Chapter 132: I don't know
"Huh?" , Peng Yue couldn't hide his surprise at this moment, he didn't expect Xue Qi to say no to himself, or rather, before entering the door, he also had the idea that Xue Qi would not forgive himself, but when he entered the door, Xue Qi couldn't help but be excited, her affection, her silence, her tears, her obedience... All hinted at Peng Yue: I don't blame you, I still love you very much. Pen, fun, pavilion www. biquge。 info So Peng Yue thought that when he made this request, Xue Qi would never refuse, or he had already decided in his heart that Xue Qi had agreed, but there was such an unexpected situation in front of him...
Xue Qi could see the consternation in Peng Yue's eyes, in fact, the moment she said it, she began to regret it, and her heart was experiencing painful torment. Her words are equivalent to rejecting the possible beauty and happiness in front of her, but the more you face this critical choice, the more people think, and the more hesitant they become, especially women. So Xue Qi is still a mess in her mind now, and she doesn't have a decisive idea after all, after all, it happened suddenly, she didn't expect Peng Yue to come here to say such a thing to herself, so she decided to think about it for a while, or find a few reasons for herself to go with Peng Yue...
But she could also feel it at this moment, Peng Yue's hand was slowly letting go of herself, and the distance between him and herself was gradually getting farther away, although it was only a few inches away from her, although she could still feel Peng Yue's scorching breathing, but the distance that was slightly moved out was far enough for the two hearts.
"Why?" , Peng Yue blurted out, and he didn't want to hide this thought in his heart, "Why don't you want to go with me?" ”
"I...", Xueqi's mind was in chaos at this time, and she was also doing a fierce ideological struggle. Why don't you go with him? This question was so difficult to answer that Xue Qi didn't know how to explain it for a while, so she had to bow her head in shame and whisper, "I... It's not that I don't want to go with you, but... But I want to think about it again..."
"Think again?" , Peng Yue stared at Xue Qi with some puzzlement, he really couldn't understand why a woman would always become a mother-in-law as soon as she encountered such a critical problem, and there would be so many twists and turns in her mind in an instant, is it really so difficult to make a decision? If you want to go, if you don't want to go, why do you have to think back and forth, but the more you think about the problem, the more you can't figure out a real clue, the more unexpected changes will occur...
But Peng Yue can't understand Xueqi's real thoughts, because women are relatively weak in a relationship, if something goes wrong, maybe men can get out of the way, but women will lose a lot because of this, and they will have a lot to bear, not to mention in a feudal society where male power is supreme. So how can Xueqi not be cautious, this is a major event in her life, and it can even be said to be the most important decision in her life, she has already lost a bet, she doesn't want to lose again...
"Why do you have to think about it again? Or rather... What concerns do you have now... Or are you still blaming me? Peng Yue sat up straight and stared at Xue Qi tightly, but he found that Xue Qi's eyes were always evading, "Do you have something unspeakable?" You tell me, what is the difficulty, I can help you solve it..."
"What difficulty, this is my heart disease, can you help me solve it? You must know that you are also one of the people who caused my heart disease...", Xue Qi thought silently, all the words were blocked in her heart, she only had to cry alone, "I just want to think about it again, there is nothing unspeakable..."
"And how long do you have to think about it?" , Peng Yue breathed a long sigh of relief, and there was a trace of inexplicable irritability and anger in his heart, he didn't want Xue Qi to stay in this Lishui Courtyard anymore, and he didn't want to let her stay here longer for a moment.
"I...", Xue Qi raised her head to look at Peng Yue, and slowly lowered her again, staring at her fingers that had been clenched a little white, "I don't know..."
"Don't know? I don't know again! Peng Yue stood up from the bed suddenly, he crossed his waist and looked around the room, but his eyes wandered, "Why do you always hesitate?" Do you just want to stay in this Yeosu Courtyard and let me watch you usher in the send-off, so that you can experience this drunken gold fan in detail? ”
"You...", Xue Qi stared at Peng Yue, her breathing gradually became heavier, she wanted to say a lot of words, but Peng Yue was so angry that she forgot all the things she wanted to say just now, "Peng Yue! What do you mean I always hesitate? The reason why I hesitate is because my bravery has been repelled by the mustard and distrust in your heart again and again! You said that you were willing to give up everything and take me away, but you still always minded my identity in your heart, how can you let me rest assured to go with you! ”
"Yes, it was my fault before, but...", Peng Yue turned around and looked at Xue Qi angrily, although he had been trying to suppress his temper, "Then you say, when did I care about your identity again, and what point did I distrust you now, and it was worth your hesitation?" ”
"Just now!" , Xue Qi cried out, she covered her chest with both hands, only to feel a burst of pain, "You just asked me why I hesitated, and naturally mentioned Lishui Courtyard again, mentioned... When you mention those things, you yourself say that you don't care, but do you really have no mustard in your heart? Maybe you don't even know it yourself! ”
"I...", Peng Yue breathed a long sigh of relief, wanting to justify, but he couldn't find a suitable word anyway. Maybe what Xueqi said was really right, and she really didn't realize it. Why do you think about it for so long? Isn't it because there is a mustard in my heart? But Peng Yue felt that he was not wrong, just imagine which man to change, he didn't need to think about it?
"You can't tell it, can you? You admit it yourself, don't you...", Xue Qi looked at Peng Yue, her red lips trembled slightly, and tears slowly flowed down her cheeks to the corners of her mouth, "You can hesitate again and again, and I... But not, why? Is it because you think your acceptance of me is a charity, and I... You shouldn't refuse..."
"I... When did I ever have this thought? Peng Yue frowned and shook his head in confusion, "I really don't understand why you have such thoughts... Ask yourself, I have always treated you as an equal, and I have never thought of forcing your will, let alone seeing our relationship as a charity! ”
"You don't see it as charity... Then why did I hesitate for a moment and you have such an attitude? Xue Qi twisted her head to the side, raised her hand and wiped her tears, "Yes, with your status as Lord Peng today, you don't need to ask my opinion at all, you can take me away directly, and no one dares to say anything... But please don't say that you don't care about me at all, if you really want to take me away, then I'll go with you..."
"That's what you have in mind? That's what you think of me? Peng Yue turned around and suddenly kicked the Jindun under his feet, "Why do you women always have to be so self-righteous and always be so unreasonable!" He gasped for air, trying to calm his emotions...
Silence, half-loud silence, only the breathing of the two could be heard in the room, Xue Qi was frightened by Fang Cai's attitude Peng Yue, and Peng Yue was also shocked by his own Fang Cai's anger...
"Xueqi, do you know that during this period of time, I have been wandering at the gate of Lishui Courtyard, just because I feel ashamed of you and want to come and apologize to you... If I really didn't wait for you, then why did I do this, why did I want to come to me today in a whisper and ask for your forgiveness? At this time, Peng Yue was still facing away from Xueqi, and he knew that blindly losing his temper would only make things worse, so he spoke only after his mind calmed down,
"I am angry at your hesitation, not because I see my acceptance as a charity, but as the result of a great deal of consternation and disappointment. If as soon as I entered the door, you rejected me, saying that you still blame me and didn't forgive me, I would never be like this, I would only apologize to you, and then blame myself for not knowing how to cherish that day, and blame myself for not being blessed. But... After I walked in the door, all your actions told me that you don't blame me, you... You still love me, but when I want to take you away, you hesitate and ask you why, and you are also spitting... So what are you asking me to do, I really don't know what to do. I lost my temper with you again just now, I apologize to you, maybe it was really my mistake..."
Listening to Peng Yuexu's narration, Xue Qi's excited emotions slowly eased, and she began to realize that she was indeed a little unreasonable just now, and her temper was indeed a little unreasonable. Because of this situation, because of this choice, all of Xue Qi's sensitive nerves have been mobilized, and Peng Yue's words, eyes, and actions will make her appear unusually excited.
She also understood that Fang Cai was indeed overhearted, if she said that Peng Yue had a problem in her heart, it was reasonable, but she said that Peng Yue had not treated him equally, and it was indeed wronged him. Imagine if Peng Yue didn't see himself as an equal, where would he have the courage to quarrel with him and cry with him? Where did you get the courage to call him by his name just now? If this was put on other guests, Xue Qi would not dare to think of it. And the reason why Xue Qi dared to do this to Peng Yue was because he gave him the courage and reason to get along on an equal footing. Thinking back to the scenes of the quarrel between the two, it is no different from a quarrel between a husband and wife or a lover, or many wives do not dare to quarrel with their husbands like this... Xue Qi gradually felt that she was at a loss, she raised her head, and wanted to apologize to Peng Yue...
"Sister...", Jiao Wa's intrusion in a hurry suddenly made Xue Qi and Peng Yue, who were in silence, look stunned, and even Jiao Wa herself stood at the door and looked overwhelmed.
Seeing Xue Qi sitting on the bed with tears on her face, Peng Yue stood with her back to her, and a brocade dun was quietly "reclining" at her feet, Jiaowa couldn't help frowning, "Didn't you say that you are not allowed to quarrel, why not..."
"Okay, okay...", Xue Qi saw that Jiaowa's nose was not a nose, and her eyes were not eyes looking at Peng Yue, so she hurriedly glanced at her, "Hurry up, what's the matter with running in in such a hurry?" ”
"Oh... Right! Xueqi's reminder, Jiaowa's eyes widened suddenly, as if she remembered something, "Sister, Yan Shifan is coming to you!" ”