At the same time, death also represents the beginning of a new life.

It also represents the beginning of a new nightmare......

Cuckoo cuckoo

I heard the cuckoo calling.

Am I dead?

"Hey, wake up, don't sleep!"

Who is it?

When he opened his eyes, he found that there was a bright light all around him, which made him unable to open his eyes for a while.

"You slept so hard, you didn't hear the whistle of the watchman just now, didn't you sleep at all last night?"

A thin-looking man in military uniform stood in front of him.

"Who is it? Where is this? I remember I thought I had been hit by a big truck......" he panicked.

"I said are you sleepy? I'm Lu Qing, have you forgotten!"

"Lu Qing, who's coming?ah......" At first, he really didn't know who it was, but after a while, he remembered inexplicably that this person named Lu Qing was a classmate in the class......

"It was raining outside today, so there was no gathering. Everyone else is gone, you can hurry, if it's late, the meal will be gone. After speaking, Lu Qing left.

He noticed that it seemed to be a classroom. He didn't rush to leave, but went to the window and looked at the scenery outside the window. Outside the window, there is a cold scene of spring, it seems that it is the alternate season of winter and spring, and students in military uniforms have left the teaching building with umbrellas; because it is raining, there will probably be no cuckoos, right?

He gradually remembered that he was now in his senior year, and his college life was over in one semester. Then, this is not Beijing, but Nanyang, and this is not a normal college, but a military academy.

Of course, he is also a cadet now and wears a military uniform......

He remembered.

Four years ago, he was still in purgatory preparing for the college entrance examination. But at that time, he was already determined to become a teacher. Yes, after reviewing my homework every day, I imagine in my mind what it would be like to be a teacher, and my enthusiasm for the teaching profession has reached the point of obsession, and I even want to declare to the whole world how much I want to be a teacher.

Therefore, when he applied for the volunteer, he naturally filled in the Capital Normal University in his first choice. Although it is not as good as the legendary Beijing Normal University, it is also a book, and it should be able to be admitted according to its own level.

Thinking of this, he remembered the dream of the car accident just now, which should not be a simple dream. He remembered that when he was in his second year of high school, he did have a serious car accident, and although he miraculously recovered after that, his studies were delayed a lot, and he couldn't return to the level before the car accident.

Back to the point. He had an early batch before his first choice, and he was good at English at that time, and when he saw this Nanyang Foreign Chinese College, maybe because of obsessive-compulsive disorder, he filled this school into the early batch. That being said, he didn't want to enter this school, he just felt that it was difficult to get into this school, and it wouldn't affect him if he filled in.

Before filling in the volunteer deadline, he had a dream about the scene of the past four years.

"No! Then I'm going to deviate from my dream of being a classroom! I'm going to smash it even if it's only a 1 in 1,000 chance! I'm going to delete this early batch!"

However, when his mother found out about his idea, she put a kitchen knife to her neck and threatened: "Listen to me, don't delete it! I beg you, you don't have anything to lose if you keep it! If you delete it, believe it or not, I'll die to show you?"

In this way, he did not delete Nanyang Foreign Chinese College from volunteering.

Fortunately, the college entrance examination was decent, and he did not play abnormally like the high school entrance examination, and he also passed the first line. At that time, the image of myself teaching in my mind was clearer than before.

At the same time as receiving the notice, I also got the military inspection notice. If you don't go to the military inspection, it is naturally impossible to be admitted to the military school. However......

"No! Do you know if you don't go to the military inspection and you will be regarded as a deserter! When the time comes, if there is a stain on your file, you don't want to be a teacher! Be obedient, you won't be admitted anyway, what are you afraid of?"

As soon as his mother said so, he went to the military inspection anyway.

On the day of the military inspection, he kept thinking about which test to wait for before leaving early. However, at this point, he was thinking about his mother's feelings, and if his mother knew that he had not completed the medical examination, she would be sad. In that case, it's good to try to get the test results in a bad direction. So he pretended to be clever and really answered blindly in the psychological test link. In this way, let the troops justifiably reject him, and his mother will have nothing to say.

He completed the military inspection in this way, and then waited for the First Normal University to send him an admission letter.

But he didn't expect that he had returned the initiative of fate to God......

As a result of the online search, he was admitted to Nanyang University of Foreign Chinese.

"Eh, how can this be? What should I do with my dream of being a teacher? Why don't I give up the admission and see if I can still coordinate with the First Normal University? If I really can't do it, I will repeat my studies for a year? But will I still leave something bad in the file if I do this?"

He suddenly realized that he had no choice left. At the same time, a series of horrific images flashed through his mind like a marquee.

"This ...... What is this? Although I didn't see it clearly, I felt a bottomless despair in my heart......"

For a moment, somehow, it felt like he had lost the courage to live. But he didn't have the courage to end his life......

"What should I do next......

In the end, he set off from Beijing to Nanyang and began a four-year military school life. Although it was very hard, maybe because I learned Japanese, which I was very close to, I got used to it unconsciously, and after three and a half years, I didn't feel as hopeless as I imagined.

In this way, the image that came to mind at that time was really just my own cranky thoughts. Actually, I can live a good life and become a teacher in the future. ”

So for the past three and a half years, he has been studying hard. In terms of physical fitness, he is not as good as other students, but in terms of study, as long as he works hard, he will not be worse than them, after all, everyone has zero foundation at the beginning.

It is almost impossible to select the Japanese language major from among the undergraduate graduates to stay on as a teacher, so the graduate school entrance examination has become a necessary choice.

"Yes, when the time comes, it is still possible to stay in school and teach. ”

Therefore, he took the graduate school entrance examination before the winter vacation, although because it was a military school, he could only apply for this school, but as long as he was admitted, everything else didn't matter.

He is actually very glad that after studying in the military academy for so many years, his dream of becoming a teacher has never changed. From the time I entered the school, I still imagined what I would have been like every day when I taught, but before I knew it, my subject changed from English to Japanese, and my school year changed from high school to university......

"Speaking of which, it's almost time for the graduate school entrance examination results to come out, right?"

He held up his umbrella and walked down the road leading to the cafeteria.

"This campus is really beautiful, but I don't know if I have the fate to stay here......"

Good things can only be illusions, and the reality given to me is always cruel.

It didn't take long for me to understand this......