Xiaogang has been feeling unwell recently, restless, weak limbs, no energy during the day, unable to sleep at night, and his weight has dropped significantly. The family members of the pen %fun %www.biquge.info originally thought that he had not forgotten Wenxiu in his heart, and he had not yet come out of the shadow of divorce, which was the influence of psychological factors. Later, Xiaoyuan, with her professional sensitivity, felt that her brother might have some physical problems, so she persuaded him to go to the hospital for examination as soon as possible.

"Am I now wide and fat, like a sick person?"

Xiao Gang cheered up and asked Xiaoyuan.

"You can still be called fat, but you can't be considered broad-hearted. Seeing you depressed and sad every day, my parents and I felt very uncomfortable. You go to the hospital for a check-up first, early treatment of illness, early prevention of disease, whether a person is sick or not, first of all, you must maintain a good attitude. I have told you before that life is short, and it would be too long to be caught up in the sorrow of the past every day, so don't always be sad about the past, but be happy about the future. A happy mood is a panacea for healing the wounds of the soul, not only does it have no side effects, but it also does not have to pay for medicine. There is also the point that a person cannot be ruthless, and ruthless people are cruel; A person cannot be amorous, and amorous people are miserable. I know that you and Wen Xiu originally had a deep relationship, and later divorced her, but it was only because of the dignity of men and the pressure of public opinion that you had to do it. I have also told you many times, there is no big deal in life except death, what is the great deal about divorce, there are too many divorced people around us, in the past, the sea was dry and rotten, but now it is good to get together and disperse, and divorce is a very normal thing in today's society. For Wenxiu, if you still love her, build a cemetery for her in your heart, and occasionally hang yourself; If you are still cruel to her, you will have another family and make up your mind to live better than her. ”

"Don't mention Wenxiu anymore, my marriage with her is dead, and the unhappy marriage is immortal! What I can't figure out is that at first I was so good to her, she would cheat on my feelings, she was an emotional liar. I believe what some people say, there are no liars in the world, and there are more people who are gullible to others, so there are liars, and it is I who believe her and spoil her. Xiaogang said bitterly, "It stands to reason that a man, crying, to cry alone, laugh, to laugh in public, I should not behave so weak and decadent in front of you, sinking in a half-asleep all day long, hovering between no one and no ghost." What makes me feel even more uncomfortable now is that I always feel that others are laughing at me, and even my father looks down on me. Of course, I can't blame others, in addition to complaining about God's unfairness, I just feel that I am unproductive. ”

"You shouldn't complain that God is unfair, God doesn't have much energy to take care of human affairs, and he still flirts with the Queen Mother when he has time! The person who laughs at you may have, but the ridicule of others can become a person's upward motivation. Dad doesn't look down on you, he hates you but doesn't make steel, and what he says to you, you should understand it as being loyal and good for action. ”

"His words are not advice, they are allegories, and it is okay to coax kindergarten children, but not even the soldiers of the recruit company. Besides, steel is not hated, and in the end, there is no 'steel', and there is no 'iron', only 'hate' remains. To be honest, I live at home, and I can't bear to let my mother do food, drink, and laundry for me every day, and I don't want my father to make irresponsible remarks about me and brainwash me. ”

"Brother, I don't agree with your statement, every child is a joint investment project of their parents, and they each have half of the shares, but this kind of investment is not capital, but feelings, this kind of investment only pays, not returns. Fathers and mothers have different ways of being emotionally invested in their children because of their genders. I feel that you are sometimes sentimental and have too much burden on your mind, and you should have lost weight with your body a long time ago. People often say that life is like chess, there is no regret in the fall, remember what someone said: let the future come, let the past pass. ”

"In the past, it's not in the past, it's just that you can't get by."

Xiaoyuan asked Xiaogang vigilantly: "What do you mean by 'can't get by'?" ”

Xiaogang smiled bitterly and said: "Don't be nervous, no matter how uncomfortable I feel, I also understand that a family is like a circle, and any one without it is a cripple." Don't worry, I'm not going to do stupid things that I'm sorry for. ”

"There is a doctor in our hospital, he is still a postdoctor, he used to have a cheerful personality, a lot of friends, after the divorce, his wife took away his beloved children, he has since become taciturn, become an otaku, work hours in addition to seeing a doctor rarely communicate with others, a weekend, bed and sofa to serve him, one on the day shift, one on the night shift. Later, he had fewer and fewer friends, and his colleagues around him also said that he had a nervous problem and stayed away from him, which made him very painful. ”

"His friends and colleagues should understand him and help him, and should not alienate him, let alone discriminate against him." Xiaogang said with emotion, "Of course, the understanding I am talking about can only be a virtue of people who are sympathetic to each other most of the time, and people who have not experienced emotional setbacks cannot understand the feelings of people who have suffered emotional setbacks." For example, the doctor in your hospital, others can only be regarded as sympathy for him, and will only give him a few words of comfort. People like him have a hard time, as the saying goes, the joy is too short to be a night, the bitterness is long, God always has something wrong, he doesn't care if others are in a good mood or not, agree or not, he has to stuff you twenty-four hours a day, let you find a way to spend it, or how can I have an opinion about him! ”

Xiaogang paused for a moment and said, "There is something I haven't had time to tell you yet, Wenxiu called me yesterday, and it was the first time she called me since our divorce. She told me a lot on the phone, mainly that she was very painful after her second divorce, and she regretted that she shouldn't have been unfaithful to me in the first place, and I listened to what she meant, not to use her heart and blood, but to use saliva to glue the mirror we broke before. ”

"She's too embarrassed to call you!" Xiaoyuan said angrily, "I asked you to change your mobile phone number, but you don't change it, don't pay attention to her in the future." ”

I also listened to her patiently, and flatly rejected her hints. The reason why she dared to come to me was that she was now a little rich woman with a value of hundreds of thousands of yuan, and she had the capital to trade with me, which was exactly what I spurned. If she were destitute and penniless now, I might have a better attitude towards her, and a few words of comfort to her, for most people have compassion for the weak. ”

"If you're dead to her, stop caring about how she's doing and how she feels about other people's different attitudes."

Xiaoyuan still said angrily.

Xiaogang diverted the topic and said to Xiaoyuan: "Don't always worry about my business, talk about your own business." Many of the children in our compound work in your hospital, including my classmates in elementary and middle school, and I asked them that the assistant surnamed Gong was a nice young man, an extrovert who loved to talk and tease. I also heard that he has many new insights into the financial management of the army, published many papers, and achieved good results in his work. I am a person from the past, and according to the analysis of experience, he may already know that you have a strong personality and speak straight, and sometimes deliberately anger you, stimulate your temper to the maximum, and then look at your own tolerance. ”

Xiaoyuan was not in a good mood and didn't want to talk too much about herself, so she said to Xiaogang: "Brother, don't worry about my affairs, I will try my best to deal with some problems." Listen to me, come to our hospital in a few days, and I'll take you to the doctor. Don't believe me, many people are reluctant to walk to the hospital for treatment for minor illnesses, and finally are carried into the hospital for rescue because of serious illnesses, and I have seen a lot of this kind of thing. ”

Xiaogang listened to his sister's words and nodded reluctantly.

Ren Chunhua has been visiting the suburban prison every year in recent years.

Wen Changling, the financial assistant of the management office of the scientific research institute, turned out to be a young cadre that Ren Chunhua admired very much, and the young man was directly assigned to the institute to do financial work after graduating from the financial team of the Military Economic College, and he became the backbone of the financial office in a short time. From the outside, Wen Changling looks very capable, with a pair of big eyes on his thin face that are black and white, but it is a pity that these big eyes look at people and things at a critical moment, but they are not clear in black and white, and he privately lent hundreds of thousands of yuan of funds to one of his fellow villagers to speculate in stocks, and later the loan could not be recovered, causing heavy losses to collective property and violating the law.

Wen Changling regretted his crimes, and his attitude of admitting his guilt was very good, and he did not think about his own future the most, but the reputation of the scientific research institute, which made Ren Chunhua very moved. Although Ren Chunhua was criticized for taking leadership responsibility for this incident, he was determined to do his best to give some help to the young people who had lost their footing, and also to make up for his negligence in managing his subordinates.

Wen Changling would cry for a while every time he saw Ren Chunhua's face, Ren Chunhua looked at the old subordinates who were crying bitterly, and felt a little comforted in his heart, for the dirt in a person's mind, it is cleaner to wash it with tears than with soap.

Every time Ren Chunhua came to the prison and saw those men and women, old and young, who were behind bars, he would feel sour and shocked in his heart. Will these people, who used to live freely in society, be deeply aware of the crimes they have committed after losing their freedom? Will I be able to change my past mistakes after regaining my freedom? How do the parents of the young offenders feel about having such children? Every time at this time, Ren Chunhua also remembers a sentence that someone once said: What is a happy life of a family? At the very least, there are no patients in the hospital and no prisoners in the prison. Whenever this time, he will also think of his son Xiaogang, as long as he can be a decent person and live a normal life, he should be satisfied as a parent, and he does not necessarily have to get ahead and do any great career.

Among the prisoners serving sentences in the same prison as Wen Changling, one was Tang Lining, Ren Chunhua's comrade-in-arms who was transferred to Beijing from the grassroots level back then.

After Tang Lining was transferred to the post of deputy regiment, he proposed to change his job because he was not satisfied with the poor life of the troops, because he wanted to get rid of strict discipline, and because he was given a warning for misbehaving during a work inspection of the troops.

Taking off his military uniform, Tang Lining politely refused the local government's arrangement to let him be a deputy department-level investigator, and became a deputy in a relatively independent unit, as a department-level leader who enjoyed the treatment of the deputy department. Of course, Ren Chunhua knows his scheming, for a person who believes that having a milk is a mother and money is a father, he values money more than rank.

A year after changing jobs, Tang Lining divorced his wife who was in the army from the countryside, bought a second-hand house in the city, borrowed a second-hand car from a friend, and found a "second-hand" woman as his wife. It is said that he is a very 'two' person, but he wants to be a "one" in the unit, and he makes a stumbling block under the feet of the main job.

The principal leader of Tang Lining's unit is a cadre with a relatively decent style, and he is not accustomed to some of Tang Lining's practices; he once told others that there are more peasant workers employed in the unit, and Tang Lining keeps saying that he is the son of a peasant, but not only did he not shout "Dad" to the peasants who were working in front of him, but he squeezed them by unscrupulous means, and was called an "oil press" by the migrant workers.

Tang Lining felt that the main post had too strict requirements for the deputy position and too little delegation of power, which was an obstacle to his own economic benefits and a stumbling block in his career.

Places with oil and water are the most slippery, Tang Lining fell, and was punished for both the crime of accepting bribes and framing him, and now his head is still there, and his official hat has long been gone, and he has become Wen Changling's cellmate.

Ren Chunhua always can't understand some things, in this world, there are very few people who don't understand reason, and there are many people who understand reason but are not willing to do it according to reason, one of the responsibilities of cadres is to lead the masses to do things according to reason, if cadres do not do things according to reason, then he is taking the lead in being unreasonable, and if there are more such cadres, the world will be chaotic. In the past, some cadres turned a deaf ear to the repeated orders of their superiors, but now some cadres try to adapt to the demands and regulations of their superiors, and some people are more slippery than monkeys. Of course, those who always want to take chestnuts from the fire will eventually set themselves on fire.

Because he was a former comrade-in-arms, when Ren Chunhua came to visit Wen Changling for the first time, he also visited Tang Lining by the way. Prior to this, Ren Chunhua had no remorse for what he had done when he heard that Tang Lining was being examined, and until the case handlers interrogated him, he was still like a lawyer in court, with full words and reasons, and defended himself "not guilty".

When Tang Lining saw Ren Chunhua's face, he was only surprised, but he didn't feel embarrassed. His attitude also surprised Ren Chunhua, but he felt a little embarrassed. Ren Chunhua was thinking in his heart, now some people don't blush when they break the law and discipline, they don't blush when they bring disaster to the country and the people, and they still don't blush after they have become prisoners, and the people who will be able to blush in the future are probably only Mr. Yun Chang in the Gong Temple.

Ren Chunhua sometimes thinks that the blue background and white clothes of prison inmates can be called "zebra suits", and some people say that one of the differences between cadres, especially leading cadres, and the masses is that they often walk the red carpet, while the masses often walk on zebra crossings. If cadres have the masses in their hearts, mingle with the masses, and often walk the zebra crossing like them, the probability of wearing zebra suits in prison will be much smaller.

After meeting Tang Lining in prison, Ren Chunhua did not go to see him again. Prisons should become a cleaning machine for criminals, including corrupt cadres, and Tang Lining still has a lot of dirt on his body, and he should turn around in this soul-purifying drum for a few more years to wash off the dirt on his body. Some people say that everyone's life experience is a book, and Tang Lining's book is like an illegal publication, with vulgar content and full of errors.

Ren Chunhua had come to the prison several times in the past, but now that there is no special car, this time he can only come by bus.

The bus stopped in a small town not far from the prison, because there were too many things to take, Ren Chunhua only brought some food and cigarettes this time, and of course, words of comfort and encouragement. He wanted to buy some more fruit, and when he saw a few fruit stalls on the side of the road, he walked towards the largest one.

The stall owner was a fat woman in her thirties, her face was so red that the apples on the stall were eclipsed, her upper and lower oily lips were like freshly fried back to the pot, her clothes were as small as the maximum morality allowed, and her two trembling huge breasts seemed to be unwilling to break free from her thin undershirt and say hello to the customers first.

Ren Chunhua just wanted to turn around and leave, but the female stall owner called out to him: "The old man is here to see his son, the food in the number is not very good, buy some fruit to make up for the child, I have the most complete varieties here." ”

Ren Chunhua reluctantly began to pick fruits, and the female stall owner was busy greeting other customers. For her, whether you are a leader or a common person, whether you are a clean official or a corrupt official, you are the object of your own money, and the RMB taken out of your pocket has the same value and should be warmly received.

After weighing the fruit and paying for it, Ren Chunhua walked towards the prison with a heavy bag.

Before he saw Wen Changling, the correctional cadres told Ren Chunhua that Wen Changling had received a second commutation of his sentence.