I am the fourth prince of the Tianchu Dynasty, but I never know what happiness is.

I am the fourth prince, so I have three royal brothers. The eldest brother is three years older than me, the second brother is one year older than me, and the third brother is only half a year older than me. However, after the age of six, I had only one royal brother.

It is said that the second emperor brother died of smallpox when he was three years old, and as for the third emperor brother, perhaps, I am the last person to see him.

I remember that it was an autumn, the mother of the three emperor brothers, Concubine Yin, led the three emperor brothers to greet Queen Li, that day the father was also there, the original father's eyes always stayed on the eldest emperor, but that day, the three emperor brothers actually made a poem, so that the father praised it, and even made an exception to pat his head lovingly - and this has always been a treatment that only the eldest brother can enjoy, I am actually very envious, but my mother, the concubine at that time, was angry and cut off a piece of armor, after returning to the palace, He reprimanded me fiercely, and also called the master who always praised my intelligence in the past to scold me severely, since then, the poems of the three emperor brothers have become better and better, and they are more and more liked by the emperor, and even with Yin Concubine has also been valued, every time at this time, I am always the most unhappy one, because after returning to the palace, the mother concubine will definitely scold me fiercely, and then more strictly require me.

I don't know what I mean to my mother. She gave birth to me and raised me, and she protected me with swords and swords in the deep palace, but she didn't love me. She only loves her father. I know. Well, maybe I'm just one of the tools to maintain her relationship with her father.

They all said that their father and Empress Li were childhood sweethearts, and the eyes of the mother concubine when she looked at her father were hotter and more crazy than that of Empress Li. But his father didn't know anything, because he only had Empress Li in his eyes.

So I hated my father. If you don't like me, why did you give birth to me?

I also hate my mother, she is also a mother, the concubine of the three emperor brothers holds the three emperor brothers in the palm of her hand, and even the always cold Queen Li only has pity in her eyes when she looks at the eldest emperor, why is she the only one who uses me like a tool and never softly speaks to me?

Finally, one day, the mother was furious because of her father's coldness, and she broke all the precious porcelain in the dormitory, and finally calmed down. At that time, I hid in a cabinet in my mother's dormitory, and saw my noble and elegant concubine smashing everything in the dormitory like a madman, and her eyes were scarlet, and at last she kept repeating this sentence, so that I, who was only six years old, remembered this sentence deeply: "Your Majesty, why don't you look at me? What's so good about that slut in Riemann, what's so good about her? Ha ha...... Your Majesty, let me see how much you love this slut...... Haha......"

The last of my mother's laughter was so terrible that for many nights I always heard it in my dreams, and then I woke up so violently that I could not sleep that night.

At that time, I didn't know what the mother concubine's words meant, and after a while, we suddenly didn't have to go to the palace of Queen Li to say goodbye, and I haven't seen my father for a long time, and the third emperor brother has no chance to be proud, and the eldest brother who has always been bright suddenly quieted down. Three months later, Empress Li had a miscarriage, and soon after, Empress Li, Xu.

When I saw my father again, he seemed to be ten years older.

And the eldest brother seems to have changed overnight.

The happiest person in the palace is probably just my mother. Yes, just her. Because, I'm not happy. Although Empress Li is not my biological mother, but Empress Li is a very gentle person, although she is cold to the concubines, but never make it difficult, sometimes I meet Empress Li in the imperial garden, although she will not be as gentle as some concubines who have nothing to pretend to be gentle with me, but she will still smile and say a few words to me, but none of them are temptations and clichés, sometimes just discuss the weather, sometimes just say which flower blooms better, maybe she doesn't like me very much, but she is also willing to give me some sunshine.

But such a gentle Empress Li died.

And my high-spirited father also aged overnight.

As for the eldest brother of the emperor, who I have been a prince since I was a child and known as a prodigy, after a short silence began a long period of absurd and absurd panic.

And the era of the mother concubine has finally come. She became the ruler of the harem.

So on a cold night in the winter of that year, I was hiding alone by the lake in the Imperial Garden, and I saw with my own eyes that the palace people who were the confidants of the Queen Mother came to the lake with the sleeping Three Emperor Brothers, and then threw the Three Emperor Brothers into the lake of the Imperial Garden like throwing a piece of wood.

I covered my mouth and looked at everything in front of me. The third emperor brother seemed to be stunned, but after he fell into the water, he was excited by the cold lake water to open his eyes, I saw that he began to desperately flutter and call for help, but the silence in the imperial garden was a little weird, and there was not a single palace eunuch appeared.

Slowly, the Third Emperor Brother lost his strength and began to sink slowly, and before he completely submerged to the bottom of the lake, I saw the Third Emperor Brother looking in my direction with his eyes open, as if he saw me, but as if he didn't. Then, with a look of horror and resentment, he sank forever.

I stayed there for a long time, and then I got up with my hands and feet, and ran back to my dormitory.

I will never forget that expression on the face of the Third Emperor Brother. From that day on, I suddenly began to fear my mother.

So I began to study hard, learning how to be a gentle and humble gentleman, so that everyone was full of praise for me.

- I've worked so hard, I've been so full of praise, my mother, I'm not going to sink me to the bottom of an icy lake, is she? Although I am her own son, I know that if I have no value in existence, my mother will not care about my life or death.

What she loves is herself, the royal family behind her, and my father, but without me. I don't know why, but I know that's what it is.

So I smiled at my mother every day, observed her preferences and pleased her, and tried to make myself look better, so that everyone praised me, and even the lowest eunuchs in the palace would only say that I was a rare good prince.

Except for my henchmen, no one knows how dark my heart really is. And they did not dare to betray me. Because the price of betraying me is more terrible than Ling Chi's execution. That's why everyone thinks I'm just a smart and humble gentleman.

Later, the mother concubine became the queen mother, but the eldest brother was still the crown prince. I know that the queen mother is still dissatisfied with me, she is dissatisfied that I have always been such a humble gentleman, and she wants me to become a domineering and exposed king, and then take the place of the eldest brother.