Although it was a mockery of Lin Yu, the eyes he looked at Cheng Chuxia were deeply engraved in Han Rui's memory, and that kind of look of ambition made him feel a little inexplicable sense of crisis.

During the meal, a group of people sat together, and Zhao Yihao put his arm around Han Rui's shoulder, "Brother Rui, how was that appearance just now?" Why don't you invite me to dinner? ”

Chen Hong answered: "You are obviously a dog biting Lu Dongbin, and you have to give you a sarcastic meal when you eat someone's breakfast, so let's Xia Xia is here, otherwise it is possible to do it, and you are too unkind." ”

Cheng Chuxia interrupted him, "Don't get involved with me...... Please let it go. ”

Zhao Yihao was angry but slapped Chen Hong, "Who are the dogs?" Well? ”

The two men immediately scuffled together.

Cheng Chuxia saw that Han Rui had not spoken, as if he was in a daze, and stretched out his hand to shake it in front of him, and was grabbed.

Han Rui looked at her with a smile, "What's wrong?" ”

Cheng Chuxia thought that he was still at school and quickly withdrew his hand, "This sentence is what I asked you, why did you suddenly be in a daze." ”

"I'm thinking about ......" Han Rui deliberately paused for a while, "You said that everyone is chasing after you, should I be angry?" ”

Cheng Chuxia is also very innocent, "What are you angry about?" I didn't say yes? ”

"The rejection was not complete enough."

The vinegar flavor is too strong.

"Hmm...... This is...... Jealous? ”

Cheng Chuxia tilted his head to look at him, and Han Rui deliberately avoided her gaze.

Zhao Yihao, who had just run away, didn't know where he came out again, "You two don't sprinkle dog food, I'm going to be full if I haven't eaten, Brother Rui invite me to eat." ”

As he spoke, he pulled Han Rui to pay for himself.

Han Rui turned around and asked Cheng Chuxia after ordering, "Do you want to add something?" ”

"No, it's the same as you."

Han Rui was used to eating the same dishes as her, so he simply ordered her portion.

Zhao Yihao: "Tut-tut, it's ...... show off when you eat"

Han Rui and Cheng Chuxia don't like to talk when they eat, so only Zhao Yihao and Chen Hong are left chatting, and Cheng Chuxia listens to it, and he will laugh out loud when he encounters funny points.

It was Han Rui's abnormality, because Zhao Yihao's activity was not noticed.

……

After a full day of high-intensity study, a group of big boys were already very tired and tired when they returned to the dormitory, and after a simple wash, their brothers fell asleep.

Even Zhao Yihao, who had been shouting that there was no pressure on the exam, fell asleep early.

In just one evening study, the continuous output of brushing questions and test papers is uncomfortable for anyone.

The dormitory fell into silence with only the faint sound of breathing one after another.

But Han Rui showed no signs of falling asleep at all.

The scene in the corridor in the morning was strangely replayed in my mind again and again, and a long-forgotten feeling slowly revived in my body.

Han Rui couldn't control his thoughts, and curled himself up in the quilt, becoming the most primitive posture of self-protection.

The nights are still very long, some people are rested and satisfied, and some people have no sleep all night.

Han Rui just looked out the window, watching the bright moonlight rise and set, and watching the sky gradually glow with a layer of fish belly white, gradually dyed with glow......

For a whole week, Han Rui's words became less and less, and only a little bit of sleep was there very little bit of sleep on a very small occasion.

Lin Yu didn't continue to send breakfast to Cheng Chuxia, but instead gave all kinds of small gifts, sometimes small candies, sometimes souvenirs of travel.

Cheng Chuxia was already "overwhelmed" and refused a lot, she slowly changed from having no interest in Lin Yu to hating it.

It's not all because he always gives gifts, but more importantly, every time he sees him coming over, Han Rui will obviously rarely talk all day.

Everyone can see that Han Rui's state has become sluggish, but who is not, in the days of the final sprint, all kinds of staying up late and reviewing, everyone's state is like this, and it is common to come to class with dark circles.

Cheng Chuxia asked him if he was tired from preparing for the exam, and he always laughed and joked with her, "Who do you look down on?" ”

That smile seemed to have lost its brilliance, but Cheng Chuxia didn't notice it, and then Han Rui's words became very few, and his smile was only for her.

On this day, it is rare for Lao Xie to help the last class, Lao Xie, who has always liked to drag the hall, and the substitute teacher must also carry out the habit of dragging the hall to the end.

Zhao Yihao already felt that he was protesting alone, and he had no intention of classing, and when he turned his head, Lin Yu was waiting outside the window again.

"Eh, your rival is here again."

As he spoke, he slapped Han Rui's arm on the table with his hand.

Han Rui's whole body trembled with some fear, and quickly withdrew his hand, only to feel a trace of "security", like a frightened child.

Zhao Yihao was almost frightened by his reaction, he didn't have the heart to ridicule him, and his reaction was too abnormal.

"Are you alright?"

Han Rui came back to his senses, "No...... It's okay. Let's get on with the lessons. ”

Zhao Yihao looked at him, and then looked at the person standing outside, shouldn't he, when will Han Rui take the person outside seriously?

With insomnia that lasted for half a month, and his state getting worse and worse, it was not only Lin Yu's provocation that tortured Han Rui gradually, but also those bad memories before.

As soon as Lao Xie announced the end of class, Han Rui couldn't wait to walk out of the classroom with his schoolbag on his back.

Lin Yu was a little surprised to see a person come out, he didn't wait for Cheng Chuxia today.

Zhao Yihao couldn't help but shout when he saw Cheng Chuxia, who was still seriously changing the question, "Cheng Chuxia!" ”

Cheng Chuxia turned around, only to find that Han Rui's seat had already been empty.

Zhao Yihao finally woke up to Han Rui's abnormality, and said anxiously to Cheng Chuxia, "What are you doing in a daze?" Chase! ”

Cheng Chuxia reacted at this time, and hurriedly put down what he was doing and ran out.

At the door, Lin Yu took her hand and stopped her, "He's already gone away." ”

Cheng Chuxia didn't even look at him, opened his hand, and shook it off in disgust, "Let go!" ”

Lin Yu's hand hung in mid-air, and he could only watch her run away, and the pain in his heart was ten times more painful than the layer of skin that her nails cut when she broke free.

No matter how hard he tried to convince himself, as long as he persevered, there was no impossible goal.

Learning is like this, and life is like this, and I have always demanded myself.

But this time he was finally willing to admit that feelings were exceptional.

This is the only thing that no matter how hard you try, you can't do it.

In this long chase, in fact, it is not the entanglement of three people, it is just his own one-man show, and it is really a very sad thing to like a person to be humble.

……

There was a crowd on the stairs from school, but the man who was guarding her was already far away.

Cheng Chuxia just wanted to squeeze out quickly, desperately moving forward, and didn't notice the steps under his feet, stepped on an empty square, and the whole person fell at the corner of the stairs.

The staircase of the school is still a cement structure, not to mention how painful it is to knock on it.

The pain instantly spread all over the limbs and bones, and there were two more abrasions on the hands, a hot pain.

"Cheng Chuxia!"

The crowd became looser because of this sudden accident, and Zhao Yihao, who came in a hurry, saw Cheng Chuxia who had fallen, and hurriedly ran over to help her up.

"Why did your hand hurt like this?" Zhao Yihao looked at her wound was indeed a little shocked, and he couldn't care about Han Rui, it was still important to the matter in front of him, if something happened to Cheng Chuxia, it was estimated that Han Rui would not let him go, "Hurry up, go to the infirmary to deal with it first." ”

Cheng Chuxia patted off the dust on his hands, "It's okay, Han Rui, what's wrong?" ”

"When he was in class, he saw Lin Yu suddenly become very strange, and I was worried that something was wrong with him, so I hurried to tell you, alas-"

"No, I'm going to find him." Just as he was about to take a step, a sharp pain suddenly came from his foot, "Ahhh

"Got your foot down?"

"Shhhh

"Hurry up and go to the infirmary to have a look, don't go, anyway, the school is closed to dormitory students, and he can't run out, so he should go back to the dormitory."

"But—"

"But what?" Zhao Yihao felt that things should be prioritized, "You can't kill me if he sees you like this." And you can't go either, how can you chase? ”

Although I don't want to, Zhao Yihao is not unreasonable, she is like this, it is difficult to go downstairs by herself, let alone go to Han Rui.

"Let's go. Go to the infirmary. ”

……

Zhao Yihao is a boy after all, but fortunately, Cheng Chuxia's tablemate came to her later and helped her walk slowly step by step.

Cheng Chuxia asked Zhao Yihao to find Han Rui, "You go to him, I can do it, and Qiqi is here." ”

"Good. I found him and asked him to find you. ”

……

Zhao Yihao finally found Han Rui on the edge of the football field.

"Why did you come along?"

Zhao Yihao threw his schoolbag on him, and he didn't even catch his breath, "Your wife ......"

Hearing Cheng Chuxia, he suddenly became nervous, "What's wrong with her?" ”

"...... in the infirmary"

Before he finished speaking, Han Rui left Zhao Yihao and ran away by himself.

When the school doctor helped Cheng Chuxia treat her wounds, he didn't forget to teach her a lesson while helping her disinfect.

"Tell me about your group of children, they are all in their third year of high school and don't know how to take care of their bodies, how to write when this hand is broken, you say, it's been a few days since the college entrance examination, fortunately, it's just a skin injury, what if it's a fracture? Be careful......"

The school doctor is actually a knife mouth tofu heart, and the classmates in the school all know this school doctor, because she is very kind, and she has the best relationship with her classmates.

Kiki took her words, "School doctor, she, she really doesn't have to take an exam." ”

"No exams? Escorted? The school doctor looked at Cheng Chuxia with some surprise.

"Hmm." Cheng Chuxia replied out of politeness.

"This ...... No exams are required...... You also have to protect yourself......" The school doctor helped her wrap the wound and instructed a few words, "Try not to touch the water in this wound, the sprain on the foot will be healed in about a week, go back and apply ice, there is no big problem, pay attention next time." ”

"Well, okay, thank you, school doctor."

Qiqi helped her out of the school doctor's room, but she didn't expect to meet Han Rui before she walked a few steps.

Han Rui saw her on one foot on the ground, with gauze wrapped in her hands, and rushed up directly to help her, asking, "Where are you hurt?" Is the wound disinfected? Did you hurt your feet or your hands? Where did you fall? What did the school doctor say? ”

Kiki stepped first, leaving the space for the two of them.

Cheng Chuxia didn't want to answer a series of questions, she just wanted to know why he was suddenly abnormal today.

"I'm fine, it's all skin trauma." She felt that his strength was supporting her, and she could finally rely on him with confidence, "Han Rui, what's wrong with you lately?" ”

Asked about this, Han Rui couldn't answer for a while, because he didn't know what was wrong with him, these bad, negative emotions and memories were all out of his control.

"I'm nothing, probably...... It's too stressful to take the exam. I'll take you back first. "Flickering, that's not how he speaks.

Cheng Chuxia was unwilling, and asked rhetorically: "Han Rui, can you face up to my problem, don't just want to avoid me, if you really trust me, we should bear it together, not push me away." ”

"Cheng Chuxia, there are some things that I am not sure about...... I don't want you to worry about ......."

Cheng Chuxia shook off his hand a little angrily, but he held it tighter, "I've been like this to chase you, what are you worried about?" Can't you see how worried I am about you? ”

Han Rui hugged her, regardless of the fact that this was an office building that the school leaders might pass by at any time, he wanted her to calm down.

He was always used to protecting her, and this time when it was his turn to have a problem, he also thought about how to keep her from noticing.

Zhao Yihao's words before class today may have stimulated him, he didn't want Cheng Chuxia to see his gaffe, and when he left, he couldn't even control his behavior, but subconsciously wanted to "escape".

Cheng Chuxia was imprisoned by his sudden embrace, and his emaciated bones hurt her, during this time, she really cared about him too little and too little.

Seeing that she had calmed down, Han Rui slowly spoke: "Give me some time, okay, when I figure everything out, I'll tell you, okay?" ”

Han Rui's tone was begging, and at this moment he seemed to be more vulnerable than ever.

After a short silence, Cheng Chuxia raised his head, "Okay, but what you say, you will tell me." ”

"Okay."

The voice was already hoarse.

……

At night, Han Rui still couldn't sleep.

The address book on the phone has been open for a long time, but the phone number can't be pressed and dialed.

The owner of that number was one of the attending doctors he had previously helped with in his treatment of autism.

He had mentioned to him before that his autism was not completely cured, and now it is only a short recovery period, and if he is subjected to too many emotional stimulation and fluctuations, the possibility of recurrence will be greatly increased.

Recently, the symptoms have been getting worse.

Han Rui knew that by dialing that phone number, he would be able to know the truth, but it seemed that he already knew the truth, and he didn't dare to investigate it deeply.

Because of the experience, he deeply knew how arduous and long the treatment process would be, and what kind of torture the people around him would suffer, he could bear it himself, it didn't matter, but he felt that Cheng Chuxia should not bear this with him.

Late in the night, he finally made that call.

At least give himself the truth, he thought.

On the other end of the phone, Dr. Liu was still working overtime to do research, and he was a little surprised when he received a call from Han Rui, "What's wrong, Xiao Rui, why didn't you see me, miss me?" ”

Han Rui was not in the mood to joke with him, and when he called him late at night, he should be able to guess what was going on.

"Lao Liu, I may ...... Will recur...... Right? ”

When I heard his words, my heart sank......

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