I pondered.

Zhao Yuyang came over and said, "How did you send the money?" Why is it the fourth from the bottom before sending the money, and the first from the bottom after sending the money? ”

I didn't speak.

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At the graduation ceremony, I became the center of attention.

Because I was the only one who didn't graduate from the entire Imperial University.

Everyone looked at me.

However, I don't care, I'm not embarrassed – because I've been there.

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Ten years ago, I was dropped out of school.

The teacher said, "Let's go." ”

My dad and I went out silently.

My dad went to negotiate with the principal because he wanted a refund of the tuition fees - I only attended half a year this school year, and the other half of the tuition was a huge amount of money - for my family.

Dad went, and I waited at the school gate.

Embarrassed.

That's a whole day.

I waited at the school gate all day.

Embarrassed.

But that's not my school anymore.

People next to it come and go.

Everyone looked at me.

However, it was no longer my classmates, teachers, acquaintances, enemies, or passers-by.

I waited at the school gate all day.

Embarrassed.

That's a whole day.

I waited.

I saw how ants moved.

I saw how butterflies break out of their cocoons.

I saw how the cicadas died.

I saw the sun rise and the moon set.

I saw spring hair and autumn fruit.

I saw the stars shifting.

That moment was like eternity.

The eternity was like a moment.

Since then, the meaning of time has changed for me.

I control it, not it controls me.

From then on, time and feelings can no longer cause me a little pollution.

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Looking at the bright red "fail" on the graduation book, I fell into the memories of the past.

When I was twelve, I entered the school for the first time, Yonghe Township Junior High School.

I learned to write essays and read them to my father.

Dad said, "Why did you write that you like wild chrysanthemums?" What's so good about wild chrysanthemums? If it were me, I would write - the colorful olive flower, which is the national flower of the former dynasty, so gorgeous and beautiful......"

I said, "Daddy! You have no idea what you're talking about! I love the wild chrysanthemum, not the wild chrysanthemum itself, but the character it represents – so stoic and never give up! ”

I give my composition to the teacher.

The teacher read it out on the spot—and the classroom burst into laughter.

The teacher said, "Haha! Love wild chrysanthemums! Why don't you like sagebrush? ”

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Hum!

I don't know what to call people.

Their reward for you is the greatest insult in the world!

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I continue to get caught up in the memories of the past.

My first essay.

I wrote about our little yard – especially my black date palm tree.

The teacher held up my composition and said, "This new student will copy the composition as soon as he comes." ”

I stood up: "Who said that! I wrote it word by word! ”

Teacher: "Just you?" Can you write such a good composition? You're just a household. ”

Teachers and classmates laughed, as if - I dreamed that I was laughing at people all over the street without pants.

I feel incredibly ashamed.

……

Many years later, it dawned on me that this was the highest compliment to me, because they didn't believe I could write something they couldn't believe on my own!

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Hum!

I don't know what to call people.

Their insult to you is the greatest reward in the world!

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You guys!

You guys!

You guys!

What are you guys!

Why the do you say I failed!

What the are you guys!

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I looked at the comments on the "report card":

Part-time Vice-Chancellor of Imperial University, Kong Youli: The world is spiritual. The man was incoherent and apparently mentally ill.

Rector of Imperial University, Lu Ziluo: The world is material. Although he was very persistent and creative in his pursuit of truth, we must be honest and say that his results were wrong. We can encourage this process, but this outcome should not be encouraged.

In addition, there is also the criticism of the "mysterious department": "This person is radical in thinking and too angry; Lack of self-confidence, left and right. This person is not suitable for an official, it is recommended to enter the cold palace and never reuse. ”

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These two bastards!

You think I'm always talking nonsense?

It's like getting drunk, pretending to be crazy and stupid, and there is truth in nonsense.

I can hide myself as I please, but I know in my heart that I am a person who cannot live without truth and faith.

And you guys!

Mentally retarded!

Weak!

Greedy!

Hypocrisy!

Appetite!

Libido!

Arrogant!

You sins are monstrous!

You don't know anything!

Kong Youli is a mentally retarded person, not worth explaining at all, and is only suitable for being physically wiped out like Dongfang Yongde.

Lu Ziluo, why don't you apply your theory to yourself? You doubt everyone, why don't you ever doubt yourself?

You are nothing!

You guys are just a name!

There is no principal!

There is no emperor!

There is no senatorate!

There is no Son of God!

There is no God!

Who can decide the truth of the world?

What is the absolute truth of the world?

I can say that I am not the truth of the world; However, neither are the others.

If I am not the truth of the world, then no one is!

We control us because, we are who we are.

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In the past three years, there has been no examination.

This year, there will be a general exam next year, the age will be relaxed, and the number of people will be at least several times that of our year.

From then on, there was nothing to do with me in the entire court, inner court, and imperial palace!

Hum!

Do you think that I will be a lowly dead eunuch in the palace for fifty years, and then be scattered into Jiulong Lake by someone's royal crematorium?

Damn it!

Dream!

I'd rather die again!

What are you guys!

I can't be sure that I am the supreme truth, but I can say responsibly that neither are you!

What's the big deal!

Kill them all!

Kill them all!

Kill them all!

Not a single person left!