Xiaogang's mood has dropped to the freezing point in the past few days, his face is always condensed with an indissoluble sadness, the amount of food is smaller, he talks less, and the whole person seems to have become much older all of a sudden. Pen × fun × Pavilion www. ｂｉｑｕｇｅ。 ｉｎｆｏ

He's been in trouble lately.

First of all, after Xiaoyuan took him to the hospital and let a doctor she knew briefly look at him, the doctor did not understand what was wrong with him, but only said that his physical condition was relatively poor, and recommended him to do further examinations. Afterwards, the doctor told Xiaoyuan alone that Xiaogang had several lumps in his neck, but it was not necessarily malignant, he was more likely to have mental problems, and it was best to be hospitalized, and then let the oncology department and neurology department check it.

The second is that Wenxiu jumped from the seventh floor two days ago - of course, she didn't think it was troublesome to walk up the stairs, but because her newly married boyfriend checked the quality of Simmons mattresses with her in the hotel room for several nights, and after her savings of hundreds of thousands of yuan were swept away, she played missing, and she couldn't think about it for a while, so she took the road of suicide.

Seeing Xiaogang's dejected appearance after hearing the news, Xiaoyuan persuaded him: "Wenxiu has nothing to do with you for a long time, and you have no responsibility for her death." ”

Xiaogang said bitterly: "You can't say that, the last time she called me, if my attitude was a little better, she might not have rushed into the arms of another man, and I can not bear any legal responsibility for her death, nor do I have to bear any obligations." But, after all, we are a husband and wife who have lived together, and I hate her later because she was unfaithful to me, but sometimes hate is a continuation of love, and the more you want to forget a person in your heart, the deeper the imprint of this person in your heart. For Wenxiu's death, the blame of conscience makes me feel more uncomfortable than other responsibilities and obligations. ”

Xiaoyuan was both sympathetic and pitiful to her brother, and didn't say anything more, she just hoped that after a period of time, she could gradually downplay this matter.

After work that afternoon, Xiaoyuan went to Xiaogang's room and whispered to him: "I sent 5,000 yuan to Wenxiu's family in your name this morning, Wenxiu's father and younger brother have come to Beijing to deal with her funeral, their original phone number has not changed, and her mother told me the account number of their bank passbook." ”

Xiaogang nodded gratefully and said, "You still have this heart, but five thousand yuan seems to be a little less." ”

"I also don't think the money I sent is much, I scraped together some money today, and I am going to pay you for the hospitalization."

Xiao Gang listened to Xiao Yuan's words, and did not look surprised, but said calmly: "In the end, I still have to be hospitalized, what kind of disease do I have?" ”

"It's hard to say right now, and you won't be able to diagnose it until you're hospitalized, or it's just a cyst or nodule. You will call the leader of the unit to ask for a leave of absence, and tomorrow we will go to the inpatient department to have a look, because there are more people who are going to be hospitalized now, and it may take a few days to get in line. ”

Xiao Yuan thought in her heart that she would be more relaxed when talking to Xiao Gang, but her face was not cooperative, and her expression looked a little sad.

"Don't worry too much about my illness, even if it's a malignant tumor, I'm not afraid, I remembered what someone else said: Lao Tzu didn't plan to go back alive when he came to this world. Since a person has to die early and late, what does it matter if he lives a few years less, what worries me most is how to tell my parents about this? ”

Xiaoyuan listened to Xiaogang's words, felt empty in her heart, and said in a low voice: "Brother, you can't give up on yourself, even if it is a malignant tumor, modern medicine is very developed, and there is great hope for a cure, not to mention that it has not been diagnosed yet." As for Mom and Dad, I'll tell you, you don't have to worry about it. ”

The next day, Xiao Gang followed Xiao Yuan to the inpatient department of the hospital, and saw that there were many patients to be hospitalized.

Xiao Yuan turned around and discussed with Xiao Gang, preparing to let him go home first and then think of a way for himself. At this time, a young man in a military uniform came over and said to Xiaoyuan: "Don't wait, I have already reserved a bed in the ward, because the patient can't come for a while, let you stay first." ”

Xiaoyuan glanced at the young man and said coldly, "Why are you again?" ”

"Why can't it be me again? We can meet everywhere in the world, not to mention that we all work in the same hospital. The young man is Gong Changzhi, he didn't giggle when he talked to Xiaoyuan this time, and said seriously, "I came to the toll office to do business, and I happened to hear what you said just now." ”

Xiaoyuan lowered her head and thought for a while, and said helplessly: "Okay, I always have the opportunity to see you learn from Lei Feng and do good deeds." ”

"I'd do the same to everyone else."

"You think I'm a passerby!"

On the day Xiao Gang was hospitalized, Xiao Yan lay on the bed and tossed and turned, did not close her eyes all night, and turned 20,000 kilometers on her back to the earth. He originally thought that his brother's physical discomfort was sometimes caused by the pressure of work and life, but he didn't expect that he was really sick, and if he was going to get a bad illness and delay treatment, as a doctor, he was responsible and would regret it for the rest of his life.

Xiaogang usually follows the rules and has no quarrel with the world, but the road of life has always been uneven, and there are too many toll booths, and every step has to pay a price. When he took the college entrance examination, he had just passed the undergraduate admission line, and finally went to university in Beijing; After graduating from college, I went around the recruitment site, looked for relationships, and submitted resumes, so that I had a job that was not ideal; Not long after getting married, his wife had an affair again, and after the divorce, he was empty; Now there is another sick hospital, it is really a house leak that has been rained, and the broken ship has encountered a head wind. If there is really a "God" who pays attention to and determines the fate of all living beings in the world, then he must be suffering from glaucoma, or he should be equipped with a pair of reading glasses.

Cui Ying heard that her son was found to have a lump on his neck, and she was so frightened that she was about to have a nervous breakdown, and she washed her face with tears all day long, how deep her mother's love for her son is sometimes measured by the weight of tears, although tears do not help solve any problem many times. Xiaogang's health was not very good after she was born, although people from her mother's family and her mother-in-law's family often went to the county seat to help solve problems, but because Ren Chunhua was not around, what made her the most unbearable was not the burden of life, but the burden of spirit. In the seventies and eighties of the last century, and even earlier, there were many grassroots military cadres living separately from each other, and there were many divorces. Many of the wives of military personnel have shown themselves to be extremely strong in the face of difficulties in life and have become military wives who are willing to pay. There are also some divorced women who stop and retreat under loneliness or great ideological pressure, and become understanding and sympathetic.

Cui Ying survived a difficult life.

Although Ren Chunhua had two stones of guilt and pain pressing on his heart, he was much calmer than Cui Ying in terms of expression. What disease Xiaogang is has yet to be diagnosed, if he really has an incurable disease, what's the use of being anxious, when you can't change the reality, you have to have the courage to face the reality.

Ren Chunhua has always believed that when a boy reaches a certain age, he must have his own piece of the sky, go through the wind and rain, and see the world, and should not take shelter from the wind and rain under the wings of his parents. Due to physical and mental reasons, and possibly improper parental guidance, Xiaogang cowered in the face of clouds and thunder and lightning, and did not achieve the results he expected.

Ren Chunhua is also mentally prepared, if Xiaogang suffers from an illness that his family does not want this time, he must fulfill the responsibility of a father, fill the gap between the two generations with understanding, enthusiasm and love, and invite the best doctor to use the best means to consult and treat him, so that he can recover as soon as possible.

Xiaoyuan felt lightheaded the next morning because she didn't have a good night's rest, and she just arrived at the hospital to change into her work clothes with a heavy heart, when her mobile phone rang.

It was Qin Yuefang's call, her hearty laughter, Xiaoyuan usually feels so kind, but today she feels a little harsh.

"Are you back in Beijing?" Xiaoyuan asked.

"No, I'm on the outskirts of Tianjin now."

"You haven't been at home for a long time, leaving Uncle Zheng at home alone, so relieved, why don't you come back quickly, what are you going to do in the suburbs of Tianjin?"

"A big man has food and drink at home, what do I have to worry about. When I went back to my hometown, I didn't go on a few days in the countryside, but to visit Xiaoli's grandparents. I originally planned to stay at home for half a month and 20 days and then return to Beijing, but then Xiaoli's grandmother accidentally broke her arm, and I took care of the old lady at home for more than a month. I will go back to Beijing this time to wait for your Uncle Zheng to complete the retirement procedures, and we will go back together. The place I am coming to now is the old unit where your Uncle Zheng worked, not far from the army where your father used to work. Most of the old sisters I knew when I visited relatives in the army from the countryside are now also in the army, and they invited me to meet and talk here. ”

Xiaoyuan looked at her watch, it was almost time to take over, so she urged Qin Yuefang: "Aunt Qin, if you don't have anything else, let's talk again after you go back to Beijing, I'm going to work." ”

"Don't worry, don't worry, I still have something important to tell you, don't say it and panic." Qin Yuefang sped up the pace of her speech, and hurriedly said, "I was having dinner in a restaurant with a few sisters last night, and I saw a girl who looked exactly like you. At first, I was surprised, thinking that you had come here, and shouted 'Xiaoyuan' to her, but she turned her head to look at me, ignoring it, and I realized that I had recognized the wrong person. Tell me, she looks exactly like you, does it violate your image rights? ”

Xiaoyuan listened to Qin Yuefang's words, and was so surprised that her phone almost fell to the ground, and she came back to her senses for a few seconds, and stammered to Qin Yuefang: "Aunt Qin, I, I'm going to take over, don't tell anyone else about this." ”

At the handover meeting of the department, Xiaoyuan's eyes were dull and absent-minded, as if she had just suffered a serious illness, so that when the department director was talking, the inquiring eyes passed over her face several times.

Xiaoyuan once suspected that she was not the biological daughter of her current parents, because the time interval between her and her brother's birth was too short, and from the appearance, Xiaogang was tall and big, with a figure like his father, and his face was like his mother, while he was petite and exquisite, and his figure and appearance were not the same as his parents. However, Xiaoyuan thought of her parents' love and care for her for many years, and felt guilty for her doubts. After listening to Qin Yuefang's words just now, she suddenly thought that her father had been a soldier in Tianjin, could it be that she was raised by her parents, and there was a twin sister or sister there?