The amount of calisthenics just now was so great that even though I was already changing in the locker room, I was still flustered and short of breath. I sat on a bench to rest and flipped the picture out of my wallet.

It was that day at the top of Bauhinia Mountain, the five yuan was washed and washed, and the person who took the picture said to me little girl, we are authorized by the temple to serve as a designated person, and we will send a bouquet of incense three times.

When I was shooting, Shen Sibo stood on my left, Xie Duan hugged my right arm, and the three of them laughed very similarly. But Shen Sibo, who was smiling like the same thing, suddenly said to me when he was at home the day before yesterday, Zhuang Ning, after graduation, I may go to the west to help build.

I was surprised, and I had to pretend to be calm: "Also, there is this column of experience on my resume, and it will be beneficial when I come back." "

He sat on the windowsill, looked up at me with a slight gloom, and after a few seconds smiled and smiled at me. He said, "You're always so realistic -- yes, it's you." "

"......"

"If you go, you may not come back."

I didn't dare to ask why, for fear that he would look at me like that again: "But over there, it is said that the wind and sand are very ...... But it's nothing, maybe it's funny......"

The more he said it, the more wrong it became, and he looked away, and I stood there helplessly, feeling that there was a thousand vulgarities behind me.

He's been depressed for a while. I heard Zhuo He say that he smoked cigarettes, often went to Internet cafes alone, and played games until late.

When Zhuo He said this, he looked at me worriedly, and stopped talking.

I said, "Shen Sibo, what's the matter with you, can you tell me?" I can help you. "

I think if we strip away the positive part of the meaning of death, which is his smile at the moment, faint, and everything in life is very boring, he said, "What's the use." "

As soon as he said this, I finally couldn't stand it, reached out and scooped up the nearest cup, and threw it on the ground: "What do you mean! Shen Sibo, you go, go! If you have the ability, you can go now, you don't get a degree, you don't graduate! "

After that, I slammed the door and went out. Shen Sibo, you don't want to chase after you to explain?

"Xiao Ning? What's wrong with this? When his mother heard the sound, she hurriedly coaxed me: "Sibo bullied you?" "

"It's okay Auntie, it's okay." I couldn't speak, and I had to be ruthless: "I deserve my ......"

"Alas, you little ones." She wiped my tears with a tissue and put her arm around my shoulder: "Sibo is confused, don't be like him, Sibo!" Sibo! "

She shouted one after another. Shen Sibo finally appeared at the door, my eyes were blurred with tears, and I saw that his teeth were tight, and I thought a little uncomfortable, and he felt uncomfortable too.

Uncle Shen came out of the study at this time, and he didn't ask: "Apologize to Zhuang Ning!" Right away! "

I stood between his parents, the three of us were on the opposite side of him, and his teeth tightened, like a rebel in the old society who did not let go in the face of feudal marriage. I kept my face cold, but I panicked in my heart - how did I force him to this point.

His mother softened at this moment: "Forget Lao Shen, don't force Sibo." Xiao Ning, Auntie helps him apologize to you. "

The girls finished walking in twos and threes, and the last one kindly reminded me before leaving: "Zhuang Ning, don't leave too late, it's not safe to be alone here." "

Yes, from the window of the locker room of the new gymnasium, you can see the mountain behind the school, and the sun is gradually sinking behind it.

I put my forehead against the window frame and looked out, but I didn't have any poetic associations, I only thought of a joke before, a greedy child, using food to describe everything, what the sunset is, it is a bowl of red egg soup.

At this point in my thoughts, I laughed a little, but the mood did not move. The world is for me, and at the moment there is only such a piece of solid wood, and the slanting light that falls in the heart.

There was a soft knock on the door. Pushed out from the outside. Someone came in the backlight, and I couldn't see clearly for a while: "Who?" "

The nervousness in my tone was not yet tightened, and he had already walked to the place where there was light: "Some people said that she will meet me at the entrance of the new gymnasium at five o'clock this afternoon, have you seen her?" "

I hung my head down and rubbed my eyes, waited for him to get closer, and honestly replied, "I forgot." "

"So straightforward." He came to me and looked down at me, "It's me, I'm going to pretend to be at least twisted to my feet." "

"......"

Seeing that I didn't answer, he didn't mind, and reached out to take off his bag and threw it on my knee.

I glared at his heavy computer bag, and then at him, he leaned leisurely against the windowpane, looking at me like a retarded: "Open it yourself, this is also going to be done by me?" "

"I K ......" I forgot about the sadness for a while, indignant, are you smashing the golden egg very much, so vigorously, my legs. I opened my bag, revealing a large stack of books and materials.

"Don't do the topic yet, it's useless to do it now, look for a blow. Jurisprudence, legal history, and departmental law, don't look at it in detail for the time being, otherwise it's easy to mess up. When I flipped through the information, he said, lightly, in the same tone as talking nonsense: "Also, it's best for you to flip through this at the moment, don't delay the serious class." "

I looked up, and he didn't know what he was looking at, his side dyed a warm pale gold.

"Okay, thank you, Senior Brother Qi." I wiped my face and got up: "I'm going to invite you to dinner." "

Qi Xiang stood there and didn't move: "It seems"--he seemed to be really observing the weather: "It will rain at night." "

"Huh?" I really took it seriously: "How do you know? "

He seemed to smile slightly, not at the corners of his mouth but in his eyes: "I just saw a kitten washing its face." "

I followed his gaze to look, only to see the thick sunset, and suddenly woke up: "Senior Brother Qi, are you coaxing the children?" "

He stood up straight, obviously with a smile, but the smile in his eyes did not match his expression: "Accompany the child to dinner." "

I insisted, "I didn't cry. "

"You're not crying, I'm hungry."

What's going on today? He's not the same as he used to be. Listen to what he had to say about it afterwards - I asked this, Qi Xiang, did you see that I was not happy to coax me to come? He said casually while flipping through the papers, there is such a thing? Oh, that's probably when you're hungry.

I had to tell myself, I can't be deceived by this person's appearance anymore, he looks dignified and reliable, but you calculate Zhuang Ning yourself, and he is talking to you at the rate.

I carried my bag and walked quickly to enjoy it, I was tired, but I mainly felt ashamed, I was not regarded as a woman, and my female consciousness was awakened unprecedentedly. is so heavy, if it was Shen Sibo, he would definitely take it from my hand, and the man in front of him, who was tall and not emotionally intelligent, turned a blind eye to this, and walked so fast.

To be honest, it wasn't until I got married that he began to slow down when he walked with me, and he sometimes lost me when he remembered things.

Now I said, "Hey Senior Brother Qi, wait for me." "

He stopped, and I walked to the row of desks on the side of the road, where a banner with large characters was pulled -- "Students give back to society and support the development of the western region." "

It was the nature of a mobilization meeting, and I asked a girl who seemed to be in charge:

"What kind of requirements do college students who go to the western region to aid construction, and what is the situation of those studying law over there?"

She stuffed me with a flyer and asked coldly, "How old are you?" "

"Senior year."

When I said slippery, it was rare that Qi Xiang next to him was also very cooperative: "I'm in a hurry to find a job." "

The girl turned her face, and the smile was sudden: "You too?" "

"Yes." Let's answer.

"Me too. It's hard to find a job now, which major are you? "

"Just like her."

"Oh, the law, the law is good, I also wanted to report it at the time, I was very interested, really, who then, Voltaire said, law is the first study in today's society, a legal society."

I really dare to say it by her. And her enthusiasm seems to be given to the wrong person, and I am the one who has the problem.

Qi Xiang I know is not such a patient person, and he didn't walk away when he heard the other party's nonsense: "Where, in fact, I have to thank you for the necessity of popularizing the law." "

"Ah, you're so kind, it's a citizen's duty." This smirking girl should have looked at me at this time, and she should have understood that this was not a good thing.

"Do you have any questions?" Qi Xiang turned to me and asked. I tucked my whole lower lip in, and shook my head for fear of scaring anyone with a burst of laughter.

"Let's go, then."

After going a little further and digesting this little bit of laughter, I looked back at the words of the large-scale development of the western region, and I felt a little melancholy.

Qi Xiang walked to the front again, and stopped to wait for me at this time.

I smiled perfunctorily: "You are so unkind, people have just been a nymphomaniac to you." "

"I don't think much of her."

"Cut."

"What do you say, want to go west?"

"I didn't think about it, in fact, I'm not suitable for this kind of hot-blooded young man."

"So which one are you suitable for?"

"Hmm--" I smiled slyly at him, "intrigue, deceit." "

"Quite ambitious."

I look at him, compared with Shen Sibo, he has a more inclined to tough and mature lines, this is a man who can always answer questions, I suddenly want to talk and discuss with him, it doesn't matter if I occasionally talk to him, I have been suffocated since yesterday.

"Senior Brother Qi."

He turned his head to look at me, seeing that I had not been serious for a second, but now he had called him before he spoke. He nodded, didn't ask much, made people comfortably silent, and left all the language space for what you wanted to express.

I thought about it for a while, and then I thought about it: "What do you mean - for example, you and a girl are childhood sweethearts, who have always been very good, but you have been hot and cold to her recently, what do you mean?" "

"Ask me?"

Isn't that nonsense? "No, I asked about the telephone pole."

"Everyone behaves differently, and I can't represent your boyfriend at all."

"He's not." I muttered and said, "You're all men." "

I thought he was convinced, but he said, "So we're all human, and you tell me what the serial killer thinks?" "

"......"

"If I say it's because of empathy, and he turns out to be nervous and upset about his schoolwork, then you ask me, isn't it the opposite?"

I think so.

"When you have time, ask him yourself." Qi Xiang said, with some unspeakable casualness in his tone: "Don't take it too seriously." "

What words. Who do you like for more than ten years, and you don't take it seriously?

I was in a complicated mood, and subconsciously took out my phone to check the time, and a missed call.

The number of Shen Sibo's bedroom.

I pressed the call button at least twice: "Hello? Feed? Shen Sibo? "

"Hello?" The other party's voice flickered far and near: "...... This is a broken phone. "

I pulled the sideburns off next to my ears: "...... Zhuohe? "

"But I found you, not in the dormitory?"

"No, what's wrong? What's the signal you have there? "

"Guess where I am? At the door of the dormitory, the telephone line dragged the old man - not to mention this, mainly to tell you that a certain classmate is about to hang up. "

"You're caught in the door again, aren't you?"

"Believe it or not, really, man is sleeping in bed now, if you want to come and see him."

"Why, I'm busy." I thought of his state yesterday, and he ran away after a little accident, and I was too unprecious: "...... But he's all right? "

"It's okay, it's okay, at most it's just a stomach bleed, what can it do?" Zhuo He said: "You are busy with you." "

He hung up after he finished speaking.

"Hello? Feed? "

Qi Xiang stood a meter away and watched me put my phone into my bag: "You have to go beforehand." "

"Cut, what's the matter, go eat."

He didn't say much, and then asked me, "Does the new gymnasium have a tennis room?" Not open to the public? "

"...... Well? Opening? My eyes fell on the propaganda slogan of the party committee outside the cafeteria, and I casually continued: "Ah yes, it's been more than 20 years." "

Qi Xiang glanced at me: "Are you sure?" "

"It's a Chinese who knows it."

He stopped, and I walked out and took two steps back to say, "What's wrong?" "

There was no obvious emotion in the man's expression:

"I'm sorry, but you might have to eat alone at night, and I remember that I still have something to go back to."

When a female teacher of academic affairs held a wedding, I asked a few new students in the student union to help, and later she was transferred to logistics and was responsible for dormitory management, which happened to be a small convenience for me.

After the male aunt answered the phone, it is needless to say that she looked at me, a good little girl, in order to run her boyfriend's dormitory, she used her power for personal gain, I don't know which mother's sin, and she is such a girl who is rushing to post upside down.

I want to say that when I was in my twenties and was looked at like this, I was not wronged in my heart, standing at the door of Shen Sibo's bedroom, the heat on my face had not completely subsided.

It's different from last time, last time it was straightforward, but this time it's inexplicable, from action to psychology.

Zhuo He opened the door for me, and this person was very happy to see me, with a bright smile on his face: "I knew you would come." "

He didn't let me in, he came out, and he closed the door with his backhand, and the two of us stood in the hallway, and he looked at me.

I asked, "How is he?" "

Zhuo He leaned back against the wall: "I drank too much, at least I haven't seen him drink so much." "

"......"

"Zhuang Ning, you like him very much, right?"

"Yes." I didn't hesitate at all.

"When I first met you." Zhuo He generally didn't speak in this tone: "I know, otherwise you wouldn't look at him with that kind of eyes." Zhuang Ning, Shen Sibo is in the blessing. So I'm going to call you, and I hope you two are, uh, whatever you say, all right. "

He said something a little clueless, and he didn't look at me, I said, "Oh, I know, thank you, Zhuohe." "

He didn't answer, and smiled after a while: "Then I'll withdraw, you can go in." "

I had already pushed the door open, Zhuo He took two steps and turned back to me and said, "And Zhuang Ning, I don't know if it's too late to say this now--don't trust people too easily." "

I didn't react for a while, he was the usual Zhuo He again, and he smiled: "Daddy, Sister-in-law Shen, get him in charge of him!" "

I didn't go back to my dorm that night, and I didn't turn on my phone.

The next day, I was still late for class and didn't bring anything else. When I walked to Xie Duan and sat down, the teacher could barely hold back, but when I didn't pay attention to anyone and buried my head in the crook of my arm to sleep, he finally made a sound, and he was still refreshed:

"I've been teaching for 20 years, and I've seen someone sleep, but I've never seen someone who slept just after class, are you so sleepy?"

Everyone laughed, and Xie Duan touched me next to me.

But I don't want a response right now. I regret that I shouldn't have come to class. At such moments, I can't stand any public life.

So as soon as the bell rang for the first period, I got up and left the classroom under the teacher's gaze, thinking as I walked that I would probably have to retake the accounting course.

"Zhuang Ning, hey, Zhuang Ning!" Xie Duan followed me and chased him all the way: "Don't go so fast. "

She grabbed my arm from behind, "Where have you been?" You didn't answer the phone last night, Zhuang Ning! "

The sun was very strong and I had a terrible headache.

"Your face is so bad, you wait for me, I'll ask the teacher for a leave, let's go to the hospital, right?"

"Don't, end-and-end." I don't know why I shook my head, my throat felt like it had been soaked in sulfuric acid: "It's useless, it's useless to go to the hospital." "

"...... Don't cry, what's wrong? Tell me. "

"Shen, Shen Sibo." I didn't even realize that my tears were coming out of my eyes, and I couldn't control it: "He doesn't want me anymore, he doesn't want me anymore." "

Xie Duan stared at me, as if she didn't understand for a moment, her hands were still on my elbows, and I had lost the strength to stand upright, and she was slowly sat down on the steps by me.

"Don't cry, Zhuang Ning, it's okay, it's okay."

I still remember that the sun was very strong that day, and there was no perceptible movement of the air, and the shady place on the stairs of the church, with her arms around me, and the sweet aroma of tea and plum on her, and everything around her, they were in consciousness, and I was as speechless as my love.