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Winter is coming, God starts the refrigeration equipment, and the heaven and earth are adjusted to be extremely cold. The smog is performing magic tricks for people again, and the tall buildings and pedestrian vehicles that are a little farther away make you unable to see clearly when you open your eyes in broad daylight, and the sun seems to be suffering from anemia, hiding its pale face behind the gray sky, timidly looking down on the city of Beijing filled with polluted air.

Yang Chuanfu and Director Gou wore anti-smog masks and carried fruits, and went to the PLA General Hospital to visit Fei Yuanqing together.

Fei Yuanqing seems to be much older, his body is emaciated, his face is sallow, wrinkles are stretching wantonly on his face, and his hair is mercilessly turning from gray to completely white.

Yang Chuanfu has often visited Fei Yuanqing in the hospital recently, and he didn't feel how much Fei Yuanqing had changed, Director Gou and Fei Yuanqing hadn't seen each other for two or three months, and they were taken aback when they suddenly saw him.

Fei Yuanqing's condition has been relatively stable recently, although the disease has not been completely cured, but the bad indicators on his body are declining, and the good indicators are rising.

Seeing two old friends come to visit him together, Fei Yuanqing seemed very happy and in a better mood, because there were other patients in the room, and it was not convenient to speak, so he led Yang Chuanfu and Director Gou to the patient lounge outside the ward.

"How are you eating and sleeping lately, look good on your face."

Director Gou's words were both like greetings and comforts.

Fei Yuanqing laughed out loud and said to Director Gou: "I can't talk about anything 'good' now, but eating and sleeping are okay." Listening to the 'bureau seat', you also participated in the writing class organized by the military retirement center, and I really envy you, you can still fulfill your childhood dreams when you are old. When I was young, I was also a lover of literature, and recently I was bored in a hospital bed, and I also made up some things, and I described myself as "gray hair, wrinkled face, dizzy eyes, staggering, watching the sunset during the day, stargazing at the stars and the moon at night, taking one step at a time, and living one day at a time." ’”

Yang Chuanfu said: "I sometimes come to see you lying on the hospital bed writing and painting, but I didn't expect you to write poetry. However, through what you write, it can be seen that your attitude towards life is still a little negative. Illness is a guest who doesn't like to make an appointment in advance, everyone has the possibility to meet it, and our attitude towards it should be 'once it comes, it will be safe'. ”

"The flowers bloom for a while, the grass grows for an autumn, and people live for a lifetime. When the flowers fall and bloom, the grass withers have their own germination day, people are sick, especially the elderly, they may or may not be cured, they may not be cured, they will continue to fight, and they will not be cured to say goodbye to life. In my life, the road of life can be said to be tortuous and complicated, full of dangers, unlike some people who travel unhindered and have a smooth journey. On the road of life, some people got on the wrong bus, and some people got off the wrong station, and I chose the wrong direction for moving in the middle of the road, and to put it bluntly, I should not transfer from the army. Although you are now also managed by the local government, you still enjoy the housing, salary, and medical treatment of military personnel, while we 'old transfers' are worse in these aspects, so that now I don't even have a house of my own, and I have to bear a lot of expenses for medical treatment. I sometimes think that it is not easy for a person to live in the world, always hesitate for the decision to move forward and backward, always think about the choice of left and right, I have lived for more than 60 years, it is enough to be a person, I am not lucky to leave late, and I am not sorry to leave early. ”

Yang Chuanfu listened to Fei Yuanqing's words, shook his head and said: "I don't agree with your point of view, I have told you many times before, a person's life is just a road from the delivery room to the cemetery, the distance between the two points is limited, if a person's life path is too straight and smooth, it will seem very short, only after twists and turns, his life path will appear longer than others." Therefore, a man is fortunate to have taken the straight road, and he has suffered less from some treks; It was also lucky for a person to take a detour, and he saw some more roadside scenery. ”

Director Gou also persuaded Fei Yuanqing on the side: "Director Yang is right, everyone's life path will not be the same, the tortuous ones are not necessarily worse than the straight ones, and one person is different from another, and the path taken cannot be exactly the same." There is only one you in the world, you are out of print, incomparable, can not be copied, whether it is youth, prime of life or old age, everyone has to live their own characteristics, inferiority is self-destructive image, self-confidence has the momentum to move forward. When we reach our age, we should eat, drink, and not worry about anything. Don't get along with the past, the past is in the past, don't get along with the present, the present will pass. A person's life, walking with a smile and walking with a cry, is such a long way, some people have practiced laughing all their lives, and he just stopped crying in the end; Some people sometimes want to cry too, but he just can't hold back his laughter. ”

"When people are old, they should be satisfied with what they have, cherish what they have gained, and don't ask others how they are doing, don't climb one or two, avoid being angry with themselves, and don't always regret what they have done in the past. People can't always complain about the ups and downs of fate, God is unfair, God is very busy, and he has no time to ask about the things of the world. People can have a moment of psychological imbalance, but don't always dwell on some things in the world that are difficult to balance. Yang Chuanfu is also enlightening Fei Yuanqing, "Because the earth is unbalanced, there are rivers and mountains; Because of the unbalanced climate, there are springs, summers, autumns and winters; Because of the imbalance in life, there are colorful and different lives. ”

Director Gou also said: "Teacher Fei has been to many units and occupations from grassroots to organs, from organs to academies, from soldiers to cadres, and from military cadres to local people, which is a good thing, not a bad thing. Some people's lives are monotonous, which is equivalent to repeating a day more than 20,000 times, and a lifetime is like living only one day. ”

"And the unit you have worked in, people are well-known and praised, and your performance in work is remarkable."

Yang Chuanfu's words had some hints of ridicule.

"It's ridiculous, Coca-Cola!" Fei Yuanqing also joked to his two old friends, "You two students of the writing class of the military retirement center today are like giving a eulogy at the farewell ceremony of the body, and it is like holding an essay contest in front of me. It should be said that through this hospitalization, I have also understood some things, and I am not as negative and pessimistic as I used to be. I deeply understand that a person can be miserable for a lifetime or happy for a lifetime, and the main reason for the pain in life is to think about some things too complicated, first of all, he himself will not be simple; The important way to be happy in life is not to increase material wealth, but to lower the standard requirements, pure heart and few desires are a person's intangible assets, but also an inexhaustible source of happiness. (To be continued.) )