Zhang Tiejun went to South Germany.

In less than a month, Zhang Tiejun will be twenty-eight years old. Twenty-eight-year-old Zhang Tiejun has always been smooth sailing.

This is first of all because he has such a good family. Although his parents are not military dignitaries, the Zhang family is in Guangping, and they can be regarded as a famous family. Zhang Tiejun has had plenty of food and clothing since he was a child, and all he has received is a positive education, and he is always surrounded by countless praises and appreciation...... This is a bit like me, the son of the director of a state-owned enterprise, and people like us are born with a sense of justice and superiority.

Moreover, no matter how bad we learn later, how fashionable we are, how we go with the flow, how cynical we are, our hearts are still simple, sometimes so simple that they are almost fragile and pedantic.

So, if there is some scandal in our immediate vicinity and among our loved ones, our shock will come more suddenly and painfully, and our shame will be stronger and unbearable. Because it can really sting and even destroy the kind of pretentious temperament that we hide in our hearts, in our subconscious, in our habits of thinking. So people like us often become the saddest kind of characters.

In this regard, Zhang Tiejun looks even more serious than me. Maybe it's because he's a much more decent man than I am, or maybe we're not the same in terms of embarrassment and blows. I can accept the intimacy between Anxin and Zhang Tiejun and Mao Jie in the past, because no matter how intimate they are, they are also in the past, and rivals who are not in the same time and space are often not jealous. However, I don't know if if I had been in love with Anxin and married and found out that she was having an affair with someone else and had brought someone else's child to my home, would I still be able to accept it calmly and treat Anxin and that other person's child calmly.

Zhang Tiejun can't.

Zhang Tiejun rushed out of the house with the child in his arms, and he couldn't let the child stay in his home for one more minute. He carried him straight to the train station, and he didn't coax the child to wake up and cry when he was carried out of the bassinet. After crying, the child cried hoarsely, and cried to the train station again, and he fell asleep in Tiejun's arms and got on the train from Guangping to Nande.

The fire in Tie Jun's heart burned his temples red, and this fire burned every hole in his mind. He only thought about it, and the first action he made when he saw Anxin was to slap her hard! He and Anxin, all the love and all the relationships between them, will be cut in two today! From now on, each one goes his own way, and no one cares whether anyone lives or dies.

This train is a bit crowded, Tie Jun is the car on the platform ticket, and after Chu Hong, he made up the ticket and grabbed a seat. The child was already too heavy in his hands to bear. After sitting down, Tie Jun looked at the child's face carefully, except for a fat word, eyebrows, eyes, mouth and nose, it didn't look like himself anywhere. The saliva that came out of the child's mouth after he was asleep, he also felt nauseous, and he didn't wipe it. He didn't come out with any towels, handkerchiefs or anything like that. The whole thing made him feel sick. He thought that he might be the only one in the dark about it, and of course his mother. And the people around him, especially the policemen of the anti-narcotics brigade, may have already known about the adultery!

When he was about to reach Nande, the child woke up, and when he found himself in a different place, noisy and hungry, he was stunned for a moment, and then he began to cry again. Tie Jun checked the child's diaper and found that it had been wetted on the buttocks, so he removed it and threw it in the garbage can, and there was nothing to change, but fortunately, Nande was already far away.

The child was still crying, crying endlessly, Tie Jun knew it was time to breastfeed, but he didn't bring anything. The child's cry was shocking because no one paid attention to it, and his voice, which was already dumb, soon became harsh and unpleasant. Seeing Tie Jun's gloomy face, the surrounding passengers couldn't help but look sideways when they watched the child cry and didn't take any measures, and then looked at each other in confusion. The child's unrestrained crying made Tie Jun's disgust and irritability for him even heavier, and he patted the child with his palm and shouted, "Don't cry! Those few palms made the surrounding passengers all look surprised. At this moment, Tie Jun noticed that his legs were hot and damp, and he was stunned for a moment, only to understand that the child was urinating again. The hot urine was all soaked in his pants, and after the brief heat passed, the cold and wet stuck to his legs.

After the child had urinated, the crying suddenly stopped, and as if deliberately provocative, he looked at him with a pair of round black eyes. Tie Jun angrily slapped the child's ass hard, and yelled:

"You, where are you going to pee!"

The child's body was shaken by the blow and he began to cry again. At this time, some righteous and brave people stepped forward. A couple with an eight- or nine-year-old girl stood up and criticized him: "Hey, comrade, you can't do this to your child, such a young child will be beaten like this." ”

After the man finished speaking, the woman said, "You should coax him, is he going to feed him?" Do you have milk, I can help you warm it, you make him cry like this, and he will cry out of trouble. ”

Like fools, Tie Jun stared blankly at the couple who were scrutinizing him, and at their eight or nine-year-old girl, who stared at him with big eyes.

And the passengers around him, they were all looking at him, and there was no lack of concern in their eyes, but more doubts and condemnation. Seeing that he was speechless, the husband suddenly asked:

"Hey, is this kid yours, who are you?"

He opened his mouth for a long time, not knowing what to answer.

The wife asked, "Are you his father?" ”

Zhang Tiejun rushed out: "I'm not!" ”

He wasn't in the first place, but this question asked him about his grievances and resentment. Not only was this child not his son, but he now almost represented his enemy!

However, this sentence of "I'm not" made it even more troublesome, and almost everyone around stood up. So who are you? What is the relationship between this child and you? What do you do? Where did you come from and where are you going? Tie Jun couldn't resist so many gossip questions, he felt that he was not obliged to answer these questions, he picked up the child who was still crying dumbly, got up and left, I can't hide if I can't be provoked! But he forgot that the righteous and nosy character of the Yunnan people was no worse than the Tianjin people in the north, and someone immediately stopped him:

"Hey, don't go, tell me what the hell is going on with this kid!"

Tie Jun suddenly turned around and roared, "Go away!" ”

No one walked away, but everyone became more and more tightly crowded. At this time, the police officer in the car came, with a burly figure and a ** face, wearing a pistol at his waist and an electric baton. He was called by a passenger. After coming, he first looked Zhang Tiejun up and down, and then asked loudly with a straight face:

"Is this kid yours?"

Tie Jun looked around, swallowed, and said in a muffled voice, "Yes." ”

The surrounding crowd immediately revealed: "No, you just said it wasn't yours, why is it now?" ”

The police waved his hand to stop everyone, and then asked, "Do you have an ID card?" ”

Tie Jun stretched out one hand to grope around his body, and after touching it for a long time, he said embarrassedly: "...... I have, forgot to bring it. ”

The policeman said with a half-smile and said: "I look at this child, it's very good-looking, come, don't cry......" He took the child when Tie Jun was at a loss, handed it to a woman beside him, and then said to Tie Jun seriously:

"You come with me!"

In full view of everyone, Tie Jun followed the police. Only then did the travelers return to their places, and they were gossiping that this person was too unspeakable, and that there were really everyone in this world......

The police took Tie Jun to the dining car, and the woman also carried the child to the dining car, found milk in the dining car, coaxed the child to eat, and the child stopped crying. Here, the police began to interrogate Tie Jun, where he came from, what he was doing, where his household registration was located, what his relationship was with the child, what was the child's name, and so on. Only then did Tie Jun understand that they were treating him as a child trafficker. That's just an explanation. First of all, he had to admit very awkwardly that the child's name was Zhang Jizhi, and he was his son, and he said that he took the child to Nande to find the child to fuck. But the police always kept a straight face, and did not believe him in his expression when he claimed that he was the father of the child, that he was a cadre of the Propaganda Department of the Guangping Municipal Party Committee, that the child was also a public security officer, and that he was a comrade-in-arms in the trenches with you. Hearing that Zhang Tiejun had used up all the words, the police said indifferently: "That's it, didn't you say that your lover works in the Nande City Public Security Bureau, that's very convenient, stay for a while and you get off in Nande, and we will hand you over to the Nande City Public Security Bureau, won't you be able to see your lover." Tie Jun blinked for a long time and was silent. He originally thought of Nande throwing the child into Anxin's hand and giving Anxin a mouthful, and he turned his head and left. Now it's okay, those people from the Nande Public Security Bureau must know that he is back, and it is impossible to figure out that Captain Pan will come to pick him up and invite him to eat with Anxin. Is he going to eat it or not?

The police did not let him go back to his original carriage and did not let him touch the child again. He was ordered to sit in a corner of the dining car, watching the police and several female attendants of the dining car talking and laughing. The child was fed and in a better mood, and several female flight attendants took turns holding and playing with them, grinning and opening their dimples to make them giggle. Tie Jun just watched, across several tables, watching them play with the children, watching them bite their ears and talk about themselves. He couldn't figure out how he was feeling at this time, whether he hated this child or loved this child. At a certain moment, he suddenly felt that it was his son, and he had hugged him, teased him, and kissed his good son every day since he was born. He looked at the child's cute smile, and no one was more familiar with that playful expression than he did, and he didn't believe it was not his son.

Nande has finally arrived.

It was already dark when the car arrived in southern Germany. Zhang Tiejun was taken off the train, and the police and the police from the station police station of the Nande Public Security Bureau made a brief handover on the platform. The police and the police station had obviously spoken on the phone, and the two policemen, a man and a woman, from the station police station, looked him up and down, their eyes indifferent and disgusted. The woman picked up the child from the flight attendant and left first. The man took out a handcuff from his waist, and without saying anything, he was about to come to handcuff the iron army. Tie Jun protested loudly: "What are you handcuffing me for, what crime have I committed?" What right do you have to handcuff me! Ask him if I've sinned! He wanted the police officer on the train to prove himself, but the police handed him over to the police station and turned away, stepping on the train. The train rattled and started moving. Somewhere and for what purpose, a long electric bell rang on the platform.

Suzu——!

The police at the police station didn't talk to him much, and made a quick move, twisting his hand behind his back, and handcuffing him when he was so painful that he didn't dare to struggle. Then he pushed him: "Go!" "I almost didn't push him a big heel, and it took me a few steps to stand firm. Tie Jun was full of anger and viciously threatened the police: "I sue you!" I see your siren! I have to accuse you. ”

As if he didn't care, the policeman pushed him again, turned around and greeted a staff member at the station, saying something else, as if he was going somewhere together on Sunday. He pushed Tie Jun away while making an appointment. The policewoman didn't know where to go with the baby for a long time.

The police took Tie Jun to the police station, locked him in a small dark room, and it took more than half an hour for someone to come in and take him to a room with a bed that looked like a single dormitory and asked him: Which unit do you say your lover belongs to? Public Security Bureau? There are more units in the Public Security Bureau. Anti-narcotics brigade? Do you have her phone? What's her name? He coldly said Anxin's phone number and name, and the police locked the door and went out, probably on the phone, and before leaving, whether to believe it or not, he removed the handcuffs from his hands. He stayed in this room with a bed and a desk for about an hour, when the voices of several people suddenly sounded outside the door, which had been quiet, and the voices came from far and near, and they quickly unlocked and entered the room. Before he even entered the house, he could tell it was reassuring.

Anxin came in with the police from several police stations. She also wore a police uniform today. She already held her son in her arms. Her son was so well-behaved in her arms, and he was only a few months old and could already make a birdish appearance. Anxin saw Tie Jun, and she couldn't tell whether she was surprised, happy or complaining, she said, "Tie Jun, why are you here?" Did you call me this afternoon, why did you hang up as soon as I picked you up? How did you get people here? ”

The police officers at the police station were a little embarrassed when they saw that it was true, and they apologized to Tie Jundao on the one hand, and rounded the field for themselves on the other hand: "The 375th call said that he had arrested a child abductor and trafficker, let us examine it." I didn't expect it to be your lover, it was really a big flood that washed the Dragon King Temple, and my family didn't recognize my family, I'm sorry, I'm sorry. You haven't eaten, have you? Eat here, eat here, we didn't eat either! ”

Tie Jun stood up and left, of course he wouldn't eat here! Even though he hadn't eaten since noon and was already hungry, how could he eat here! How can you sit and eat with Anxin, with this group of policemen who were still fierce and vicious just now!

Seeing that he was angry, Anxin walked out, not giving face to others, and hurriedly apologized to the police at the police station, and after thanking them, he hurriedly chased the child out. Chased to the street to catch up with Tie Jun, she said: "What are you still doing, I'm going back in two days, what are you still running for?" ”

Tie Jun didn't speak, just walked forward. Anxin chased two more steps, and asked with a smile: "Do you miss me, are you, or are you afraid that I miss my child?" You really are, too. Hey, did you call me this afternoon? ”

Tie Jun stood suddenly, he stared at Anxin, sneered viciously, and said, "You are here, how many men always call you, huh?" ”

Anxin thought that he had made a mistake again, Tiejun had always had this problem. In the past, even Captain Pan would be sour when he was kind to Anxin, saying that Old Pan cares so much about you, and he is not afraid of others talking about him. Anxin almost quarreled with him about this.

So Anxin blamed him and said, "I don't know anyone who called me here." This afternoon, our colleague said that a man was looking for me, and as soon as I answered the phone, he hung up, and I thought it was you. Is there something wrong with you, how do you say that you came, when did you feed the child? ”

Tie Jun didn't want to look at Anxin anymore, he wanted to cry when he looked at Anxin and looked at the child! He turned his face away, gasped roughly, and said, "Find a place, I'll talk to you, we should make it clear!" ”

Anxin also stood down and looked at Tie Jun's face, she couldn't see clearly when it was dark. To this day, she still thinks that Tie Jun is still angry with those policemen. It was wrong for him to be handcuffed at the police station, but she and they were both in a big unit, what could she say? You can only calm things down.

She said, "Are you still angry at the police station?" This can't be blamed entirely on people......"

How did she know that Tie Jun didn't think about the police and the police station at all, and he interrupted Anxin with a particularly cold face:

"Do you have a place at all? There's nowhere to go to your dorm! ”

After he finished speaking, he strode forward, followed him with peace of mind and asked, "Have you eaten?" Would you like to grab a bite to eat on the street first? He didn't answer. An Xin thought that he was really angry, and anyone would be angry if he had been handcuffed by the police for so long for no reason. So Anxin stopped saying a word, and walked honestly to her dormitory with the child behind Tie Jun. They also took a few bus stops in between. When waiting for the car and when taking the car, Tie Jun didn't talk to Anxin, the child was always holding Anxin, and he didn't help. An Xin only knew that he was still angry, and he didn't care, she was already very happy to see Tie Jun and the child. On the bus, she kept teasing the child, and she asked the child: Who am I? The child makes a simple sound: mom mom mom. Smile with peace of mind: Yes, I'm a mother! And he asked, "Who is he?" She pointed to the Iron Army standing to the side. The child remains: mom mom. Anxin smiled again: No, he's a father. Dad, you know what? She saw that Tie Jun's head didn't turn a moment, and he turned a deaf ear. She asked her son again, "Who are you?" The child grinned, laughed so much fun, smiled so reassuringly and loved that he couldn't do it. She said: You are Jizhi, Zhang Jizhi, it's you, remember? At this time, Tie Jun next to him turned his head sideways and looked at their mother and son with disgust. Anxin also glanced at him, thinking that he would slowly coax him when he got home.

Anxin's dormitory is not far from the train station, and it takes about ten minutes to get to the river by car. They walked into the stilted building, which had not been here for a long time, and the floor was still creaking. The door creaked and rattled. As soon as you enter the house, you can hear the gentle sound of the Nanmeng River under the opposite window, and smell the faint smell of kerosene stove in the house. This familiar sound and familiar taste made Tie Jun have mixed feelings, after all, there was a warmth that he forgot to return to.

Nothing has changed in the room, it seems that there is a small TV at twelve o'clock. Come into the house with peace of mind and put the child who has just fallen asleep on the bed and cover it. Then turn on the TV and turn down the volume. She explained that this TV originally belonged to Captain Pan's family, and Lao Pan recently bought a big one, so she gave her the small one, and she can still watch it. She said to Tie Jun, "I'll make you something to eat." Tie Jun said, "Don't do it, I don't want to eat." Anxin still put the small kerosene stove on the set, put a pot on it, and said, "Let's make some noodles, it will be good soon." There are a few eggs left. ”

A science program is playing on television, and the middle-aged female host of the show is interviewing an elderly man who looks like a scholar. Tie Jun didn't watch TV, he didn't even sit down. Although he was physically and mentally exhausted after several hours of unbearable travel, he did not sit down. He glanced at the peace of mind who was busy boiling water in a pot, and looked at the children sleeping sweetly on the bed, all of which were the same as before, outlining the happiness and warmth of a well-off home, and it didn't look any different. The sight moistened his eyes, made him nostalgic, made him reluctant to give up, and made him almost forget that it was a big scam. The cruelty of this scam is precisely because it is so beautiful and moving, so when you wake up, you have a heart-piercing pain. He wanted to speak, he wanted to say that he had decided to break off his marriage immediately. He thought all the way, thinking about how to speak more ruthlessly, so ruthless that An Xin was as painful as he was. He wanted to turn off the TV, and the chatter of a man and a woman on the TV made him nervous. He is about to announce to Anxin: their love, family, happiness, everything, all end here, completely over! He wanted the surroundings to be completely quiet at this point. He went to turn off the TV that was distracting.

At this time, he suddenly heard a familiar word, a word that popped out of the mouth of the hostess on TV, and that word pricked his tired nerves like a needle: "gene"! He was startled, and his hand to turn off the TV stopped on the way. He quieted himself and then heard the man and woman on the TV talking about "genes". They are discussing the creation of a human gene pool. At the end of the century, everyone was talking about genes, as if it was fashionable. Tie Jun is in charge of the news, and he knows that this is a very hot topic, and some people still regard the genetic issue as the most concerned scientific and technological revolution in the 21st century. But at this moment, when he was about to break with Anxin, the TV show he accidentally saw was talking about genes! This in any case gave him a sense of predestined tragedy. He thought, this is not a coincidence, this is fate! Fate arranged all the details, and he was no longer allowed to choose to try to fight, and fate came slowly with one link after another.

On the television screen, the scholar-like man was talking. He is talking about the United States, saying that the United States is going to build a gene bank to store citizens' genetic data to facilitate medical treatment and arrest criminals and other social management, but this matter has been opposed by many social groups on the grounds that the gene bank violates the privacy rights of individual citizens. The hostess made a simulation of the debate, pretending to stand on the position of the United States, listing how accurate and convenient medical diagnosis will be after the establishment of a gene bank, how accurate and fast the arrest of criminals will be, and other benefits; The gerontist mimics the opposition's view that no benefit can be achieved at the expense of the privacy of the individual citizen, that the citizen must live in a society in which he feels safe, that his physical condition, illness, personal preferences, sexual orientation, family background, and genetics are his personal secrets, and should not be held by the state or any one organization. Tie Jun listened blankly, looking at his appearance with peace of mind, and came over curiously while beating eggs in a bowl to hear what was being said on TV. She approached the TV, and through the fluorescence emitted by the TV, she found that Tie Jun's face was still cold, so she wanted to find a topic to adjust the atmosphere. So she spoke up and agreed with the scholar's point of view: If I want to say the same, the right to privacy is actually a product of social progress and a basic human right. In China, in particular, the demand for respect for individual privacy signals an awakening of civil rights. We Chinese like to inquire about other people's private affairs, whose family has some ugly things that can be spread quickly, immediately to you to the public, everyone is interested, people in an alley can do nothing else, just talk about you. How uncomfortable it is to live in such an environment.

At this time, Tie Jun tilted his head to look at her, and he seemed to have phlegm in his throat, and he made a sound that swished. This voice was something she had never heard before, and it made her feel strange and frightened.

"What's wrong with you? Why are you so afraid that others will know your privacy? Do you have any privacy to hide from me? ”

Anxin was stunned, and the hand that stirred the eggs stopped unconsciously. She looked at Tie Jun suspiciously, Tie Jun's eyes were red, staring straight at her, which was also a look she had never seen before. She asked, "Tie Jun, what's wrong with you today, how did I mess with you?" ”

Tie Jun's face began to tremble, and his voice began to tremble, trembling a little as if he was about to cry: "Let me ask you, have you hidden my ugly things, have you hidden my privacy?" ”

Tie Jun's words, this expression, Anxin understood a little, she had a faint premonition that it was her relationship with Mao Jie, and finally the East Window incident happened. But she still had a hint of luck, and forced herself to calm down and pretended to be annoyed and asked, "Tie Jun, what's wrong with you?" Say what you have to say. ”

Tie Jun's tears flowed, he didn't want to shed them, but as soon as he saw peace of mind, as soon as he walked into this stilted building that was once full of laughter and warmth, his heart was broken. He knew that the best things in his life could no longer be irreparably broken, no longer remedied! He couldn't imagine how he would live without peace of mind without children, and he couldn't imagine if he could get out of this pain.

He cried and said, "Anxin, you think I'm lying to you, huh? You think you're doing something perfect and no one can know, huh? Don't you want to think about it, I came here from Guangping so far to deceive you? I came by train so late and handcuffed your mother's gang of cops for an hour, just to scam you? Yes! ”

Anxin knew that the tide was over, and her whole body was plunged into indescribable fear. She also cried:

"Tie Jun, I love you, do you think I don't love you, do you think I betrayed you......"

Tie Jun gritted his teeth: "Yes, you are right, you betrayed me!" ”

Anxin's tears fell down in a row, "...... That, that's all in the past, I can't live with you, Tie Jun, you, can you listen to my explanation, can you give me a chance? ”

Tie Jun waved his hand, very absolutely, "I don't want to hear it!" I don't want to hear that stinky thing about you, I don't want to hear it! I don't want to get my ears dirty! The two of us, from today onwards, have nothing to do with each other! I am no longer your husband, I am no longer the father of this child, I have nothing to do with you from this day forward! ”

Anxin threw away the bowl in his hand, and the bowl containing the beaten eggs shattered on the ground with a bang! She came over to hug Tie Jun, Tie Jun said get out of the way, shook her off hard, and shook her to the ground. She got up and knelt and grabbed Tiejun.

"Tie Jun, you don't want me, why don't you even want children? The child is not mine alone. For the child's sake, forgive me, the child can't live without a father! ”

Tie Jun shook off his peace of mind again, and the word father stung him! He squeezed out his resentment, scumbags, and grievances from between his teeth, word by word: "You, you take him, do you hear, you take this child, go to his father, do you know where his father is?" Do you know! You don't know? Okay, let me tell you, the court has found him not guilty, and the Public Security Bureau has released him, I think you and he should have met. What the? You say you don't know? You wouldn't know? What are you pretending to be with me! ”

Anxin knelt on the ground and looked at Tie Jun through tears: "Are you crazy Tie Jun, the child is yours, it's yours!" Don't listen to other people's gossip, of course the child is yours! Behold, he looks exactly like you......"

Tie Jun raised his trembling hand, pointed to the twelve-hour small TV, pointed to the couple of men and women who were still debating endlessly, and said viciously: "Do you know what genes are, huh? Gene! I have proof of this child's genetic test! Didn't you just listen to what they said, genes can shake out all the privacy and scandals of people like you, didn't you hear it just now? ”

An An Zhang stared at a pair of eyes, she understood his words, and she felt like she was going crazy. She looked at Tie Jun with teary eyes, and looked at the child who was still asleep. The children were tired of crying on the road, and they were so noisy that they were not woken up. An Xin felt a sense of distraction at this time, she couldn't speak with her mouth open, and she couldn't cry. She knew what was going on, and she knew that the most terrible and undesirable thing in her life had finally happened. She and Mao Jie have done it three times, and except for the first time, the other two times have contraception. This is what Anxin said to me more than once later, a woman, don't make a single mistake, if you make it, it can ruin your life! At that time, Anxin had not yet had time to realize that his life, career, family, and everything in the future would start from this moment, fundamentally, in direction, to change the trajectory, and stagger towards a completely unknowable dangerous road! Before she could make such a cruel prediction, she had already collapsed. She collapsed on the ground, without any strength in her body, and she saw Tiejun's feet move a little, and walked to the edge of the bed, where she paused for a moment, knowing that he was taking one last look at the sleeping child. She heard him say in a crying voice, with difficulty:

"This is your child, give it back to you!"

Anxin was finally able to get up, she picked up the child from the bed, opened the door and ran outside. The moment she picked up the child, she burst into tears. It was the child who made her cry. In the chaos of her consciousness, the only living thing she could hold on to was this child!

She ran out of the door, and she didn't even know why she was running out and where she was going. She burst into tears as she stepped out of that threshold, knowing she was homeless! She also knows that she can't even go back to Qingmian's hometown, how can she have the face to meet her parents, how can she have the face to go back to the team to meet leaders and colleagues! How to have the face to meet former classmates, teachers, coaches and friends! She is the only one who has a face to face, and the only one who is completely ignorant and belongs only to her own child!