Looking through the memory album of his past life and this life, Yue Tuo couldn't find a record of him pouring out his feelings as unscrupulously as last night, as if he had never poured out his feelings like that, first, he never thought that there was no one who could be trusted unconditionally, and second, Yue Tuo did not allow himself to embody his deepest timidity and cowardice in front of others, even if he loved the most, he had never confided in her that kind of feelings.

People are social animals, not only the requirements of life habits and the evolution of history, but also because people have rich and delicate feelings, and from time to time they need someone to be the object of confiding in them and excrete the toxins in their hearts.

Yue Chuan couldn't remember how much sadness he had said to Yue He, how many toxins in his heart had been discharged, it seemed to be similar to being drunk, and there was a fragment, and he was also fragmented, and he couldn't remember what he said at all, as if he had said his fear, his own pain, the thrill of going to Tokyo City, the sweetness of marrying Cuicui, the pain of losing Zhou Tong and Cuicui, and the despair of the sky falling.

Finally at that moment, Yue Tuo realized that he had never been alone, always, always, always had someone by his side, even if he was no longer there, but there was still someone to accompany him, no matter when, his father and mother would love him unconditionally, no matter when, the brotherhood with Yue Fei would not change, no matter when, the bond with Zhang Ying would not be severed, even if he was no longer alive, no matter when, and Fang Haochao, Song Jiang, and Wang Hui, their friendship will not disappear.

After living with their parents for more than ten years, did they want to leave themselves? has been a brother with Yue Fei for more than ten years, does Yue Fei want to leave him? After fighting side by side with Chao Gai for so long, will they leave themselves? has been friends with Fang Hao for so long, will he leave him? If Jin Zhi is forcibly left behind, but does not give her her true heart, will she leave herself?

It has always been their own intentionally or unintentionally distanced from them, and they have always taken the initiative to keep them out of their hearts, they want to be close to themselves, they want to have a heart-to-heart relationship with themselves, they want to be real relatives, real friends, and they have always been rejecting their kindness.

Just because of the fear of harm? Just because of the fear of death? Just because of the fear of what is going to happen, both known and unknown? Just because he was afraid of the 100,000 iron horsemen of the golden soldiers going south? Or even fear something that is simply nothing?

Intentionally or unintentionally, how many wrong things have I done, how many things I shouldn't have done, and how many people have I harmed?

Yue Chuan has never reflected on himself like now, the previous pain, Yue Tuo thought that it was brought about by the hatred of the country and the family, and it was brought by the Jin soldiers going south, but now, the Jin soldiers did not go south at all, and Yan Yun had not lost it, why was he afraid to such an extent? It's not just Jin Bing who goes south, but more in his own heart, he is unwilling to open his heart and defense, unwilling to deliver his true heart, just close the door tightly, don't show his true self to anyone, no one can get his true heart, so that even if he loses it, he won't feel so much pain.

How selfish......

In the past life and this life, no matter when, I spent it like that, once upon a time, Yue Yue thought about it, there was a wavering, as long as he could really marry that girl, really, he could really change himself, he could really open his heart and guard himself, completely accept the existence of a person, and really start to fight for the lives of two people, and then the third, the fourth......

Then he came to the Great Song Dynasty in the last days.

Family, Loved One, Brother, Parents, Teacher, Friend......

It's all this Yue Turn, it's not mine, it's all about this former Yue Turn, not everything about me, I have nothing to do with them, I don't need them to do anything for me, naturally I don't need to do anything for them, I don't want to accept them, they only accept the dead Yue Flip before, not me.

How selfish......

Until this time, Yue Flip finally understood, whether it was the previous Yue Flip or the current Yue Flip, in their eyes, it was the same, there was no difference, whether he was Yue Flip or not, whether Yue Flip was himself or not, is it very important? Who is it that has accompanied me through this life? Is it this Yue Tuo's family that has accompanied me through my life, or is it my family?

All this is just my wishful thinking, I speculate on everything in this world with the most sinister and vicious thoughts, and naturally get the most sinister and vicious consequences, I never consider the beautiful and glorious side of human nature, if there is no beautiful and glorious side of human nature, only ugly and vicious existence, then will this world still develop to this day? Can the existence of humanity continue? Every country and nation that exists to this day is because of the most beautiful and glorious side of human nature in their nation and country.

People with beautiful and glorious hearts have made a country or nation exist until now with beautiful and glorious beliefs, and they have used their sacrifices and their self-dedication to let all people survive. It's just that they are always being destroyed while giving, and they are destroyed by the deep and terrible darkness, so they are not known, but they still shine in the darkness of despair and boundlessness, at the cost of their lives, showing everyone the way forward, and making all the ugliness unhidden.

They are the reason for the existence of mankind to this day.

In the Great Song Dynasty, why is this not the case? From ancient times to the present, how many national heroes of the Han nation have sacrificed themselves in exchange for the existence of the nation and the existence of the country, and do they not represent the greatest and most glorious side of human nature? Zhang Ying: Isn't it? Didn't Zhang Ying kill himself for the sake of the country's righteousness and stop the Northern Expedition? The Northern Expedition was obviously wrong, it was a big mistake, Zhang Ying and Tan Zhi used their lives to stop this Northern Expedition and avoid the annihilation of the 200,000 army and the collapse of Hebei, isn't this dedication?

At the fork in history that is about to arrive, how many national heroes have chosen to sacrifice themselves in exchange for the continuation of the Han nation? Aren't they flesh and blood? Isn't there seven emotions and six desires? Isn't there a fear of death and a nostalgia for life? In that choice, as long as you choose to surrender, you can live, get glory and wealth and a wife, and choose to resist and not cooperate, you can only die.

Didn't they know that they were going to die? Will they gamble everything they have with their chances of surviving without a trace?

Only people who have the heart of death in Baoding have the courage to choose to resist, anyone who is lucky can not become a hero, become a success, in the rolling torrent of the Jurchen iron horseman, how many Han people chose to turn their backs on the country and join the enemy, chose to give up the festival to seek life, chose to give up personality for wealth, chose to forget their ancestors and choose to survive.

Are they wrong? They just want to survive, which is the most fundamental requirement of human beings.

Are they right? He gave up his personality, turned his back on his ideals and beliefs, became a shameless traitor, and spent the rest of his life in humiliation and suffering.

Sometimes, right and wrong are vague, confused, and difficult to distinguish, and the more important the matter, the more so, and the difficulty of Jingkang is not far off, in that chaotic era, the era of losing the way of distinguishing between justice and evil, it can be seen who can adhere to the self and adhere to the original heart, which people go with the flow, and which people help and abet the abuse.

Then, according to what Father Yue said, the next day, it can't be like this...... As for the way forward, Yue Fan seems to have an answer.

"Liu Ziyu, whether you want to go north or not, before leaving, you are still my deputy envoy to pacify, I order you to immediately mobilize all the troops that can be mobilized, scatter out, enter the mountains to exterminate the Liukou, those who are willing to surrender are included in the army, those who are unwilling to surrender are beheaded on the spot, those who are willing to pay the passage fee from the good ones to allow them to go home, and the homeless people are allowed to live in Yonghe Town, and they are given land and houses, but they need to undertake militia service, and the above orders can be executed, and there must be no mistakes! The generals in the army are at your disposal! ”

"Fang Hao, from now on, all the spies under him will be sent to the north, anywhere, I need to know all the news about the northern border anytime and anywhere, whether it is the flying pigeon or the flying eagle, the sooner the better, the more accurate the better, I don't give you much time, just more than a year, or less, but no matter what, you have to do it for me, if you can't do it, I will tell your wife about your pregnancy in the outer room of Luling City!"

"Chao Gai, Wu Yong, from now on, the two of you are responsible for commanding the entire army, all orders are subject to the dispatch of Deputy Envoy Liu, and the three of you can mobilize the army in line with the three for one side, except for the big battle of more than 10,000 people, Xiao Zhan decides by himself, and there is no need to report to me!"

"Gongsun Sheng, from now on, give you twelve hours, and tell me all the states, counties, fields, and population numbers we have obtained in the past year, and there must be no mistakes!"

"Wang Hui, gather all the law enforcement officers under you, and report to me all the effects of the Casting No Shooting Change Method over the past year, how many people have been arrested, how many executions have been carried out, the number of executions per month, and the current people's customs, report to me one by one, and there must be no mistakes!"

"Time is urgent, don't be stunned anymore, hurry up and work for me!"

Yue turned a cold face, and issued a series of instructions with incomparable domineering and firmness, a series of instructions aimed at the future, and then turned to leave.

Fang Hao chased after him, he seemed to be a little puzzled, and seemed to be very puzzled by Yue Flip's sudden big change, Yue Flip turned around, looked at Fang Hao with a puzzled and frightened face, and smiled slightly: "I already know where I should go, thank you, Zicheng." ”