They are getting closer.

I said anxiously, "Hurry up!" ”

Touching Zhao Xingyue's body, nervous and careful.

Stiffness all over the body. What's the situation? Why did you suddenly become paralyzed? And her brother and her dad will be there soon!

I heard the footsteps of the dog leftover and his father.

I threw her clothes on her, picked her up sideways, and walked around the fence of her house to the back of her main house.

With my legs bent and my body half-crouched, I slowly lowered her diagonally so that her feet were slightly on the ground.

She was able to stand at first, but she was still unstable. She leaned on my shoulder, most of her weight still resting on me.

She whispered, "My legs and feet are so numb." ”。

"You take it slowly." I comforted her as I glanced outside.

The dog is left, and they are home.

The dog leftover muttered: "Hey, why didn't the door be plugged in?" The dog ignores this girl and is lazy again! What a beating! ”

His father shouted, "Why is the oil lamp thrown on the ground, and there is a puddle of oil on the ground?" What's going on? Hurry up and check it out. ”

They hurried to the back room.

I slowly returned Zhao Xingyue's center of gravity to him, just holding her and not letting her fall.

She said softly, "My feet are so numb, like pins and needles." ”

I leaned down and massaged and patted her legs hard, and she lay on my back.

Finally, she frowned and gently chopped her foot: "I can stand." It's okay. ”

I handed her the clothes, and she hurriedly put on her pants, coat, and shoes.

At this time, there was a ring in their house, after which they began to shout her name, "Satsuki!" "Ignore the dogs!".

"Dad, I'm here." She said as she straightened her clothes and hair.

The dog and his father came in a hurry, and the footsteps came to us from far and near.

A second before they arrived, she pushed me away and stood on my own.

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Xiaoyue: "Daddy, brother." ”

The dog squeezed his eyebrows at me: "Yo, it's big, you kid!" I thought something was wrong. Oh yes, what's wrong? ”

Uncle Wuji: "Oh, it's a big cow. I thought I was a chicken thief. ”

Gou Yu'er continued to laugh evilly: "The chicken thief is not, it turns out to be a flower thief." ”

"Brother Niu is leaving, I'm trying to persuade him." Satsuki changed the subject, maybe this is really what she wants to do, let everyone persuade me?

Dog leftover: "Where are you going, big, go to the county seat to dig out feces for the county lord haha?" What is there to persuade this. ”

Xiao Yue said to them anxiously: "He is going to the capital!" Go with the people of the Oriental family. ”

They all turned to me.

Me: "That's it, I talked to the scholars who came to our village a few days ago. ”

Dog Leftover: "What? Entry? ”

I calmly said, "Yes." I said I'm going to go out and break in. ”

The dog leftover shouted: "Big, you are hairy? This is not a war, you can't go out of the county during the non-war period, and you will be castrated if you go out of the county! If you want to go out, you can be a beggar, why go to the Shi! We used to say joking, you know? Don't take it seriously! ”

Me: "I'm saying goodbye to you. I have already told the Oriental family that I will leave tomorrow. I went to the county seat and the provincial capital early in the morning, and one of their subordinates took me away. ”

"What are you stupid about. What nonsense are you talking about! Peace is a blessing, don't go to extremes! You're always like that! Don't go the right way! "The dog grabbed me by the shoulders as if I was about to fly away.

Me: "Why are you such a mother-in-law?" What peace is bliss, isn't this my father's mantra? You're not the most annoying about this! I wanted to ask you to go with me, but I was afraid that it would hurt you. I'll just walk on my own. ”

I looked at Uncle Wuji, who was silent.

He usually doesn't smile, but now he is even more silent.

Me: "I'm sorry, Uncle Zhao, I'm leaving." ”

Uncle Wuji: "It's okay, Da Niu. Horses of courses. Who knows if the future will be good or bad. No one knows. People always have to fight. ”

Xiao Yue turned to her father and roared, "Dad, where are you talking?" How can you say it by the temperament of a big bull? ”

Uncle Wuji: "This is fate." ”

I thought, "Strange words. Dad and Uncle Wuji always say, 'This is fate', but why are the lives in their mouths different? And the opposite? My father wouldn't let me out, saying it was fate; Uncle Wuji always pushed me out and said that it was fate. What is the meaning of the word 'life'? Who has the final say? ”

Uncle Wuji continued: "It's still the same sentence - 'go your own way'. ”

"Daddy, what are you talking about? I hate you guys! Satsuki turned around and ran into the house crying, covering her face.

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Uncle Wuji continued: "Da Niu, you have to go, I have a few books here, I got them when I went out to break in back then, and now I ...... ...... Here you go. ”

He put his hand on my shoulder, and we walked into the house together.

Satsuki was still crying in the back room, and although she suppressed her crying, the voice still came out. Her younger siblings were woken up by us, and the youngest child was already crying.

Uncle Wuji opened the mat on his clay kang, and there was a hole in it, and there was a miserable white tin box in the hole. He lifted it up, carefully brushed the straw foam from it with his sleeve, and the thin tin box sounded crisply.

He turned it on. There are all sorts of things inside, and at the bottom is a half-box of books. He pushed them apart and pulled out a few books at the bottom of the box. He blew lightly, and the dust flew wildly; He brushed it with his sleeve, and confetti flew around.

He solemnly handed it to me.

One is "Political Science", one is "History", and one is "Materialology".

It's all forbidden books. They didn't have covers, but I could tell at a glance that they were the three forbidden books. Books that are not on the Emperor's list of books are forbidden. But these are the banned books of the banned books, so much so that they are not on the list of banned books. The reason why I heard their names was because I had heard my father and Uncle Wuji talk about the names of these books when I was pretending to be sleeping.

I flipped through the pages. They are too frankly written, too conclusive, too truth-bound – they are forbidden books at first glance.

Staring at the familiar Zao Wou-Ki. The familiar Zao Wou-Ki became unfamiliar; It's getting stranger and stranger, and it seems that they have never known each other.

Me: "These books? How could you have it? I thought you were talking nonsense! ”

Uncle Wuji: "Don't ask too much, and don't tell others!" ”

Me: "But...... I...... Are these books important to you? What should I do if I take you...... Did you copy it? ”

He sighed, "I've read it all." But what's the use of reciting it? You can take it and see it. They are much more useful to you than to me. Again...... If ......"

He was silent for a moment, and did not continue.

Me: "Thank you, Uncle Wuji! I will definitely read it thoroughly and save it carefully. ”

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"Big, I'll give you this too." The dog leftover sometime had his precious dagger in his hand.

According to him, it was picked up by him from the town. That time, the officials grabbed the salt gang, and the outlaws lost it when they ran away. He saw a dagger on the ground, and he picked it up and hid it. He always treats it as his sweetheart. I usually take it out to show off to me occasionally, and even if I want to touch it at that time, he will beat me hard.

I'm holding that dagger. Very thin, but much heavier than expected, it should not be steel, the specific gravity is much greater than steel. The daggard was covered with knife marks, and one could imagine what its previous owner had been through. I pulled out the dagger, it was black and dull, and there was not a single mark on it, which showed its tenacity and sharpness.

Dog leftover: "You take it, you can take it more than me." ”

Me: "Good brother! Brother, I'm gone. I'll give it back to you when we see you later, no matter when! I swear. ”

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Then Satsuki ran out, holding a white pendant.

The ornament is clearly part of the Taijitu, and it is the white part.

She stood on tiptoe and hung the pendant around my neck. Her hand touched my neck, wet and hot. Her expression was so formal, so solemn, so sacred, like a mother looking at her child, like a wife looking at her husband. Then she turned and ran away.

At that moment, I suddenly wanted to cry.

But it can't be like this, it has to go. A long delay means many hitches. If you don't leave, you won't be able to go.

I said to them, "Uncle Wuji, Gou Yu'er, Satsuki, I'm leaving." Take care. There is a fate to see each other again in this life, but there is no chance to be a family in the next life! ”

Staggered back.

Those scenes, those things, made me doubt my decision.

But I had already refused, and my rejection of those situations, those things, strengthened my decision.

Even if there is a sea of knives and fires ahead, there is no turning back.

Once you've made a decision, you can't afford to regret it.

Because regret is useless.

Because you don't regret it.