I spoke to Dongfang Yongde and drove him away.

But what people see is that I'm giggling into the air and talking nonsense.

The palace maid next to her was startled.

Zhao Pumin: "What are you talking about?" ”

Me: "Nothing. ”

Palace maid: "Do you want an injection?" ”

Zhao Pumin: "Wait first! If you fight again, you will be resistant! ”

Me: "Good, I'm fine." ”

Zhao Pumin: "Calm down, close your eyes, don't think about it." ”

I closed my eyes.

It's ridiculous, since it's all said to be visual and auditory hallucinations, what's the use of you closing your eyes? You gouge out your eyes, you poke out your eardrums, you can still see, you can still hear!

I closed my eyes and watched the people fly around the sky.

I saw Zhao Dazhuang flying around, pulling his wife and his children.

I recalled Zhao Dazhuang's past.

That day, Zhao Dazhuang beat me. Winter Night, Snow, Cowshed, Zhao Xingyue, Milk...... Zhao Dazhuang raised his fist and hit me on the head. He rode on top of me and hit me. The fist rained down on the back of my head.

Zhao Xingyue's scream.

I hit Zhao Dazhuang. I rolled over and knocked him down, raised my fist and beat him to the point that his head was bleeding. I picked up the brick and threatened him that if he looked for trouble again, I would kill him.

But logically speaking, it is impossible for me to beat Zhao Dazhuang. Because he is a soldier. To be honest, even if he kills our whole family, he won't be responsible. This is clearly stipulated in the "Ming Imperial Law".

I recalled Zhao Dazhuang's past. However, this is not true. I don't recall Zhao Dazhuang's past. In other words, I recall Zhao Dazhuang's false past.

Dog leftovers told my dad many times that I was always making a fool of myself, that I was daydreaming, that I was bragging. I always refute. Could it be that what he said is true? Could it be that I was beaten by Zhao Dazhuang, but afterwards I imagined that I beat Zhao Dazhuang?

Gou Yu'er told my father many times that I was beaten by older children, so I always went to beat the younger children. I always refute. Even though the little ones said in unison that I hit them.

Nameless told me that I had killed Zhao Dazhuang and that I had killed millions of people in the county. He said that he heard me talk in my dream, and in my dream, I killed Zhao Dazhuang and all the people I wanted to kill. Do people lie in dreams?

I knew I was going to change, but then, I didn't know I was going to change – because I changed.

I've changed so many times that everything doesn't matter.

My memory has been tampered with, by myself, or by someone else, either voluntarily or forced.

If my memories have been tampered with by me, then which one is the real me?

What is Me?

Who am I?

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I decided to use logic to clean it up.

But!

But!

But!

Logic? What is Logic? Where does logic come from?

Logic is memory, and logic is reality.

People go through countless facts, draw lessons and lessons, and form logic. Yet, yet, yet now, my memory, my facts have been changed beyond recognition, where is there any logic!

I use the false logic obtained from false memories to verify whether past memories are false or true?

It's a chicken-and-egg question!

In other words, it's an endless loop!

I never knew the truth!

People never know the truth!

Nothing is my everything.

I remembered that the children's fathers and mothers came to my house and said to my father and mother that I had beaten them.

I cried, swore on my knees, and swore to God that I had never beaten them. yes, I really don't think I ever hit them - at the time.

But now, I deeply doubt it.

I'm not who I used to be.

Maybe I never knew me.

I did hit a kid – I grew up being a bully.

Dongfang Yongde appeared again.

He looked at me with a sneer.

However, he never had that smile. I can only see that smile when I look in the mirror. The "foolish" Dongfang Yongde is the Dongfang Yongde, and the treacherous Dongfang Yongde does not exist.

It's a kind of heart-wrenching, heart-wrenching laugh.

Only I have.

It's me who looks at myself.

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My head is heavy.

I reminisce about the past.

I remember the real and the fake.

It's like a new life.

All my memories are real.

Because I decided they were all true.

I was beaten by Zhao Dazhuang, so I hit Zhao Dazhuang with my backhand.

I felt uncomfortable, so I went to beat the kids.

I didn't think I should hit a child, so I forgot about it.

I was born a bad person.

Because, the bad guys are the good guys.

Because, I am everything to me.

I came to Luoyang, I came to Chang'an, I entered the palace, I experienced so many emperors.

I am the head of the inner court, and I am a brother to the emperor.

They wanted to kill me, they shot me so many times in the chest, but I was still alive!

And I'll never die! Even if I'm dead, I won't admit it!

I'm the only one.

I'm not going to give up.

I am God.

I am destiny.

I'm the one who won the lottery.

In fact, this is not comparable to the lottery. People who win the lottery don't go on to win the lottery, but I just happen to be the smartest person to vote for.

I'll always be the smartest person! I'll do all kinds of things that no one else can do! I will always improve. If I had to compare it to the lottery, I would be the one who won the lottery forever!

I am who I am, the real me, the substance of me, the eternal me, the faith of me!

I looked at the sky full of ghosts.

Ridiculous visions.

False concept.

A bunch of poor worms.

And so, all the illusions vanished. It is because of the disappearance that I can say that they are phantoms.

Nothing is gone.

I was the only one left in the ward.

It doesn't matter why I'm God, what matters is the fact that I happen to be God.

We have to jump out of the cause and go straight to the effect.

Because the result has been born.

The result is the most important thing.

Righteousness by faith.

Faith by righteousness.