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For two nights in a row, Nightshade did not come. Pen, fun, pavilion www. biquge。 info Shen Ruoyu knew that she must be accompanying Yao Jizhu, so she didn't wait for her, turned off the lights and went to sleep, but it was difficult to fall asleep. The emptiness on the pillow was as empty and fragile as the emptiness and fragility in his heart. He had never known that he could be so lonely, and that this loneliness was more intense and deeper than at any time in twenty-three years. During the day, he longed to see her again soon in the evening. ===Douluo Continent 3 Legend of the Dragon King/book/52261/===. At this moment, he longed to have her by his side, longing for this life and this life, and there would never be a moment of separation. The loneliness he had been accustomed to for many years had only disappeared in just a few days, and when he came back, he could no longer bear it.

Early in the morning, Yao Biao came to see him and found that his face was worse than the day before.

"You haven't slept all night?"

Shen Ruoxiao smiled: "I can't sleep; I think I slept too much before. ”

Yao Biao took his pulse.

"How's your practice?"

Shen Ruoyu shook his head: "I didn't practice." ”

"Haven't been practicing?"

He smiled lightly and said softly: "My life is hard to protect, not to mention that the autumn wind has been discarded; What is the meaning of martial arts to me now? ”

Yao Biao looked at him contemplatively.

"I didn't expect Shen Ruoyu to say such a thing." He sighed. "Xiang'er didn't come over last night?"

Shen Ruoyu was slightly startled. "Your Excellency?"

Yao Biao said calmly: "I know that in the past few days, she has come over to accompany you every night. She didn't come for the past two nights, and you don't blame her, there's something going on in the pharmacy. ”

Shen Ruoyu said lightly: "It's Young Master Zhu, right?" I understand. ”

Yao Biao hesitated, a little upset.

"Xiao'er, there is a choice, I don't know if you have thought about it?"

Shen Ruoliao said: "I have never had a choice. You say? ”

Yao Biao said: "You can leave Beiping, stay away from politics from now on, take Xiang'er, fly away, and wander the world." ”

Shen Ruoyu said: "It's not that I haven't thought about it; In the past two days, I have been thinking about it a lot. But I have my life, and I have my unfinished business; Now that I've taken this path, I shouldn't run away from it. ”

"You've come this far, and you can't escape it. There is no road that must be held until it goes dark. You have done your best, and you have nothing to control in the future, it is better to leave, there is another vast world in life, why hang yourself on a tree. ”

"Master, I'll take Xiang'er away, what should I do with Young Master Zhu?"

Yao Biao looked at him, frowning slightly. "What can he do? From the beginning, Xiang'er did not belong to him. He himself understands. ”

He sighed. "Xiao'er, Zhu'er asked me if he wanted to marry Xiang'er, but he couldn't. I didn't agree, not because of Xiang'er's origin; I'm just a mountain medicine farmer myself, I don't care about this, not to mention that Xiang'er is a rare good girl. I didn't agree because her heart was never on Zhu'er. It's so obvious that anyone can see it. Even if Zhu'er marries her, it is impossible to circle her for the rest of her life. Since there is no end, why should there be a beginning? Xiang'er is a very special girl, her heart is very high, unwilling, and restless; Being a good wife and mother has never been her ideal in life. I think Zhu'er also understood later that he could call her at the pharmacy at will, and even let her spend the night with him, but he couldn't get her after all. For Xiang'er, I'm afraid that among all the men in the world, you are the only one special. It's better to let you take her away, she just wants to run out too. ”

Shen Ruoyu smiled melancholy. "Young Master Zhu must hate me to death now, right?"

Yao Biao was as calm as ever. "Even without you, he wouldn't get Xiang'er either. This has nothing to do with you, it's that they are not suitable at all. ”

Shen Ruoyu sighed: "If I really leave, won't the prince turn around to be angry with the adult?" ”

Yao Biao said: "At most, I will go back to my hometown." It can't get worse than that. At my age, it was time for me to return to my hometown. You only think about what you want, and you don't have to worry about me. No matter how unlucky I am, I'll be luckier than you. You think about it; If it's decided, I'll prepare you two to coil. ”

"Master," Shen Ruoyu asked softly, "What makes you refuse to give up on me?" Ever since -- since I escaped from Nightfall. ”

Yao Biao thought for a moment.

"What makes you so persistent in yourself, and what beliefs do you have for your own sake, taking this desperate path and persevering to this day?"

Shen Ruoyu shook his head and said, "It's different; I have hope, I can see the end, I know it's worth it. ”

Yao Biao smiled slightly and said lightly: "The same." ”

That nightshade finally came, opened the door silently, crept up behind him, and blindfolded him.

Shen Ruoyu turned around, hugged her tightly, pressed against her face, didn't speak, just took a deep breath, indulging in the dark fragrance of her hair and shoulders and neck.

"Are you okay?" she asked. I didn't come here because Master Zhu needed me. That's what I have to do. ”

He said softly, "I understand. ”

Nightshade looked at him inquiringly: "Are you angry?" Jealous? ”

Shen Ruoxiao shook his head and stared into her eyes. She saw that there was pain and sadness in her eyes.

"Xiang'er, you're too bitter. I shouldn't have made it so hard for you. ”

Nightshade comforted: "It's my own choice, I never feel bitter." Especially now, knowing that with you, I am motivated to do anything. ”

"Have you had dinner? Do you want to drink tea? ”

"I've eaten it. Let's make some tea. ”

He makes tea; Her gaze fell on the table.

"You have a piano and a book now, how are your days?"

Shen Ruoyu brought the tea and sat down at the table.

"I wanted to have it when I didn't have it before. Now that I have it - I have never touched the piano, and I am always in a bad mood. The book can only read some rhetoric of the Northern and Southern Dynasties, and I can't read anything a little deeper. ”

"You're overly sorrowful," Nightshade said softly. "Do you want me to sing to you?"

Shen Ruoliao smiled. "Okay; Sing lightly, don't make a noise with the little monk next door. ”

Nightshade sang two songs softly, both of which were vulgar tunes learned in Huiying Building. Shen Ruoyu didn't care; His heart was too heavy to listen to anything too serious.

After singing at night, looking at the rare smile in Shen Ruoliao's eyes, he only felt a sour feeling in his chest. She walked up to him, sat down on his lap, and kissed him.

"Ruoxiao, do you want me tonight?"

Shen Ruoyu still only smiled lightly. "Xiang'er, I said-"

"Master told me that your injuries have healed, but your strength has not yet recovered, and your internal strength is weak, and you have given up on yourself and refused to practice."

Shen Ruoyu couldn't help blushing. "If you know, why do you ask? Aren't you afraid that I won't be able to satisfy you? ”

Ye Laixiang smiled charmingly, Shen Ruoyu was slightly stunned, he had never seen such a mood in her eyes, it was irresistible, and it made his heart shake.

"I'm not afraid," she said. You know why? For tonight it is I who will serve you, not you. I don't want you to hurt yourself, you just have to lie down and enjoy it. ”

Shen Ruoyu looked at her in surprise for a moment, and smiled a little helplessly.

"Xiang'er...... He sighed and said with a smile: "This is Qingshou Temple, a place where the four major Buddhist gates are empty. There was a little monk sleeping next door, let him hear it, wouldn't it be in vain for him to practice for several years? I want you, and you can see how much I want to. But we can't do that in this place. ”

Nightshade was a little disappointed: "But, you can only live here, can't we do it all the time?" ”

Shen Ruoyu smiled: "Bear with it; I share the same bed with Qiu'er every night, and I can't endure it. It's not hard for me. As far as you're concerned, you're still Young Master Zhu isn't. ”

Nightshade's eyes suddenly lit up.

"I've got a solution. Come to me. ”

"Where are you?"

"I have a room in the Yao family's pharmacy, and when Young Master Zhu doesn't need me, I sleep in the pharmacy. Tomorrow night, you come to the pharmacy to look for me, and no one will be disturbed. ”

"......" Shen Ruoyu opened his mouth for a while, not knowing what to say.

Seeing him hesitating, Ye Laixiang said again: "You don't have to worry, I will tell Young Master Zhu in advance that he doesn't sleep in the pharmacy anyway, and he won't care." ”

Shen Ruoyu said: "Xiang'er, you know that he is actually not happy in his heart, and you know that he wants to marry you." ”

Ye Laixiang said: "It doesn't matter if he wants to marry me or not, the eldest young master of the Yao family will not be able to marry me in the end no matter what." There will be no end to this matter from the beginning. He also knew that he and I were just using each other and trading with each other. He's used to it. He won't be happy, but since I'm not going to be with him, he won't be happy no matter what, with or without you. ”

She waited for a moment, but did not answer, and urged in a low voice: "You speak, say that you will definitely go, and say that I will wait for you." ”

Shen Ruoyu looked at her, so she was not bitter. "Xiang'er, this temptation is too great, it's not very difficult to say; However, I am under house arrest, not on vacation, so how can I be so leisurely, and go wherever I want—"

Nightshade smiled. "Shen Ruoliao will always be Shen Ruoliao, a natural cheapness. I'll say hello to Master Dao Yan when I turn around, and then you just need to say goodbye. ”

The next morning, Shen Ruoyu opened his eyes, and Nightshade was no longer around, as always.

Throughout the day, he was depressed to the extreme. After Yao Biao left, he walked out of the door and walked around the bamboo forest. Verdant bamboo forest, the sun is shining down. As if vaguely, there was another sound of the piano leisurely, and he followed the sound of the piano, Nangong Qiu was sitting in the forest stroking the qin, with long hair hanging down his waist, wearing a light-colored long skirt, gently floating away with the wind, like a huge aquatic plant.

Qiu'er, how are you doing now? I hope I've already left the Kyoshi. Is Hongjiang good to you? Where are you now? Have you returned to Wuling?

I shouldn't have brought you out in the first place, I shouldn't. I shouldn't have married you, should I? I do not know.

Once thought of Qing'er, my heart was full of painful remorse. I did everything I could and couldn't do, for fear of hurting you again. In the end, the damage is inevitable. I probably shouldn't have brought you out in the first place.

I can only be glad that you still have Hongjiang by your side. He should treat you better than I am? Can he make you forget about me?

Nangong Qiu just played the piano and didn't answer, not even raising his head to look at him.

It's dark. Dao Yan pushed open the door and saw Shen Ruoyu sitting quietly in the room.

"Why is the young man still here? The carriage has been waiting for a long time. ”

Shen Ruoyu said: "Master, I'm just a criminal minister. ”

Dao Yan smiled slightly: "In the opinion of secular people, she is just a lowly maidservant, it doesn't matter. ”

Shen Ruoyu lowered his head. "I'm even more scared - my resolve has been shaken in the past two days. For more than two years, the determination and willpower that have never wavered. If I'm gone, I'm likely to collapse. I...... I can't imagine ......."

Dao Yan said slowly: "If this is really the case, it is a good thing. Lao Wei and Master Yao can't persuade you with their hard words, but Xiang'er has already done it with her backhand. ”

Shen Ruoyu looked up at Dao Yan; The monk saw that his eyes were full of traces of struggle.

"Never have I ever...... It's so unproductive......"

Dao Yan smiled and said slowly: "Looking at Taoism, there is no value in things. No one can destroy the sky. ”

In terms of Taoism, there is no value in things.

No one can destroy the sky.

"Autumn Water Returns to the Heart".

It's been six years. Perhaps, in the past six years, he has never really understood the true meaning of "Autumn Water Returning to the Heart".

Dao Yan said empathetically: "The carriage is waiting outside, and the young man is making his own opinion. The old man retired first. ”

"Master," Shen Ruoyu called softly, "I don't need a carriage, I can walk over by myself." ”

Dao Yan hesitated. “…… General sure? ”

Shen Ruoyu said: "There are many things that I have been dodging, and it is not a solution. Now that I have decided to bear all the burdens and consequences, I should have the courage to face all possibilities. I couldn't hide anymore, I walked over on my own. ”

Dao Yan thought for a while, clasped his hands together and said, "The general is at his own convenience." The old man took his leave. ”

Shen Ruoyu waited for Dao Yan to leave, stood up, and straightened his clothes and headscarves.

There is no autumn wind.

At this time, he realized that he needed the autumn wind. What is about to face, if the autumn wind is still there, he will have something to rely on, knowing that he can support it. However, he has lost even the autumn wind.

He gritted his teeth, walked out of the door, walked out of the temple, and left Qingshou Temple.