For me, imagination is like a rose with thorns, which excites me in discovering a problem, but at the same time, it is like a myriad of vampires that drain almost all my energy.

Therefore, in order to control myself, for many years, I tried to distance myself from reality. Because, only in this way, I feel that I can effectively avoid those thoughts that tend to make me run wild. Therefore, many times, I envy the life of pigs, eating and drinking, and even defecating in the open without any scruples.

At the same time, I yearn for the wanderers who drift with the wind on the streets, and those who walk barehead every day with six pure roots. Because, I think only their world is like the blue sky above the dust, clean and light. It's like the infinite universe, and it will always exist...

However, in the face of the reality that I had no choice, I could only be like more people, like machines, and on March 9th, I once again stepped into the chemical world that can reflect emotions and behaviors.

In the days of these two points and one line, in the spring season, within a few days, the children finally returned to Anqing as scheduled again as scheduled in the escort of her mother and daughter, at the moment when the plague was nearing the end!

When I returned to walking on thin ice, in the mood of resurgence, I finally stayed up until work, thinking that as soon as I entered the house, the child would be the same as before the Spring Festival, laughing and laughing in naughty. However, I didn't expect that the moment I stepped into the house, I unexpectedly found that the child who was sitting alone on the sofa, under the cold white light, the whole person seemed to be a lot fatter, the original white face, and the clear eyes, at this time, under the light, it was also like a pumpkin pie about to be burned, with obvious dull yellow and sluggish...

Seeing this scene, my heart sank, and I immediately walked over to tease the Heituo boy who was about to meditate and said, "Daddy is back, call Daddy..."

However, what is surprising is that he is still in the familiar oblivion, and the whole person is quiet, and at the moment when his eyes occasionally roll up at me, he shows an evasive pupil constriction, and obviously feels the whites of his eyes dilate. Then, still expressionless, like an old monk about to settle down, and regarded me as nothing...

When I saw the change in his eyes, I seemed to feel that this might be the physiological reaction of the old repression coming back and the new repression proliferating. But I guess the face is so dark, maybe it's playing in the sun with children at home. Fat like pumpkin pie, although a little indecent, may be because of eating it at home!

However, based on his previous body reactions, it is also more likely that he ate and kept warm in the countryside improperly, causing moisture to stay, resulting in fat caused by metabolic problems. As for the lack of expression on his face, it seems to be back to the past, I think it may be that the child has not yet adapted to the bumpy journey. But it is also possible that it is in the countryside, because of the effect of touching the scene, and the Muna reaction caused by the repression of the new consciousness!

Although there are many doubts in my heart, because of her grandmother's unique psychological hobby, and her unique personality reaction, coupled with her previous experience, I think it is better to know her secretly as an underground party. Otherwise, even if I ask her cautiously and diligently, maybe, in order to protect her deformed merits, or to cover up her full mistakes, she will perform a woman's performance, in case of another plague, then I'm really sorry, the anti-epidemic angels and heroes who haven't even made it over the Spring Festival!

Because, it is not the first time that she has played such a gifted superordinate. In the spring of last year, I went to the countryside to visit the child, and when she accidentally found that I was silently watching the child, she knew that the inspiration moved, and suddenly the sky cooled down and said: "The child is the same as you, he has yellow skin, right?" ”

At that time, I wanted to explain that the child's yellow face is related to diet and warmth, but I think it is rare for her to be so wise and empathetic today, and I can't bear to explain it anymore when I think about it. Because, even for the sake of the child, I can't bear to explain, maybe she is gentle and introverted, and then she will prove my mistake like a test on the child, then the final result may be that the child will really be completely yellow!

Because, I understand, she is so clever and intelligent, she has long known that my face is not yellow, and the child's face is not yellow. The reason why my face is now yellow is because I was not in good health and was allergic to diabetes powder, so I haven't fully recovered. And it is precisely because she understands the reason for the yellowness of the child's face that in the paranoid consciousness of self-protection, she can suddenly be gentle and shirk her responsibilities in order to escape the guilt, so she covers up! What is even more rare and commendable is that the child's face is known, and the villagers and family members know everything. So she can be so smart and reverse right and wrong, which can be called a must!

From this, does she really not know? Is there really a lack of gentleness? So why is she so talented and even tender every time she protects her soul that is afraid of seeing the light? And in this case, even her daughter, who is stupid but not stupid, once said: "My dad is back, and the baby looks much better..."

What's worse is that when the child returned to Anqing, I slowly discovered the child's health problems. However, because the mountain is high and the emperor is far away, I can't grow the whip, when talking about the child in the phone call with my grandfather to go home for the summer, I deliberately said: "The child speaks late, such a child will be very good..."

Sure enough, before I finished speaking, his grandfather suddenly said, "Hey, you can't talk like this, this kid vomited a little wrong last time..."

I was already worried, but when his mind suddenly relaxed, I immediately asked, "What's going on?" ”

Finally, my stupidity made his grandfather a little worried, and opened his golden mouth and said: "At that time, the child vomited and turned pale, but then he slept in bed and got better, your mother said that it may be that his chest is carved on a stool..."

After listening to his perfect explanation, I thought about it really powerful, but I didn't expect that her stool was also different, and she even had the ability to take responsibility...

However, what I didn't expect was even worse that it was not the first time that a child vomited like a living dead!

Soon, after we got the general situation, he and his mother agreed to suspect that there might be a heart problem. Then with our joint advice and request, they finally came to Anqing with their child, who had been suffering from fever for a few days. However, when I was examined in the hospital, I did not find any heart problems, but on the contrary, I was found to have anemia.

However, I didn't expect that when I was ignorant and thinking about how to replenish the child's blood, unexpectedly, his grandfather's accustomed wisdom had a powerful effect in my relaxed thinking. Because, on the way home, I saw him say like a fairy browsing the world: "There is no problem with this, everything can be so good, even if a good person goes to the hospital for examination, everything can't be good..."

Unexpectedly, after his talk about the scriptures, I felt that I had always been through the world, and I thought inexplicably in my heart, and felt that what he said was really reasonable. Besides, the child has a fever for a few days, and it is common for him to have some anemia temporarily.

But later, suddenly I thought about it in a worried desire to talk about it, thinking that he was so smart and dictatory, and the child was going to return to the countryside again soon, and I, who was already powerless, even if I had Su Qin and Zhang Yi's eloquence, how could I twist their four thighs far away in the countryside?

So later, because of his own body, in order to live a more pathetic life, he explored Chinese medicine in desperation and found that the child's vomiting was actually due to a lack of qi and blood, which caused it to be easy to get cold frequently, resulting in heart, lungs, spleen and blood deficiency. What's more, if this is the case for a long time, it will make it difficult for the spleen to transport water and dampness, and it is easy to cause phlegm and dampness to hinder the heart and lungs, resulting in language development problems, which will easily affect the abnormal development of both psychology and physiology!

Therefore, the more I think about it, the more worried I become, maybe this reason is also a major factor that induces autism in children. It may be this reason that even if children speak, they are prone to lack of qi and blood, resulting in poor lung qi, which makes it difficult to transform qi, and it is stiff, difficult, and difficult to pronounce correct syllables, which induces many evasive behaviors such as language and socialization.

In this case, adults will be deprived of lung qi due to the lack of dampness in the spleen, resulting in a deficiency of heart yang, and speech difficulties and a variety of mental and emotional problems. Therefore, in this regard, especially because I am not in good health, I have a deep understanding of the depression that has been induced, and thus it has also verified the authenticity of the theory of Chinese medicine.

And if this is the case, for a long time, even if the child has no internal causes, it is very easy to induce acquired autism. What's more, the child itself has a certain internal cause, and it coincides with the external trigger that his grandmother has rarely encountered for a thousand years?

And her own daughter, doesn't she belong to the phenomenon of acquired closure and unconscious splitting induced by no innate internal causes? However, I didn't expect that it was her grandson's turn today, and it was also under the divine arrangement of his grandfather, who let her recuperate for many years, and finally like a thousand-year-old elf who came back, and served her grandson for nearly three years. Therefore, the results of taking it for granted can naturally be known!

So, since then, I have begun to advise and ask them to cut off all cold fruits and vegetables, and replace their normal diet with warm and hot vegetables and snacks according to the sexual taste function of traditional Chinese medicine, and at the same time pay attention to keeping warm and warm, and promote blood circulation through external energy, so as to metabolize body water in time. Restore your physique, so as to drive the all-round recovery of autism!

At the same time, he told Xiaoyao Erxian that in view of the child's autism problem, he should gradually cut off the mobile phone TV, the tone and attitude of talking to her grandmother, and put away her mighty bamboo seedling scepter, and then use the principle of hypnosis to listen to the audio. However, I still never expected that the children were like a plague, and there was a trend of beacon fire, and they could still ignore it leisurely like visiting the heavenly palace!

It wasn't until later, with the birth of Xiaobao, that the grandmother and the child finally returned to Anqing in a real sense. Therefore, before and after the child's diagnosis, I asked and explained more than once to change the food, keep warm, and especially sweat, and need to add clothes and quilts, instead of casually undressing and reducing the quilt.

However, I never imagined that this kind of thing alone was almost never successfully achieved. Especially when it comes to eating lettuce, grapes, dragon fruit, exercising, wearing warm clothes, and sleeping under a blanket, I almost more than once want to throw away the dishes while eating. More than once, as if burning incense and worshiping the Buddha, he explained to them the necessity of doing so. However, their paranoia, paranoia, and paranoia are still often angry and I want to go crazy!

Especially when I returned to Anqing this time, I was disappointed and even in despair, if it wasn't for the major issues, I wouldn't even want to talk anymore when I was with my children! Therefore, I think that if I continue in such an environment, I will not become as closed, paranoid, and divided as they are, and I will be like children, in the inertia of repression, to form acquired adult autism, or induce depression again!

In desperation, after thinking about it, it was soon time for the child to sleep. However, when I helped him undress, it was the case again, the child who had not seen him for a few days was not only dark and fat at this time, but what was even more terrible was that the child's belly and entire waist were like a bucket at this time, and they were also dark and dripping fat.

Seeing this scene, I completely understood that the child was not only at home because of his long-term habitual vegetables, and relapsed again in their arbitrary behavior, but also when he exercised and sweated, he still took it off self-righteously. and the fear of him sweating to control his movements, resulting in new physical and mental problems.

What's worse is that once the child can't bear it, they either take off their clothes during the exercise, or add gauze behind their backs, but when the child stops moving, they think they are taking off or replacing the sweaty gauze again, but at this time, precisely because of the lack of thick gauze warmth, or the coolness of new gauze, it is easy to enter the body at the moment when the pores are loose, and the vicious circle aggravates the cold, resulting in water stagnation.

Therefore, it will continue to affect the development of children, heart, lung and spleen functions, and aggravate a series of problems of language, emotion, and interest!

Therefore, the metabolic problems caused by controlling the amount of activity and cold not only lead to his new sense of depression, but also cause aggravation of water and dampness to be difficult to metabolize, resulting in heat accumulation in the body, and causing the child to prefer to eat cold vegetables to relieve internal heat. And because the dampness obstructs the stomach and intestines, it leads to scorching dampness and heat, resulting in stool that often smells very bad. However, when I explained that the child's stool smelled abnormal, her grandmother, in her paranoia and vindictive desire, yelled like a crazy machine every time: "Poop just stinks..."

There were a few times when I was angry, I really wanted to say: "No matter how bad the poop is, it won't stink better than you...", but think about it after all, it's a parent, or endure it, I can't be as paranoid and selfish and ignorant as you, otherwise the child will really be hopeless.

And even if she knows these problems, but because of the paranoid desire for revenge, so that in order to gain the self-awareness of experiencing the deformity, she will not think, the child sleeps and sweats at night, because of the relaxation and heat stability, and improve the smoothness of blood circulation, resulting in excess water in the physical recovery of the body. This kind of recovery phenomenon should be maintained in order to keep warm and continue to maintain it from food, but because they are so smart that they always think that sweating is heat, stool is smelly, and other paranoid and stubborn thinking, they are allowed to reduce their quilt in time when sweating, resulting in the capillaries that were originally being dredged, but again due to the cold and stagnation, and even cause the capillaries on the body surface to be temporarily closed. It leads to a vicious circle that aggravates water and moisture storage, resulting in obesity of the whole body, and at the same time affects the function of the heart, lungs and spleen and mental development. What's worse is that if this situation is not corrected in time, it will also continue to worsen and induce more autism symptoms!

Therefore, it can be seen that even a healthy child will lead to many physical and psychological problems that will affect his fate. In fact, today's children, with the child's mother's closed psychological behavior, as well as with the uncle's physique and various psychological and emotional conflicts, are these not true portrayals?

Especially in the face of today's grandson, such a bad situation, not only do not think about how to face and solve the problem, but still as normal, in the lack of self-awareness, always with that shining wisdom, and even today, still immersed in the world full of expectations, in order to make up for their own shortcomings, spare no effort to realize the materialistic philosophical ideas through their own children, and put their own desires above the fate of their children...

Later, in order for the child to go through the catastrophe of his life, I tried my best to buy groceries by myself, and at the same time tried to take him out as much as possible, hoping to achieve the purpose of natural recovery physique through fun and sports, supported by the theory of traditional Chinese medicine!

When I took the child to the playground of the community for the first time, the weather was still a little cool, but I saw him exercise a few times, and then the beads of sweat were like rain, flowing down the hair.

Despite this, it is even a little scary to watch, but the child is still excited, tirelessly chasing up and down with other children. Seeing the still lively child, in a little comforting anger, I suddenly felt a little dazed.

I thought to myself, although the child has made a qualitative leap in socialization. But if I continue to grow up in such an environment, maybe I am so tired that I will leave him one day, and where will his future be?

Think about it...

The ground is not spiritual...

Just ask...

Days should not...

So who are they here for?

For me?

Or is it for his mother?

Or for his grandparents?

In short, the child will definitely not do it for himself...

Unless he's really the reincarnation of the Buddha...

With superhuman mana, he smuggled through time and space...

Therefore, it can be found that when many parents love their children, they are actually a projection of their own love! Just like his grandfather's love for his children, in fact, he just builds his need for love on his children, hoping to get self-satisfaction through his children...

This kind of subconscious love is also in the cognitive function of children's explicit perception and thinking consciousness, causing them to be the main factor leading to subconscious rebellion when facing their parents...

This kind of love for me always allows many parents to meet their own needs with their own life experience, in blindness, as small as reflected in the requirements for children's clothing and eating, in the shaping and pursuit of children's emotional character cultivation, in the domination of children's marriage and family, and even in the dictatorial planning of children's entire life and career...

This kind of love for me is what many parents expect to gain from their children or to continue and sublimate themselves. For children, this phenomenon is essentially their private product, not a life that is respected independently...

This kind of love makes many children who could have a brilliant life, but for the sake of their parents' mood and authority, they give up and lose themselves, and let them go through their lives in the shadow of their parents. Some even disappeared completely in the originally beautiful world before they had gone far...

Perhaps because of this, even a few years old, and his former mother, can be so full of love from his grandmother and grandfather, and know to be accommodating and tolerant, and because of the fear of authority, he begins to close himself...

Is this speculation, or is it just another bloody fact?

Isn't the true story of "Your Child Not Your Child" telling all this?

Why are many parents reluctant to think about themselves when they find out about their children's problems? Is it true that the experience of blaming and demanding children, the transfer and diversion of authority and accomplishment, and even the lack of feeling in the heart, is it really so enjoyable?

Children are born to their parents, can't their problems be explained that they are also inherited and manufactured by their parents?

At this point...

Thoughts flying...

Sunset...

The glimmer fades...

As time passed, my mood gradually faded like a child's sweat. Under the bright street lamp, I and my children are already walking on the way home...

In the days that followed, on the basis of warming, diluting water, deheating vegetables and exercising to drain moisture, I also added longan to replenish the heart and blood, and bananas to remove intestinal heat. Then, after a week of deliberately increasing his activity in warmth and social reinforcement, the child's face began to become white and transparent, and his bucket-like waist quickly disappeared. And his phenomenon of sweating like rain as long as he exercises a little has quietly receded...

So, for the child's better recovery, I asked her mother to buy a belly pocket to sleep, and our family of four slept in the bed together, and I always went against his grandparents when the child was sweating at night, but covered him more tightly...

In this way, within a few days, the child began to get better and better even when he slept and sweated at night...

At the same time, with the improvement of physical fitness, especially in social and language, it is in the continuous progress, independent learning and language organization have begun to appear! and a greater desire to be part of other children's group activities...

So much so that in the later days, almost every time he went out, he would ask for a community amusement park with many children with great interest. A few times when he found that there were no children there, he finally pulled me and pointed to me in a bit of boredom and said, "Play by the river..."

The child has a good conscious experience because of the satisfaction and freedom of being warmly given by his loved ones, and under the radiation effect, he longs to be part of the group. Because by feeling the understanding, acceptance, and tolerance of his relatives, he is formed in the heart of self-release, which makes him more eager for a broader blue sky and freedom!

And the primitive generation consciousness of all this is based on the interaction of family affection, and it is a benign radiation effect formed by taking the explicit consciousness as the premise. At the same time, in this effect, it will escalate and evolve to the integration with the group, and will gradually radiate to the whole society, and even the destiny of a lifetime...