On the same night, Xie San tossed and turned in bed, his mind full of He Huan's words and deeds, and he smiled. Since he couldn't marry her, he should let her go, but he couldn't! He hated his mother-in-law, but he couldn't control his thoughts.

"Chang'an!" Xie San sat up abruptly.

When Chang'an heard the call of his master, he put on a coat in a panic and hurriedly ran from next door. He lit the candle on the table, and saw his master sitting on the edge of the bed with a calm face, wearing only his middle coat, as if he was full of thoughts. He cautiously asked, "Third Master, what do you want?" ”

"I ......" Xie San didn't know what he wanted. The fact that he couldn't marry her made him uncomfortable, like a hundred claws scratching his heart.

Chang'an stood aside and didn't dare to speak. When the independent son came back from the He family, he looked preoccupied, and he couldn't figure out what had happened to the He family. After a long time, he whispered: "Third master, even the emperor has said that no matter what you want to do, just do it, just do ......it."

"Can I?" Xie San smiled bitterly.

Chang'an took a step forward, nodded heavily, and said affirmatively: "Why not, this is the emperor's golden words." ”

Xie San was stunned for a moment, and suddenly, he lay back on the bed with his back to the sky. "Blow the lamp out." He ordered, the smile on his face slowly expanding, but there was only sadness and reluctance in his eyes.

What does he like about He Huan? Just because a lot of her ideas coincide with his? Just because she has a bright and positive personality? He likes her, probably because she is like a hen, trying her best to protect her family, right?

None of them are people who sacrifice their families for the love ~ love of men and women. It's not that he can't marry her, it's that he can't give up everything for her.

In the dark. Xie San's gaze was staring directly at the top of the bed. He couldn't see anything. But it was as if he saw He Huan leaving him.

He didn't have time to figure out what love was. Do you have to accept the ending of "love but can't"?

"Light up!" Xie San screamed, turned over and sat on the edge of the bed.

Chang'an was startled, walked to the table in a panic, picked up the flint and wanted to light the candlestick. Probably because he was in too much of a hurry to click on it.

Xie San looked at the little sparks splashed by the flint in a daze. Tiny sparks disappear in the air in an instant. He stood up with a "bang", strode to the window, and pushed the window open with a "bang". Under the bright moonlight, the blue brick and white walls of the Shen family stood majestically.

"Third master. It's lit. Chang'an whispered back. A few years ago, he had encountered a more dangerous situation with his master, and he had never seen his master so impetuous and restless. He really couldn't understand what his master was worried about. Even if "Yu Gongzi" is really Zhao Yi, the emperor has been on the throne for five years, can the first prince still usurp the throne? As for Shen Jinglun, there are many families with a long history and strength than the Shen family, and the Shen family is just a drop in the ocean.

Xie San didn't respond to Chang'an's words, just looked at the gate of the Shen family from afar. Xindao: I'm afraid that even if I tell the old things and the plate, she still can't let go of Shen Jinglun, right? He smiled bitterly helplessly. Even if he can't marry her. I also hope that she can live happily. This is his most simple and sincere wish, but Jizhou is far away from the capital, and he may not be able to take care of her after returning to Beijing. In fact, even if he stays in Jizhou forever, they are not related, and there is a difference between men and women, what can he do for her?

"How can a woman be happy?" Xie San muttered softly.

"Third master, are you asking the little one?" Chang'an looked at the master's back blankly, "The most noble woman in the world is the queen mother, but the happiest one must be the concubine mother." ”

Xie San shook his head. Is Xie Guifei, who is envied by everyone, really happy? He didn't dare to make judgments, but he knew that He Huan didn't have such a big "heart". Like she herself said, she was just an ordinary little woman.

"You say, what does Miss He want most?"

As soon as he heard this, Chang'an almost choked on his saliva and bit his tongue. The master didn't sleep in the middle of the night, tossing and turning, tossing and turning, actually thinking about what He Huan wanted most? He said with a bitter face: "Third Master, as long as you like it, bring Miss He with you when you return to Beijing." When you return to the capital, it is a great grace for you to take her seriously......"

"Nonsense!" Xie San glared at Chang'an and rebuked angrily: "Are these words what you should say?" ”

"Third master, the little one is just telling the truth." He took two steps forward and said with a smile: "Huo Wuye said ......"

"You listen to his nonsense!"

Chang An hurriedly lowered his head. He could feel that his master's attitude towards He Huan had changed. For a long time, he whispered tentatively: "Third master, it's late at night......"

"You go to sleep." Xie San waved his hand, and his body stood by the window without moving.

How dare Chang'an leave at this juncture, and asked respectfully: "Third master, do you have anything to worry about?" The small ones can't share your worries ......."

"How much silver do we have left?" Xie San asked suddenly.

Chang An thought for a while and replied: "After deducting the expenses of these days, there are almost 20,000 taels." ”

Xie San was noncommittal. Chang'an has been with him for more than ten years, although he can't read books and can't practice martial arts, but he is loyal. On weekdays, he didn't hide anything from him, but he didn't want him to know about everything between himself and He Huan. Since it is impossible for him to forget her in this life, let her become a secret in his heart, an eternal secret that no one can touch.

Xie San sighed secretly, covered the regret in his heart, and ordered: "You prepare 10,000 taels of silver tickets for me." In addition, early tomorrow morning, you can find a few ready-to-wear shops, jewelry shops, and fat powder shops, and let the guys bring some fashionable styles over......" he frowned. He didn't know anything about women's things, but he wanted to personally choose some clothes, jewelry, and rouge gouache to give to He Huan. What to do?

Xie San cleared his throat and changed his words: "Let them bring all the most expensive ones in the store to me to see." He didn't know how to choose, he could only believe that the expensive one was always good.

Chang'an nodded yes, and stopped talking.

Xie San glanced at him twice and said, "If you have anything to say, just say it." ”

"Third master, do you need a little one to enter the house? In fact, forgive the little talker, if you leave this time, I am afraid that you will not return to Jizhou in the future, no one will leave the house like this. ”

"What kind of nonsense are you talking about?"

"Isn't it?" Chang'an looked dazed, "The little one who looks at Huo Wuye's outer house is to prepare the house first." In addition, Huo Wuye said that the most important thing to please a woman is to do what she likes. Of course, the amount of jewelry should be sufficient, but it is not the more expensive the more pleasing it is......"

"Who told you that you want to buy a foreign house?" Xie San was furious. To his ears, Chang'an's words were clearly blasphemy against He Huan. She doesn't want to be a concubine with someone, how can she be wronged to be an outer room. She loves her family so much, how could she let her children become unsightly illegitimate children. He loved her pride.

Xie San cleared his throat and said, "Don't let me hear the word 'outer house' from your mouth in the future." In addition, how Huo Wuye is, it's not something you can talk about. ”

Chang'an hurriedly nodded yes, and muttered secretly in his heart: Isn't it for the sake of a man who gives silver and jewelry to a woman? The master is one on weekdays, and the other is two, how can he twist and pinch at this time? Several other masters often laugh at their masters, they don't understand the beauty of men and women, is it really that their masters are too pure?

That's not right! Chang An shook his head secretly. As early as five years ago, Madame sent Mama to explain the affairs of men and women, and even he knew everything clearly, how could the master not understand? Thinking of Mama's words, Chang'an only felt red and hot, unconsciously swallowed a mouthful of saliva, and felt that he had a bitter stomach in the blink of an eye.

Five years ago, his wife told him that when they were away, he had to fulfill his duties as a personal servant, and he could not let a woman who was not a nuisance close to his master. But Madame, they are in the barracks, and they don't even have a female fly, where are the women who are not careful?

Two years ago, his wife told him that although he must be cautious in choosing a wife for his master, if his master meets a girl he likes, as long as he is innocent and has good conduct, he will accept it and send it back to Beijing afterwards.

It's a pity that two years have passed, and he has seen a lot of swords and swords, but he hasn't seen the girl from which family the master is looking at. Sometimes he wants to persuade his master, the women in the world, like the concubine Niangniang, are very few and far between, it is better for everyone to be settled, so as to save the lady from worrying all day long that he has been in the military camp for a long time and likes men.

Thinking of being the same long-term follower, Huo Wuye and their little servants, drinking small wine and eating side dishes in the capital, there are beauties to catch their eyes every day, and there is a pleasant sound of bamboo, but he is frightened every day, afraid that his master will bleed and be injured.

Thinking of this, Chang'an sighed heavily. Why is he so miserable!

Xie San glanced at Chang'an and snorted unhappily: "What are you sighing for?" Follow me, very wronged you? ”

"No, no." Chang An hurriedly shook his head. Speaking from the heart, in addition to the frequent injuries that make him worried, he is very good to himself. He took two steps forward and said flatteringly: "Third master, the little one remembers your words, your orders, the little one will do it as soon as it dawns!" ”

"No need." Xie San shook his head dejectedly. He wanted to send silver to He Huan, but he didn't want her to worry about the silver, anyway, it was only 10,000 taels, which was nothing to him. He wanted to give her clothes and jewelry, just to make her dress up and live happily. His wish was so simple, but Chang'an's words also reminded him that if he did this, it was likely that others would misunderstand their relationship, she was bent on marrying a good family, how could he ruin her reputation. Besides, with her pride, she may not necessarily accept it. He's just shaving his head and he's hot.

"Forget it, you go out, I'm asleep." Xie San closed the window listlessly and waved Chang'an to leave. He blew out the lights and lay back on the bed, tossing and turning and couldn't sleep, so he could only get up and light the lamps, and felt that in the middle of the night, he couldn't practice martial arts in the room, so he had to blow out the lights again.

Xie San went back and forth several times, and finally could only lie on the bed with his eyes open. He didn't know what to do, and his actions had already fallen into the eyes of others. (To be continued......)

PS: What, boys from ordinary aristocratic families will have xin enlightenment education at the age of fourteen or fifteen. (Don't ask me if Xie San is a virgin, Xie Lu Xie)