In this semester, L University officially entered the preparation stage of undergraduate evaluation, set up a special evaluation office, and completed and put into use the new teaching building, library and gymnasium, which is a relatively positive impact.

Of course, there are also depressing.

For example, when Duanduan and I carried a pancake fruit to the teaching building, we heard the security guard yelling: "Eat and stay outside!" ...... And, the one in the slippers! You, say you! Go back and change your shoes! "

It doesn't make sense, so I saw a boy scolding and scolding all the way to the dormitory with slippers all the way to the dormitory to stage a mad flower of the end - I don't dare to skip class, how the prison attends the prisoners, how to check the attendance of the prisoners in the classroom, we are also helpless, there are people above.

For another example, I have never heard of such a thing as a midterm exam before, and now it is also on the agenda, and when the time comes, the final results will be added and an average number will be taken. I've been crazy for half a semester, and when I heard the news, I didn't come back to my senses for half a minute, and I stood up and hit the wall directly.

I'm not exaggerating, someone slammed the corner of the table with his hand on his head: "Let me die, let me die!" "

As a result, the effect of my assault was not bad, and I could barely see it.

Xie Duan studied on his own every day, and he actually had a subject of more than sixty points, which means that even if she gets ninety in the final exam, the scholarship is very dangerous.

I watched her grades on the computer in the dormitory, and she turned pale, closed her eyes and opened them again: "Turn it off." "

I closed the web page and thought, "Say something, say something so that it doesn't hurt or itch like a person watching a lot of fun."

"I know you're trying to comfort me." She sat across from me with her head in her hands, and after a moment she said, "Don't be solemn." I deserve it. "

"Nonsense."

"Really."

"Well, tell me, what did you do?"

"Didn't do anything."

"Didn't you say this - it's okay, and what about the final term, this exam is so sudden, if you don't get it right, it won't be counted at all, then you're not melancholy, right?"

She didn't speak. At this time, the computer dinged, and I grabbed the mouse sideways, and it was Fu Huifa who came over: "Do you want to participate in this weekend party?" "

I struggled for a few seconds, but I still replied, "It's a little uncomfortable, don't go, hehe." "

Duan Duan was in a daze, poking around on the table with the little thing on the keychain, watching me turn around after sending it, she smiled reluctantly: "I actually have nothing myself, mainly, my mother." "

"I understand." I stroked her hair: "I'll figure it out." "

The way it awaited this weekend.

On Friday, the class leader informed that voluntary blood donation would be organized the next day, and the student cadres would ask for it, and the masses would be voluntary.

The complaints abounded, and I suddenly remembered something, got up and rushed over to stop the squad leader:

"If you donate blood, do you have more moral education?"

Our scholarship is evaluated in this way, moral, intellectual and physical, three-part synthesis.

"Yes." The squad leader flipped through the book and said to me: "Add twenty per person, high is quite high, but." "

He said with disdain: "Zhuang Ning, you are too utilitarian. "

I "sighed", so I didn't have time to pay attention to this bureaucrat, I ran away to find Xie Duan.

Xie Duan and I didn't eat on Saturday morning, so we arrived at the small hall early in the morning, and the blood collection vehicle stopped at the door. When I was queuing for a blood test, I heard two male class leaders in the class discussing in a low voice: "Is it useful to drink?" "

"I heard that it will dissolve blood, so I can hide from it."

A few of us women wink at each other, as for it, it's really underestimated.

As a result, as soon as he entered the hall, there was a pool of blood on the ground, and a girl next to him fainted.

"Help out, help out." The doctor in the white coat turned his head to comfort us: "It's okay, it's okay, someone is bleeding backwards." It's okay. "

He might as well not say it, I had a chill on my body, and he pulled me up, trembling: "Zhuang Ning, I've been afraid of this since I was a child, definitely, must?" "

"This score is very high, I've calculated, if you add this, it's quite promising to work hard at the end of the term."

She sighed and gritted her teeth.

Everyone had to take a small tube of blood first, pass it, and then wait to draw the 200 ml.

After I took the blood sample, I shook it to the other side, and my aunt was patting Xie Duan's arm: "I told you that I couldn't find it." "

"Why, you look for it again."

"The blood vessels are so thin that they can't be found at all, no, no, they can't be pumped."

Xie Duan stood up and saw me, her expression, obviously not knowing whether to transition in the direction of happiness or disappointment: "What should I do?" "

"Come on first." I beckoned her over: "No? "

She nodded, looking at me worriedly.

I impulsively said, "Otherwise, smoke me." "

She was startled: "What about you, don't you have to offer?" "

"Shhhh

"How can it be, how can you stand it if you smoke twice?"

I'm also a little hesitant.

If, at some point in the future, I need to do an in-depth analysis of my motivation for doing this, and confess it all, then I can only say, yes, not 100% because of Xie Duan, although this is a very large part, I do want to help her.

However, there are also a small number of them, which are just the mistakes that people often make when they are young, or even when they are not so young, such as love and ability, such as overestimating themselves, such as enjoying the superiority, morality, and ability that comes with doing it.

Look at this girl in front of you, she is so powerless without you.

So I said, "It's okay, 400CC, you can't die." "

I took Xie Duan's blood donation slip, and met the aunt again, she looked at it suspiciously and then looked at me:

"I remember not looking like you, but a white and pure little girl."

"It's me, Auntie, am I not in vain? 555555555555......"

"You're white." The aunt couldn't cry or laugh: "But it's still not like it." "

"Hehe, Auntie, it's all about contribution, and I'm type O, universal blood type, you don't suffer."

Grinding and grinding, the aunt easily agreed: "Stretch out your hand." "

I stretched out my right arm to her.

"On the other side, you won't be able to eat well if you turn back on the right side."

"That's it, that's it, the one on my left, uh, hurts."

How dare I show her my left arm, a freshly baked spot of blood is still there, and she won't kick me out.

The blood bag slowly gained weight, and I tried not to look at it.

I was a little dizzy when I came out, and Xie was sitting in the corner on the phone:

"...... I don't want to go if she doesn't go, really...... We ......"

Then she looked up and saw me, said goodbye, and hung up.

I grabbed the cotton ball with my finger and casually asked her, "Who?" "

"Oh, a high school classmate, we're talking about going on a trip for the summer." Xie Duan replied very fluently, without blinking an eye. After speaking in one gulp, she gasped and looked away.

I didn't really pay much attention to what she was talking about, and sat down in a hurry, my arms stiff like two reeds.

"Are you alright?" She squatted down.

"It's fine."

She pinched my cuffs and shook them gently, not knowing what to say.

I originally wanted to talk to her, for example, hey, I was scared just now, the blood kept flowing out of my body, I knew it was no big deal, but it was so scary, Duanduan, guess how I diverted my attention? I flipped over and over to recite Shen Sibo's name, and I was in pain and weakness like this—nonsense between girls like that.

Now it's better to forget it, she's enough to stand it:

"Duanduan, buy me a lollipop."

At noon in the cafeteria, Xie Duan rushed to help me order a pork liver, green lettuce roasted, a smell of grass, I chewed and chewed as my mobile phone rang.

The music of the family grouping is a mellow little melody, like raindrops. I still wonder why my mother is looking for me at this point, take it out and take a look, Shen Sibo.

He hadn't looked for me in a while.

"Hello? Feed? I hurriedly swallowed the rice: "Shen Sibo? "

"Zhuang Ning." He slowly, in a tone that he didn't know why he couldn't say anything, not cheerful: "Are you free tomorrow?" Let's go mountain climbing. "

It was a late spring weekend, and the leaves of the tourists and trees on Bauhinia Mountain were almost dense, and the sun barely penetrated, but it didn't take long for me to be hot like a helpless long-haired dog in summer.

This is not only because the stone steps of the mountain road are old, and the cross-section is almost square, equal in width and height, but also because of the two around me.

I don't know if it's tired, but they talk less than when they first met.

It's not that I don't communicate, but at every turn, the topic seems to be out of sync, and I am left behind, and it is difficult to pick it up again, so I have to be so intermittent, fragmented, and I can't reach two words in three words, so it's better to be completely silent, and it's a little more relaxed.

At this moment, a trail, people up and down are snorting and breathing for friends, I personally think, such from time to time in the noise is not like words, three people like rushing to the top of the mountain to jump off the cliff so without hesitation, quietly climb up, what is the matter.

So I shook my spirits and looked for something to say, until a nerve in the corner of my forehead began to beat cheerfully.

Probably halfway up the mountain, Xie Duan asked worriedly: "Zhuang Ning, are you okay?" "

"Okay, why not." I wanted to say that it was okay, but as a result, when I tilted my face, my head buzzed, and when I tilted down, fortunately, Shen Sibo helped me: "What's wrong?"

"I'm a little dizzy, it's fine." I slowly sat down on the stairs, adjusted to a less uncomfortable posture, and waved to my forehead: "Take a break." "

Shen Sibo handed me a bottle of water, unscrewed the cap and handed it to me, only to find that my hands were trembling when I tried to twist it back after drinking, and I couldn't use my strength.

"Don't keep saying it's okay." Duan Duan was uncharacteristically fierce: "Look at your white face." "

I haven't had time to say, "Yo, huh?" Shen Sibo took the bottle from my hand and screwed it on: "She is very fond of recklessness, and you don't know it." "

"Well, won't take care of yourself."

"I haven't listened yet."

I looked at the two of them, and smiled weakly but happily: "What are you doing, partnering to denounce me?" "

They laughed and looked at each other, Xie Duan fanned my forehead with his hand, and helped me brush my hair behind my ear by the way, while grabbing my other hand and shaking it slowly. Shen Sibo stood by and looked at us, his gaze was gentle.

The crowd crowded one after another, and a small silt gradually formed here, like a stuck link on the production line, Shen Sibo supported the trunk of the tree on the side of the road with one hand, allowing others to pass sideways.

I tried to get up, but I was still top-heavy: "Either I'll sit here for a while, and you guys will go up first." "

"Is that okay?" Shen Sibo looked down at me and smiled.

"If it affects the traffic, people will scold the mother. It really doesn't matter, I'll just sit by myself for a while. "

Shen Sibo looked at me, a little hesitant. Xie Duan stood up, I couldn't see her expression, but I saw Shen Sibo opposite her slightly stunned.

I sat on the stone steps halfway up the mountain, surrounded by tourists on one side and long grass and green trees on the other, and the clouds flowing slowly in the near sky.

I fanned myself in the cool breeze, looked down at the canvas shoes on my feet, and said to myself, look, you think too much, what can the two of them have together.

What could it be, many years later, Shen Sibo gave me a description of what happened to them while I was coaxing myself to play.

He talked about the big picture, but I couldn't stop imagining, every detail, the beginning and the end.

On the night he told me, I saw a girl in my dream, and all the people around me were old, but she was still young.

She smiled lightly, collected all her emotions without leaking, and then raised her head, passed a vat of white lotus raised in clear water, and said a word to the person opposite.

I looked at them, unable to do anything, then palpitations, then pain, and then I found myself with my eyes open and tears streaming down my face. My end-to-end.

I think it's the same for Shen Sibo, in the second half of his life, in the years when she has left him forever, I don't know how he feels when I think of this sentence. I didn't have time to ask.

What she said was, Shen Sibo, in the future, we don't want to meet again.

When they arrived at the top of the mountain, the bronze bell of the ancient temple was ringing once, twice, three times, they all had sweat on their faces, stopped to look up and saw the ginkgo biloba swaying gently like a small fan in the sound of Buddha, and the slender stalk maintained the fate hanging by a thread, and impermanence made them particularly beautiful.

They looked at each other again, and I think it was probably he who opened his mouth first: "Something to say to me?" "

"There's no hurry." She didn't really complain, so her tone was mixed up slightly, and she probably wanted to let it go.

He nodded, yes, there is no hurry, the coming day is long. He forgot that the other girl had thought the same about their relationship.

"I shouldn't have to let Zhuang Ning come today, I was wrong."

He laughed, "I forgive you." "

"I forgive myself as well for what I was going to do today." She scribbled her hand in her pocket and replied cheerfully.

"What?" He must have been a little nervous at this time, and he had to pretend to be relaxed: "Let's hear it." "

"Look." Without answering his words, she was unusually lively today, and she branched off from the path, a pagoda of unknown age in the green pines and cypresses, the entrance was closed, but there was a piece of printing paper on the wall, and she leaned over to read the words on it, "It says that the little insect has been blown around the tower by the wind in the water for seven weeks, and it is also immeasurably meritorious--then I will also take a turn, from which side?" "

He took a step back and waited, and she turned right to the stupa, and every time she passed, as if they were coming again and again on a journey, they met each other. I should be familiar with the smile on his face at the moment, the one I covet the most.

She finally stopped.

"Okay?" He playfully and gently: "Will it be useful?" "

"Sincerity is spirit, you don't understand."

"I don't understand, you girls--huh." There must have been a great indulgence in his voice, for she had encompassed all of her kind.

"I make a wish that everyone I love will be happy, happy and safe." She didn't admit it, looked at him, and said to herself: "My mother, and Zhuang Ning." "

"No one else?"

"Nope." She replied very seriously.

"In front of the Buddha, Xie Duan, you can't lie." He was, I guess, still smiling, but he couldn't take it easy.

"I didn't."

"You have." This boy, in the first half of his life, had never been so aggressive. I know, I can testify.

"Well, even if I have." She replied quietly, "So what? You see, she's all because of me, who she is, she's my best friend. "

When I heard this, I probably understood what he would pick up, how he wanted to describe it, he spent half a semester to sort out his feelings for two girls, one of them is a complex smell, its front fragrance is mellow and mellow, the middle fragrance is the richness of habit and good feelings, and when it comes to the back fragrance, it can be a consummation of raising eyebrows when it is reconciled with a little lust.

Pity.

And the other, with only one taste, pure and direct - but she is a fragrance that he only once in a lifetime. The intensity of the surging, the sense of smell of love after such a battle, the failure of half a life, can be regarded as a light robbery.

He had often met her in the study hall since the beginning of spring, and it was not unintentional - oh no, the first time it was, perhaps, but then, especially every Tuesday and Thursday, when another girl was on duty in the department office, they would always come to each other so unconsciously and unexpectedly.

How wonderful, unexpectedly.

He or she even subconsciously slows down every time he approaches that classroom, just to prolong the unexpected joy.

After self-study, they will sometimes walk around the campus, with almost trembling, **-like happiness. That little bit of apology is floating in the air, because of uncertainty and if you leave immediately, is it considered a betrayal? Whoever is with whom is an unnamed relationship, he and her, or her.

But the heart will measure it by itself, he will want to say that he has never met a girl like her before, and the opposite sex he has been in contact with since he was a child is his mother, or the kind named Zhuang Ning, who was born with a knowing what weapon he is holding, and he fights for resources, asks for things, and defends rights in a purposeful and planned way.

He has never seen her like this, facing this world, always ready to compromise people, her compromise is too big, she can endure anything, he will want to tell her when he is distressed, Duanduan, you think about yourself.

After so long hesitation, his heart was finally ready to calm down, even if he was disappointed by another person.

But she stopped him, and her expression cut off his words like a knife, not coldness or determination, but helplessness that was very good.

"I'm sorry, Shen Sibo, in the future, let's not meet."

When Shen Sibo said this to me, I saw his eyes closed, as if he wanted to endure the pain.

"And then." I asked.

He laughed very tiredly: "No more." And then, then what else can I say, shake her? "

He stretched out his hand and made a shaking motion towards the void: "Like this?" I really want to. "

Shen Sibo really wanted to grasp the moment when Xie Duan was shaking hard, I was halfway up the mountain, moving my legs and feet, and was about to get up, when the mobile phone rang.

The signal was not very good, I leaned into my ears, and all I heard was the sound of radio waves crashing against each other, stinging and stinging, stinging, stinging.

I had already seen that it was Qi Xiang's number, and I didn't understand what he was calling at this time, so I adjusted my posture in this narrow place and turned myself into a teletubbies who received the signal: "Hey...... Feed? "

"I can't hear clearly, I--listen--no--clear!"

Qi Xiang later told me that he was holding the phone at least a foot away at that time, and he heard me shouting on the phone like a kicked cat, and he said, Zhuang Ning, what do you look like uncomfortable?

I immediately retorted that you were wrong, I was just uncomfortable, but I didn't know that the more uncomfortable was yet to come.

The mobile phone was probably frightened by me, and the signal was clear, and I heard Qi Xiang's very quiet end, and his unique voice came after a second or two, steady: "Sounds good." "

"......" I didn't react, and replied stupidly, "Hey." "

"At school?"

"Outside ......" Halfway through the words, I remembered that I had excused myself with Fu Hui on the forum before, and I began to lie casually: "See a doctor, see a doctor." "

It's a funny scene, he probably knows I'm fake, I probably know he knows I'm fake, it's up to him to be interested in it.

"Oh?" He asked slowly, "Which hospital?" "

When I heard that the tone was wrong, it seemed that I didn't want to. I know I'm lying, so you still have to resist it, okay. Want to hear my shortness of breath? That's no way.

"What about the People's Hospital?" I replied very seriously, "Senior Brother Qi wants to come to visit me, right?" Come and help me bring a pound of Xiao Li's fried chestnuts, okay? No. 125 Renmin Road, don't be mistaken. "

He finally laughed: "You little girl, does the People's Hospital have to be on Renmin Road?" Besides, is there No. 125 Renmin Road? "

I said in my heart, isn't it just half two hundred and five: "Hehe, what is the matter with Senior Brother Qi looking for me?" "

If he wants to say that it's okay and I can't call you and that kind of nonsense like that, I'm going to hate him again, but he doesn't, he just says, "Since you're not at school, forget it, let's talk about it next time." "

"You're in L University now?"

"No, but I'm about to pass by, so I'll drop by and bring you the information."

"......" I fortunately stopped, and didn't ask, "What information?" "--I mentioned it to them last time, and I wanted to borrow some examination materials to see, but I didn't have anything to say, but I didn't expect him to remember, I was really a little ashamed:

"Ah, this, I'm sorry."

"I can't talk about it."

I was still "that, that ......", and he calmly continued: "It's more important to see a doctor." "

I calmed down again: "That's right." Senior Brother Qi, then I will invite you to dinner next time you come. "

He would occasionally tease me with this phrase later, you see, just for your meal.

I said, oh, isn't it?

He laughed and said yes, he couldn't ask for it, tossing and turning.