If dumping a girl who loves you is hurting her, then hurting girls is already a common occurrence for me.

Who gave me a face that all girls would never forget, plus a mouth with a sense of humor, which was always stocked with countless jokes. A sense of humor is something that most girls will strive for, and they love to be made laughing by you. Also, and more importantly, I had a one-bedroom house before I went to college, and I had it all at my disposal. Together, these conditions have allowed me to have never been surrounded by beautiful girls since I was seventeen or eighteen years old.

The first girl I slept with was in the college entrance examination room. According to my current standard of picking fat and thin, she seems to have a little too much meat on her body, she doesn't feel good, and her IQ is not high. That day, this fat girl was so nervous that she forgot to bring a pen, and almost missed the future of her life. I lent her one of my backup pens, and this acquaintance gave me the first impression I had in her mind of a good boy. Later, we went to Bundi together, and I took her home in the middle of the night. She said that the hallway of her house was dark and asked me to send her up, so I sent her up. Then he went into her house, and then in her bedroom he nervously undressed and did that with her. To be fair, it was she who seduced me. If you carefully recall the details of that night, you know that this is certainly not the first time for her. Knowing this made me feel a sense of humiliation and loss, and it also made me feel a special desire for virginity for a long time afterward.

Later, I was admitted to the Northern University of Mining and Technology and stayed in Beijing. The fat girl was admitted to Nanjing, and since then they have broken up and have no contact. The second girl I had a relationship with was a classmate of mine at the University of Mines, and we officially fell in love for three months, and then I took the initiative to do that. If we don't, maybe our relationship of learning from each other and helping each other will last longer.

This classmate's girlfriend, like the fat girl, is not a virgin.

After my junior year of college, I became addicted to going clubbing with friends at night. There are too many girls I know in a bar like that, and more than half of them are willing to make out with me, just because I am more upright, so there are not many things, and the success is just a night of dew, dewy love, and there are usually no endless stories happening. And I also know that it would be wishful thinking to find a budding innocent virgin in a place like a bar.

That's when I met Beibei. At a bar called "Boys and Girls", on the weekend before I graduated.

She had come to this bar with the daughter of a relative of hers in Beijing that day to listen to music, and Liu Minghao and I went up to set up porcelain, and we talked about music and talked about Beijing's famous places and trendy jokes. Bei Bei always laughs exaggeratedly, and her cheerful personality and generous demeanor give people a good impression. Later, we made an appointment to go to Mutianyu together the next day. Bei Bei came to Beijing for the summer vacation, and Liu Minghao and I became her guides.

Liu Minghao turned out to be a salesman in my father's factory, and later he jumped to work alone and opened a small company. Although the business has been doing fishing for three days and drying nets for two days, I have finally put together a set of large "outfits" - Nokia 8810 and second-hand Honda Accord, which seems to be a rich man, maybe only I know his actual financial constraints at home and abroad. Maybe it was because he didn't have enough money in his hand that Liu Minghao was less sensitive to money, and he could see at a glance that Bei Bei was a rich girl, so he tried his best to encourage me to devote myself wholeheartedly. Liu Minghao actually spends more money than me, but he is too fat, and he has a thief's heart and courage for a girl like Beibei, but he has no thief's capital. He later married Beibei's cousin, who chatted with "Boys and Girls", and he seized the opportunity.

We spent a few days with Bei Bei in Beijing, and getting along with this kind of Chinese girl who grew up in the United States made me feel that I had improved my cultivation, and I had a sense of freshness and satisfaction that I had never experienced before. But I didn't do anything with her except to play around, because she was clearly not the type to fascinate me sexually, and I didn't have to be as greedy as a cat in front of her. At the same time, I naturally do not swear or spit, I am polite everywhere I go, I stop at a green light when I cross the street, and I never stop in a queue. Therefore, the impression I left on Beibei was only that of the young people in Beijing who were enthusiastic, up-to-date, honest and dignified.

It was also because I had not yet entered the society at that time, I had not faced the competition for survival, and I had not supported myself, that is, I had not yet experienced the cruelty and charm of money.

At that time, my father was still sitting in the position of director of the Jinhua Electric Appliance Factory in Beijing, and I did not know anything about the bankruptcy and closure of the large state-owned factory led by my father.

My father worked in this factory for more than 30 years, from an apprentice to the top of the party and government, and experienced the whole process of the factory's start-up, development, glory and decline. Although the salary of factory directors in state-owned enterprises is not high, there is a lot of gray income. When I was in college, my dad basically didn't eat at home, and had dinner every night; There is an endless stream of people who usually give gifts to their homes. Send money my dad didn't dare to accept it, and asked people to take it back, but he could send eggs, rice, drinks, fruits, and vegetables - packaged very high-end dishes, and send all kinds of practical but not scary daily necessities of frightening value, and it was not considered a bribe to receive it, so he accepted it. In addition, regular business trips, going abroad, conference subsidies, and overseas subsidies; Incentives and benefits of various items, clothing, meals, festivals, books and newspapers, carriages and horses, consultants, only children, heatstroke prevention and cooling expenses, supplementary pension insurance premiums, etc. My dad's apparent dead salary was actually the family's pocket money, and most of it was spent by me as a matter of course.

The year I graduated from college was a turning point for our family. First of all, my mother fell ill, spent all the family's savings and went into debt, and she couldn't keep her most loving smile in the world. Immediately after my mom left, my dad's factory collapsed and was bought cheaply by a private company. The majority of employees are either honorably laid off or fend for themselves, and my dad goes back to the head office to be assigned, and to be assigned, to put it bluntly, he is also laid off, but it just sounds a little more decent. No way, who made their products too old. Besides, air conditioners have been changed for several generations these years, and there are still people who move electric fans to their homes? In the past, my dad also thought about changing production if it really didn't work, and developing new products that meet the needs of the times, but they didn't have the ability, and they had to collectively study and discuss democratic decision-making with employees, there were too many procedures, and there was no one who could really make the decision! Before they could make a decision, their superior unit sold their factory to the wealthy Guoning Company. In fact, Guoning Company is not interested in operating this factory, they have taken a fancy to this land and want to use this land to build their Guoning Building! Otherwise, where to find such a large piece of land within the third ring road of the city, build a high-end office building here, build a star-rated hotel, build an export apartment, and sell anything!

My dad had been busy for more than 30 years, and suddenly he woke up one morning to find that he no longer had to go to work, and his former home was deserted, and suddenly he couldn't stand it, he couldn't stand this feeling of loneliness and failure. He drank like he was playing all day long, and he was always drunk and talking nonsense from morning to night. Looking at him like that, it is hard for me to imagine how the idol titles such as "Young Hero", "Model of Technological Innovation" and "New Long March Assaulter" on the award certificate were written next to his name. Every era has its own proud sons, and our family used to be such a family with countless honors and decency, and I can feel the tragic sense of the twilight of heroes. At that time, I was about to graduate from college and enter the society, it seemed to be just a blink of an eye, my father was laid off and my mother passed away, the family was in the middle of the road and the separation of relatives, so that I suddenly felt particularly lonely and helpless psychologically, and there was always a sudden and unadaptable desolation in my heart from morning to night.

People only know the value of friends when they are unlucky, and at this time, the only one who came to my house to see my father was Liu Minghao, a subordinate who had been separated from him by many levels. Liu Minghao came to see my dad most of the time because he was my friend. He went with me to my house, where he talked nonsense with my dad for half an hour, and left a thousand dollars behind. I was deeply moved by this thousand dollars for a while.

My dad didn't seem to care about the money, and asked Liu Minghao to take it back with a straight face, but he took some of Liu Minghao's pure nonsense ideas seriously. Liu Minghao actually suggested that my dad go to the Guoning company that drove my dad out of his factory to apply for a job! This idea is not only ridiculous, but also gives people the feeling that having milk is a mother who recognizes the thief as a father and destroys the country and exterminates the species, and goes to eat the soft bones of the food that comes to them.

"Their Guoning Mansion Preparation Office is recruiting, a capable person like you is familiar with all aspects of the land, why don't they use it? Just give you a salary and you'll earn more than you would have earned. The more Liu Minghao spoke, the more he was excited, he was originally talking casually, but later he took it seriously.

My dad was calm at first: "They are such a big company, they don't have talents, and they still need people like us, I'm almost fifty years old, and I have to provide for us after a few years." ”

Liu Minghao said with a smile: "Guoning Company says it is private, but in fact it is private, the boss is called Zhong Guoqing, I know." He also has a younger sister who helped his brother keep an eye on the stall after graduating from high school and didn't even go to college. They only started it in the past few years, and there really aren't many people under them. Besides, this kind of private company hires you to pay you a salary, and it is your own business to buy a house and get insurance in old age, sickness and death. People don't care! ”

Even if they talk more and more enthusiastically, I always thought that Liu Minghao said that, and my dad also heard this, where to say it, and it was over. I really didn't expect this to happen. When I came home from school on the weekend, my dad was sick in bed, and I cooked for him, but he didn't eat. I said help him to the hospital, but he didn't go. He took out a letter from his pillow and handed it to me, asking me to send it to Guoning Company for him.

I couldn't believe it, it was a cover letter.

My dad has been a leader for many years, and he is used to using it as a secretary, and his own handwriting is always childish and sloppy, and it is rare for me to see him write so seriously. The line on the envelope, "personally opened by the person in charge of Guoning Company", was so deliberately neat.

But the more serious my dad became, the more I couldn't cry or laugh: "Dad, Liu Minghao is talking nonsense, why are you still serious?" ”

My dad said, "You don't care, if you want to send it, you will send it." ”

I said, "You are all this age, and you don't have any special professional skills, how can people hire you as a panacea cadre of the Communist Party." ”

My dad said, "Their kind of business doesn't have a panacea like mine." Do you know what a jack-of-all-trades are? That's called a miscellaneous family! It's not that people who have a lot of experience and know a little bit about everything are not qualified to be a panacea. Besides, the social relationships I have saved up over the years, such as industry and commerce, finance, taxation, and public security, do they not need these relationships? ”

I said, "In this kind of private enterprise, the boss is a grandfather and the employee is a grandson." You have been the director of the factory for so many years, and you are used to shouting and drinking, and now you are going to be a reminder to others, can you stand that anger? ”

My dad said, "I'm a person, where do you say anything, when I was an apprentice, the master gave you a crutch, you still have to say thank you master, the master taught me well, have you received this?" ”

I smiled: "You're talking about the old society." My dad glared: "I'm from the old society." I said through my nose, "You weren't weaned in the old society." ”

My dad smacked his lips dissatisfiedly: "You are poor with me, why do you want to do something so verbose!" ”

I'm too lazy to go. What's more, when I went to that Guoning company to apply for a job, let alone my dad, I felt humiliated.

I said to my dad, "If you really want to apply for a job, you will have to go in person when you are well, and they will have to interview you." ”

My dad looked serious: "Let them look at my resume first, if they really need it, they will naturally come to me." ”

I couldn't resist my father, seeing his hard work, I also felt a little pity for him, so I had to accept the letter, and said with a sad face: "Then I'll send it to you, and I'll inquire about the address of Guoning Company when I go back." ”

My dad was not happy when he heard this, and glared and said, "You have the time, you have already delivered it." ”

No way, the next day I pulled Liu Minghao and asked him to take me to Guoning Company. The company occupies an entire floor in an inconspicuous building near the Yellow Temple. Judging from the decoration, it is quite a bit of a modern company atmosphere, and many people come in and out of the business, which seems to be very busy. At the entrance of the corridor, we were blocked by the secretary at the reception counter, and when I heard that we were looking for a job, we said with a straight face that we were not hiring anyone here. Liu Minghao said that your Guoning Building Preparation Office is not recruiting, and it has been published in the newspaper. The secretary said that you should go to the preparatory office of the Guoning Building, how did you get here? I said, "We're just sending a cover letter, can I please pass it around here?" The young lady said: We can't turn around, you just go straight to it, turn around and don't lose it for you.

I really didn't want to go to the preparatory office of Guoning Building, so I asked Liu Minghao: Don't you know their boss, you look for their boss. Liu Minghao was a little hesitant and said: Their Guoning Company still owes me a sum of money that has not been repaid, and I want to find someone who will think that I am coming to collect debts, which is not good. I said: It is natural to repay debts, why do you seem to owe him? Liu Minghao said perfunctorily: The boss of the family has become bigger, so we have to save some face for others. Let's go to the preparatory office of Guoning Building, right where your dad is in their factory, anyway, I have a car.

As he was talking, another white-collar girl walked in the corridor, tall, well-dressed, with a serious face, short hair like a man, and a big tone like a man. ”

The secretary stood up from her seat like a ghost seeing the king of Hades, and replied respectfully: "Yo, Mr. Zhong, the people from Meijia Photo Agency haven't come yet." These two are here to apply for jobs. ”

The girl's style made me a little stunned and a little disgusted. I've always hated girls shaving their heads and wearing neutral clothes, which are not feminine. And I've observed that it's generally girls who look too average who deliberately dress themselves up so differently to cover up their ugliness. They think that the alternative is a single way, it is difficult to compare with each other, in fact, the comparison is still easy, men look at women, whether they are beautiful or ugly, can they not see clearly?

Unless he meets a bold little guy like Liu Minghao, he can be dazzled when he sees a freshly dressed girl, and then he really piled up a flattering smile on his face, and went up to set porcelain and said: "Mr. Zhong, I am a good luck trading company, I have done business with our Guoning Group, and I bought the exterior wall paint of your mineral water factory." We have also quoted the central air conditioning of the mineral water plant, and we have not decided whether to do it for us. ”

The face of the girl who was called "total" was still expressionless, and that kind of indifference was simply a kind of arrogance. She glanced at Liu Minghao and asked lightly: "What, do you want to come to our company?" ”

Liu Minghao hurriedly pointed at me: "No, no, he came to apply for a job, I came with him, I am not familiar with our Guoning company." ”

When Liu Minghao took this, the girl had already turned around and left. After taking two steps and turning around, two eyes swept over my face, and the gaze was so unbridled and unconcealed that it was as uncomfortable as giving you a big mouth and letting you eat a fly. I really don't understand if a little stinky money can be so ×!

I didn't say a word, and pulled Liu Minghao to the elevator, Liu Minghao said: "This is the sister of Boss Zhong of Guoning Company." I didn't react, deliberately indifferent, pressed the elevator and looked up at the shiny numbers on it. Liu Minghao asked me, "Go to Guoning Building?" I remained calm and didn't answer. The elevator door opened, and before we could enter the car, the secretary lady chased after us for some reason.

"Sir, please wait." Her words were directed at me, "We always invite this gentleman to come." ”

I asked, "What?" ”

"Aren't you here to apply for a job?"

I hesitated for a moment before leaving the elevator again and following the snobbish female secretary down the hallway. Exercise! I'm really doing this for my dad!

The female secretary took me into the boss's sister's office. The office was much smaller than I thought, I thought that the office of the boss of this kind of big company was really as magnificent as it was in the TV series, at least the boss's sister's office was not much bigger than my dad's original one, and the decoration was a bit cheesy, and things would not be placed in a mess. Only the writing desk and bookcase can be seen to be the imported very expensive kind, and the table lamp is also good.

When I entered the house, the proprietor's sister was sitting on the chair, and when she saw me come in, she didn't even move, and I sat down on the big leather sofa opposite her without waiting for the master to speak, and looked up at her with a rude face.

The girl looked at me too, and our eyes confronted each other without avoidance. Finally, she smiled unexpectedly and asked first:

"What do you call you?"

I didn't laugh, I said, "My name is Yang Rui." ”

"Oh." She nodded, condescendingly, without giving her name, and continued to ask, "What position do you want to ask for here?" ”

I said coldly, "It's not me applying for a job, it's my dad, and this is his cover letter." ”

The woman was stunned, surprised and disappointed at the same time, looked at the cover letter I put on the desk, and asked puzzledly: "Your father?" Why did you come to apply for a job? ”

I remained silent and said, "If you need someone like him, you can tell him to come over for an interview." If you can't do it now, the letter has a phone number, and you can call him later. ”

The woman didn't even open the envelope and asked me, "Where do you work?" ”

I said, "I'm still studying at the University of Mines, and I'm graduating this year." ”

"yes, what did you study?"

I didn't say anything about my major, and asked with a sneer: "Do you open a mine?" Open a coal kiln? I said, "I can dig coal for you." ”

The woman didn't smile, but her tone returned to a serious official tone, and said, "Then so be it, let's take a look, and if necessary, we will inform your father." ”

This is the meaning of sending off the guest, I immediately stood up, said thank you and went out, and the woman stopped me before leaving the door.

"What's your name? Ah, Yang Rui. The woman's slightly fierce phoenix eyes stared at me and said, "Maybe, when in the future, I will find a place to really open a small coal kiln." ”

Later, I learned that this woman was not only Zhong Guoqing's sister, but also the deputy general manager of Guoning Company, named Zhong Ning. The next thing turned out to be a bit like a story, and a few days later, my father actually received a call asking him to go to Guoning for an interview. The interview was so simple that it was almost a formality, and then he was officially hired as the deputy director of the preparatory office of Guoning Building, and let him report to work whenever he wanted! His original head office did not approve of his appointment to a private enterprise, so he simply applied for early retirement, went to sea without an official, and returned to the factory where he had stayed with him for more than 30 years. Guoning Company gave him a salary of 3,000 per month, and with this remuneration, which was much higher than his expectations, he began to cheerfully and actively and responsibly start to demolish the factory that he had built brick by brick.

Now Liu Minghao can brag, he said: Director Yang, how can you thank me, this idea is mine. My dad said: My ability and qualifications are there, I can manage such a big factory, why can't I! Liu Minghao said: Didn't our factory let you be crippled? This is what I gave you a lot of words at Mr. Zhong's place, I have always had business with them, I don't believe you asked Yang Rui. My dad said, "Okay, let's say, how can I thank you?" Liu Minghao grinned: Thank you, just remember, what materials will be ordered for the Guoning Building project in the future, respond to me, and give me a chance to serve. My dad said I just went and didn't stand firm yet, don't give me this trouble. Liu Minghao just laughed, and after laughing, he threw his hand at my dad: I'll talk about it then, and I'll talk about it when the time comes.

In fact, my dad doesn't know, or he knows everything but doesn't say it, Guoning Company can use my dad because of me. Liu Minghao knew it in his heart, and he sighed at me more than once: It is said that girls can make money by relying on their faces, but now that I have seen it, boys' faces can also make money. When he said this, I had graduated from Beijing University of Mining and Technology majoring in mining machinery, and like my father, I was recruited by Guoning Company to work as a project manager in their supply company, with a monthly salary of 8,000. Liu Minghao said: In the past, you paid attention to the appearance of talented women, do you know what you pay attention to now? I asked: What? He said: What is popular now is that the man is beautiful and rich! I laughed and said, ", you're so ugly, so you're jealous."

That's it, no one introduced, no one said clearly, I fell in love with Zhong Ning, the female boss of Guoning Company. Zhong Ning is rich and warm and straightforward to people, which is her strength. The disadvantage is that he has a fiery temper and is willful. When she lost her temper, even Zhong Guoqing, her brother, who was more than ten years older than her and almost like her father, didn't take her seriously.

Fortunately, Zhong Ning prefers to manage people and affairs in the company, and finds a lot of things to do for himself every day, from morning to night busy meeting customers, answering the phone, participating in various negotiations and various entertainment, accepting instructions from subordinates, etc., and is never tired of it. To say that it sounds good, it belongs to the kind with a strong sense of dedication, and to say that it is more difficult to hear, it is more like to be in the limelight, like to give orders, like to listen to other people's compliments, and like to watch others in front of her, she has fun and pleasure because of this. However, this invisibly liberated me. Since I slept with Zhong Ning, the little freshness I had managed to find in her quickly faded, and she didn't pester me all day long, it only made me feel relaxed. The most annoying thing is my dad, when he sees me, he asks: How are you getting along with Zhong Ning, you have to be nice to others, you have to respect others in front of colleagues in the company, public is public and private, you know the rules, she will never underestimate you, you know! You don't want to go back and forth with your past girlfriends, it's not appropriate. Since you and Zhong Ning have settled, you have to be single-minded, this is the minimum of being a person, you know!

I said, "Yes!"

I don't like my dad like this, although I can be nice to Zhong Ning, I can also distinguish between public and private, and I can't do it at all if I don't mess with flowers, I hate my dad's tone and expression, which makes people feel that Snobbery is boring, and there is a small citizen who is afraid of falling down when he finally climbs a high branch. Although I also know that my father works very seriously and responsibly in the preparatory office of Guoning Building, he is exposed to the wind and sun on the construction site every day, and he is much more motivated than when he was an official in a state-owned enterprise a few years ago. I also know that my father has never looked for the Zhong brothers and sisters for his own affairs, and he still has a little bit of the innocence and self-esteem of a national cadre in his bones. His teachings to me about serving Zhong Ning well are only considerate words between father and son behind closed doors, and it is not suitable for outsiders. It's another thing in his bones, and I know my dad.

After all, my dad went from a laid-off cadre to a vice president with a monthly salary of 3,000; I just graduated from university, I still look like a hairy young man, but I suddenly became the project manager of the group's supply department - the supply department is responsible for the selection, procurement and purchase of bulk materials and equipment of the group's companies. Although the group has strict control over the project managers of the supply department, and will immediately remove them once they find signs of covert deductions, they will also be paid high salaries and maintain integrity, and the project managers will be paid 8,000 per month in addition to a Nokia and a Santana each. And there are always customers who invite them to eat all day long, and the personal meal money is basically saved every month. If you talk about business, you have to eat, and this company allows it. At that time, Beijing was happy to eat abalone, and I ate abalone for hundreds or even thousands of yuan a piece, and I just wanted to drink porridge and pickles all day long. I know that all of this is because of Zhong Ning.

When I first arrived in the supply department, there were not many projects assigned to me, and the head of the department also knew about my relationship with Zhong Ning, so he took care of me. Every day when I have nothing to do, I find a few friends to go to the bar to go bowling and chat with the girls they bring in. There are a lot of girls who like me and always ask me out to hang out. I always stopped at these girls and easily didn't sleep with them, for fear that I would be entangled by someone and make endless trouble and be known by Zhong Ning, and secondly, I really didn't look at it when I had a high vision.

Liu Minghao also introduced me to a few girls, and at the beginning they all bragged to me about how beautiful they were, but when I saw that no one was not disappointed, the more mysterious they were, the more people broke their glasses. I am old Liu Minghao: Lao Liu, have you ever seen a beautiful one? Liu Minghao said: Don't dare to brag about anything else, I have seen too many beautiful girls. I said: In the movie? Hey, do you know, now there is another Zhang Ziyi, which is quite pure. Liu Minghao went straight to the pole: cough, Zhang Ziyi...... I interrupted him with words: Cooked! Liu Minghao smiled: That's not it, but I really know a person who looks like Zhang Ziyi, who is purer than Zhang Ziyi, don't lie to you! I squinted at him, not believing it at all, but I couldn't help but ask: Where is it, who? Liu Minghao said: It's in the Taekwondo Club of Beijing Normal Sports School!

Liu Minghao recently attended a taekwondo training class, one to catch up with fashion, and the other to lose weight. Liu Minghao said: "Yang Rui, if you don't practice taekwondo, with your body and muscles, you can practice to the level of blue belt level in half a year." You'll know it when you practice, it's really interesting. ”

I smiled and asked, "You said that girl is really so beautiful?" ”

Liu Minghao didn't laugh and said, "Fuck, it's definitely a virgin, it's a mistake, okay?" ”

I said, "Pretty girls practice taekwondo, isn't that ruined?" ”

Liu Minghao said: "She doesn't practice taekwondo, she is a handyman in a gym. ”

Oh, handyman?

Virgin, handyman, a girl who looks like Zhang Ziyi...... For some reason, the combination of these things really gave me a desire to see what was going on. The next day, I had lunch with Liu Minghao, and one of us drank a small bottle of Red Star brand two-pot head, and we were a little red and hot. After the meal, with the strength of the wine and a kind of game psychology expanded by the strength of the wine, I followed Liu Minghao to the Jingshi Taekwondo Club and registered.

The Jingshi Taekwondo Club is the third industry of the Jingshi Amateur Sports School, and it uses the field of the sports school, which is many times more dilapidated than I imagined. Two days later, in the humble training hall, which looked like a large warehouse, I met the girl I had later sworn to love for life and death.