Chapter 60: Shame and Face

Speaking of his daughter Ke'er, Guo Fan's heart was full of guilt. Pen | fun | pavilion www. biquge。 info

In 2004, after she came to the team with her mother, when she reached the age of kindergarten, she was sent to the army kindergarten. But her hometown dialect stumped the teacher. She struggled to communicate with the teacher, who didn't know what she was talking about, the first time she was away from her parents for a long time, facing an unfamiliar environment, but the language barrier, her young heart was traumatized.

Fortunately, children learn everything quickly, and slowly she learned Mandarin. But the good times didn't last long, because her family unit urged her to go back to work, Guo Fan, as a soldier, trained all day long, and she had no time to take it, so she had to return to her hometown with her daughter.

The hometown is familiar, the environment is familiar, but the language is not familiar. Ke'er's Mandarin with her mouth closed and her hometown, she was born in her hometown, which made people in her hometown laugh at "You are a foreigner". Thanks to the work relationship of her family Guo Hong, Keer went to preschool ahead of schedule, and she was the only Mandarin speaker at school, becoming an "alternative". Children, I don't know so much, but I always feel different from others, and my heart is covered with a thin veil. The language habits did not change until the first grade of primary school.

In the second grade of primary school, in order to allow Ke'er to get a better education, and Guo Hong also had the conditions to join the army, Guo Fan took the two of them to the army again. She didn't speak the same language again.

Then there was a huge problem: as soon as the daughter spoke, she covered her mouth with her hand, and as soon as she spoke, she covered her mouth with her hand, and at first thought she was changing her teeth and was shy, but soon found out that this was not the case. She was afraid that someone would say that she was "alternative". The original sharp-toothed daughter has become taciturn, and her original lively and active personality has also become introverted. This gave Guo Fan a deep stimulus, and he decided never to let his daughter leave him again, and he wanted to pour all his fatherly love into her. In order to improve her daughter's musical accomplishment, according to her daughter's wishes, she enrolled in a violin class, rain or shine every weekend, which made Guo Hong suffer. If you want to say that the mother is great, it is great here, because it is the nature of a mother to love her children, just like obeying orders is the duty of a soldier.

There are things that never fulfill people's wishes.

In 2009, Guo Fan was sent by the organization to participate in intermediate training in colleges and universities. He put the two of them at the crossroads of choice.

Because Guo Hong did not arrange a job after joining the army, and there was no one to take care of the two women in the army, it was difficult to deal with three long and two short, so she made the decision to take her daughter home to school. After Guo Fan returns from his studies, he will bring his daughter back.

Thankfully, it was stable for a few years.

At the beginning of 2015, Keer was in her second year of junior high school. With a paper order, Guo Fan went to the troops stationed in Hubei again. As a last resort, Ke'er can only follow the "war". Guo Fan is like drinking five-flavor soup, and he has everything in his heart. Everything is not subject to the will of the individual, and this is the peculiarity of the army. has been a soldier for more than 20 years, Guo Fan still understands this truth, and understands it very well. If each person has a trumpet, each blows its own tune, does its own thing, and stresses subjective will and objective conditions, then it will be impossible for this unit to win a battle, and it will not even be able to touch the edge of victory.

If the preschool class is counted as a kindergarten class, Guo Fan calculated his daughter's school experience: kindergarten went to two provinces, primary school went to two provinces, and junior high school went to two provinces. Fortunately, her daughter's mentality is still relatively sunny, which can be regarded as a comfort to Guo Fan.

As she wrote in her composition:

"My father was a soldier and I was transferred to another school because of the transfer with the army. So when people ask me where your home is, I always think, what is he asking, which home in which city? I was born in Henan, I started to take the train when I was two months old, and after the economy was developed, I took the high-speed rail, and traveled back and forth in several cities. ”

"I don't have a few girlfriends, because there will be a situation where I don't see people when I play, I don't like to be in contact with people, my mother once asked me, do you hate me? I don't hate it, it's exciting to get in touch with new things, and it's also a training for me, and besides, it's not up to my dad to decide when to go. ”

Now that Ke'er has entered high school, Guo Fan can no longer let her daughter follow her to "fight", she must be relieved to finish her studies, and she can't delay her daughter's studies because of herself.

In the face of his lover and daughter, Guo Fan was still indebted, and a feeling of apology could not let him go.

The balance of his emotions has shifted, and there will be a deviation in his daily education and the handling of things. It is still necessary to give strict guidance to the education of children, and to guide them in time when they find signs of them, to enlighten them in time when their thoughts are wrong, and to guide them in time when they are difficult and confused. "If the Son does not teach, the Father is guilty". He must come out of this feeling of guilt and face his loved ones and everything with a normal state of mind. In this way, the family can be regularized. The title of "House of Scholars", which the whole family has finally obtained, can be continued from generation to generation.

Guo Fan's family, although there is bitterness, but it is also very ordinary, he is a portrayal of thousands of military families, in the Tashan army like his family abounds, maybe the children's school is not as complicated as Ke'er, but it is not much worse. Because the military is such a wandering profession; Because the military is such a dedicated post; Because of a soldier, his life is a capital life, big enough to accommodate a lot of grievances, a lot of sweat, a lot of loneliness, and a lot of touching, a lot of happiness, and a lot of wonderful.