of justice drove you to help the weak? ”

Shen Ruoyu said: "If these two reasons, do you think I can forgive?" ”

Nightshade sighed, "I'm sure it's not either of these two reasons. Your ability to kill people is as brutal as the prince. Your mother is now here, although you are sad, but you are not shaken by it. As for helping the weak - your ideals are the same as those of King Yan, for the sake of your own ideals, you don't want the autumn wind, will you care about helping a weak man? I don't think these things have any place in your heart. ”

Shen Ruoyu said: "The prince once said a sentence, he said: 'How can the world be easy to get, if it is too easy, it will not know how to cherish it, but it will drag all the people into a long-term disaster, and it will be easier to lose the world, just like five generations and ten kingdoms.'" You yourself have said that if the source of light is in heaven, it is impossible for the earth to be without shadows. Yuan Tingyu gave the prince a fortune for his life, and he didn't say anything. Ninety-six, Kang Long has regrets. ”

Nightshade looked at him intently, listened attentively, and frowned slightly; She had vaguely understood what he meant.

Shen Ruoyu said: "I've always been scared. I dream that the world can realize the grand view of the Tang Dynasty that the prince idealized. However, what the prince said, what you said, and what Mr. Yuan said made me more and more afraid. Compared with the strength of the prince and the Jianwen Son of Heaven, the Son of Heaven is weak, and there is no way to compete with the prince. If the prince rises up to seize the throne too smoothly, if this world comes too easily, he probably won't know how to cherish it. After all, the prince is not perfect, far from being a saint, and his decisions are not necessarily desirable in many cases. I was by the side of the Son of Heaven to help the Son of Heaven establish Wenzhi, and to use Wenzhi to fight against the prince's martial arts was to indirectly create obstacles for the prince; Helping the Son of Heaven to command the army is to directly confront the prince. I knew that the prince would win in the end, because my heart had always been on King Yan. But he can't win too quickly, I have to make him realize that he has shortcomings, both in terms of discipline and martial arts. Otherwise, he inherited the unification and felt that he was destined to be omnipotent, and at this time, how could others make him believe that he had shortcomings and needed to be cautiously improved? I thought about helping him lay down the country, and then be a reprimand; After all, the trauma caused by the war to the people of the country is too great to be a good thing, and I don't want this war to last. But after thinking about it, admonition does not guarantee the effect after all; If he had never tasted failure, how would he listen to me, even if I had given my life to admonish? If I had to choose between three years of civil war and decades of constant turmoil between the five dynasties and ten kingdoms, could I really have a choice? ”

Nightshade looked at him quietly and didn't speak for a long time.

Shen Ruoxiao was a little uneasy. "Xiang'er? Do you think two slaps are a bit too cheap for me? ”

Nightshade sighed deeply.

"If there are few, I ...... I was a little scared. ”

Shen Ruoyu smiled. "It's a good thing you know to be afraid."

Nightshade said: "You are a dead end. Even if you tell King Yan that he won't believe it, you can't see for yourself. In the eyes of ordinary people, your idea is simply ridiculous, and no one would do it. ”

Shen Ruoyu said: "I know; So I'm not going to tell anyone. ”

"Why did you tell me?"

He smiled. "I can't stand your temptation."

Ye Laixiang said angrily: "This is only the lightest test, you can't stand it; How long do you expect to walk down this dead end? ”

"Xiang'er," Shen Ruoyu held her hand tightly, "Don't tell anyone what I told you." ”

Ye Laixiang said helplessly: "I want to tell King Yan, can he believe it?" You say what you think like a madman, who can believe it? ”

Shen Ruoyu smiled faintly and said, "I'm afraid that once the prince believes it, he will hate me even more." Because I'm questioning his abilities; Because, in this way, it also shows that I have never been loyal to him, to the Son of Heaven, and to anyone. ”

Night Lai Xiang sighed: "You are only loyal to your ideals. However, with the identity and personality of the prince, it is inevitable to regard it as an insult. ”

Shen Ruoyu said: "That's why, I can't tell him." I know I'm ridiculous, but I'm the only one who is ridiculous, I don't care; You don't have to be ridiculous with me. I don't expect anything from you, you understand? ”

"After a long time, you treat me as a trash can, for you to confide in? It's not the first time we've been ridiculous together, and I need you to be merciful now. ”

Shen Ruoyu asked softly: "What do you think if I take you away, leave Beiping, and wander the world from now on?" ”

Nightshade was slightly stunned: "...... Are you serious? ”

Shen Ruoyu said: "I once firmly believed that I would go to the end. But...... Now, it's hard for me to make up my mind anymore. ”

Nightshade said: "Don't say it's because of me. ”

Shen Ruoyu said in a low voice: "In the past, I didn't have myself in my heart, and I didn't have any person. Now that there is suddenly, it doesn't matter if it's you or it's me, what's the difference? ”

Ye Laixiang hesitated for a moment and said, "You mean, leaving Beiping, never asking about politics again, just going incognito and flying away?" ”

Shen Ruoyu said: "Almost." Whether it's an escape or a pursuit, I can't tell. ”

Nightshade asked, "Where are you going?" ”

Shen Ruoyu shook his head. "I don't know. It doesn't matter where I go. See where you want to go. You said you have a lot of places you want to go to, and I'll be with you. ”

"Do you want to live with me for the rest of your life?" Nightshade asked softly.

Shen Ruoyu said: "I think; However, if I live with you for the rest of my life, I will not allow you to be so close to other men like Young Master Zhu. Would you still like it? ”

Ye Laixiang said: "Do you think that if I live with you for the rest of my life, I will agree to you messing with flowers and grass outside?" ”

Shen Ruoyu smiled. "I thought you were free and stood firm for your rights; No one can control you. ”

"You still can't control me," Nightshade said, "I control myself, and I never deceive myself." I'm just making a deal with Young Master Zhu, I'm not making a deal with you. ”

“…… Then you...... Agreed? ”

Night Prime: "In your own words, this temptation is too great to say. I just doubt that if you can't make up your mind to continue on your dead end, will you be able to make up your mind to give up your ideals and really escape from the mountains and forests? ”

Shen Ruoyu sighed. "You always see through me."

Nightshade comforted tolerantly, "I know you're just hesitating. Don't worry, you still have time to think about it slowly. I haven't saved enough money yet, let alone have to feed two people now. ”

Shen Ruoyu protested: "Xiang'er, if you don't let me feed you, it's fine; How can I let you feed me? ”

Ye Laixiang ridiculed: "You have this little ability, what do you rely on to live without politics." It's easy to brag. ”

Shen Ruoyu said in despair: "Don't give me a reason why I can't go......"

Nightshade sat up, kissed the center of his brow, and whispered softly:

"Then I'll give you another reason to go."

She took his hands and placed them on her chest; Then he leaned down and kissed his face, neck, lips, chest, and the scars all over his body, all the way down.