Ask when the sky will be old, and ask when the love will be gone.

My heart is deep, and there will be a thousand knots!

This poem, I remember, should be the masterpiece of contemporary romance writer Qiong Yao! The reason why her romance novels can be deeply rooted in the hearts of the people is mainly due to her delicate and rich experience of emotions, and based on her understanding of human nature, coupled with her own unique talent, and under the integration of various factors, through the description of the external world, she highlights and composes the essence of life...

Imagine...

If the love is not deep, why ask God?

If the intention is not true, why is there any distress?

If it's not deep and it's not true, of course, there is no relief from old love...

In fact, in everyone's heart, there has been that love for innocence. The embarrassing thing is that this kind of innocent love, because of the ignorance and greed of human nature, can often only be realized in the storyline, and even in the baptism of the years, it will become a swan song for the ages...

As a result, many people are frustrated by this pure attachment, and sublimation in the course of life, and finally cast the miracle of realizing the perfection of others due to the transformation effect...

It's like the troubles of young Werther

Just like I am obsessed with the perfect life of my child, for the better recovery of my child, I can't help but gradually move towards a more professional direction.

Therefore, it can be seen that healthy attachment essentially represents independence and strength. Therefore, in order for the child to be strong in independence, I am ready to readjust the rehabilitation center, mainly to correct his bad habits, and hope to let him gain better self-awareness, independent behavior and self-care ability, as a new beginning of the rehabilitation center!

This time, I don't remember exactly what day it was, I just know that it was another helpless night...

When the child who has eaten dinner, because he wants to get more love through coquettishness, he uses the method of not cooperating with the washing of the buttocks, in the twisting and pinching, to hope to achieve his goal.

I saw that her mother was dealing with him for a long time, which made him even more impatient, and then I said to her, "You have to tell him why he washes his ass, why he can't play tricks..."

Unexpectedly, before I finished my words, I saw his grandmother, who suddenly had a big face again, and said like a creditor: "Just know what to do, you have to be able to do it..."

Saying that, she deliberately violated my method of training the child, and together with the child's mother, like killing a chicken and slaughtering a sheep, she coaxed and forced the child to wash her buttocks...

When I saw the scene of the children arguing with them, I couldn't help but be angry, because when the children were in the country, I told me more than once, asking to bring the children to the city to be raised, but under my grandfather's planned strategy, I induced my grandmother, her daughter and even the family to ignore them.

That's all it takes to think that since I am incompetent and cannot meet the marriage benefits that your grandfather expects, and my grandmother and the mother of the child are just two pawns in your plan. Although my grandmother is farming at home, she wants to reduce the burden on her daughter and is not used to the life in the city. But in fact, even she doesn't know it, but with the support of your grandfather, and her subconscious hope to get a sense of accomplishment from the process of farming!

And the child's mother, who is a person who celebrates the world, is even more comfortable and leisurely. Maybe I feel that my father makes her superior, and I often consciously compare him with me in my unconscious thoughts. So that I was disappointed, and let her be chic and free, until she played with fire and roasted herself, cut her wrists and drew a charge!

However, what is even more ironic is that even today, her daughter may still not understand that at the beginning, her father loved her so well and monopolized the child in the countryside, in fact, he hoped to wait for the time to be ripe and help her cut off the child's tail naturally, so that she could return to her girlhood, and then help herself find a golden beetle son-in-law, and smile proudly!

Therefore, his daughter would never have thought that her father had even been immersed in the vision of the future, and in order to realize his great ideal, he was ready to continue to prevent the child from entering the kindergarten and said: "What can the child learn when he goes to kindergarten, and it is not bad to take two more years at home!" “

The funny thing is that just when his daughter was ready to help him realize his dream come true, just when I gave up everything and was ready to fulfill him, he was moved to do everything possible in his daughter's sassy demeanor, and gave up his once great dream independently!

Although at that time, I knew that his grandfather was so ambitious, but for the sake of the child, for his ignorant daughter, so he lurked in his inner humiliation and contempt, and lived in their moment naturally, wanting to explore the situation and verify the magic of psychological life again!

And her grandmother is also stupid and touching, there is no distinction between positive and negative, the severity is unknown, in the countryside, the original task of taking care of children is reversed to farming.

Although, from her point of view, in her thinking and conscious cognition, she hopes to earn more income and subsidize her family, but the fact is that she herself does not know that in her subconscious, farming is the only thing she is most familiar with in her life, and it is also the only thing she can control in her life. Therefore, for her, farming represents a symbol of her self-consciousness and authority!

And why did his grandfather ignore it? And give great and selfless support and help? Because, he feels that this is the first step for him to strategize and win a thousand miles. And seamlessly. And because I was not in Anqing at the time, it made him feel that this move was even more ingenious!

But he didn't know that this kind of thought in his heart, even he hated himself, except for me, I'm afraid God knows!

So, in desperation, and too lazy, I told them how to treat their children. If you treat your child now, what will your child do in the future!

However, the family is still in the hope he created, and everyone is self-righteous and scoffs. Even if the child is full of problems today, even idiots can see the problems at a glance, but I still didn't expect that even if I put the diagnosis in front of him, the poor and sad thing is that he is still afraid of envy, and in order to keep the original plan secret, so, knowing that the child has a problem, he will not admit it!

I didn't expect that he would rather gamble with the fate of his children and daughter's life than realize and protect his heart of the autumn rain tomb. even tried every possible way to even hide the child's biological father and smuggle Qionglou across the sea! Not to mention being willing to let others know that the child already has problems!

Perhaps his wisdom and great mind have long been beyond the world, and he is above the vacuum of the world in the fireworks of the world. And ignore the misery of the world!

Therefore, his brain, full of wisdom, can be as clear as the light of the earth, in fact, the child's problem, like blood, represents himself, his heart, and his past. Because the child now, in fact, is the epitome of his destiny ...

Perhaps to this day, he has already realized that his mentality from heaven has made this family exist for decades like on a snowy night...

However, despite this, even to this day, he still not only does not learn from the pain, but worse, he is still tireless, immersed in the romance of the wind and rain, and continues to indulge in the self-esteem and incompleteness of the mirror, and in the blind pursuit of perfection, he seems to be still obsessed with a good sense of self, still strolling in the snowy world, in the sad and eager wandering, still back and forth cowardly...

What I didn't expect was that his super high realm, and today, in order to realize his lofty ideals, and in the admiration of thousands of people, like the blessing of the Buddha, he passed it on to my children, his grandson, and the third generation in his life...

The two poles of this kind of original family, like a poetic moon, are always easy to show off the light while showing off the all-pervasive darkness behind them in the laws that are cloudy and sunny and difficult to change...

Thinking about it again, my grandmother was just that, because she had just returned from a diagnosis in Hefei, and in my analysis and comfort, she seemed to understand, and she showed regret and self-blame from the bottom of her heart.

At that time, in order to eliminate the pressure in her heart, I told her: "Anyone who brings such a child is prone to problems, so it has nothing to do with you bringing it..."

Is this true? This is a kind of consolation for me against my heart, because she made an unintentional mistake, because she made a mistake of foolishness, because her heart, in essence, made an innocent mistake because she loved her children, and more importantly, because she was also the deductive inheritance and victim of the original family...

So, in fact, the truth of the child's problem has too much to do with the belt. Otherwise, why does the state still attach so much importance to education? Because, in essence, raising children is the most important initial process of educating children...

In fact, although it is so, I can't have any complaints, because in my eyes, in essence, she is the same as a child, an innocent victim of fate, a victim of the original family, a wedding dress of other people's ignorance and selfishness...

However, I didn't expect that even today, she not only did not reflect on her fate, just like my grandfather, but regarded my tolerance and forbearance, and even my filial piety that blood is thicker than water, cowardice for incompetence, and even a performance that wanted to please her!

So, in such a state of mind, she gradually wanted to hollow out my world like a creditor to make up for the futility of her fate...

She may never really understand why his grandfather didn't let her take her own children in the first place. However, why does his grandfather ignore his life with his grandson and daughter, and help her raise his own children in the name of righteousness?

Could it be that only God knows what he thinks in his heart except for me...

Could it be that his grandfather, in order to protect and realize the mood and ideals of the Haishi Tower, can even his daughter and grandson be willing to turn into scenery?

Perhaps his inner thoughts are nobler than noble, because all his actions with them have been magically in his strategy of winning a thousand miles, and this young family has begun to compete with the infinite desert...

Because, after a short time, except for the child's mother, the other three members of the family were silent, and even unanimously denied the existence of the child's problem.

Because, the noble grandfather once said: "You are going to take the children to see..."

After the noble grandfather, he said, "The child is in good health, what is the problem..."

The grandmother in the wedding dress said: "If I knew that the child was like this, then I would have come to Anqing a long time ago, and I would stay here every day..."

The grandmother who took off her wedding dress said again: "Isn't there a child who is so big and old to speak...?" Children are born..., you are not in good health, are you...? Your roots are not good..."

I finally talked to my child, and my grandmother, who no longer had a wedding dress, said, "It's time for the child to speak..."

The uncle of the high-educated modern cabinet scholar also said: "This child seems to have a problem, you and my sister have to work hard..."

However, when the family was reunited, the uncle who was like the prime minister in the country suddenly said: "The child is stunted, what is the problem..."

Think about it, think about it again, this kind of ability sometimes really has to be envied, because even singing still needs many rehearsals! And they are gifted and intelligent, and they can be regarded as a contemporary Christie...

Therefore, today, in order to recover the child, in the old love and the new, and under the cameo interpretation of his grandmother, I couldn't bear to pick up the chopsticks in a fit of anger, and on the child's buttocks, although it seemed serious, it was only a few gentle knocks...

However, unexpectedly, when her grandmother saw this, she suddenly descended like the queen mother, although she was somewhat depressed, but her behavior and her whole body were full of the domineering spirit of an invincible king...

Although I know that her kingly spirit is due to the psychological mutation caused by the repressive past and even childhood, which leads to inferiority, cowardice, ignorance, and selfish consciousness. And let this external manifestation of inner psychology be stubbornness, paranoia, blind self-righteousness, shirking responsibility, lack of affection, lack of empathy and compassion, and the desire to drive away the weak and experience self-dignity and a sense of value of existence!

But this character of hers, because of the radiation effect, has cast her children, with many problems with her children's children.

And to this day, although there is some self-awareness in the progress of children, they are still in the inertia of shirking responsibility and self-protection, half-hugging the fence and half-covering their faces in the constant resistance, hoping to continue to gain the value of self-existence from it...

Therefore, I think that if this kind of mentality is allowed to indulge, sooner or later it will be like a flood beast, and until the whole world is submerged, it may not know how to turn back, and it does not want to turn back...

However, if you want to suppress its existence, it is easy to wither quickly like a sapling that has lost water, and even completely lose its vitality...

And the people in this state of mind are like the moon in the clouds, the first and fifteenth days of the new year are different...

In psychology, such groups have been categorized as grey people.

In terms of marriage and family. It has been summarized as a legacy of radiation from the original family.

From the perspective of Buddhism, most of these people are reincarnated beings from hell.

However, if they stand on the opposite side of practice, such groups of people can be said to be reborn as bodhisattvas.

So what's the truth? If we start from the essence, in fact, everything is and is not. If you have to say yes, at most it is just like a mirror, reflecting the other heart of the person.

Just like the wind and sails, it is actually the truth of the heartbeat. When my heart does not move, nothing will happen...

Although this is a true portrayal of life, it is by no means easy to see through and do...

Although, I don't know once I want to stand in the perspective of feelings...

From the point of view of responsibility...

From a psychiatrist's point of view...

And even from a humanitarian point of view...

I've thought about it more than once, tried hard, to do it all...

Because, she used to be the closest person in my life...

Therefore, my heart aches too...

Therefore, I feel that she is more pitiful than me...

Because, I am in pain, and I know why...

And she suffers, but she doesn't know what pain is...

Therefore, I have thought more than once about doing my best to help her be reborn and let her return to her true self...

However, I am just an ordinary person, in real life, I must have the feelings of ordinary people, in order to more effectively operate my psychology, my thoughts, and my real life...

Besides, my energy is already limited, and even if I have the heart, I often don't have enough energy...

Besides, I used to work hard to rehabilitate the child's mother, to solve the problems left by her original family, and to start a business for the sake of her family's mood...

I've already broken myself with an overdraft...

And what makes people even more desperate is that in the eyes of her and them, I am just for myself...

I don't understand who in this world would break down for their own sake...

I don't understand who in this world has erased himself more than once for his own sake...

I don't understand who in this world wants to go to hell for their own sake...

So, for the sake of the children, even for themselves...

From now on, I will not have a woman's heart for anyone...

Because, to this day, I have begun to understand that compassion requires wisdom, otherwise all the efforts will easily harm others and oneself...

Because, today's child problem is another real proof...

So, if I don't realize it in time...

Otherwise, children's tomorrow and future are their past and present...

Otherwise, it will not only be difficult to help the child...

There's a high chance you'll drag yourself into hell completely...

So, when I thought of this, I...

When his grandmother snatched the chopsticks from my hand, when she wanted to use the chopsticks to smash the whole earth, I couldn't bear to go around the house a few times in anger, and I couldn't find anything suitable for spanking the child!

Finally, I mustered up the courage to take out a thick piece of iron from the kitchen drawer again, and with a few hard blows, I beat the child's ass into a green tree and flowers...

At this time, my grandmother seems to understand a little, even if you are the queen mother, your right is in heaven, not in the current world...

At this time, she finally felt a little helpless, and began to be depressed with fear, and because she felt sorry for the child, she began to use the most primitive method of milking, hoping to alleviate the child's pain at the same time, maybe she wanted to show the queen mother Yu Wei again...

However, the child was successful in quitting milk, so under my warning again, she was still the same, and finally I was angry again, and I involuntarily picked up the bottle again, and went straight to the ground without any scruples...

Unexpectedly, when we were having a lot of fun, the child at this time was already on the sofa in the room, like a happy prince, chattering and making a non-stop in the video...

When I saw this, it seemed that I suddenly realized something. Because in my mind, he has always been silent and passive in the video, and at this time, this kind of excitement and happiness, and even the active tone and tone, seems to be the first time...

I seem to be able to feel the child's inner life from the performance of his video with his grandfather. He seems to want to tell us with his actual performance: "Don't you guys, I'm deliberately naughty, don't you think I'm happy right now?" …”

Yes, at that moment, I was so excited that I found that many adults' problems were actually more serious than children's! It turns out that 70% of my energy is indirect and direct, and it is consumed by those so-called adults...

And the child's share, less than 30%, not only brought unexpected surprises, but what is more gratifying is that he almost never let me down once...

Yes, it was only through his later performance that I was almost completely sure that the analysis just now was correct.

Because, again, I don't know what happened to the child, her grandmother seemed to be addicted to drugs, and inexplicably forced me to be angry again...

Maybe the child at that time, because it was difficult to express in words, but he behaved like a cheerful and sensible peacemaker, in the midst of giggling, he insisted that his grandmother and I sit together, and then tried to turn my grandmother's face and ask her to face me.

And I, in order to test his psychology again, was about to deliberately get up and walk away, but unexpectedly, the child blocked my way again and asked me to continue to sit next to his grandmother...

At this time, although the child is comforting, it is even more heart-wrenching. His heart-wrenching performance made my depressed heart, beneath my cold and irritable appearance, begin to drip blood again...

Because, what does the child's behavior just say about it? Fools can understand at a glance that the child's young and innocent heart is full of yearning for beauty. Of course, his grandmother was no exception, and when she was also in heartache, she picked up the child and said, "Grandma understands, grandma won't be in the future..."

Think about it...

Think about it

I really want to shout: "Oh my God"...

I didn't expect that in this world, so many people who seem to think they are amazing adults, but many times, they are not even as good as children!

What's even more ironic is that what about the children brought out by a person who is not even as good as a child?

At this time, in this scene, in this situation, I want to cry without tears, I want to laugh without a cause...

I only know, I seem to understand better, an education expert once said: "Children's problems are actually the interpretation and inheritance of family problems..."

Suddenly stunned there for a long time...

In the silent, invisible, helpless crying and laughing...

Wave your hand...

Just think about it...

Thinking of the heaven and the earth, I cried alone...

But I didn't expect that it would be the same night again, but I don't know when, because of the child...

Perhaps the night is the time of the day when one's reason is at its weakest. It's always easy for the devil of the soul to pour out in the dark. However, when the devil appears, once the ghost of reason is lost, then a true soul is exposed. Unless one can attain the unity of body and mind. Otherwise, most people's reason will be swallowed up by the devil in the depths of their hearts! And it's easy to get out of control!

If they are in such a state of repression, such people will often disguise their souls in desperation in order to achieve their own goals.

However, this type of person can easily indulge himself when he is in power, and make good use of the method of suppressing others to show off and experience his authority.

Because, this is a kind of repressed soul that has been released, and at the same time, it is also a distorted mutation in the depths of the soul...

Therefore, this kind of ignorance and vulnerability makes people sad and lamentable at the same time, but also pitiful, hateful, detachable, and even abandonable...

I clearly remember this time, I was having dinner at the time, and I was discussing the child's problem with the child's mother, but unexpectedly, we were already entangled because of the child, and suddenly I heard my grandmother say like a debt collector: "That's because your family roots are not good..."

When I heard it, I almost fainted, everything was fine...

Is she well fed?

Is it in my forbearance, experiencing the joy of driving others?

Is it inflated in the desire to control the child?

Besides, under their edification and education, she has worked hard to experience the expansion of self-driving, and it has taken more than 20 years to finally build her children into a group similar to herself. Resulting in scarring!

However, to this day, not only do I not know how to think about how to turn things around, but on the contrary, I have to say such fragrant words inexplicably...

I think that if she didn't give Thunder a blow, she might really be going to crush the world...

So, I couldn't bear it anymore, and I didn't want to endure it anymore, and suddenly, I couldn't help but throw the bowl of rice out of my hand...

Unexpectedly, the mother of the child, who was originally calm, seemed to have always seemed to be weak, but she was also inexplicable, as if she suddenly obtained the power of the queen mother in an instant, and in the rapid fission of personality, she also had no scruples, as if she was the same as me, in the unbearable situation, she smashed the rice bowl in her hand at me at the same time, and deliberately avoided the harm to me, and let the rice bowl in her hand quickly fly straight in front of my forehead and smashed into the wall mirror I just installed for the child...

In an instant, I only heard the sound of "pop", and the moment the mirror shattered, deep in my heart, I suddenly felt like an atomic explosion, and I felt that it was uncontrollable, extending to the entire universe...

At that time, although I did not have the prediction function of Shao Kangjie, the master of easy numbers in the Song Dynasty, who occasionally watched birds and knew the night loss of flower girls, I seemed to have clearly felt that from now on, it has been an eventful autumn, and the cold winter will begin to recover! Even if spring comes, it will be hot in summer, and it will be better than rotting in dry things...

Because, the dirt of human nature, the power of selfishness and ignorance, has become more powerful because of the explosion, and this energy will continue to absorb the corresponding frequencies in the universe in the law of gravity, and gradually spread to real life...

This latent power can not only affect the operation of reality, but more seriously, it can penetrate into physiological, psychological, water, rice, flooring, garbage, and so on. It will cause almost all matter to change accordingly, and again, under the action of the original consciousness, it will snowball bigger and bigger, until it envelops itself in life...

This terrible natural consciousness, the power generated, will be invisible, so that the environment is always easy to induce uncontrollable factors to lead to accidents...

If, in order to break this situation, it is necessary to use another relatively powerful force, and it is also in the law of gravity, to merge and change its mass. Just like a chemical reaction in reality, in a specific corresponding law, the corresponding objective factors are used to obtain a predetermined effect. It can be like a dark night, completely disappeared because of the appearance of light...

Otherwise, all the core things related to it are easy to advance and retreat in a trance...

Otherwise, just like her mother today, whether it is in her mind, thought, quality, work or career, she has begun to appear, stagnate, or even decline, and it is difficult to break through.

If it continues, it is very likely that she will be more negative and regressive due to the continuous accumulation and fission of negative energy, as well as other unexpected events...

And in fact, in the favor of fate, she could have successfully walked through the victims of fate.

However, I didn't expect that to this day, she will reappear again because of her children. Let her in the effect of touching the scene, under the habitual superposition consciousness of her parents, she has already unknowingly, because she awakened the consciousness that is about to disappear, and gradually returned to the initial state of the victim of fate, and once again entered the inheritance and interpretation of fate, and once again inherited and interpreted, the fate of another generation!

This fate that continues from generation to generation...

Like a storm all over the world...

And a thousand miles slowly...

Like rolling white clouds...

And again...

When I don't know how many origins...

And the soaked sun, moon and stars...