It is difficult to say exactly when a person's memory began, and the memories of childhood can only be fragmentary, or the memory of some important events, and may also have a deep memory of certain scenes, but in fact they are all vague and inaccurate memories. But some people, or states that continue to accompany a person's growth, may deepen or perpetuate a person's childhood memories, such as parents, family members, or stable and close relatives or neighbors. A stable living environment, a stable range of life, such as a store, a restaurant, or a stable business at home, has been growing up since a person was born, and it will also deepen the degree of memory. There is another situation, albeit occasionally, in a moment of life, a person or something. It may also be memorable for a person. Some people will remember someone in their childhood, maybe they can't remember what they looked like, but they will have vague memories, and some people will remember their loved ones who were lost in their childhood. It's not very exact, it's not very clear, but it's still very memorable. Everyone's memory is different, some people have almost no memory of people and events before the age of five, and some people can remember many episodes before the age of three very deeply. This difference may be related to genetics, or it may be that I am born with a super memory, and there are many phenomena beyond the imagination of ordinary people.

There are some things in my memory that I can't say for sure when I can't determine. But my mother said that some of the things I said about my childhood happened when I was about two years old, and my mother didn't believe it, but after I told me a lot of details, my mother was sure that I was telling the truth and not lying. The more vivid memory is that I was about two years old, my hand was seriously punctured by a broken glass bottle, it was when I was running fast, I suddenly fell forward, the moment I fell, I instinctively used my hand to press the ground to support the body, to prevent my face from directly touching the ground, but unfortunately my right hand in a panic just pressed a broken glass bottle, under the force of the whole body falling forward, my right hand was almost completely cut by the broken glass bottle, only a few tendons and a layer of flesh on the back of the hand, Unfortunately, the tendon of the index finger of my right hand was severed by the glass, leaving me with a lifelong disability, although I was young at that time, but the huge pain made me remember deeply, and even many scenes of that day have deep memories, and the general image of the doctor who treated me. I don't know when, I remember the doctor's name, but the doctor died when I was less than ten years old. So the doctor's name must have been known to me before I was ten years old, and it was etched in my memory. More than 30 years have passed. I still remember it. I can remember a lot of the details, including the location of the clinic at that time and the general furnishings of the clinic. These details, no one has ever told me, my mother has no memory, which is enough to prove that my memory is relatively early. Almost since then, there have been fragmentary memories almost every year, and these fragmentary memories occasionally seem to be non-existent, as distant as a previous life, but they are real and real memories. These memories are deeply engraved in the corners of the brain. From time to time, it slips out and skims through the central square of the brain. Never need to remember, because never forget.

Some of my childhood memories can still be traced to this day, like the disability of my right index finger falling. There are also childhood friends, who are also in constant contact now, and there are many memories about them, and these vague memories are easier to recall because they have carriers. There are also some memories, which are moments that pass by in life. I can only rely on vague memories to try to recall. There is a thing that I remember deeply, once I occasionally talked to my mother, my mother was very surprised, saying that there seemed to be such a thing, and my mother said that if I hadn't mentioned it, my mother would not even have any impression. That was before I was three years old. It's probably a few months different from when my hand hurts, so it's reasonable to know why I'm so sure. I remember very well the fact that my hand was injured in the summer, and I remember very well that it happened in late autumn and early winter, and it was already a little cold. It was just nightfall, dinner had been eaten, there was no electricity at that time, the lighting at night was kerosene lamps, candles were luxury, and candles would only be lit during the New Year. When I come out to pee, two or three-year-old children don't have to go to the hut, they just come out of the hall and find a place to leave the door in the yard. I was going back to the house after peeing, and there was a sound coming into my ears, and the sound came from the west wing, which was the kitchen, and I was wondering if it was someone's dog or any cat or sheep! There was a black rumbling in the kitchen, and I didn't know to be afraid at the time, so I went to the kitchen, and before I reached the door, I saw a black figure, an adult. Mom and Dad are in the hall, this dark shadow must be an outsider, I shouted in fright, my father hurried out of the hall, rushed to me and picked me up. He asked aloud who the dark shadow was. The man said it was cold outside, so he got into my kitchen to warm up, and said he was very hungry! Dad took a closer look at the man and recognized it. It's from a nearby village, and he has some mental problems, and he often asks for food in a nearby village, and no one cares about him at home. Today he actually ran to my kitchen, and his parents were kind-hearted, took something for him to eat, and told him to stay in my kitchen for the night! At that time, the cooking was a brick stove, and the straw of the crops was burned. There is a fine soft Chai Xin is very soft, and it is also very warm to sit on, even if you lie on it, it will be much warmer, much warmer than outside. Dad also brought him an old cotton coat so he could cover himself. I don't remember the events of the next day, but I remember the episode of that night very well, because that person really scared me a lot. So this incident made me remember it deeply, although I was only two or three years old at the time, and although I occasionally remembered it a little vaguely, I couldn't remember the person's appearance clearly, because I didn't see it clearly at the time, I only remember that the person was about the same height as my father. In the past two years, I occasionally chatted with my mother, and I talked about it by a ghost, and my mother was surprised to say that there was indeed such a thing, but if I hadn't talked about it, my mother would have no impression at all. In fact, many memories of childhood are characteristic, the right hand was injured and disabled, because of the great pain, and the disabled right index finger, there are deep memories, and the disabled index finger of the right hand is the carrier, and there are outsiders breaking into the kitchen at night, which surprised me with the out-of-body experience, which is also a factor that leaves a deep memory. But many people have no memory of what happened before the age of five.

One of my childhood friends left his hometown when he was eight years old and moved to Heilongjiang in the northeast with his parents, and I was the same age as him. He was a few months older than me, a few months older in his childhood, and there was a more obvious difference, he was always a little taller than me, and his strength was a little bigger than mine, and we often fought, just to play, although not really, but also to exert all my strength, almost all of them were lost, and I always had a thought at that time, that is, one day I would win against him, at least seven times out of ten. But my wish didn't come true, so he moved to Heilongjiang with his parents. I was left with great regrets, I remember that he was gone for two or three years, and I still had the idea of waiting for him to come back and then beat him, but as he left for more and more time. The thought faded away. But the memory of him has always been deep and clear, his name, his general appearance, and his voice are deeply impressed. To this day, there is no news of him, and when we meet again, it is estimated that I will not be able to recognize him at all. After all, he was only eight years old. And he went to the Northeast, and the most infectious thing in the Northeast is the Northeast accent, I think his accent must be an authentic Northeast flavor. I wonder what happened to him now? What has he experienced in the past 30 years? Nothing is known.

Children who fall in love are actually closely related to the environment in which they grow up and the situation of the family. In a neighborhood across the alley from my house, there is a daughter who is two years older than me. Her name is Xuemei. Very cute, very smart and clever. I also read very well, I didn't have much impression of her until I was nine years old, and my impression of her has been deepening since I was nine years old. Because there was electricity in my hometown that year. My family was one of the few families in the village who bought a television set at the beginning, and there were about 2,000 people in our village at that time, and there were less than 500 households. But it's about the same. On the first day I bought the 14-inch black-and-white TV from my house, almost all of my neighbors in the neighborhood were there. Men, women, and children crowded my small yard. Interest in the TV was very high, laughter and laughter were very noisy, adults talked to each other, the old people exchanged ears, and children cheered. Because it was the first time to watch TV, what exactly did I watch. Few people cared, and no one remembered. I just remember that everyone was very curious and very happy. Xuemei is of course among them. I didn't pay attention to her before, because her house is a little far away from my house, and she is two years older than me, basically there is no intersection, just a neighbor, although not particularly familiar, but definitely not strangers, although it can't be said that they meet every day, it's almost the same, going to school and leaving school, not far away, just across an alley, almost every day can meet, just go their own way. Neither of them cares about anyone. I remember very little going to her house, and she rarely came to my house until the day my family bought a TV, it seemed like the first time she came to my house, maybe she had been here before, but she just didn't remember it. But after my family had a TV, she would come to my house almost every day to watch TV for a while, and from the day I bought the TV, my family put the TV in the yard almost every day, because there were a lot of people every day, and there was no room for a few people in the house. This state of affairs lasted for several months, until it was winter, and it was really cold in the courtyard, so I had to put the TV set in the hall to play, and almost every day many of my neighbors came to watch the TV. My bench is definitely not enough, so the neighbors come to watch TV, some are brought to the bench, the children generally come over after dinner, can occupy a good position, and when the parents finish cleaning up, the children will give the bench to their parents to sit on, and then sit in their parents' arms. In spring, autumn and summer, when the TV is in the courtyard, the courtyard is large, and there are more neighbors who watch TV, and when it is cold in winter, the TV is not put in the courtyard, the space in the house is small, and it can not accommodate too many people. Those who come early have a good location, and a little later can also have a place, the villagers, crowded in my house to watch TV, there are talking and laughing, there are many people and a lot of warmth, they are happy, and they feel very happy. Xuemei doesn't like to talk much. It's basically just watching TV quietly and listening to everyone chatting, and I mention Xuemei so emphatically, not because I have anything to do with her, but because one of my partner's brothers likes her. My partner is the same age as me, and his brother's name is Guohua. He is three years older than me, that is, one year older than Xuemei. Almost every time Xuemei comes to my house to watch TV, Guohua will be next to Xuemei, and he doesn't chat with Xuemei much, just silently next to her. Xuemei watched TV seriously, Guohua also bothered her, and she was silently watching TV next to her, but many friends said in private that Guohua likes Xuemei. At that time, I didn't understand anything, and Guohua was only 12 years old and Xuemei was 11 years old. I can see it. That is, they were watching TV together at my house. As for more, I don't know anything either. Usually going to school, Guohua and his partners are together in school and after school, and I haven't heard that he has any interaction with Xuemei, Guohua is one level higher than Xuemei. There is no communication at school, basically except for watching TV together at my house, Guohua and Xuemei, there seems to be no more contact. Guohua's house and my house are in an alley, and the distance from Xuemei's house and my house to Xuemei's house is about the same. If I didn't go over deliberately, I wouldn't have too much contact, and it was only after I got a TV at home that I found out about the vague relationship between Guohua and Xuemei in the private discussions of my partners. After all, they are too young for adults to care about this. Besides, Guohua and Xuemei do not have a deeper relationship. can only say that they have a good impression of each other,

After more than a year, more and more families in the village have television sets. Several of my neighbors have bought TVs one after another, and the number of neighbors who come to my house to watch TV has dropped dramatically. There are also neighbors near Xuemei's house who have TVs, but Xuemei still often comes to my house to watch TV. Guohua is 14 years old, and Xuemei is also 13 years old. The two of them are still like that, I didn't see them have more words, every time Xuemei watched TV, she still watched quietly, and Guohua didn't have too many words, so she watched TV silently next to Xuemei. I didn't understand at the time, Xuemei's neighbor had a TV, why did she come to my house to watch TV! Later, when I grew up, I remembered these things. I thought about it myself, it may be an alley between Guohua and my house, so Xuemei came to my house to watch TV, and another reason is that although Xuemei's neighbors have TVs, Xuemei's parents will go over to watch TV, even if Guohua runs over there, there will be some scruples, so Xuemei came to my house to watch TV, and my neighbors who watch TV are a lot less, because my TV was bought early, 14-inch black-and-white TV, and later neighbors bought 18-inch black-and-white TV, There are even two families in our village who have bought 14-inch color TVs and one family that have bought 18-inch color TVs, and these three families have become the three major gathering points for watching TV in our village. The situation has changed, and my family is less crowded and much quieter. Xuemei loves to be quiet again, there used to be a lot of people and there was no way, but now there are fewer people. It is more suitable for the environment of Xuemei and Guohua. This may be the reason why Xuemei continues to come to my house to watch TV! Their mutual affection for each other is a little older with age. Some adults occasionally talk about the two of them, Guohua's surname is Li, and Xuemei's surname is Chen. Although they are a village, they are also very close to each other, but they do not have the same surname. As long as the two families don't object, they should be together logically in the future. Childhood sweethearts, two little guesses. If they are together in the future, they will definitely be a happy couple, because they are still young, and no one in the two adults has mentioned this, and they have no more interactions, and I haven't heard that they have more interactions in private, except for watching TV at my house, no one has seen them have more contact. If it is said that they are in early love. Thin gruel. One day, after dinner, Xuemei came to my house to watch TV as usual, because since I had a TV at home, it has become the norm for Xuemei to come to my house to watch TV, and I am also very familiar with her. When she came, I said hello, since the neighbors have more TVs, there are a lot fewer people watching TV in my house, and the benches at home are generally enough to sit, and the neighbors who come to my house to watch TV no longer have to bring their own benches. I put a bench in advance in the place where Xuemei often sits, and a bench was also placed next to Guohua. I greeted Xuemei, who smiled, said thank you, and sat down to watch TV. Before the TV series started, I chatted with Xuemei for a few words, and I said, "Why is Brother Guohua late today." The TV series will start in a while. Xuemei has a habit of always smiling cutely before speaking, and then saying, "I don't know!" Maybe it's late! "I was young at the time, and I didn't have a brain to speak, and I could say anything rash. I also thought about it a lot, so I asked Xuemei directly: "Sister Xuemei, are you and Brother Guohua very good!" As soon as I spoke, several partners next to me laughed, Xuemei's face turned red, and she replied in a panic: "That's there!" Whoever said it, don't talk nonsense, little ones. "A few friends next to me are about the same age as me, and some are younger than me, and they all laugh at me for being stupid, and there are a few adults next to me, and the adults don't seem to care. I also feel like I'm not asking the right question. I said again, "Sister Xuemei! Don't be angry, I'll ......" I was speechless for a moment. I don't know how to round the field. Xuemei didn't care, just said watch TV! It started right away. I also shut my mouth and stopped talking. The strange thing is that Guohua didn't come that day, and he didn't come until the end, and he finished watching the two episodes of the TV series. Everyone left one after another, and the friends almost left, Xuemei couldn't see any emotional fluctuations, and didn't seem to care at all about the fact that Guohua didn't come today. Xuemei stayed for a while, and then got up to leave. I said again: "Why didn't Brother Guohua come today!" Xuemei said: "Whatever he is! If you don't come, you don't come! Maybe there is something going on at home, or go to another house to watch TV! Whether he comes or not, it doesn't matter to me," Xue Mei's face didn't change any expression when she said this. As she spoke, Xuemei walked out.

The next day, after dinner, Xuemei was about the same time as yesterday, and she came as usual, so I still put the bench in the old position in advance. Xuemei came and sat down to watch TV as usual. Because I spoke recklessly last night, I didn't say hello to Xuemei today, and Xuemei didn't speak. After a while, Guohua still did not come, just like yesterday. No one else seemed to care, but I muttered to myself. After a while, the TV series started, but Guohua still didn't come, and I was inexplicably like a needle carpet, and I couldn't sit still. I looked at Xuemei! She was as calm as she was yesterday. I don't seem to care about the fact that Guohua didn't come at all. This has nothing to do with me, what's wrong with me. Isn't this that the emperor is not in a hurry, and the eunuchs are in a hurry? But I just couldn't sit still. I can't watch the TV series either. I thought to myself, I'll go to Guohua's house and have a look. Look at Guohua if he is not at home. This thought is really inexplicable. But very strongly. Guohua's house is not far from my house, and I walked there in two or three minutes, and when I thought of this, I got up and walked out. After coming out, I looked back at Xuemei, she was watching TV very calmly. Nothing else has changed, no one pays attention to me. I turned around and came out of the house, and went to Guohua's house to leave, I thought as I walked, I went to see if Guohua was at home, I didn't say anything, and there would be no embarrassment. After about two or three minutes, I soon arrived at the door of Guohua's house, and as soon as I entered the door, I shouted: "Brother Guohua, is Brother Guohua at home?" I didn't hear Guohua's voice, Guohua's mother spoke: In his room in the West Wing! Play with him! I replied: yes! Auntie, I'm looking for Brother Guohua to play! Guohua's mother said, "Go ahead!" I saw that the lights were on in the west wing. I went in, and Guohua sat on the edge of the bed reading a book! When I entered the house, Guohua did not speak. Or look down at the book. I saw that he didn't speak, so I had to speak: "Brother Guohua! Why haven't you come to my house to watch TV in the past two days! Guohua listened to me ask him, he put down the book, looked up at me, and said, "These two days have you been studying at home!" I didn't go. "I am the same age as Guohua's younger brother, and I am also a good partner, Guohua's younger brother is called: Guoli. I'm watching TV at my house right now. I often come to Guohua's house to play, and I am also very familiar with Guohua. I didn't know why, but I said something brainless. Xuemei and Guohua have nothing to do with me, and no one has ever cared about it. I figured out that it was wonderfully uplifted. I can't hold back what I have to say, and I can't hold back what I have to say. I sat down next to Guohua and asked straight to the point: "Brother Guohua!" Aren't you and Sister Xuemei very good! I was stunned after asking this sentence, but the words were out and I couldn't take them back. Love it! I looked at Guohua, who was stunned at first, and then smiled. But Guohua did not avoid the topic, and directly confessed: "Yes! I like Xuemei very much, and our neighbors should know about it! Why did you think of asking me this! Guohua asked me rhetorically, and I then asked, "Then will you always like Xuemei in the future?" "Yes, but liking doesn't mean that we can be together in the future, there are many things, not for me to have the final say. I haven't been to your house to watch TV for the past two days because my parents talked to me about it. "I was surprised, I didn't expect Guohua's parents to talk to Guohua about this. Could it be that Guohua's parents feel that Guohua and Xuemei are in love, but because they are young and belong to early love, they talk to Guohua about this issue, is it to prevent Guohua and Xuemei from contacting in the future? My heart is full of questions. I couldn't help but ask, "Brother Guohua!" What did your parents say? Do you object to your continued contact with Sister Xuemei? Or are you two young, and if you talk about it in two years, are you afraid of delaying your studies? Guohua said: "It's not that simple." I was even more puzzled and asked, "How do you say that?" Guohua said: "We are all young, and we can't think about many things. Now that I am young, falling in love must be early love, the school does not allow it, and my family will be worried, and at my age, I am not old enough to fall in love. I love Xuemei. But I just like it, and I don't know what will happen in the future? My parents were right! What age, you have to do what you should do at an age, my current age, is to study wholeheartedly, there should be no other distractions, otherwise learning will be affected, and there may be other jokes. My parents said that I should devote all my mind to studying now. When I get into a good university in the future, I will have the ability to survive. I have the ability to take responsibility. I am qualified to fall in love, and I will be much more mature when I think about things. I was able to take responsibility for my own cause. I don't want to disappoint myself and others, although I don't fully understand what my parents say, but I have to listen to my parents, otherwise everything will get bad. I don't know what kind of trouble I can get into. I like Xuemei in my heart and I won't change, but I won't have too much contact with her in the future, if she also likes me in her heart, and she won't change her mind, then when we both are mature, we will talk about my relationship with her in the future. I've been liking Xuemei for two or three years, I've loved Xuemei since I was 11 years old, and I'm 14 years old this year. Although it was not a short time, we never said much. It's just that I like it silently in my heart, and I'm very happy when I'm with her, I at least feel that Xuemei doesn't hate me, as for whether she likes me or not, I'm not sure. Reducing contact, or cutting it off, now I don't think it will have much of an impact on either of us! I didn't have to explain anything to her, and I couldn't promise her anything. Because there is nothing to explain, and there is no qualification to promise her anything. Because what will my tomorrow bring? I can't even imagine it myself. If there is a fate, I will continue it later. If she has other ideas, I have no right to interfere, no matter what way she goes in the future? I can only silently bless. This is what I think now, if you don't ask me today, I'm still holding my heart, and I'm worried that I have nowhere to tell! Although you are two years younger than me, I feel that you are quite sensible, and I told you today. Don't tell anyone about it. Although this is not a secret, I am afraid that it will be passed on and around when I say it. It's not good for Xuemei, so far, Xuemei and I have nothing, and I have never said to Xuemei that I like her, my affair with her, this is the end, the future will be left to time to witness! "Guohua's words, I don't seem to understand it. It probably means that Guohua will no longer be as close to Xuemei as before in the future. Although this has nothing to do with me, I don't know what happened to them. Since Guohua said so, and what he said seems to be very reasonable, I have no right to interfere in this matter, although I don't understand it, but I can only say: "That's it! Then you won't go to my house to watch TV in the future, and you won't have any contact with Xuemei anymore. That's it! Since I have a TV at home, the two of you come to my house to watch TV almost every day, and every time you are next to each other, many friends say that you two will be two people when you grow up, and even many adults say that you two are a good match. You haven't been to my house to watch TV in the past two days, and I'm still wondering! Today I came here to see what your situation is, and I heard you say this. I'm not going to think about it anymore. Like you said, when we grow up, a lot of things may be understood. Okay, then I'll go back to watching TV. You learn! Brother Guohua! I'm leaving! After saying that, I stood up and walked out, Guohua sat still and didn't move, but said a word: "Okay!" Let's go back! Remember what I told you today, don't talk nonsense! "Don't worry! I promise I won't say it to a third person! After speaking, I also came out of the West Wing, Guohua's parents were in the hall, and they didn't speak, and I didn't speak, and went straight out of Guohua's house.

When I got home, everyone was watching TV in the house, and nothing changed. I didn't have much time to come out. It didn't take more than half an hour to go back and forth. An episode of the TV series has not yet been played. I returned to my position, the bench was empty and empty, I glanced at Xuemei, she was still watching TV very quietly, nothing happened. I don't think she'll know what I'm doing out there. It is even more impossible for her to know about the changes on Guohua's side. I wonder what will happen to her in the future? I can't it anyway. I'm not going to think about it anymore. I sat down and continued watching TV.

Since that day, Guohua has never come to my house to watch TV, Xuemei still comes as usual, and I can't see any emotional changes in Xuemei, she still has a cute smile as usual, and she still laughs as naturally and innocently, and gradually no one talks about Xuemei and Guohua. It's as if the matter of Xuemei and Guohua has never happened. The matter of two children, no one will talk about it. After a long time, this matter seems to have passed completely. As for whether Xuemei and Guohua have talked about it in private, no one knows. After a few months, it was almost the end of the year, and Xuemei's family also bought a 14-inch black-and-white TV, and Xuemei never came to my house again.

Here, I would like to insert a current insight: After many years, I understood one word: early love. There are also some plots in the TV series that describe early love, and the so-called love between men and women is entangled in their teens, but in fact, it is not called love, because at such an age, they don't understand what love is. Love should be a lifelong feeling, not an impulse for a while. The impulse for a while can only be regarded as opposite-sex attraction similar to animal instinct, and the root comes from the most primitive desire, the affection between men and women born of instinctive desire. This kind of love between men and women born by desire, if it is not well evolved, will be exhausted in a short time, and the power of that impulse will disappear after venting again and again. And this period is the test of both parties' true attitude towards the relationship, if both parties after the primitive impulse, work together to safely transform this initial collision of hearts into a sustainable emotional foundation, and then manage this relationship with heart, it can be regarded as the real beginning of love. And there are not many such feelings that can last a lifetime. So the tragedy of love is far greater than the happiness. There are also great differences in the degree of tragedy of early love, some children of early love can still recover slowly under the rescue of a variety of factors, and will not leave obvious sequelae, and some seem to recover, but leave an indelible wound in the depths of the soul, and some more serious even because of the failure of early love and irreparable life costs. A large part of this serious consequence caused by early love can be avoided, and the main force that can avoid the tragedy is the family of the young lover. At this time, the family is basically the most trustworthy person for the victim of early love. If the family is enlightened correctly, it can save the lost soul that has been poisoned by early love. Avoid an irreversible end. In fact, a harmonious and intimate family will not wait until the child is in early love to save it, but will prevent it in advance. Before the child has early love, the child should be correctly guided in this regard to avoid the child's early love tendency. Ensuring a safe environment for children to grow up not only prevents children from being harmed, but also prevents families from being harmed, and also contributes to social stability. But many families are unable to have more time and energy for various reasons, which is also the main factor that the tragedy of early love has always accompanied human beings. Puppy love is also the root of most love tragedies, an important theme of love stories, but it is also an inescapable and most difficult permanent subject in the process of human evolution.

Everyone in the early years is in a state of knowing the world, understanding things, learning the most basic life experience and cultural knowledge, some children in this period are happy and happy, some are difficult and confused, and some children are in miserable suffering in their early years. Although my childhood was not happy and happy, it was not hard, let alone miserable, but there was still confusion. For example, my little friend who was separated when he was eight years old, why did his family move to a distant place? Although I understood it when I grew up, I really didn't know why at that time, and there was something about Xuemei and Guohua. Until now, I don't understand what happened to the two of them at that time. Similar to this kind of doubt, these two things are really a drop in the bucket. The living conditions of my childhood are very different from those of today's children, which is also the difference in the development of the times. When I was a child, there was no electricity, and it was not until I was 9 years old that there was electricity in my hometown. Adults manually lined up trucks to pull power poles from miles away to the village. Several people pull a ground row car, a ground row car can pull two large telephone poles, three small telephone poles, and some pull four. The big telephone pole is on the street. A large telephone pole in an alley, and a smaller pole in an alley. At that time, the large telephone pole used in our village was 10 meters high, about 1.5 meters buried underground, and about 8.5 meters above ground. The small pole is seven meters, one meter buried underground, and six meters above ground. Although the adults were very tired from pulling back the telephone poles from several miles away, they were all smiling. Because it was a great event that had never been done in the village before, women and children joined in the fun, and everyone who could help participated, and the whole village was filled with a joyful atmosphere. From transporting electric poles to the village, erecting electric poles, erecting three-phase electric high-voltage lines on the street, and then to two-phase electric low-voltage lines in the alleys. Then go into the house to install the meter and wiring, before and after about two or three months. The first alley in the east of the village was the first to be electrified, and on the first day of electrification, the entire alley line was completely installed, and it was already dark. That day, the villagers in the alley had already bought the light bulbs 💡 in advance, there were 15 watts, 25 watts, 40 watts, 60 watts, and even some villagers bought 200 watts, installed in the courtyard, and called them in the words of the villagers: door lamp. Because it is installed above the main entrance of the hall, it is called a door lamp. The function of the door light is to illuminate the yard. At night, there will be any activities in the courtyard will be very bright, and the wiring of each household and the electricity meter, electric switch, light switch, and light bulb at home will all be installed. The main switch in this alley is on a large telephone pole on the street, and the village electrician confirmed that every household has installed it. Then firecrackers were set off, and the village cadres also made an impassioned congratulatory message. Almost all the people of the village gathered in the first alley at the east end of the village. Just waiting to witness this historic moment, our village will no longer be blind in the dark, and bid farewell to the era of kerosene lamps. The night in the village will enter an era of unprecedented brightness. Men, women and children were excited. The people in the first alley were even more excited, turned on all the lights in the house, and waited for the electrician to push the switch, and every household in the entire alley lit up the night sky at the same time, illuminating the entire house room and courtyard. The children are even more excited like the New Year. Finally, under the order of the village chief, the electrician also excitedly pushed the main electric gate of the alley. The entire alley was lit up in an instant. Men, women and children were all smiling and laughing, and the children ran into this house in groups of three and five to look at it for a while, and then ran out to another house to see. The light bulb is so bright that you don't dare to look at it. Everything in the room can be seen so really, so clearly. The children in this alley shook their heads excitedly. There are also children of the installation family full of envy, but also look forward to their own home can be lit up a moment earlier, the old people have happy tears, saying that the old people in the previous generations have not been able to see the night in the village so bright, ancestors can only rely on the weak light of kerosene lamps at night, the older one at night, the eyes are like blind, can not see anything, now well, there is an electric light. Don't be afraid of getting dark. The electric light illuminates the room as if it were daylight. Everything can be seen as if it were in the daytime. The old people are happy, and the adults are also laughing. The children cheered even more. Run around, look at the lights in this house, and run to another to see the lights in that one. Some children even took out their books and said, "Look, how clearly the words are in the book!" I don't have to lie on the kerosene lamp to do my homework anymore. The smiling faces of the children are so bright and innocent. Because they still don't understand the hardships and ups and downs of life. So the children are completely immersed in the sea of joy. Without a trace of distractions, pure joy. This is the envy of adults. Perhaps everyone will miss the sheer joy of childhood.

After a while, electric lights were installed in every household in the village. A new era has arrived. This will completely change some of the living habits of the villagers. Because the village ushered in the era of television. From the day the village had its first television set, the entertainment life of the people in the village was revolutionized. In the era when there was no electricity, in the evening, after the adults finished dinner, several neighbors from the neighborhood gathered in a spacious place in the alley to chat, or gathered in that house to chat, and chatted happily. Some ran to the street, and many people gathered together, Kan Dashan in the north and south of the mountain. Adults gather in groups, and children are divided into groups according to their age. Gather a group of people of about the same age, or Kan Dashan, or play games. Now that I think about it. It was an age of innocence, but it could never go back. It's not just the Kan Dashan and the games that my friends have a deep memory of. There is also a phenomenon that is deeply memorable and disappears forever. At that time, the old people, at night, also gathered in groups of three or five. The old people are not as energetic as the adults, and they can't jump and jump like the children, the old people have a fixed place, no one dares to seize the old people's territory, not the child's grandfather, or the child's grandfather, so the children, will not grab the land with the grandfathers, these old people will find a firewood (that is, the soft crop straw used for the fire,) stacks, pull some firewood from the firewood stack next to the firewood stack and lay a small nest that can sit on it soft and soft, Each old man has his own nest, some are crowded together, some are separated by a little space, and the nest is spread wider, so that the legs can be stretched, and the bottom of the legs is also soft firewood. Very comfortable to sit on. A few old people get together, and the younger adults are different, the old people get together, some will talk about the past, some don't speak, a few old people just get together and are not lonely, some old people even close their eyes, sit there motionless, don't speak, just sit quietly, I don't know what these old people are thinking. Why get together and don't chat, as the night gets late, the old people will get up and go back to their homes to rest, sometimes there are one or two old people left, and sometimes there is even one old man left, I don't know whether I am asleep or not, and I don't know when I will return home. In the winter, when it was cold, the old people would gather in the hay warehouse in the livestock house of the production team, and I would sometimes go in to have a look, and my grandfather would often come and stay. In winter, after dinner in the evening, the grandfathers are wearing particularly thick cotton jackets and big cotton pants, and come to the forage warehouse one after another, a group of old men gather in the forage warehouse so quietly, leaning on the soft hay stack, and sit on the thick forage mat, occasionally the old man jumps out a sentence, sometimes you have a sentence for a long time, he doesn't understand what he means, most of the time is in a state of silence, if you don't go in to take a closer look, I don't know that there will be a group of old men in the forage storehouse. If these old men don't speak, they sit there motionless like clay sculptures. Quite scary. Some people say that these old men are almost half yin and half yang. It's just waiting for death, and that sounds really chilling. Especially at night, I listen to those naughty people, yin and yang, and say, "Half of the old men in that house are in the yang world, and half have gone to the underworld." It's really scalp tingling. Sweat and cold pores. In fact, this is certainly not the case, these old people have worked hard all their lives, and they have experienced the ups and downs and hardships of the world. It seems that the words that should be said have been exhausted, and there is no topic to talk about, because everyone has no interest in chatting, and gathering together is to be each other's company, which is much better than staying at home alone, and I can't sleep after dinner, so I come and get together, even if I don't speak, it is also a kind of warmth, and we are all old friends who have been together for a lifetime. Staying together silently is also a kind of wordless happiness. While you can still move, come out of the house, get together and spend more time with the old guys, maybe that day, that one day, the other will die. At that time, the old people were very simple-minded, without too much desire for profit, without too much flaunting of wealth, and did not fight whose son had the ability, and whose grandson did not study well. There is no need to do housework for their children and take care of their grandchildren like today's old people. It is not as rich as the entertainment life of today's elderly people. They silently accompanied each other like that, quietly spending the few remaining time in their lives. Not to mention the number of seconds, it's almost the day before the day. This phenomenon, with the village on the electricity, gradually with the night on the dark era disappeared forever, the original production team of the livestock house of the forage warehouse of the old people, one after another have left this world, when the village is electrified, the production team was disbanded as early as five or six years ago, the livestock house is still there, although the livestock are distributed to each family, a few families still put the livestock assigned to their own family still in the livestock house to raise, but no one feeds the livestock uniformly, each family has people to the livestock house to feed their own livestock, The hay in the hay vault has also been divided into piles, and it is no longer a big pile. In the year the electricity was installed, there were no more animals in the livestock house. But there are still piles of hay in the hay store. After the village had electricity, especially a television set, few elderly people went to stay in the hay storehouse. It turned out that the old people who often went to the forage warehouse passed away one after another. The days of forage banks are gone. But the vague scene of the old people gathering in the forage warehouse occasionally appears in my mind, and I always feel that the companionship in the dark is so peaceful, so innocent, a group of poor farmers who have lived together all their lives, after they get old, they still stay together silently. That innocent and simple era is forever history.

Many phenomena in childhood have disappeared unconsciously. The times are changing unconsciously, and some phenomena are indeed progressing! But there are also some precious things that have disappeared forever in the changes of the times. One of the most precious is humanity. In today's materialistic world, many people have lost the simplicity and kindness of the past era, and many people have been blackened by interests and lost their humanity. There is a serious erosion of trust between people. Not to mention adults, even children of a few years old have been polluted and have lost their innocent nature. This is directly related to the teaching of parents to their children, adults compare with each other, but also profoundly affect the children's comparison, two or three years old children know the comparison. I have more toys than anyone, I have what you have, and I have what you don't have, so I will get more happiness and happiness. As long as some children have new toys, other children will basically spread them soon. The child's interest in toys is really three minutes of heat. A new toy, sometimes not much to play, will be replaced by a new toy, many families with children, toys at home is a landscape, which is also a factor in the cost pressure of raising children today. Today's children are under the influence of adults, from toys to eating, drinking, and playing, and clothing, food, clothing, and clothing. Today's gap between the rich and the poor has been greatly widened, and it was the happiness of the people that the living conditions were better, but the living conditions are getting better and better, and the pressure on the people is getting bigger and bigger, and what to eat is not delicious. Desire is gone. Today, you spend more in one day than you did in a few months thirty years ago. The cost of living is increasing exponentially. The biggest key is that people's desire for materials has become boundless, and an ordinary person will not be satisfied even if 100 million yuan falls from the sky. Thirty years ago, it was an unattainable dream for a family to have 10,000 yuan. Thirty years ago, many families could still have some savings at the end of the year, although the small amount was pitiful, but it was also a surplus! Today, not to mention surpluses, there are almost very few households that do not owe debts, which is even less than the 10,000 households 30 years ago, and the 10,000 households at that time can be said to have few households in a village. Nowadays, it is almost impossible to find a village that does not owe foreign debts. The current living conditions have reached heights that have not been imagined for 30 years, but the happiness of the common people is even lower. Thirty years ago, a year's hard work to get a harvest of joy, is full of happiness. Nowadays, there is hardly any joy that can make ordinary people feel that full of happiness. There is little left of the original pure trust and solidarity between neighbors. There will never be any more unreserved chatting like thirty years ago, and the pressure of life and the atmosphere of comparing with each other have completely shattered the simplicity of that era with the momentum of destroying and decaying. Everyone has their own heart, and the fine tradition of neighbors helping each other is more difficult to find today than any treasure. Especially in the city, the neighbors have been around for many years, and they don't even know each other's last names. They are in their own camps, and they basically have no communication with each other. Where does this kind of neighborhood and security come from? There is no way to talk about happiness. History does not go backwards, but good traditions can be brought back. Unfortunately, there is no sign of recovering the good traditions, and people are still struggling with the cross-current of material desires, and the living conditions that should be full of happiness cannot be found. The desire for material things can be said to be endless. If people don't wake up for a day, happiness has always been an unattainable luxury. I just bought a car for 200,000 yuan today, and when I turn my head and see that my neighbor bought a car for 500,000 yuan, even if my psychological quality is strong and I won't be disappointed, my joy will be greatly reduced, and my pride will definitely be hit hard. And the envy of others for you will also be transferred to the neighbor who bought a car for 500,000. How can you keep your pride? That's what society is all about. There are a few people who can stay out of the way, so they don't care! Perhaps, it must be a very small probability. That's what only a person who has jumped out of the heavenly realm like a Buddha and is not in the five elements can do it. Or maybe it's the broad-mindedness and superb understanding that a saint has. Otherwise, it can only be shrouded by today's materialistic social atmosphere.

Recalling my childhood 30 years ago, the unity between the villagers was really like a family, regardless of each other, the children could eat at anyone's house, at that time the children did not have any toys, they all made toys by themselves, played with mud, played with stones, and made straw hats with branches, the younger children would not, and the older children would give the children who loved their own children, and then make another one by themselves, without stinginess. A group of children herd sheep together, play together, dig grass roots together and eat sweetly. If you don't know this kind of hairy tooth root, you can take a look at Baidu. The root of the grass tooth is also called the root of the grass, and the scientific name should be the root of the grass. I don't see anyone eating it now. But at that time, it was a favorite food for children, and it felt better than candy now. Bathe and swim together in the river at the edge of the village. Bathing and swimming are not the same. Especially today, it is very convenient to take a shower at home, but swimming, it is not so convenient, you have to go to the pool. When I was a child, I went to the river to bathe, and I went to the river to swim, and I bathed in the shallow place by the river, and I went to the middle of the river where the water was deep. Not even more than the depth of the head. Of course, you need to have good water quality (that is, swimming skills), and if you have poor water quality, you can swim in waters with a depth below your neck, even if the water quality is not very good, you will not drown. At that time, although the children would also have conflicts, they would quarrel or even fight, and after a while, they would play as usual as if nothing happened, and no one would hold grudges. A group of kids is so happy together. That kind of innocent happiness is really gone forever. It's hard to see dozens of kids playing together without any scruples. It seems that today's children don't have the same innocent happiness as the children of that time. Today's children have mixed minds at a certain age. A little child in the neighborhood, who is only more than three years old, knows that he has made a request to his parents, and he has listed a lot of them. For example, when his parents are at work, they have to find time to send him videos at least twice a day, or they don't care about him, they want to bring him something delicious to bring after work today, what to bring tomorrow, and where to take him to play on the weekend. The child's parents said that no one has taught the child this, or it may be that the child learned it from TV, only more than three years old, he knows how to learn this, and he said it one by one, and more importantly, he not only makes requests, but also remembers very clearly, what he didn't do yesterday, and he can still remember it today for his parents to make up for it. Such a young child is so thoughtful, which shows how smart today's children are. If a child is too smart, it will be difficult to satisfy him, and if the child's needs are not met, there will definitely be a little less happiness. When I was a child, I didn't know what it was to be unsatisfied, but if I could eat a piece of candy, I could be happy all day. And never said that the parents were unhappy that they didn't meet their own requirements. I never dared to ask my parents for anything, and I was happy to be able to eat and not be hungry. It's all up to you to find your own happiness. Adults are tired enough to do farm work all day long, how can you care what you want, I learned to cook for adults at the age of six or seven, although the first few times to do not be very successful, but my parents were very happy, but also gave guidance, and soon mastered the simple cooking skills of boiling porridge and making noodle soup, although stir-frying is not good, but at that time rarely stir-fried, generally eat pickles, there is hot porridge or noodle soup, there are hot mixed noodles steamed buns are very good. The whole family can be very happy. I don't know why, living conditions are getting better and better. The simple happiness is getting farther and farther away, and it was originally a little happy, but on the road to chasing happiness, it is getting farther and farther, and I can't even see the shadow of happiness. The little happiness that I already had was also lost. At that time, adults were very healthy, and they rarely said they were tired. But today's people hardly do any physical work all day long, but they are tired all day long, I don't know whether they are physically tired or mentally tired, there is no need to question things, now people's bodies seem to be not as strong as those of those days. No one square danced, no one went to the gym, and no one had that time. Nowadays, people are too lazy to do any work, but they sweat like rain in the gym, tired and half dead. It is not the same as working hard to say that the tiredness of fitness is not the same as the tiredness of doing coolies. That's definitely different, working hard is to make money, and the gym is tired, and if you don't spend money, you won't be able to get tired. Thirty years ago, people from children to adults were so simple and happy, although life was poor and hard, but they were no less happy than people now. On my first day of school, I was so happy when I received a new book, I covered my face with it and smelled the scent of it, every page of the book was so new. Follow the teacher to learn the alphabet. Learn 1+1=2. The joy of learning is really the greatest joy in life. The homework assigned by the teacher is done as a very happy thing, never as a task to complete, with the new pencil and new homework book that my parents bought, and I do my homework very seriously. I'll let my parents see it when I'm done. I hope to get praise from my parents. My parents are illiterate, and they don't even know the alphabet, so they can't help me study. Seeing my homework, there is only joyful praise, what my parents hope to see is the teacher's approval, the more checks, the happier my parents are, and the worse the numbers, my parents will not scold, just say more attentive and study seriously. Because they can't do it, they feel that it is also difficult, and the children can't learn it, and they don't blame it too much, but they just say that learning a little is a little bit, and it is much better than them. There are no too high requirements, there is not too much blame, and it is more about using the only money in the family for the children to study, and it is a great joy to learn a little. It's that simple joy. It's that easy to be happy.

When I was a child, I had a lot of relatives, because my grandfather had many brothers and sisters, my father had many brothers and sisters, and my mother had many brothers and sisters. Grandpa also has two older sisters, I call them: eldest aunt and grandmother, second aunt and grandmother. There are several children in the eldest grandfather's family, I should call it uncle, aunt, second grandfather's family, third grandfather's family, and fourth grandfather's family, either uncle or uncle, or aunt. My grandmother also has a sister, a younger sister, and a younger brother, and I call them: aunt, aunt, uncle. Dad has a brother too! Sister, younger brother and sister, I also call it: uncle, uncle, aunt. However, these uncles, uncles, and aunts are my father's own brothers and sisters, and they are one step closer than the uncles, uncles, and aunts of the eldest grandfather's family and the second grandfather's family. In fact, there is no difference, because the whole big family gets along very well, and there is no difference between far and near, there are many elders, and there are many brothers and sisters of the same generation, and the eldest brother of the same generation is more than 20 years older than me. The youngest one is about twenty years younger than me. The maximum age difference between peers is about 40 years. This is just my father's family and relatives, and the number of relatives on my uncle's side is not weak, my grandfather has three brothers, three sisters, and a younger brother, and my grandmother has many brothers and sisters, and my mother has seven brothers and sisters in this generation, and from my place I call it four aunts and two uncles. If you count my grandfather's older brothers and sisters, my brother's side should be called cousins and aunts. That's a few times more. Although there are many relatives, they almost never get together, that is, they are gathered. There are also many relatives who simply can't figure out who is who. A little further away, there are even more, my grandfather's family is a big family, and 60% of the population in my grandfather's village is from my grandfather's big family. I heard my uncle say that in my grandfather's grandfather's generation, the family was very powerful, and the head of the family was like the emperor of the soil, and dozens of villages within a radius had to listen to the orders of my grandfather's family, and every year they had to pay taxes and silver like my grandfather's family, and they also had their own ticket numbers, and they could issue silver tickets. The family also has its own armed forces. It can be said that my grandfather's family was very strong at that time. Although my family is not so strong, it also has some strength, my grandfather's two generations also accumulated some wealth through business and land, but they did not reach the level of a big landlord, which is considered a small rich peasant. So by the time my grandfather was born, the family was also prosperous, but by the time my father was born, it was already the era of New China, and the original family industry no longer existed. It's the same with my grandfather's house. In the new era, the family's influence is almost gone. Everything is subject to the new laws of the country. All the industries of the past have come to naught, and everything has to be started all over again.

Although the family's industry and power are long gone, the size of the family has greatly decreased. Because now they are all one child, at most two. So the number of people in the family has shrunk dramatically. There are also many people who have left their homeland in order to make a living, and many of them have little contact. But basically they can still be contacted, and almost none of them are completely lost. Some people who have settled in other places come back to worship their ancestors during the Chinese New Year. The fact that the ancestors were able to create such a big foundation at least proves that the wisdom of the ancestors has some level, and the excellent genes of the family still exist in the children and grandchildren of the new generation of our family. Having good genes is also a kind of wealth, which this outsider can't take away. Therefore, some people live quite well in distant foreign lands. Some have also struggled and owned some industries. Some even reach the level of district chiefs. I heard the elders mention it, it seems to be the head of a high-tech development zone. It is equivalent to the level of the county magistrate, and in the feudal period, it was the seven-grade county order. But there was a huge difference between the Qipin County Order at that time and today's district mayor. At that time, the county order could be said to cover the sky with one hand. The sky is high and the emperor is far away, and that power can be said to hold the power of life and death in a county. And today the head of the first district. It is a public servant who serves the people. Although some public servants of the people abuse their power and abuse their power for personal gain, it is a different matter. In fact, the officials are the same as the common people. Some of them did their best and died. Some of them are corrupt and pervert the law, and they have betrayed the trust of people's names. There are also some who are not corrupt, but they do not act, they do not seek their positions in their positions, they are careful to eat for themselves, survive until retirement, and then enjoy their old age in peace, not only betraying the trust of the people, but also sorry for the important tasks entrusted by the state. Enjoy the welfare benefits given by the state in vain. This kind of foolish official is equally hateful. Fortunately, when the elders mentioned this clansman, he was still a clean official. Although he is the head of a district. But it has always been iron-faced and selfless. Never do anything for personal gain. The clansmen over there are also very competitive, no one is looking for him to go through the back door, and the clansmen over there are all through their own efforts, and their lives are also very good, but the road is far away, and my seniority is also low, it is said that the clansmen over there went there before the liberation at the earliest, and then part of it passed around 1960. I hadn't been born yet, so I didn't know anyone over there, and the closest to my family was my grandfather's cousin, but he had long since passed away, and his descendants came back every year for the New Year when I was a child, and the last time I came back was when I was eight or nine years old. After that, he didn't come back, because many of the elders here passed away one after another. It's not going to come over there. Sometimes the clansmen here go over there, and I can't get anything to do with me, and I can't even figure out the seniority estimation when I go, so the clansmen over there are a legend to me. In the past two or three years, due to the development of communication technology, they have been connected again, and a family WeChat group has been established. The distant clansmen were drawn closer. Open the video and you can chat face-to-face. After the introduction of some elders, the generations can be ranked very accurately. Who is the person of the who's house. Speaking of which, the ancestors of the previous four or five generations are all brothers, from a big family. Family affection has been rekindled, and there is still a blood relationship in the bones. This blood relationship is really infinitely powerful. Although we have never met, as long as we are connected and trust each other, there is no need to say much. And some of the clansmen over there proposed to choose a time, back to their hometown to worship their ancestors, the clansmen in the group discussed one after another, each expressing their opinions, some said that it was set at the time of the New Year, so lively, and some said that the New Year was not suitable, because there were many things in each family during the New Year, after many days of discussion, finally the elders set the date: Qingming Festival, which is also the festival of the Chinese people to worship their ancestors and sweep the tombs. The clansmen in the family group are now also scattered in more places. However, developed communication, even if you are far abroad, you can chat face-to-face through video, and family affection is connected through the network. The clansmen abroad knew about returning to their hometown to worship their ancestors during the Qingming Festival, and they all responded in parts. Said he would definitely come back. Attend a great gathering to worship ancestors. The clansmen, who have been separated for decades, have ignited family affection because of blood kinship, and the clansmen unanimously voiced: family affection cannot be lost. It must be passed down from generation to generation. This is also the fine tradition of the Chinese people not forgetting their roots.

Let's go back to my childhood, I was a fool and bold when I was a child. I don't know I'm afraid. My house is about six kilometers away from my grandmother's house. Today it doesn't seem to be far, not to mention driving, even riding an electric car, it is also a matter of ten minutes. When I was a child, bicycles were a rare means of transportation, and they basically relied on their legs. When I was six or seven years old, I walked alone to my grandmother's house, passing through several villages and a cemetery, and adults didn't take as much care of their children as parents and grandparents do today, and they didn't have the time and energy. At that time, it was difficult to see cars on the road, and not a single car could be seen for several days. Adults don't worry so much, I walked to my grandmother's house for about two years, and then I got a bicycle at home, and after I learned to ride a bicycle, I started cycling, and after riding to my grandmother's house, there was basically no story on the road. Because it's faster to ride. And walking is slower, and the so-called long nights have more dreams. Walking slowly and for a long time, there is a conditional basis for the story to occur. I remember once walking to see my home, and when I passed by the cemetery, something happened that made me feel a cool breeze on my neck when I think about it, and I remember that it was a late autumn day. Some wind. It's not cold yet, just a little cool. My parents were still busy with the farm work for the autumn harvest and didn't have time to pay attention to me. The main reason why I love to go to my grandmother's house is that when I get to my grandmother's house, my grandmother will give me some delicious food, which is a strong motivation for me to go to my grandmother's house. Before I learned to ride a bicycle, I can't remember how many times I walked to my grandmother's house. But this time I remember it well. As usual, I followed the route and set off. After passing through three villages, we arrived at the cemetery. It was about 10 a.m. I was never scared. Without fear to walk into the area of the cemetery, for it was late autumn, and not many leaves had fallen, so I hurried casually, and after passing a few graves, I entered the hinterland of the cemetery, which was in the middle of a forest, and the path through the cemetery passed by the edge of the woods. The leaves on the tree have fallen and there are not a few leaves left, and it is daytime, and I can see the depths of the woods at a glance in the woods, and I also looked into the woods intentionally or unintentionally, and it is this glance that I will never forget, I saw a person hanging on a tree, and it seems that he has been dead for a long time. Because the man's body is straight. If he didn't die, he should have struggled desperately. The pores of my whole body opened open in fright, and my whole body felt like I had been electrocuted, from the tips of my hair to the toes. My brain was blank, I woke up after about two or three seconds, I ran with my legs, I could only run, because I was a six or seven-year-old child, I couldn't do anything, I just ran, I didn't cry, I didn't shout, after the cemetery more than a mile is my grandmother's village, I ran into the village in one breath before stopping, because I really can't run, because I entered the village, there are people, I am not very afraid, I sat on the edge of the village street, panting, after a long time, I came back to my senses, and my heartbeat slowly stabilized. I want to hurry to my grandmother's house, to see my relatives in order to completely alleviate the huge fear, thinking of this, I got up and continued to walk, grandma's house is in the east of the village, I am also in a hurry to grandma's house, not long to enter grandma's house, grandma is sitting in the courtyard and chatting with a few old ladies, I entered the gate to see grandma I can no longer jump, crying loudly. Grandma hurriedly got up and ran to me, and several old ladies also hurriedly got up, and grandma hugged me in her arms: "Where did this come from!" You're alone! Didn't your parents come? So far away, why are you a child running here again! How dangerous! "Because it's not the first time I've ever been. So grandma didn't feel too surprised, but she didn't say that she cried as soon as she entered the door before. I cried as soon as I walked in today. Grandma thought to herself that there was a reason for me, or I would have cried so badly as soon as I entered the door. Grandma coaxed me and asked, "What's the matter, tell grandma quickly, grandma will give you anger." I don't cry anymore after I cry, I don't like to cry much since I was a child, although I don't cry anymore, but because of the fear, I still sob. While sobbing, he said, "Grandma! I saw the dead. Just when I passed by the cemetery, I saw a dead man hanging on the tree,...... "That cemetery is not anyone's ancestral grave, and the graves are all lonely souls and wild ghosts who can't enter the ancestral grave, and people in dozens of villages within a radius know it." Grandma was also shocked when she heard me say this. I couldn't figure out whether what I said was true or not, so while coaxing me, I said to the old ladies: "Sister, this kid is scared to see something unclean." I had to summon him (a way of comforting frightened children at the time). A few of you sisters, go find the male laborers in the village (referring to the young and middle-aged men) and let a few male laborers go to the cemetery to have a look. The old ladies left in a hurry. Grandma pulled me into the house, took off my clothes, and then put a big broom sweeping the yard into the kitchen, put the big broom facing the shrine of the Lord of the Stove at a 55-degree angle, the position of the broom on the wall was on the top of the statue of the Lord of the Stove, tilted down, the broom put the position on the ground with a bench to prevent the broom from slipping, and then put my clothes on the big broom, the next thing is to burn incense, kowtow, grandma still has words in her mouth, and I didn't hear what I read at the time, so I can't remember it, the approximate meaning: If it is a local god, for the sake of burning incense and offering on the fifteenth day of the new year, dissipate the anger, and will burn more incense in the future, worship the gods, if it is a passing god, please raise your noble hand, forgive the recklessness of the child, and will teach and control it well in the future, we are all good people, we have never done anything bad, I hope the gods bless, let the child get better quickly, here is to burn incense and kowtow to you and so on. After worshipping the gods, I got half a bowl of water and a few chopsticks, I can't remember the exact number, about five. Then he took the chopsticks and lifted and dropped them in the bowl, and his mouth was also chanting words, and this time he heard it clearly, probably saying: It's the god, ask the god to give an instruction, is it a local nerve? If so, let the chopsticks stand upright. Then after holding the chopsticks a few times, the erected chopsticks are gently erected in the bowl, and then gently let go of the hand to see if the chopsticks are erect and do not fall, if it is not poured, it is the local deity, if it is poured, continue to repeat the action, and continue to chant the words in the mouth: is it a passing god? If so, let the chopsticks not fall over. This time, a few chopsticks were really erected, for more than ten seconds, and grandma continued to chant the words: It's a passing god! The child is ignorant and collides with the gods, so I will prepare a tribute, pay tribute to the gods, and ask the gods for forgiveness. Then grandma put away the dishes and chopsticks, burn the croquettes, fried dough bubbles (similar to fritters, to the shape and fritters are very different, fritters are long strip type, this dough bubble is similar to gourd type, the lower half is fried in hot oil, the upper half will rise due to the internal heat rises, after frying, soaked in oil The lower half is slightly harder, and the upper half is soft, the inside is similar to the inside of the fritters due to the expansion of the hot air, it is fluffy, and the taste is similar to the fritters, but it is more textured and fragrant than the fritters. When I was a child, I felt that it was better than churros). When it is done, the tribute is placed, the incense is burned, and the words are recited in the mouth. It's probably the same set of words that ask the gods for forgiveness. (To be continued)