480. I don't want to be envious, I can only hate deeply—Chu Chenzhao 2
But my queen mother may have been proud for too long, and she couldn't see the reality clearly after all. Or maybe she's deluding herself.
In fact, everyone knows that in the heart of his father, his son is only the eldest brother. Although the queen mother got rid of Queen Li, she also buried Queen Li forever in her father's heart.
No one can fight against a dead man. Especially the dead man, a woman that a man has always loved, and finally lost because of being designed. Perhaps on that day, the father and the emperor had insight into everything the queen mother had done, and the forbearance of the next ten years was just for the sake of the eldest brother.
Maybe the queen mother also knew, but she didn't want to believe it. A woman who is struggling to love a man probably needs such self-deception.
The queen mother is becoming more and more like a queen, she is graceful and elegant, she looks down on all living beings, she makes all the palace concubines tremble and live under her hands with a snap of her fingers, so except for the two princesses and the impenetrable eldest brother who is protected by her father, there is no new life in the palace.
I don't know how many royal brothers and sisters have been stillborn, I only know that the queen mother is becoming more and more unhappy in the self-esteem day by day. Because in addition to the first and fifteenth days of the new year, when you have to stay overnight in the queen's palace, sometimes the father will not come here under the excuse of dealing with state affairs.
- The harem is under the control of the queen mother, but the harem has long been useless for the emperor.
So the queen mother's anger can only be secretly sprinkled on me, and then all the cruel means are applied to the eldest brother. Something, I'm also wondering, is it my father who protects the eldest brother impenetrable, or does the eldest brother who now seems to be stubborn protect himself impenetrable? I knew that the eldest brother's behavior was becoming more and more absurd, and the queen mother was getting happier and happier, but she didn't realize that the eldest brother seemed absurd, but he never did anything that could make the imperial history try his best to impeach, those things may have lost the face of the royal family, but none of them could make people think that the crown prince should be abolished to revitalize the dynasty.
The queen mother and the Wang family seem to have stood on the position of the victor for too long, perhaps it was the death of Empress Li, the great change in the temperament of the eldest brother, and even the retirement of Li Guogong, which made them mistakenly think that it was now the world of the Wang family.
So of course, they forgot what kind of person my father was.
So, perhaps the defeat was long foreseen.
As I grew older, my mother stopped scolding me casually, but every time she looked at my humble and gentle smile, there was always a trace of impatience in her eyes.
So I smiled more and more humbly and gently, until even my father praised me more than once.
――I know that I am not for my father's praise, but for the revenge of my mother. revenge her for giving birth to me but not loving me, obviously I am her only son, but she is just me as a pawn. In that case, why should I do everything her way? I am a descendant of the Chu clan of the royal family, how can I be a pawn of the Wang clan under her subordinates? Mama Lin beside the queen mother is still sober, she has more than once persuaded the queen mother to be kind to me with a little worry, but the queen mother does not care, and I just smiled gently in the care that Mama Lin deliberately flattered.
And in my gentle smile, there was a deep resentment and rebellion.
When I was ten years old, my father's secret guard led a secret guard to me and told me that it would be the head of my secret guard, and in order to ensure his absolute loyalty, his body would be planted with the same birth Gu, and the mother Gu would be planted on me, and from then on, I would give birth to him, and I would die and he would die.
The secret guard planted the mother Gu for me, and he was urgently summoned by his father to leave, and before leaving, he handed over the child Gu to me and asked me to plant it for the dark guard who was still a teenager.
- Tongsheng Gu. When I was nine years old, I accidentally got a Miao Jiang person, he was good at using Gu, I had heard of Tongsheng Gu in his mouth, it was made by a Gu master in his clan, because she fell in love with a man, the two swore to live and sleep together and die in the same cave, she accidentally made the same life Gu, so she planted this Tongsheng Gu with her lover, and then loved her for a lifetime, passed away on the same day, and achieved a good story. So this Tongsheng Gu has since become a symbol of loyal love, only lovers who are sure to be with each other for a lifetime, in order to ensure that their lover will not leave him first, leaving himself alone to survive, he will plant the same life Gu, so that the two die on the same day, but later it was used by some radical people to threaten people who don't love themselves to succumb to themselves, creating a lot of tragedies. So more than a hundred years ago, Tongsheng Gu was completely extinct, and it became a legend of the Miao Jiang Gu poison species, but he never wanted to be found by the Chu royal family and did this.
The rebellion in my heart suddenly clamored, so I took the Zi Gu, but I didn't plant it for the young man, I ordered him not to tell others that I didn't plant a Zi Gu for him, but the young man was grateful for my trust, and then he was even more loyal to me - in fact, the secret guard rarely betrayed his master, but the people in the royal family refused to trust others after all, so he did this.
I handed over the Zi Gu to the Miao Jiang man and asked him to keep it properly for me.
Actually, I don't know what I'm going to do with it. If the Zi Gu had not been planted for others, the Mother Gu in my body would be useless, and if the Zi Gu was not in the body of others, the Mother Gu could be elicited using secret methods, but I had never elicited it either. Left and right, this is a harmless Gu poison with people, and it can even improve people's five senses perception.
The queen mother naturally didn't know about the secrets of the royal family like Tongsheng Gu, and the father thought that the secret guards had completed their task, so naturally he wouldn't ask about it anymore - maybe this matter was not even out of his order, but just a task passed down from generation to generation by the secret guards, otherwise, why would he urgently summon all the secret guards at that juncture?
As a result, my Secret Guard Master didn't plant the same life Gu Zi Gu, and no one even knew about it—the Miao Jiang people only thought that I had accidentally found the Zi Gu.
None of that matters, though. The important thing is that when I met a woman later, I couldn't help but plant the Zi Gu in my hand on her.
Maybe I wanted to do this in my heart, otherwise how could I take that Gu with me? Especially after I secretly asked the queen mother to keep her in the Tilting Summer Pavilion, I deliberately took Zi Gu to see her.
There is a secret passage in the Tilting Summer Pavilion. This was discovered by accident when I was a child, and I didn't even know about my mother. At that time, Mama Lin was already forced by me to hide from the queen mother to do something for me, so when the woman was full of plans as I expected, Mama Lin sent her to the Tilting Summer Pavilion according to my order.
In fact, the queen mother may also have noticed that her humble and gentle son was not really humble and gentle, so gradually, she became kind to me.
It's not that she wants to make it up to me, it's because she's jealous of me.