The more Lin Zhi spoke, the more excited he became, his eyes were red, he was crying and laughing, like crazy, where could he see the slightest hint of his usual appearance? Gu Yan slowly calmed down, but he was not in a hurry to speak, and after Lin Zhi finished speaking, he poured another glass of water for Lin Zhi and handed it over. Pen ~ fun ~ pavilion www.biquge.info

"Are you thirsty?"

Hearing this, Lin Zhi was suddenly stunned for a moment, the crazy mania and unwillingness in his heart calmed down a lot, he took the cup again, and his hand was still shaking violently. Why is he thirsty now? After venting this pass, my heart was a little more comfortable, but my dizziness was even worse, and my eyes were blackening for a while. He barely finished drinking the water, glanced at Gu Yan, half-closed his eyes, and sighed: "I really ...... sometimes." Very jealous of you. ”

"I sometimes envy you, a long time ago, I used to think about reading all the books in the world in this life, but then I found that even if I was given three lifetimes, I couldn't finish reading the books."

Lin Zhi wanted to laugh, but only twitched the corners of his mouth. Any anger and grievances in my heart slowly disappeared, leaving only an empty peace. He wanted to say, "What is there to envy a man like me? However, for a while, he didn't want to speak at all, and he didn't bother to speak.

Gu Yan continued: "You have been very abnormal for a while, I only understood the reason today, it turns out that you have already made up your mind to seek death." ”

Lin Zhi moved his lips, but after a while, he made an extremely soft voice: "What is the difference between me and not dying?" ”

Gu Yan looked at him for a while before he sighed and said, "If you decide to die, I won't stop you." ”

Lin Zhi showed a slightly surprised look, and said with a wry smile in a low voice: "I thought ......"

"If a person really wants to die, how can others stop him? Besides, if life is too painful, it is better to die as a relief. ”

Lin Zhi was about to speak, but he heard Gu Yan say, "But do you really want to die in your heart?" Even if you can really succeed in revenge, what's the point of losing your life. ”

Hearing this, Lin Zhi already knew that Gu Yan still guessed his thoughts. Smiled wryly.

Gu Yan was originally just guessing and testing, but now he has already affirmed that Lin Zhi himself plans to return to his hometown and use his life to set up a bureau to frame or retaliate against some people, but he just happened to be with him, and when he encountered these things, he changed his mind a little.

"It's good to be able to help you. I survived this time, presumably it was also providential, and providence told me to go back......"

"No, it's providence to keep you alive, not to die." Gu Yan said, "I heard that there are two situations for people who seek death, one is that all thoughts are lost. You think about revenge in your heart, and you want to help me, so naturally it doesn't count. The other is an act of anger, and you don't count as such. It can only be said that you don't want to die in your heart. ”

Lin Zhi was stunned on the spot as if he had been struck by lightning.

In fact, there are many people who are planning to die, Gu Yan said this, but it was just a bluff, seeing that this seemed to have an effect, he couldn't help but strike while the iron was hot, "Although it is difficult for you to write a splendid article at present, but you and I passed a short note in the previous paragraph, I saw that you can already write more than 100 words, which is also considerable, but you know that you can't write a good article in the future?" Moreover...... It's not that I'm boasting, this time the newspaper is a precedent of this kind, and since you have been appointed, handle this matter well, and you have to record a lot of money if you can't say that you can't go to the history books. The official summons is also deserved, why did you change your mind again? ”

Lin Zhi's face showed a sad look, "It's late!" ”

Gu Yan listened, thinking that Lin Zhi said that he had made up his mind to seek death, so it was too late, and he was about to persuade two more words, but suddenly remembered something and exclaimed: "...... Princess Fukang? ”

Lin Zhi didn't speak, and the sadness on his face was even stronger, and he had already acquiesced.

I didn't expect Princess Fukang's marriage to have such a deep impact on Lin Zigui, Gu Yan hesitated unusually for a moment, gritted his teeth and said: "Even if your wishes come true, the two of you have ...... in character Maybe in the future. "Lin Zhi is arrogant and arrogant, Princess Fukang is arrogant, if these two really make a pair...... Gu Yan is really not optimistic.

"A person like me is naturally not worthy of a princess." Lin Zhi smiled bitterly, "Besides, if you had seen me a few years earlier, you wouldn't have told me so many things today." In the past, my heart was ten times more extreme than it is now, and even ......," he laughed sarcastically, "and my heart was in pain, and when I saw people in company, and some people laughed, I was jealous, and I only thought about how to hurt them. So I read every day, and I couldn't help it, so I stabbed myself on my arm, and it felt unexpectedly good...... If I hadn't been lucky enough to meet the princess at that time, and I was accidentally awakened, how would I have survived until now? Since that time, even though I am still unhappy in my heart, I am not as crazy as I was at the beginning, but it is like I have lived again. But what if I change? The attitude of others towards me is still the same. Lin Zhi glanced at Gu Yan and added, "Except for you, but it's not strange that you are new to Jingshi." He continued, "So whether I change or not, whether I live or not, it doesn't really matter much, it's just a mustard." Now that the princess has found a match, what am I doing and what is the use? ”

Gu Yan sighed, "I thought you were a smart person, but I didn't expect you to be so stupid." What do you think in your heart, and if you don't say it, how can the people around you see what you are thinking? If you sit in the position of ruler, it is said that there will be a group of people who will come to know your thoughts. After saying these many words, Gu Yan himself felt that his mouth was dry, so he took another cup and poured himself a glass of water, and poured a cup for Lin Zhi.

"There are still many interesting things in this world that you have not yet experienced, and it would be a pity to die in such a hurry." Gu Yan said, "Besides, if you really decide to die, but in just a few decades, you will turn into a pile of dry bones, and no one in this world will remember you again, as if you never appeared at all...... Are you willing to do this? Gu Yan said again, "You think too badly of yourself." What man has never had evil thoughts in his heart in his life? If you can restrain yourself, you are not a wicked person. Look at me, am I a gentleman? I never think of myself as a gentleman. ”

Lin Zhi was silent, and Gu Yan didn't speak again. These two crossings have brought about changes in their mentality, personality, and behavior that are almost unimaginable to all people who have not experienced it. It can be seen from the fact that he still didn't feel much when he killed someone with his own hands this time. He doesn't know what he was like as a young man in the real sense, and he didn't have the mind to explore and compare, such a thing, he usually sighed with emotion, if he really thought about it carefully like a philosopher, it was estimated that he could only go crazy. Although Gu Yan is not a person who cherishes his life very much, he doesn't want to affect his life because of these things. Gu Yan glanced at Lin Zhi again, and couldn't help but sigh a little, such a thing, others are actually not easy to interfere with, and it is difficult to interfere, but it would be a pity if Lin Zigui died so meaningless and worthless. The more I came into contact with Lin Zigui, the more I discovered his terrible place, his talent, where is just the erudition brought by memorization.

==========================================================

It's time to prepare for the graduate school entrance examination, so the update is ......