The Seven Deadly Sins.

If you ask me which sin I correspond to, it is undoubtedly jealousy.

"Yellow Leaf Temple!"

"Here!"

He walked up to the captain, took the score slip, and quickly rolled it up. It was like something terrible, and he didn't have the courage to look at it right away.

Returning to the queue, after taking two deep breaths, he finally slowly opened the note, and a series of numbers came into his eyes: 63, 69, 118, 101, 351.

351 points......

For a moment, the brain is like a deflated balloon, and everything inside is expelled with the air.

In the past few years, Japanese majors have had to score 390 to be admitted, so he has been aiming for a score of 400. However, such a score should not even be able to enter the retest.

"Could it be that this year's questions are difficult and everyone is low in the exam?"

He wanted to comfort himself with this sentence, but it didn't take long for this sentence to be confirmed as a false proposition: he confirmed that he had a student who scored more than 400 points in the exam.

Although he didn't know the results of all the other students, he could almost estimate his rank: maybe among the students who participated in the graduate school entrance examination this time, this score was only afraid to be counted down, right?

"Why is this happening?"

He understands that in fact, when he was admitted to this school, he should have also entered the line, so the college entrance examination scores of the classmates around him were far better than his. However, since it is the first time for everyone to learn Japanese, and they are all starting from scratch, what is the use of their academic performance in high school? In terms of physical fitness, he is not as good as other students, and in terms of science studies, he may not be as good as others. But he is still confident in his talent for learning foreign languages.

That's right, so at the beginning everything was as he thought, the final start score could still be above 90 points, and he was also in the first group in the class. But gradually, he found that he couldn't score 90 points, but there were still people who could score more than 90 points. In this way, the gap grew larger and wider, and gradually, he broke away from the first group. By the time I was in my senior year, I had reached the point where I could balance my mind if I could score 80 points in the exam, and I felt that my professional course grades were at the upper middle level.

"What did I fail to do well that caused this gap to widen? I don't feel like I'm relaxed in my studies......

In such confusion, he was in his senior year and was about to enter graduate school, and he had no time to think about these things anymore.

"Yes, I was able to see the gap, so I started reviewing it before the summer. ”

In order to review, he spent a lot of money to enroll in classes and buy materials. In order to improve his grades, he even asked his graduate students to do paid tutoring for him. He almost didn't even get the qualification for the graduate school entrance examination, and in the end, he only got the opportunity to intercede in every possible way. In order to improve his chances of winning, he adopted a cooperative strategy, that is, he and Lu Qing, who was better at studying than him, reviewed together every night, until more than 12 o'clock every day.

"So...... So why did you put so much effort and even money into it, but it didn't change a bit?"

Suddenly, a picture came to his mind: he was running, but he didn't know if it was because his shoes didn't fit, and he felt like he was slowing down, as if he were walking in water, and an invisible force was holding him back, and those who were in front of him were leaving him far behind, and those behind him were gradually catching up and overtaking him.

"Why are you all faster than me?

"Now you don't know what you feel?"

"Who is it?"

He jerked around and looked around, only to realize that the queue had long since disbanded.

There were still some people in the big classroom, but none of them were looking at him.

"So who was talking to me just now? Really, because I was too emotional, I had auditory hallucinations......

On the way back to the dormitory, he saw some of his classmates surrounded by other students, and they all smiled embarrassedly. He understood that they were receiving congratulations from other classmates, who had all taken the top few exams.

At this time, he imagined one of his classmates as himself, and now he is receiving blessings from the others.

"Ah, I remember, after the graduate school entrance examination, I fantasized about these things almost every day. It's been so hard that it's almost time to pay off. ”

Inadvertently, his wandering eyes glanced at the note in his hand, and the sound of glass breaking instantly sounded in his mind, and after relieving himself, those classmates changed back to their original appearance.

"If you feel endless pain just by breathing, then there is no doubt that this is hell......"

He hurriedly quickened his pace, tried his best to ignore the classmates around him, and walked quickly towards his dormitory.

However, he saw the same scene in the dormitory: it seemed that his roommate Zhang Yang also got a high score in the exam, and this person happened to be his top bunk.

Hell is everywhere, and wherever you flee to it......

"In that case, then I'll go to bed and make everything that happened today a nightmare......"

The lights are out. He lay on the bed, tossing and turning many times, and still did not feel sleepy. It seems that because of the late study every day in the graduate school entrance examination, the biological clock has also been affected.

"In that case, why don't you cry under the covers?"

He repeatedly recalled the scene when he saw his results, but the tears did not come out at all.

"Why?"

Because he actually knew very well that his odds of winning were very low from the beginning, he was actually just hoping for a miracle to happen at the beginning, and this miracle didn't happen in the end.

"Now that I know this, I should be calm now, but why is there chaos in my heart now?"

He understood: being admitted to graduate school is a necessary stepping stone to stay in this school to teach, and he can only wait for graduation assignment if he fails to get this stepping stone. After work, although there is still a chance to take the postgraduate examination, I heard from the senior sister that after finishing graduate school, I will be forced to return to the original unit. To put it simply, if you fail to be admitted to graduate school, it means that you have no chance to teach in this school.

"So how can I become a teacher? I remember that one of my high school classmates was admitted to the capital normal university that I always wanted to go to, and when she graduated, she would probably become a teacher naturally, right? Why is it so difficult for me to become a teacher?"

"By the way, who gave me this ideal in the first place? Yes, I met the English teacher in the college entrance examination tutoring class, surnamed Lin, who taught much better than our homeroom teacher, Mr. Song. Why is it that everything that is taught is the same, there will be such a big difference. That's why I want to be a teacher. ”

"Yes, everything is to one day become a good teacher like Mr. Lin and be loved by the students......"

"I'm going to be a teacher...... I want to go to graduate school...... I'm going to...... I'm going to ......"

In the midst of this confusion, the consciousness of the brain gradually became hazy......

One nightmare ends, and then another begins......