In the hot white bathroom, I kept wiping my body with a warm towel. Maybe it's because I can't wipe the dirt off my body, and I use more and more force. Soon, the surface of the skin was left with red marks. Overhead, the shower that sprayed hot water tried its best to cooperate with me, washing away the filth and pouring into the sewer, but I suddenly thought of something and stopped what I was doing.

The hot water was still spraying, spraying onto my growing body, following the lines of my newly formed muscles and gravity and falling to the ground. I tried my best to keep my body upright, even though my whole body was wet, even if my eyes and nose were invaded by the warm water. Wrapped in hot water, I slowly stretched out my hands against the white wall, I slowly lowered my head, and I took the time to change my breath. I stared at my feet with my eyes open, despite the slight tingling sensation, staring at the water flowing under my feet, and my thoughts gradually condensed.

"Damn, since he promised this devil commander, he hasn't stopped, tossing me every day." I gritted my teeth, and when I thought of the "torture" I had received in the past few days, I couldn't get out of my breath, and I slammed my fist hard against the wall, not to mention, it hurt. As soon as I thought of what had happened to me in the past few days, I couldn't help but grit my teeth and mutter: "Damn commander, sooner or later, I will give you all the pain you have inflicted on me." ”

Venting is venting, but I quickly came out of this anger, and I couldn't help but laugh when I looked at my hands that were gradually gaining strength. Yes, my life in the past few days seems to have changed my personality imperceptibly. And since Commander Shiro and Tianyu Chuge lived together and trained together, I can clearly feel the changes in myself bit by bit, not only in my heart, but also in my mind, which is much more open and cheerful than before. The current self doesn't seem to be the Tae Heung-woo he used to be. In the past, I could not have lived so recklessly, played unscrupulously, and could not have faced my life so happily and so fully.

Looking at the water pouring into the sewers, my mind flew to the past as if it were being tugged. The thought of the deaths of my father, mother, and sister made my chest feel tight, and I felt like I was overwhelmed by a heavy mountain on my back. I still can't accept this sudden and cruel reality, and I don't know how I should face it.

When I think of myself when I was a child, especially at that time, when I was sent to the homes of various relatives in turn for foster care, I really didn't feel good for a day at that time. And with the death of my parents, I had no choice but to live a life under the fence. This kind of life under the fence is not a personal experience, and you will never feel it. In particular, staying at this relative's house for a few days today and going to that relative's house for a few days tomorrow, this kind of day when you have to look at other people's faces every day is simply more torturous than purgatory.

At first, these people may have made some illusions about their family's inheritance to confuse themselves, but when they know what they really are, that all changes. They showed their dirty and ugly faces without any scruples, and after knowing that their family did not leave any inheritance to them, the relatives did everything they could to kick me out of the door, and I still remember the disgusting and disgusting look they looked at me. At the time, there was nothing more cruel to me at a young age.

They are all my relatives and my elders, but the way they look at me makes me feel extremely desperate. They may not know how much of a shadow they will cast on my young me by doing so. Do they care? I don't think I care at all. For them, I'm afraid that I am the garbage that I want to abandon early, and I am a drag on their lives. Lamentable? At that time, I really felt the sadness of life. But what if it's pathetic? In the end, it was under this sad mood that I was sent to a children's welfare home by the government department, and I became a poor and helpless orphan completely.

That is, from the moment I stepped through the doors of the orphanage, I never trusted anyone again.

During the few years I lived in the orphanage, I was used to living a lonely life, and I could even count the number of times I could speak on one hand. I also remember that I didn't like to laugh much at that time, and my smile didn't mean anything at all, and the word smile was probably just my perception of this thing and this phenomenon. After I lost my family, my parents, and my sister, my life was covered with a thick gray-black fog, which obscured all my light and future, and from that time on, my life was only left with endless darkness.

As an orphan, I learned early on what it feels like to lose the most important thing, and I felt the warmth and coldness of human affection early on. So, I've understood since that time that the more you care about something, the more heartbroken it will be when you lose it. I don't want to experience that second time in my life.

Having experienced the pain of losing my family and the sadness of being rejected by my relatives, I became extraordinarily quiet. All kinds of unfortunate encounters made me close my true heart, and at the same time, I also locked heavy and cold shackles for myself. This kind of everything, the cycle of cause and effect made it difficult for me to trust others easily, and eventually, my life became a mess, and I had a hard time getting through that difficult time...

Time really flies, everything seems to pass by in a flash. From the beginning of my separation from my parents and sisters to now, I am already twenty years old and almost twenty-one years old.

I sighed again. When I finally reached the age to leave the orphanage, I decided to leave the orphanage and rent a house to work while I lived. I was alone in the big city, no one cared about me, no one cared about me, I lived like a dandelion, swaying in the wind, and I didn't know when I would really settle down.

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