Suddenly, he smiled, and a bitter smile rose at the corner of his mouth: "I know, because he is Wu Feng's person, even if he wants to kill me, I must let him go." ”

"Red Yun'er, no......"

"Why is that? You tell me, you give me a reason to let him go. ”

Because, because this is a debt you owe......

Just as I was about to explain everything to Wuxian, Yuyu, who was lying on the ground, suddenly picked up the long sword next to him and volleyed into the air, swinging his sword and slashing down at Wuxian.

Wuxian shoved me to the side, narrowly avoiding Yuyu's attack.

"Yufu, I know why you're here, you listen to me first—" I quickly got up from the ground and shouted at Yuyu.

"Noble girl, Zhao Wuxian is not a good person! He's hiding it from you, he's the beast's face......" Yufu shouted at me as he parried the unshirted attack.

"You, looking for death!"

"Don't-"

"Poof—" This was the sound of the tip of a sword piercing flesh. Then, all the sounds around me seemed to suddenly disappear in my ears. I watched as Shirtless's sword plunged into Yuu's chest, I watched as Yuu's back hit the black lacquer screen, and I looked at him, nailed to the wooden wall by Shirtless's sword.

Blood splattered the plain walls, blooming like gorgeous peach blossoms.

Tears blurred my vision, and memories of the past swept over me with endless grief.

"Lady, it's spring here, and the scenery is unique. In March of this year, I came with her once, and I saw that there were bright peaches at one end and the other end, like clouds. ”

"I found her in the mass grave yesterday, and although she lacks a tongue, it will at least give her a place to live."

"Noble girl, I was blinded by personal feelings, and I almost harmed the head of the family, and I deserve to be punished for my crime! The servant swears here, only when the remaining wish in his heart is fulfilled, he will apologize with death! ”

…………

That year, he knelt in front of the lonely grave next to the peach blossom ferry and made a vow with tears. After so many years, I thought he had forgotten about Yao Nu and forgot his obsession with revenge. But I was wrong, he remembered, and he probably never forgot for a day.

I rushed forward and tried desperately to catch the blood gushing out of the servant's mouth, and I tried to pour his blood back into his mouth, but the hot blood kept pouring out between my fingers, and then slowly became cold like its owner.

"Noble girl, he is...... He's ......" Yu's body had begun to twitch, and he tried to restrain his trembling lips, but the blood gushing out of his mouth made him only grunt.

"I'm sorry, I know, I know what you want to say. I'm sorry, I ...... I'm sorry for you, I'm sorry for her......" I held Yuyu's cold and chilling hand tightly, and told the guilt in my heart over and over again, but he was dead, and he couldn't hear my cry, nor could he hear the remorse in my heart.

"Ah Shi, he's dead." Shirtless drew his sword and grabbed my shoulder tightly.

I looked at the body that gradually slipped away, and said distractedly: "Hongyun'er, have you dreamed of her?" Over the years, have you dreamed of Yao Nu? Do you think of her when you hear me sing "Zijin"? Do you know how she died? Do you know where she is buried? Have you ever said sorry to her in a dream......"

"Ashi, I don't know what you're talking about." The hand that was on my shoulder suddenly stiffened.

"Zhao Wuxian, how long are you going to hide?" I wrenched his hand away and looked up into his eyes.

Wuxian looked back at me silently, his eyelids twitched slightly, and then he suddenly put his sword back into its sheath and turned around and walked out of the door: "You are tired, you rest in the house first, and I will go to see the others." ”

"You are not allowed to go!" I wiped tears from my face and grabbed his hand violently, "You know what I'm talking about, why don't you let him finish his sentence?" Why do you want to kill people? Why don't you admit it even now? ”

"Ah Shi, what do you want me to admit? He's an assassin, I'll kill him, it's as simple as that. Wuxian turned around and looked at the corpse on the ground and said coldly.

At this moment, my heart suddenly fell straight down, and it kept falling, falling into bottomless darkness, and then a bone-chilling chill grew in my empty chest.

No matter what he has done before, I always believe that he has a kind and warm heart under the layers of arms. He is to Bolu, to Zhang Mengtan, to Ah Yu, and I see his affection for others. He is by no means the bad guy everyone says he is. But why, why can he not hesitate to kill an innocent person to hide his mistakes, why does he make me feel so strange and cold at this moment.

I let go of Unshirt's hand and pulled out the silver-bladed dagger he pinned to his waist.

"When I was in the fishing village, I redeemed this dagger for you. I know that it is not an ordinary dagger, its dagger body and blade are forged from two different celestial stones. When you rescued Beru from the hooves of the Mad Horse, this dagger was the first thing the Prime Minister gave you. That night, under the plum tree in Baili Province, you cut my throat with it. Hongyun'er, I already knew who you were, and I already knew everything you did in the Qin Kingdom. I don't say it because I'm still waiting, waiting for you to tell me in person one day. But why do you still hide it, why don't you want to admit the mistakes you made in the past? ”

"Ah Shi......" The big hand wrapped my hand holding the dagger into the palm of his hand, "We are doing well now, some things are like this dagger in your hand, if it is hidden in the sheath, it will never be able to hurt us, but if we have to pull it out, then it will cut both of us." And such harm is often unintentional, with misunderstandings and mistakes. Wuxian's expression was calm and composed, but his eyes revealed the agitation in his heart at the moment, "Ah Shi, I don't want to see such senseless harm happen to us. No matter what happened in the past, in this world, the last thing I want to hurt is you, and the most I want to protect is our future. Who the beast-faced people are doesn't matter to our present and future! In that case, why can't we choose to forget about him forever? ”

There were two faint flames in his eyes, and that was his hope, his longing. I was tempted to nod in acknowledgement of his words, and I was tempted to throw the dagger away from my hand so that it could no longer hurt me and his happiness. But the dried blood stains on his face reminded me that the past we didn't want to talk about had just killed another good man.

"Red Cloud, I've told myself countless times to forget all memories of the beast-faced people. I can forget your past with Lan Ji, forget the short dagger you hung around my neck, but I can't forget a lonely grave under the peach blossom tree on the bank of the Weishui River. The man you killed today, he is not an assassin sent by anyone, he is just deeply in love with the woman who was abandoned by you. Yao Nu died for you, it was the servant who buried her, you owe him a word of sorry, and you owe Yao Nu a life...... Hongyun'er, this is your debt and my debt, how can I easily forget? ”

"Ah Shi, I'll explain to you about Lan Ji later. As for Yao Nu, I have never loved her, and I have also given her a chance to leave, and I talked to Meng that day to go to Prince Qin's Mansion to give her a chance to live. But she refused. Death is her own choice, and you can't blame me with her choice! Blame yourself! ”

The unsympathetic argument once again chilled my heart. Yao Nu's death tormented me for a long, long time, and the bloody, tongueless mouth woke me up from nightmares several times. Until today, I had always thought that I was not the only one who had been condemned by conscience all these years......

"Little woman, your eyes are rebuking me." Wuxian smiled bitterly and raised his hand to gently touch my eyes.

I closed my eyes and took a step back sharply: "To this day, don't you have a little guilt and remorse in your heart?" How can you be so comfortable accepting the sacrifice she has made for you? Sacrificing your life and dying is not an easy decision to make, it is you who bewitched her with love, and it was you who made her mistakenly think that as long as she continues to wait, as long as she loves without regrets, she can have a better future. She died for you, can't she get your guilt back? Is your heart made of stone? ”

Wuxian looked at his stiff hand in mid-air, and suddenly lowered his head and smiled: "Ah Shi, do you really want to listen to my explanation?" Or do you just want to convict me of injustice and give yourself a reason to leave me? The eldest sister is about to marry the monarch of the country in the near future, Wu Feng did not marry a wife, he is still your affectionate and dedicated general! ”

"Hongyun'er, I said I wouldn't leave you, and I wouldn't go back to the General's Mansion again. I don't care what you've done, I just want to see the real you, the one you who doesn't hide. Even if you're not a good person in other people's mouths, I don't care. I just want to love a living flesh-and-blood person, I don't want to fall in love with a beautiful shadow, a false skin. ”

I stepped forward to shake Shirtless's hand, but this time he avoided me first.

"Really? Let me guess why you have such an obsession. Is it because Wu Feng deceived you back then, and it was his usual gentleness and integrity that made you fall in love with a beautiful shadow, a fake skin? Don't worry, I've never been the same as him, and even if I've put on a disguise, I've never been good. Shirtless walked around me and pushed the door open and walked out.

His back was cold and detached, and I knew that the dagger, which should not have been pulled out, was now unsheathed.

The night wind howled and blew up the fallen flowers and dust on the ground, and the sky was swept by a large number of dark clouds that flew in front of the moon. Standing on the steps outside the house with his hands behind his back and facing the wind, he tilted his head slightly, his sad and lonely figure flickering in the dark night.

"Ah Shi, you want to see apologies and remorse in me, because you have been looking for something in me that I don't have. Such as kindness, such as mercy. A heart hidden under my skin is like this night. When the moon is there, it still has a faint light. When the moon is obscured and gone, it is left with only a terrifying, evil-doing darkness. Ah Shi, I know your bottom line, and there are some things I will never tell you. All the people in the world can accuse me of Zhao Wuxian, I don't care at all, I just want my moon to stay, and that little bit of light in my world is enough. ”

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