There's always someone who likes you, right?

Oops, this guy is so insidiously ruthless, and most of what he said tonight stabbed my very fragile and young heart.

Really, this is the last thing I want to remember, and the shame is even worse than what I said before!

Even if you are a strong man who is arrogant and arrogant, there is no problem that is too difficult to say.

"Senior, you can choose not to answer this question, I have no opinion, it's just out of curiosity. But you should also have some fond memories that are unique to you, right? ”

Seeing that Huang Xiaobei lowered his head and refused to speak, Carl pushed his sunglasses and said again.

"Somebody has ever liked you, right?"

Listening to Carl's words, Huang Xiaobei didn't say anything, just sat with his head down, or a person holding his legs and staring down at the stone slab under his feet.

His eyes looked plain and calm, and the whole person was probably like that.

But his heart is far from being as calm as he seems on the surface.

Huang Xiaobei stared at his toes motionlessly, his lowered eyes, those watery and calm eyes, slowly reflected the answer Carl wanted.

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There's always someone who likes you, right?

Well, yes, probably yes......

If I'm not mistaken, it seems that there was a fair-looking senior sister who came to confess to me before.

Hehe, it's been so long that I can't remember it anymore. Really, I really can't remember it anymore, only the last vague memory remains.

The corners of Huang Xiaobei's mouth couldn't help but smile.

Who hasn't been liked, even if it's me, once became the whole of someone.

Seeing the smile on Huang Xiaobei's lips, Carl silently stared at it for a while, and then cast his gaze to the side, the magic eye that exuded a faint blue light was calm at the moment.

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Huang Xiaobei recalled, recalling the things he didn't want to think about the most.

Like a man who has been shot, he stabs a dagger into his chest and digs out the bullet with blood.

The corners of his mouth were bleeding, his eyes were full of tears, and he was smiling and digging into the bullet that went deep into the bone marrow.

I was fainting in pain, but I was still laughing.

His bloody hands were trembling, but he was still stirring his flesh mercilessly.

Where is it? Where the hell is it? Oh, found it.

The sharp dagger pierced into the deepest part of Huang Xiaobei's soul.

He found the warhead, the bullet that had penetrated his bone marrow.

His bloody right hand gripped the bullet and left his scarred chest.

Looking at the bullet, Huang Xiaobei smiled tiredly.

"So that's what you look like."

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Digging out the past that had been sealed in his heart for many years, Huang Xiaobei was not as sad as he imagined, and he was covered in blood and remembered quietly.

If memory serves, she's a year older than me, she's my senior sister, and she likes to wear a pair of white sneakers.

In my memory, that senior sister seems to be very cute, walking and jumping, like a little rabbit. There is also a lot of baby fat on the face, and when you smile, it looks good.

Huang Xiaobei smiled.

Actually, in fact, strictly speaking, it's not a confession, because the day she plucked up the courage, because the day she plucked up the courage to stand in front of me, I just, I didn't react.

After hearing her say that, the expression on my face seemed to want to laugh, but I couldn't laugh, I wanted to nod but I didn't know why I didn't click.

So, in the end, I just put on my face and turned my head away.

Didn't say a word.

Huang Xiaobei calmly looked at the memories of the past.

This scene sounds familiar, right?

Like rejecting a person?

Hey, like, very similar, I think it's like......

Huang Xiaobei looked at the person beside him and wanted to scold him a few words, but in the end he just turned his head with a sigh.

So, you're really an asshole.

You don't know how long a girl hesitated, you don't know how determined a girl was to make this decision.

She probably hadn't slept the night before, and a second before she said that to you, she might have been scrambling to prepare her words.

But how did you respond to her?

In her expectant eyes, she turned her head and walked away like a pen, leaving her with an unattainable back like a pen.

Have you considered her feelings? No, you don't have anything, you will only wait for me to think for you, it will only make me suffer and make me regret!

And you yourself will just squat on the ground, bury your head in your knees, and run away from everything.

Huang Xiaobei smiled, looked at his bloody chest, and looked at the warhead in his hand.

It's your stuff, but you let me dig it out......

So, you're really an asshole.

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Speaking of which, a girl's heart is really hard to figure out, that bastard treats you so much, and treats everything you give as a blank, but you are still like that, still so persistent.

Really, what's so good about that bastard!

Huang Xiaobei shook his head with a chuckle, not wanting to think about the bastard next to him anymore.

Since I've dug it out for him, let's keep going, and I have to finish reading it until I die, right?

Huang Xiaobei, who was drenched in blood, closed his eyes with a smile, completely immersed in the memories of the past.

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After that, a lot more happened, most of which I can't remember.

The only thing left is a few fragments.

In fact, I had a lot of feelings before that, because when I was in physical education class, I always felt that there was a gaze on me in the school building opposite.

When the whole school was running on the playground, she seemed to be staring at me in the queue a lot, and the girlfriends next to her would laugh at her when they saw her so distracted, and the senior sister smiled embarrassedly, and then continued to look at me.

That kind of look is a pleasure to see.

Huang Xiaobei spread out his hands with a smile.

But what am I doing?

Pretending not to see, pretending not to know anything, as if she didn't exist in this world.

Misunderstanding, you all misunderstood, I just look very cold on the surface, but in fact, I am so happy and proud in my heart that it explodes!

Her appearance made me more joyful than ever.

Huang Xiaobei lowered his head in disdain.

It's just that I don't have the guts, or I don't know how to face her.

Even if everyone confessed to me, even if the girl did everything she could, I still wouldn't even say a word when I happened to see her at school.

walked straight over, not caring at all about the girl's expectant appearance.

Finally, at night, I lay alone in bed and snickered, wondering if I would see her again in some hallway or playground the next day.

Huang Xiaobei nodded calmly.

Soon after, I saw my senior sister walking in front of me holding another person's hand.

Huang Xiaobei smiled.

Probably not intentionally, right? That's a bad thing.

Huang Xiaobei spread his hands with a smile, tears flashing in his eyes. But he was still laughing, laughing very happily, laughing happily.

The smiling appearance is like the saddest guy in the world.

Anyway, who can blame me, do you blame me? No, it's definitely not me, what does this have to do with me? Don't blame me, you see that I'm not sad, you see I'm laughing, hehehe, don't blame me, don't blame me.....

It's just that I feel a little pity, because the person next to my senior sister in my mind should be me, and she should be holding my hand.

Well, I was a little angry at the time, and I really wanted to hit someone.

Huang Xiaobei shook his head helplessly.

But after being stunned for a while, I still returned to the previous way of scattering coins, and walked straight over, just like Chu Zifeng now.

is obviously happy in the eyes of others all day long, smirking non-stop, but in front of her eyes is always that cold look.

She doesn't seem to owe me, does she? She doesn't seem to have done anything to be sorry for me, has she? She looks good-looking, right.....

But why can't you even give a smile? Mom, it's okay to giggle! It's good to give someone some response, don't wait until she really thinks you don't have any interest in her, and turns around and throws herself into the arms of others!

Huang Xiaobei quietly stared at the guy beside him, the guy who seemed to him, even if he lowered his head, he was a guy with an abominable face.

I beat you, I scolded you, I looked down on you, I threw stones at you, I spit on you, was it wrong?

The people next to him trembled even more.

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When you walked past her..... No, when I passed by her, she didn't seem to react, and she didn't look stunned and lowered her head a little sad.

She didn't look at me with the expectant eyes she had before, and she didn't look at me again the whole time.

Holding the man's hand, they happily walked to where they were going.

I sneaked a peek at the passing by, and she was smiling happily.

Huang Xiaobei nodded.

At that time, you should give a blessing, "It's good that you can find someone you like, bless you." ”

It should leave some impression on her, right? It's okay to leave a little bit and let her understand that the person you like is very generous! He has blessed you generously.

But why does it seem like there is a pitiful feeling?

It's like a poor fellow who has lost everything, and thinks he is generous to the man who took everything from him.

"You take it, I don't want it, I don't like it in the first place, I want to thank you for helping to take it away."

Huang Xiaobei stared calmly at his side.

"You're pathetic."

Otherwise, another sentence, right? In order not to look so pitiful, in order not to look like a Lose

Again, tell the person directly, "Be nice to her, even though I haven't said a word to her." ”

Hehe, it's not pitiful, but it's like a retarded person.

So what happened in the end? How did I react?

It's actually quite simple.

Didn't say anything......

Standing in the hallway, he turned his head to look at the two backs, then lowered his head and walked back to the classroom slowly.

Not even shouting a few words like a loser, or shouting "Lao Tzu will be a good man again in twenty years" during the march like a person who was about to be beheaded in the past.

He didn't say anything, and accepted everything quietly.

Silly walked back to the classroom, continuing to fantasize silly alone, continuing to daydream ridiculously.

Well, she did it on purpose, deliberately to me off.

Tomorrow will continue to peek at me while running as before.

It's like this, it must be like this.

Huang Xiaobei spat on the top of the head of the person next to him, "It's a fart!" ”

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I have to say that it hurts me to never be the focus of one's gaze again.

During that time I, oh no, it was him, and he was very sad.

But he was still like that, just squatting in the corner alone, not crying or making trouble, just hugging his knees and hiding in the corner.

Sometimes I wonder if he is a normal person, even if he cries. But he just didn't cry, he just squatted in the corner as if he was going to die.

If you want to die, you are not dead, that is, you are half-dead and stay in the sight of the crowd.

You know? You look even more hateful like that!

Wait, don't you remember it clearly? Why do you say you can't remember? She's been lingering in the back of my mind all along.

Huang Xiaobei smiled bitterly, still like this, you are still willing to deceive yourself, how many years have passed, you are still this virtue.

But there is no way, this is me, this is him, he is this frustration, I am this frustration, I have been frustrated for more than 20 years, and I am almost used to it.

The earth never revolves around you alone, and she never likes you alone.

It's just that you, Sabi, feel that the earth can't turn without you, and she can't live without you.

This is and will continue to be the case.

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I don't have such old routines, such as getting angry and going to the senior sister or going to that person to say something, and then running to the campus radio room in anger and saying to the whole school, "That one, I like you, it was an accident before, can you give me another chance!" ”

Huang Xiaobei shook his head in fear, "It seems that I really thought about it at that time, alas, thank you, thank you for your old man's waste, so that you didn't do another ridiculous and generous thing." ”

Well, that's what Comrade Karl called my fond memories, how's that? This is my good memory, isn't it fun, isn't it funny, do you want to laugh?

It's okay, laugh, laugh at the bastard next to me, I don't mind spitting on him.

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Huang Xiaobei looked at Carl and showed a very pitiful smile.

"I don't have any good memories, I'm not suitable for any good memories, a virtuous person like me, even good things can become bad."

Of course, you don't know, but what my "good memories" are, you can never know. ”

Huang Xiaobei raised his chin proudly, "So, your plan failed, and you made the grief in my heart a little worse, hahaha, you lost." ”

Carl quietly stared at Huang Xiaobei in front of him.

"Senior, your smile is very contagious."

"Well, I know, the contagion from a poor ghost, but sorry, that's still me, and now I just remember these old me, and I feel a little bit of a snack stuff, and I don't feel anything else."

Huang Xiaobei stood up, like a burlesque actor, and twisted his limbs.

"Do you see that I am uncomfortable? You can see I'm laughing, so I'm not uncomfortable at all. ”

Karl was silent for a long time, and finally nodded, "Really." ”

Huang Xiaobei smiled and nodded, "Yes." ”

Raising his hand, Huang Xiaobei dropped the tightly clenched warhead downstairs.

I'm not uncomfortable at all, not at all!

Looking at his actions, Carl simply hummed.

"Hmm."