Si'er left, she changed into Hu pants and sat in front of Yu An and rode away. I stood on the gray-white tundra beside the river, watching the two men and their horses disappear into the dark purple glow of dawn at the end of heaven and earth. There was a conspiracy and war in the distance he wanted to take her, but she didn't look back, and she ran forward to her destiny. I wanted to stop her, but I couldn't stop her, because it was her choice.

Once, I was so arrogant and selfish to keep my lost innocence in Si'er, I wanted her to be as white and beautiful as the apricot blossoms in March, I wanted to make her happy, I wanted to give her the stability and happiness I longed for but could never get, but the reality mocked my self-righteousness fiercely. There is no one in this world who can arrange the fate of another person, after sixteen years of acquaintance, I thought that what I gave her was a bright moonlight white, but what she got was a black and dull crow's back blue, endless danger and conspiracy. I was wrong, nowhere was it right. So, I persuaded myself to let go, let go of her destiny and let her choose for herself the path she wanted to take, the people she wanted to be with. From now on, we will no longer join hands or stand side by side, but she will know that I will always be there and will never leave.

Without its master, the palace was quiet and desolate, and the palace maids got up early every day to finish the day's work, wrapped in thick winter clothes, and gathered around the fire, or napping or chatting, and their topics could not avoid the shapes* of the men in the high walls of the capital who could change their fate. I don't like to listen to them chat, so every afternoon I take quinoa to sit by the river.

Zheng Bo's orchid soup was extremely curative of Ah Quinoa's leg disease, and it only took him two months to go from not being able to walk to being able to walk through the tundra alone without crutches. My brother was braver and stronger than I thought, but I was still scared because his fragile leg bones couldn't withstand an accidental fall. So, whenever Quinoa struggled to step into the frosty dry grass, I would unconsciously grab his hand, thinking I was guarding him. It wasn't until one day, when I was crying in the face of the wide glacier, and someone silently held my hand behind me, that I suddenly realized that it was he who guarded me when I was most in pain and helpless, and he was the one who supported me and kept me from falling.

At the end of the year, a heavy rain washed away the layers of snow in the mountains and forests, and the thick river ice finally began to melt, and sometimes people could hear the sound of rushing water under the ice even closer. I used the Dark Guard's sword to dig a hole in the ice on the bank of the river, and I would come to the ice cave every day to take a look. Before my father left, he must have sternly told these "protectors" of what a cunning and difficult woman I was, so that every time I turned around, the two people who followed me would always come to the ice cave to take a closer look, for fear that I would have some intrigue in the cave.

Actually, they really don't need to be afraid, I won't run away, a pregnant woman, a medicine man with only half of his body left, even if he escapes from here, it is impossible to escape from Zheng Guo alive. I dug this ice cave just to watch the ice of the river get thinner day by day. There was too much surprise, too much betrayal and despair, too much pain suppressed in my heart, and the only thing I was glad for was that it all happened in winter. Because no matter how long the winter is, there is always a spring behind it. I guard an ice cave, and inside the cave is my small hope, hoping that he will wake up in the distance like this river oppressed by the thick ice cap.

Hongyun'er, the river ice here has disappeared, what about you? You okay?

Quinoa found a crimson maple leaf in the field after the snow melted, and he found two pieces of wood like a treasure and gave it to me with a clip in the center. He said that at the end of summer every year, Ah Niang would always find the most beautiful hibiscus flower and clamp it with a wooden slip, and then use a knife and pen to carve the most joyful thing of the year on the wooden slip.

"For you." Ah Quinoa gave me a maple leaf, he didn't know what the name of the person I missed day and night in my heart, and he didn't know that there was a red cloud like a maple on his brow, but he gave me a red leaf that had survived the cold and snow. Since that day, I have never cried again, I put the red leaf in the nearest place, imagining that he is like a river flowing in front of me, and he can't wait to wake up from the oppression of ice and snow.

"You're not going to die, you won't."

The south wind rose, and the grass seeds, which had been buried deep in the ground all winter, sprouted, and the tender green grass tips emerged from the yellow weeds one by one, dyeing the endless fields with a faint layer of fresh green. On this day, I accompanied Ah Quinoa to the river for a walk as usual, and while the two were talking, I heard someone shouting at the top of my voice: "Girl, girl is going back to the palace, Handan Jun is back——"

Zhao Ji came back, I took Ah Quinoa into his room, raised my hand to salute, before the salute was finished, a terracotta water bowl had come straight to the door in front of me. I waved my hand to block it, and the bowl fell on the mat and fell apart.

"Daddy?!" Quinoa was stunned.

Zhao Ji, who was covered in dust, glared at me with anger and said, "What the hell have you done!" ”

"I didn't do anything." I looked down at the broken red pottery shards on the ground.

"Lie! Zheng Bo has obviously arrived in Xiaqiu, why would he go back on his word in front of the princes? ”

"I've never met Uncle Zheng, how can I know his thoughts."

"No, it's you, it has to be you. Why are you going against me everywhere! At this moment, Zhao Ji was like a trapped beast that had been cornered, he paced with a calm face, and suddenly raised his hand to overturn a tree-shaped lamp in the house.

"Daddy, what's wrong with you?" Quinoa reached out and protected me behind her.

Zhao Ji turned his head to look at him and said, "Ah Quinoa, my good boy, Daddy has no time, Daddy has waited for twenty years, if you miss this time again, there will be no chance." I can't go to see your grandfather like this, and I can't go to see your aunt like this, do you understand? ”

"Daddy......" Ah Quinoa looked at Zhao Ji and his eyes turned red.

Zhao Ji put off his anger and pulled out a reassuring smile at him: "It's okay, Daddy will have a way." Daddy is going to Jin Kingdom again, you are optimistic about your sister. In July, when the hibiscus flowers bloom in July, Daddy will take you back to Handan, to our own home. ”

"You're going to the Kingdom of Jin? What are you doing in the Jin Kingdom alone, are you going to die? "I don't want him to attack, but I don't want him to die either.

"Dead?" Zhao Ji sneered, "Death is a luxury, Siqing is immortal, what face do I have to die?" ”

"You want to kill Siqing? You are crazy! I was stunned by Zhao Ji's crazy thoughts, but Ah Quinoa in front of me suddenly fell to his knees with a pop.

"Brother, your legs!" I was shocked.

Ah Quinoa endured the pain and knelt on the ground and looked at Zhao Ji with his head up, Zhao Ji reached out to help him, he grabbed Zhao Ji's hand and suddenly cried: "Daddy, don't leave me." Quinoa is not afraid of death, you take me with you, don't let me wait for you anymore, I've been waiting too long......"

"Ah Quinoa......" Zhao Ji looked at Ah Quinoa's tearful face and hugged him up, "It's Daddy's mistake, I'll take you with me, this time, Daddy will take you everywhere." ”

I watched the scene in front of me, and my chest suddenly ached. Am I doing it right? Did you do it wrong? Where is the answer to all this? I clutched my chest and clutched the autumn leaves hanging from my heart through the placket of my clothes and through the two wooden slabs.

I looked at the scenery outside the car, holding my high bulging lower abdomen, for fear that a little bud with a bumpy belly who did not know the world would come to this world in advance because of curiosity.

I don't know what Zhao Ji wants to do, Zheng Bo has refused to attack Jin, the Liqiu Huimeng broke up unhappily, and the Qi people can't send troops to attack Jin for no reason, what can he do when he returns to Jin alone? Even if there is still a Yu An in Xinjiang City, what can the two of them do to the huge Jin Kingdom?